Trouble - Brittanee Nicole
Trouble - Brittanee Nicole
Trouble - Brittanee Nicole
BRITTANÉ E NICOLE
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the
author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead,
events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Trouble © 2024 by Brittanée Nicole
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First Edition October 2024
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Contents
Foreword
Content Warning
Track 1
1. Melina
2. Declan
3. Melina
4. Cade
Track 2
5. Declan
6. Melina
7. Declan
Track 3
8. Cade
9. Melina
10. Cade
11. Melina
12. Declan
Track 4
13. Melina
Track 5
14. Declan
15. Melina
16. Cade
Track 6
17. Declan
18. Melina
19. Declan
20. Melina
21. Cade
Track 7
22. Melina
23. Declan
24. Cade
25. Melina
26. Declan
27. Cade
Track 8
28. Melina
29. Cade
30. Declan
Track 9
31. Melina
32. Cade
Track 10
33. Declan
34. Cade
35. Melina
Track 11
36. Declan
37. Melina
38. Declan
Track 12
39. Melina
Track 13
40. Cade
41. Melina
42. Cade
Track 14
43. Declan
44. Melina
Track 15
45. Cade
Track 16
46. Melina
Track 17
47. Cade
Track 18
48. Melina
49. Cade
Track 19
50. Declan
51. Cade
52. Melina
Acknowledgments
Also by Brittanée Nicole
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Dedication
Anonymous
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Foreword
Dear Reader,
With each book I write, the world I build becomes more connected and
complex. While Trouble can absolutely be read as a standalone, you will see
some character overlap and since I know many of you enjoy the easter eggs
I hide and prefer to read in order, here is a suggested reading order as it
comes to this world:
And since this book contains not two but three love interests, you will
find the firefighters that Declan works with in A Very Merry Margarita Mix
Up and can meet more of the characters from Bristol in the Bristol Bay
Series.
I hope you enjoy this world as much as I enjoy writing it.
XO,
Brittanée
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Track 1
LOSE YOU TO LOVE ME
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CHAPTER 1
Melina
Worst Human Alive: You really can’t do anything right, can you?
The first track was due to the label last week. Now you’ve up
and disappeared for the holidays? What the hell are you
thinking?
Worst Human Alive: You can’t really believe you can hide from
me.
Worst Human Alive: You’re breaking your mother’s heart. It’s
CHRISTMAS.
Worst Human Alive: Please, baby. I’m sorry. I promise things
will be different. But you need to tell me where you are. Come
home. We can fix this.
A scoff full of rage bursts from me. The heat in my lungs makes me
want to roar at the insanity of this situation.
He is my agent. He’s also the person I loved for nearly a decade. My
brother’s best friend. The man my mother considers a second son. And my
abuser.
God, why did it take me so long to figure out who he really was?
The tougher question is: If he hadn’t done what he did the last time I
saw him, would I have ever left? I don’t want to even think about my
answer. It’ll only show how truly weak I am.
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CHAPTER 2
Declan
I NOD at the text and flip my phone over on the bar top.
“You realize the person who’s texting you can’t see your nod, right?”
my best friend Cade says from the stool beside me.
With a grunt, I study the menu.
“Why bother looking?” he teases. “We both know you’ll order the same
thing you always get.”
My phone vibrates, so I turn it over. Naturally, it’s my pain-in-the-ass
brother-in-law again.
Beckett: She’s coming to the event with Ford and Lake, but her
stuff will be in the car. Can you have one of the guys grab it
and bring it into the station?
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CHAPTER 3
Melina
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CHAPTER 4
Cade
“NEED anything from your luggage before the event starts? I’m happy
to bring you up to Dec’s office to grab it.” I can’t help but drink in the
beautiful woman in front of me. She’s far too pretty to be wearing the frown
that tugs at her lips every time Declan speaks. The man is about as subtle as
an elephant walking through a mouse’s birthday party, stomping around and
making a mess of things.
I love the guy, but sometimes I’d like to smack him around a bit and
force him to lighten up.
She shakes her head and hits me with a genuine smile. “I’m good.
Thanks. Though I would love a tour of the fire station at some point.” She
eyes my best friend, her gaze sweeping across the wide planes of his chest
before she fixes her focus on me again.
“I can make that happen. Dec will probably have to stay here late, so
when the event is over, you and I can swing back in and pick up your stuff.
I’ll show you around then.”
Declan merely shakes his head at me. He thinks I’m hitting on his new
roommate, and he’s not wrong. She’s fucking stunning, with long dark hair
flowing past her shoulders like the soft waves of the bay at the end of the
street and green eyes full of a playfulness I’m eager to bring out. But more
than that, I’m drawn to the nervousness that buzzes beneath the surface. The
way she bites her lip when she thinks we’re not looking makes me want to
lean in and sink my teeth into it too. Ease her worries. I could give her a
few orgasms, help her relax so she can focus on the beauty of this town
rather than what’s clearly worrying her.
Declan mentioned a stalker, but is that a serious issue? I just assumed all
pop stars had stalkers. It’s par for the course, isn’t it? Though the way she’s
acting is very un-par for the course.
“You gonna take her down the pole too, Fitz?” Daniel Hall asks with a
smack on my shoulder.
“Smart-ass,” I mutter to our star right winger, though there’s no hiding
my smile.
Beckett glares at me, but fortunately, his kid has already run into the
station and is chattering with some of the guys on shift in the bay.
“Now that’s an offer I wouldn’t turn down,” Mel whispers.
Fuck. I can practically feel the caress of her breathy voice against my
cheek.
With a wink, I press my teeth into my bottom lip. Yeah, I’m going to
make this woman forget all her problems tonight.
“Everyone else here?” I ask Daniel, craning my neck and searching for
the rest of my guys. Beckett rounded up a good chunk of players from both
the baseball and hockey teams so that he could help raise money for
Declan’s department. As much as Dec complains about his brother-in-law,
he’s gotta be grateful that the man cares so deeply.
Daniel points to Brooks, Aiden, and Gavin Langfield—Beckett’s
brothers—who are standing with their significant others and laughing as
one of our other wingers, Camden Snow, gestures wildly. “The rookies are
in Jorgenson’s car, and Parker should be here shortly with his wife. He’s
riding with Cortney Miller.”
I nod. “Good. Let’s all meet up at Thames after. You staying at your
dad’s tonight or driving back to Boston?”
His dad is Ford Hall, the lucky bastard who married Lake.
Daniel grins. “Heading back to Boston. Although…” He eyes Mel, who
is currently talking to Lake. “If she were staying at my dad’s, I could make
an exception.”
An irrational flare of possessiveness hits me as he gives her a once-over.
I have to flex my fingers to keep from grabbing her hip and pulling her
toward me.
She’s younger than me—as well as much closer in age to Daniel, who is
only twenty-four—and I don’t do possessive, so the sensation baffles me.
Declan steps closer, and the scent of him—clean, masculine soap mixed
with the hint of fire—infiltrates my senses. “I gotta go. I’ll see you after.”
He nods at me, then at Daniel.
Before he can disappear, I grab his shoulder and lean in close. “I’ll bring
Mel down to the bar after so you don’t have to worry about rushing. Meet
us there when you’re done?”
Declan glances at my hand on his shoulder, his brows furrowed, and the
smallest hint of dread works its way through me, so I release him. Shit. He’s
weird about being touched.
His expression clears, and he nods. “Sure. I’ll see you there.”
I give him a playful smile. “I’d say text me when you’re on your way,
but I know you won’t, so…”
He huffs, his expression darkening. “You’re never going to stop with
that, are you?”
Without waiting for me to respond, he disappears into the crowd.
When I turn back, Daniel is watching me with a curious frown. “What?”
“You two ever…?” His eyes widen, but he doesn’t finish the question.
I have to laugh. My extracurricular activities are no secret. His aren’t
either. Hell, the guys on the team call him Playboy. It’s common knowledge
that I bring men or women back to my hotel room after games to unwind.
Sometimes both. But Declan? Yeah, no. He hasn’t known how to have fun
since college. And he’s definitely not comfortable with a man’s touch, let
alone sex with a man.
“Nah. Just friends.” Family, really. Our friendship is the most
meaningful and longest lasting connection I’ve ever had. And likely ever
will. With a playful grin to hide the bitterness I sometimes feel when I think
of him as only a friend, I add, “The man can’t even bother to text me back.”
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BAD LIAR
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CHAPTER 5
Declan
“DID you see how many reporters were here?” Shawn asks as we finish
tidying up the station. The event raised an insane amount of money. Thank
fuck. Already, the constant heartburn that plagues me has eased up a bit.
Multiple massive fires over the last year have wiped out just about all of our
resources, and we’ve been running on fumes. If the loss of our chief in a
fire weren’t heartbreaking enough, add to it the dent it put in the number of
applications we’ve received. People are scared, and I can’t blame them.
Then, to make matters worse, even if we had applicants, we haven’t had the
money to hire any. We need recruits. Volunteers aren’t going to cut it any
longer. Our town is over thirty miles wide, and the buildings downtown
date back to the Civil War. Grandfathered electrical, lead paint, and empty
warehouses make fires not only more likely but also much more likely to
spread when they get going.
We need properly trained people and updated equipment.
After tonight, I’ll rest a little easier. Not only did Beckett’s event bring
in hundreds of thousands of dollars, but Shawn was right about the media
coverage being huge. With any luck, we’ll receive more donations once our
charming town is featured on the news.
“Not your scene?” I joke.
Shawn laughs as he leans against the fire engine. “Even less so yours.”
He isn’t wrong. Interacting with anyone, let alone the media, all but
makes me break out in hives. But Shawn was an All-Star pitcher for LA for
years until his career ended after a car crash, so it’s hard to wrap my head
around how little he likes the media.
“You coming to Thames?” I ask, flipping off the overhead lights in the
bay.
He shakes his head. “Jules needs help getting ready for the morning
rush. It’ll be a madhouse with so many visitors in town.”
His girlfriend owns a bakery and makes the most incredible donuts. I
should tell Melina about them. Or ask Shawn to set some aside. Shit. I
should have thought of that beforehand. If I get called out tonight, there
won’t be much for her to eat in the morning. I grip the back of my neck to
ease the tension there. Dammit. Maybe I should head to the grocery store
now and stock up.
I blow out a breath, willing my anxiety to abate. “Think you could set
aside a few tonight? I can send one of the rookies over to pick them up in
the morning.”
Shawn claps me on the back, his smile easy. “You got it.”
Once he leaves and the place is quiet, I head out into the crisp winter
night. Most of downtown is walkable, and the bar parking lot is likely a
zoo, so I make my way on foot.
Due to our location near the water, we rarely get snow, but the scent of
cold lingers in the air, signaling that we could get a dusting.
I dig my hands into my pockets, hunch my shoulders to protect myself
from the cold, and nod to people as I pass. Most know who I am, and the
faces are familiar to me since I’ve lived here my entire life, but I’m a man
of few words, and people tire of trying to make conversation with a wall.
Most of the storefronts are dark this late. Only the bars on Hope Street
create a buzz of noise. As soon as the harbor comes into view with the bar
lit up against the dark water, I pick up my pace.
It’s as if my body knows everyone inside is having fun. Everyone is
laughing. Cade and Melina are laughing. And I’m missing it.
As I step inside, the music and loud chatter drown out all my thoughts. I
search the bar for Cade, his hockey players, or my firefighters, but it’s
Melina who catches my attention. She’s by the bar, surrounded by a group
of men, her tongue poking out from one side of her mouth as she studies
something with great effort.
She flicks what appears to be a quarter, and the crowd around her
cheers. She squeals in delight, and her cheeks lift. I’m halfway to her when
a set of hands circles her waist and lifts her up into the air. I’m about to
reach for the guy, push him off, when I realize it’s Cade. He’s shed his Bolts
sweatshirt, and now he’s in nothing but a black T-shirt, jeans, and his
signature backward Bolts hat.
Melina, who’s now dangling over his shoulder, her legs flailing, smacks
his ass repeatedly. “Put me down!”
“No can do, rock star,” he yells with a slap to her ass. He spins in a
circle, practically walking right into my chest.
I put my hands up to keep him from crashing into me.
His grin widens. “Dec,” he yells, clearly already buzzed. It’s not
surprising. Cade is a fun guy, and he’s charming as fuck. This is his MO.
I’m not even a little surprised that he’s got an international pop star in his
arms after knowing her for only a few hours.
Melina peers around one side of him, still upside down, and grins at me.
“Hi, Chief.”
Maybe it’s the way she says Chief or the slight flirtation to her tone.
Maybe it’s her position, draped over Cade’s shoulder. Or maybe it’s how
Cade is gripping her thighs and wearing a big smile. Regardless, I can’t
help the way my lips twitch. “I see you’re going to be trouble.”
She pushes out her lower lip in a mock pout, but before she can reply,
Cade walks away.
“Come on,” he calls over his shoulder. “The guys have a table by the
fireplace.”
I follow him through the crowd, not at all surprised by the way it parts
as we go. Melina peeks up at me and winks, then pinches Cade’s ass. He
swats her again, and I cough out a laugh. Like he’s surprised by the sound,
Cade eyes me over his shoulder, though he keeps moving.
He stops in front of an oversized booth where Brooks Langfield and his
fiancée Sara sit on one side, and Aiden and his wife Lennox sit on the other.
As soon as Lennox spots us, she’s scooting over and patting the vinyl
cushion. “Put her here.”
In one quick move, Cade drags her down his body, then spins her as he
drops into the seat. As he settles, she’s sitting on his lap, his hand splayed
across her stomach.
“You think you raised enough money?” Brooks asks as I drag a chair
from a nearby table and situate it at the end of the booth. Brooks is the
Bolts’ goalie and so very unlike his oldest brother, Beckett. He’s always
smiling and chatty.
“If we didn’t, I’m sure your brother will cover it,” Cade answers for me,
his thumb stroking along the skin just above Melina’s waistband. Every
time his finger moves up, her shirt shifts.
“The surprise performance by Mel and Lake didn’t hurt. The holiday
music was genius,” Lennox says.
A blush creeps up Melina’s chest at the mention of her name. She turns
away from Lennox and into her own shoulder, her head on Cade’s chest,
and her green eyes catch mine.
With her lip caught between her teeth, she gives me a soft smile.
I shift in my chair, uncomfortable with her intense focus on me. I like
watching her, even when she’s sitting on his lap. Maybe because she’s on
his lap. But I don’t like being watched.
“This town is awesome,” Aiden says from his spot in the corner of the
booth. He’s got his arm around Lennox’s shoulder. “I’m glad we had time to
come out here before our game.”
“Boston tomorrow, then Philly, right?” Lennox asks, nuzzling into his
neck. “I can never remember where he’ll be on any given week,” she says
to Melina. “Unlike this lucky bitch”—she points a pink-painted nail at Sara,
who, like my sister did for so long, travels with the team as their head of PR
—“I don’t get to travel with my husband.”
Aiden presses a kiss to her forehead. “You can travel with me anytime.
But I get it. You don’t want to be a trophy wife, no matter how much I beg.”
Lennox shrugs her shoulders in an exaggerated manner, her pink hair
fanning across her neck. “I would make an excellent trophy.”
“That’s what I’m telling ya,” Aiden crows as the rest of the group
laughs.
“What’s your favorite city?” Melina asks Cade.
There I go, back to watching the two of them together.
He drops his head back against the bench seat, studying the ceiling.
“Hmm,” he says, dragging the sound out. “I love renting a motorcycle in
Vegas and disappearing into the mountains. And hiking before sunrise in
Denver is unreal. Don’t even get me started on the surfing in La Jolla.”
Sara pushes forward, resting her forearms on the table. “You’ve done all
those things? How?”
Cade grins. “While you two are off screwing around before away
games,” he says, pointing to his goalie, “I spend time exploring each city.”
Brooks has the decency to blush, but Sara just shrugs. “We like public
sex, so sue us.”
I practically choke on my own spit at that flippant admission. I cough
and gasp for air. When I can breathe again, I find Cade watching me in
amusement.
“I like exploring,” he says, his tone a little dark and full of hidden
meaning. When he turns back to the group, his voice is casual again. “I used
to go alone, but then Daniel discovered my routine, and now he joins me.”
“Wait,” Aiden says, leaning around Lennox. “You and Daniel hang out
before games without me?”
With a groan, Cade roughs a hand down his face. “Fuck. I should have
kept my mouth shut.”
Melina shakes with laughter on top of him.
“You think this is funny?” he asks, tickling her sides. “This idiot is
going to be following me around singing songs he makes up about every
city we’re in now.”
Aiden shrugs, a lazy grin on his face. “Guilty.”
The group falls into a fit of laughter.
I watch on, here but not really part of their banter. This is how I exist. At
the station, the guys all talk around me, half the time probably forgetting
I’m even there. Which is good. I don’t want them to censor themselves
around the boss. I like being in their presence, even though I rarely have
anything to add.
Normally, when I speak, the mood grows serious. My tone often
suggests action, not fun, I suppose.
Cade whispers in Melina’s ear, and her cheeks turn a lovely shade of
pink again. Fuck, would I love to see whether that color spreads to other
parts of her body when she’s aroused the way she is right now.
How could any woman not be aroused around Cade? He oozes sex. I
know exactly what they’ll be doing when we get back to my house.
I’m annoyed at the idea, but I’m more annoyed with myself.
Because it shouldn’t be hot.
I shouldn’t like the idea of his hands on her when I want my hands on
her. But fuck, I’m half hard just watching her sit on his lap.
My perverse thoughts are interrupted by the flash of a camera. Without
hesitating, I’m on my feet, immediately blocking Melina.
“What the fuck?” I growl at the man holding a camera and trying to
shift around me for another shot. Guy’s got balls, I’ll give him that. I’m
about to squeeze the life out of them, though.
To one side of me, Brooks puts up a hand, blocking the man’s attempt.
“I’ll say it again,” I grit out. “What the fuck?”
Fingers reach for my belt and tug. “It’s okay,” Melina says. She leans
forward and gives the man a small smile. “We’re trying to have dinner. Ask
next time, and I’ll be happy to let you take a picture.”
My jaw hardens, and my chest tightens. Fuck. She’s used to this kind of
intrusion. Is this how her life always is? She’s been on for hours, singing for
our town, taking pictures and signing autographs with Lake, answering the
press’s many questions. After all that, she’s trying to relax with people she
trusts. Can’t they just let her have a drink in peace?
“Who’s the guy?” the man says, unaware of how close to a fist in the
face he’s coming.
Melina’s responding laugh isn’t light like the ones she’s let out all night.
This one is rehearsed, tight. “You know the rules. We leave civilians alone.”
With a glance at his phone, the guy breaks into a smarmy smile that tells
me I won’t like the next thing out of his mouth. “My source says he’s Cade
Fitzgerald, assistant coach of the Boston Bolts.” One by one, he scans the
people at the table, his eyes getting brighter as he goes. He’s no doubt
realized he’s hit the jackpot. Not only is Melina here, but so are Aiden and
Brooks, two of the NHL’s most famous players. “He your boyfriend, or is
he just keeping you company for the night?”
“Watch your mouth,” I warn, my tone deadly now, my blood pressure
spiking.
Cade presses a hand to my back. “I got this.”
My every cell is telling me not to move, to protect my people. But the
way he’s touching me leaves me little choice. His touch burns my skin,
even through my T-shirt. With a sigh, I step to the side, relinquishing
control to my best friend.
Cade nods at the reporter. “Boyfriend.”
It takes all my willpower not to whip around and shout out another what
the fuck? Never in his life has Cade been anyone’s boyfriend, and I know
for a fact he’s not hers.
Melina bites her lip shyly. “It’s new, though. So if you could keep it
quiet…” She winks at the reporter like he’s in on this secret.
My blood boils. Reporters don’t keep secrets. This is reckless. Stupid
and reckless. The girl is supposed to be in hiding because she has a stalker.
Instead, the two of them have been flirting and flaunting themselves. Now
they’ve drawn a big-ass bull’s-eye on my little town. Everyone will know
where she’s hiding. I should have shut down the press at the event earlier. I
should have stopped her from singing. But, fuck, selfishly, I was focused on
how much good this event could do for the town.
Now I realize how reckless that was.
Of course, it took seeing the two of them claim each other for me to feel
that way.
Hypocrite.
Nothing I say right now will be helpful, so I stalk to the bar and order a
drink.
As if they have no idea the storm they’ve likely just caused, the group
falls back into easy banter and laughter.
I sit at the bar, sipping my whiskey, watching. Because that’s all I ever
do.
“They’re hot together,” Hailey says, leaning across the bar, following
my line of sight.
I turn back to her and shrug noncommittally. “Who?”
She throws her head back and laughs. “Oh, Chief, you’re a funny one.”
Then she disappears to check on her other patrons.
She’s wrong. I’m not the funny one. And there’s nothing funny about
the way I’m feeling right now. So instead of heading back to the table, I
shoot a text to Cade, telling him I’ll see them at home. Then I head back out
into the cold winter night.
Alone.
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CHAPTER 6
Melina
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CHAPTER 7
Declan
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Track 3
SAME OLD LOVE
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CHAPTER 8
Cade
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CHAPTER 9
Melina
Ford walks me to Declan’s door, where the man himself greets us. As they
shake hands, I have to hold back a giggle. I feel like a teenager whose
friend’s dad just returned her home to her own father.
Though I never knew my father, and I was in Nashville and living on
my own at sixteen, so maybe I’m way off base.
Even so, I stick with the feeling, and the minute Ford is gone, I find
myself acting like a brat.
“There’s a plate in the oven for you if you’re hungry,” Declan says as he
ambles inside behind me.
“You didn’t have to wait around for me, you know. I’m not a child.”
Though I’m certainly acting like one.
I wince, prepared for his anger. I’d deserve it. God, Jason was right. I
am a spoiled brat, and I do act like I’m too good for everyone.
Declan steps closer, his brows pulled low.
I hold my breath, readying myself for a lecture.
“I didn’t wait around,” he says, his voice quiet, serious. “It’s my night
off. If I went into the station, the guys would accuse me of not trusting them
and send me right back here anyway.” He grips his neck and meets my
gaze.
My heart thumps hard against my breastbone when he’s this close to
me, engulfing me in his masculine scent.
His eyes soften a fraction. “Okay, they did tell me that,” he admits,
cringing. “And I didn’t make dinner; it’s from the station. Mason made
lasagna. It’s his mother’s recipe. So you should eat. It’s good. Really. Okay,
you’re making me nervous, so I can’t stop talking. I’ll just be over there—”
He points to the living room, where the television is turned down low.
When I don’t reply, because I’m truly thrown off by his gentle
demeanor, his nervousness, his shoulders slump, and he walks away.
Dammit.
“Thank you,” I call after him.
Halfway across the living room, he looks over his shoulder, though he
keeps his body turned away. “For what it’s worth, I’m sorry about this
morning. My sister tells me I’m shit at communicating, and well…” He
shakes his head. “I’m sorry.”
I nod, confused but also concerned that if he says anything else so
strangely charming, I’ll either burst into tears or throw myself at him. Since
I can all but guarantee he wouldn’t know how to handle either situation, I
force myself to head to the oven and pull out the dinner he brought home
for me. I’m full from all the junk Lake and I indulged in, but it seems
important to accept this olive branch.
I return to the living room, plate in hand, and when Declan looks up, I
pull up short. Shit. This was a bad idea. “Sorry,” I say, taking a step back.
“Cade mentioned you don’t like messes. You probably don’t eat in here.”
“Was just surprised you were joining me. Figured you’d hide in the
kitchen.” The smirk he gives me is so shocking, I almost drop my plate.
Didn’t know the man had it in him. “Feel free to sit.”
I settle on the opposite end of the couch, keeping my plate balanced on
my lap rather than setting it on the coffee table. The piece is beautiful, and
I’d hate to damage it. It looks like the interior of a tree trunk, with swirls
and natural designs in the grain. I could study it for hours if I had the time.
So that’s where I focus, too intimidated by the stoic man beside me to meet
his gaze again.
The Bolts game is playing on the TV, and the commentators are talking
about how Aiden Langfield’s game has turned around since he shared his
struggle with depression. I find myself leaning forward, lips pressed
together and holding my breath. I’d have never thought the man who sat at
the bar with us last night suffered from depression. Then again, I’ve become
a pro at putting on a mask in order to hide parts of me I don’t want the
world to see. Who’s to say others don’t do the same?
Though it sounds like Aiden Langfield went the opposite direction and
shared his secrets.
I fight back a shudder at the idea. I can’t imagine really opening up to
the people I’m closest to, let alone the world.
“It’s good, right?”
I glance at the fork I’ve just pulled from my mouth and realize I haven’t
tasted a single bite I’ve eaten. “Um, yeah,” I stammer. “Delicious. Thank
you.”
With a nod, he returns his focus to the game.
Between plays, the camera pans to the sidelines, where Cade stands
proudly in a suit.
I practically swallow my tongue at the sight. It’s like his clothing is
molded to his body, stretching to accommodate the broad shoulders and the
muscles I was licking just this morning. “Holy shit, does that man clean
up.”
Declan snorts, then quickly covers his mouth like he didn’t mean to be
caught laughing. Clearly, he doesn’t realize he’s already smiled at me a
handful of times since I walked through the door.
Maybe, since he’s not working, he had a few drinks to loosen up. With
the way the tension is filling this room I could really use something to take
the edge off. Especially when Cade appears on the screen again. When
Gavin leans in and speaks to him, and he laughs in response, then looks
back toward the ice, in the direction of the camera, it feels as if he’s looking
right at us. His blue eyes heat, clearly over a play, which is where the
camera pans to catch the action, breaking the spell. The puck is about to
drop, but the guys on either side of center ice are chirping at one another.
Then, before the ref can even move out of the way, they’re lunging at each
other.
“What do you think he said?” I turn to Declan, studying his expression.
Once again, his lip twitches like he’s trying to keep from smiling. “It’s
not a high school locker room, I don’t have the gossip.”
I grin, my heart rate picking up at the tease. “I bet that tall guy said
something about the other dude’s girlfriend—” I suck in a breath, grinning,
and practically drop my plate in my lap, my hands flapping. “Or maybe he
slept with his mom?”
Declan levels me with another one of his stares.
My mood deflates, and I give him a sheepish shrug. “Or maybe he just
told him he sucked. But I like my story better.”
“It’s some story,” he mutters, turning back to the TV.
Both guys are heading for the penalty boxes now, while the rest of the
players line up for the puck drop.
“That’s what I’d do on Sundays while sitting through church, then
afterward, when we’d inevitably end up at one of the parishioners’ houses
for what felt like an eternity.”
“Watch hockey?” Declan asks without taking his eyes off the game.
“No,” I say. “Make up stories about people. What was going on with the
family three rows up. Why the father was there one week and gone the
next.” I stab another piece of lasagna. “Maybe he got a new job that kept
him from coming to church. That kind of thing. Sometimes, my mom would
catch me zoning out, and I’d tell her my stories. She’d reprimand me. Tell
me to stop gossiping. Really, though, I was just passing the time.”
“What happened to the father?”
Declan’s attention is like a caress, urging me to turn his way. When I do,
my stomach flips. A girl could get lost in those dark eyes of his. The depth
of his stare. The knowledge he holds. Like he knows what I’ll say before I
say it. Like he knows what’s on my mind, even as I’m doing my best to
hide my thoughts. “He showed up three months later with a new family.” I
swallow and force a smile.
Declan’s mouth drops open, and his eyes go wide.
Why the hell did I tell him that? If I’m not careful, I’ll be like Aiden and
spill all my secrets.
“I’m going to put this away,” I say, lifting the plate. “Then get changed.
Need anything?”
“No. I’m fine.”
The commentator’s voice gets louder, and he’s speaking quickly now,
going on about how Tyler Warren is on a breakaway. Declan’s focus turns
back to the television, and a moment later, the Bolts score. Once again, the
camera pans from the ice to the sidelines, where the team is celebrating. I
smile at the sight of Cade, and though I try to fight the urge, I peer over at
Declan. He shifts on the couch, his focus completely on the screen, like he’s
just as entranced by Cade as I am.
Hmm, interesting.
Hours later, when the game is over, the Bolts having secured a win, I
send a congratulatory text to Cade. When my phone buzzes with a
FaceTime call from him, I can’t help the squeal that escapes my lips.
Declan has just disappeared down the hall, likely holing up for the
night. I can’t imagine he’ll come back out here for more awkward non-
conversation with me, now that the game is over. As it was, we watched in
silence—me keeping all my stories to myself—and afterward, he busied
himself starting a fire in the hearth while we watched the after-game
commentary, which was just more of the same thing, but with a bunch of
men talking about how the guys on the ice could have done things
differently.
God, I can’t imagine what it would be like to finish a show, only to have
a group of people sit around and critique my every move on live television.
Though I guess there are plenty of people on social media who do exactly
that.
Fortunately, I avoid that like the plague.
“Hey, you,” I say when Cade’s face appears on my screen.
“Hey, girlfriend,” he says in a flirtatious tone. There’s chatter and low
music in the background. He’s probably out with the team, though he’s
holding the phone really close, probably so he can hear, so I can’t make out
his surroundings.
“That was a great game, Coach.”
He licks his lips and smiles again. “Fuck, you’re pretty.”
I laugh, my heart pinching. “Is that why you called? You missed me?”
His wide smile slips into something smaller, more intimate, and his eyes
soften. “Yeah, I think I did.”
For a long moment, we watch each other silently. What the hell is
happening right now?
“That Cade?”
Declan’s voice has me jumping so abruptly, I bobble the phone. “Yeah,
you want to say hi?”
Cade chuckles, his image going blurry. “Yeah, right. The guy doesn’t do
phones.”
With a shrug, Declan settles on the couch again.
I swallow back a flutter of nerves at his presence. I truly didn’t get the
impression that he had any intention of coming back out. As he sits back
with a sigh, I can’t help but take him in. The T-shirt he’s changed into—
emblazoned with a Bristol Fire Department logo, like most everything he
wears—pulls tight across his broad chest. The mesh material of his gym
shorts does the same over his thick thighs. As he puts his feet up on the
coffee table, crossing one ankle over the other, I force myself to focus on
Cade again rather than continue to study him.
“I wanted to introduce you to my friend Leo. Leo, this is my girlfriend,
Mel.” He taps his phone screen, flipping the camera.
The guy behind the bar gives me a shy wave, then he throws a towel
over his shoulder and shakes his head at Cade.
“Isn’t that the guy you told me gives great head?” I whisper.
Cade is an open book, and I didn’t bat an eye when he told me about his
casual hookups with the bartender at his regular hang out.
Cade throws his head back and roars with laughter. “Shh, his ego
doesn’t need any more stroking.”
Declan is watching me. I can feel the attention, the anger, radiating off
him. I ignore it as Cade continues talking.
“Trying to sell this relationship, Mel,” Cade teases. “Keep it down over
there.”
Zaps of excitement course through me as he grins. He’s at a bar,
hanging out near a guy he could easily take home, yet he’s calling me. What
game is he playing?
I bite my lip. “It’s fine. Maybe we’re not monogamous. Who gets to say
what we’re good with?”
Cade’s eyes flash with an emotion I can’t name. “I kinda liked thinking
that you’d be a little jealous.”
“Oh, you find jealousy hot.” I can’t help but snort. If he’s looking for a
jealous partner, then he’s looking in the wrong direction. The guy on the
other end of the couch, though, has it in spades.
“Maybe,” he admits.
“Then consider me very jealous.” I let a sly smile tip up one side of my
lips. “When will I see you again?”
He goes quiet for a long moment, and a wave of dread washes through
me. I’ve overstepped. Obviously this is all just a joke. He doesn’t really
miss me. Maybe he started this banter in order to sell the relationship. Or
maybe the bartender was getting too clingy, and he’s using me as an out for
the night.
“We’re headed to Philly tomorrow, but we have a home game on Friday.
Think you’d want to come up to watch, then stay at my place for the
night?”
Lips pressed together, I side-eye my warden in the corner. “Sure.”
In a heartbeat, Declan is out of his seat and leaning over the couch,
staring Cade down from over my shoulder. “I don’t think that’s a good
idea.”
Anger floods me. How dare this man think he can call the shots for me?
“Good thing it’s not your call, then, huh?” I look back at Cade. “I’m going
to get some rest. Just text me the info, and I’ll make it work.”
Cade nods, though his lips are twisted into an uncomfortable wince.
I force a smile. “Have a good night.”
“Night, Trouble,” he murmurs.
I don’t bother saying good night to Declan.
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Cade
Dots dance on the screen just like the damn butterflies in my stomach.
The guy never replies. When two full sentences appear, my jaw falls open.
Declan: And where am I going to stay? You have one bed,
Cade.
Even though the words are printed rather than spoken, I can hear his
reprimanding tone. Can see his jaw clenching in annoyance. He hates
texting. So why is he? Is it because of Mel? Something about her softens
him. Makes him try a little harder. And for some godforsaken reason, I like
that. I shouldn’t want him to soften for someone else. But I like her, and I
like that he likes her. It makes no fucking sense.
Neither does my response. But I’m feeling daring, I guess. Wondering
just how much he’d do for her. How far he’d go to make her happy.
Me: You could share the bed with us.
My chest tightens as I wait for the dots to dance, and my mind races
with thoughts of what could happen if he did.
I know he won’t take me up on the offer, but the image of him in my
bed, with her, both of them naked on either side of me…
“Fuck.” With fumbling hands, I undo my belt and suit pants and pull my
cock out. I’m so fucking hard it hurts.
In my mind, it’s not my rough hand gripping my cock, it’s Declan’s. The
way he strokes me instantly sends heat rushing through my veins. He tells
Mel to spit on it in that gruff way of his. I whimper at the mere thought,
closing my eyes and losing myself to the dream.
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Melina
I fist my hands and fight the urge to respond. He’s bating me. He wants
my attention. He’ll never know he has it.
“You sure you’re fine?” Declan taunts.
Worst Human Alive: I get it. You wanted my attention. You have
it now. But you better get tested before we get back together.
That guy is a slut.
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CHAPTER 12
Declan
As I wait for Lily to finish with her client, I glare down at the last
message Cade sent me. Have I given any thought to it?
Ha. What an absurd question. It’s all I’ve thought about. Share the bed
with them. What the fuck does that even mean?
Why can’t I get the image of what it could mean out of my head?
And why am I actually considering it?
“Hey, Dec. I’m ready for you.”
I blink a few times, bringing myself back to the moment. Back to the
woman standing before me.
Lily Reilly. The wife of one of my best friends. Or rather, his widow.
Kyle was so much more than just a friend. He was my chief. Lily never
calls me chief, likely for that reason. Sometimes I wonder if it hurts her to
see me like this. I come in every other week for a cut. I’ve been doing it
ever since we lost him. Before that, I always went to the barber downtown.
Guilt has a way of molding a person’s every move, even the most
mundane activities.
“Hey, Lil. How’s Benji doing?”
Her son is one of the cutest kids around. The guys all make sure to
spend ample time with him, and that includes bringing him to the station, so
I see him often.
Her face lights up in the mirror as she gets me settled in, already pulling
at my hair, likely realizing it’s much more out of control than normal. “He’s
good. Spending time at Jules’ Bakery today. Helping Jules and Shawn make
donuts.”
I dip my chin. “That’s good.”
“What’s new with you? I hear you have a famous guest staying with you
through the holidays.”
She gets to work on my hair, and I find myself making conversation
with her, because like I said, guilt forces a person to do things they
wouldn’t normally do. And for me, that includes talking.
“Seems like you really like her,” Lily says as she stands in front of me,
stopping to really study my reaction. With her scissors in one hand and her
fingers holding the hair that hangs over my forehead, I find it hard to lie.
“She’s a sweetheart. What’s not to like?”
“Life is short, Dec,” she says in the way only a woman who’s lost her
husband can. In a way that doesn’t feel like lip service. A way that feels
more like a punch to the gut. “You should enjoy the good things.”
I don’t smile, even though she’s smiling at me, because her expression
isn’t a happy one. No, it’s pained and brutal.
But it does make me think.
And when I get called into a fire right after my appointment, when I feel
the lick of flames singeing my skin as I run into the building, I realize I
never replied to Cade. And if I never come out of here, that last question
will be left unanswered. Will he always wonder about how I would have
responded?
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CHAPTER 13
Melina
“WHY CAN’T you take a bodyguard? Or take Ford. He’d love to get
out of the house and see a game in person,” Lake says over the speaker as I
finish up my makeup.
It’s been a long, quiet week, and I’m itching to get out of the house.
There was a fire in an abandoned warehouse, and that kept Declan
pretty busy. Not that he told me about it. I heard about it from Ford when I
was over at their house.
While difficult to admit, it hurt not to hear about it from Declan. I crave
his attention, even if all we seem to do is fight. It makes zero sense.
Even though I barely saw Declan, his control was still felt. I swear a
patrol car drives by on an hourly basis. Each time I see it, my unease grows.
It feels like I’m being watched. Like I’m the one who did something wrong,
rather than the one who needs protection. Like rather being there to keep
people out, the police are monitoring to ensure I remain in the house.
Even when Lake and I grabbed lunch in town, a gaggle of firefighters
just so happened to be taking their lunch at the same place.
It’s stifling.
Although focusing on my irritation with Declan has distracted me from
stressing about how I can’t write a lyric to save my life, so I guess that’s a
plus.
“You know as well as I do that your husband doesn’t want to leave your
side.” One last swipe of mascara, and I’m ready.
The car service has already been arranged, compliments of Cade, my
bag is packed, and Sara and Lennox made arrangements for me to sit with
them. It’s exactly the kind of night I need. A reminder that I’m not a
prisoner.
That I’m a twenty-eight-year-old woman who’s done nothing wrong.
That I’m allowed to have fun.
Once the game is over, win or lose, I’m counting on Cade to take me
back to his apartment so he can do filthy things to my body.
My legs tingle at the mere thought of it.
Since Saturday, I’ve been insatiable. Getting off in Declan’s house,
knowing he’s on the other side of the wall, is strange.
Especially since every time I shut my eyes, I can’t help but imagine his
body, despite how annoyed with him I am.
I blame Cade. He painted this picture of the two of them touching me,
and now I can’t get it out of my head. I want them both. Badly.
But only one has made himself available to me.
Declan warned me that Cade was a playboy, yet Cade’s the one who’s
not playing games. He tells me what he wants and follows through. With
Declan, I constantly find myself questioning whether I’m misinterpreting
his actions.
“Then we’ll both go. We’ll bring Nash. He’d love to watch his big
brother play.”
“Lake, he’s an infant. Pretty sure he won’t be watching the game,” I say.
Then, with a wicked smile, I throw in “It’s twenty degrees out. Keep him
warm at home with his mom and dad. He’s got enough of an uphill battle,
seeing as how his other brother is your ex.”
“Shut it,” she hisses, though the sound quickly turns into a laugh.
My chest feels lighter. My life has felt so serious this week. “I’m
serious. Can you imagine the memoirs they’re gonna write about that kid?
You better start saving up for all the therapy he’s going to need.”
“I hate you.”
“I love you too.”
She sighs. “I just want you to be safe.”
My heart clenches at her sincerity. God, she’s a good friend. “I will be.
I’ll be at a hockey game with a million people. Jason hates hockey. And he
lives in Jersey. Even if he somehow spotted me on TV, he couldn’t get there
quick enough to cause a problem. It’s going to be fine.”
Dina: We’re going to the festival of lights tonight. Wish you
were here.
I stare at my cousin’s text for a long moment, hit with a confusing mix of
emotions. Attending the festival of lights is a family tradition that’s existed
for as long as I’ve been alive. It’s held at this beautiful church that has acres
of private land. Every year, the space is decorated beautifully. The older
Portuguese parishioners cook for days and serve the food family style on
cafeteria tables covered in beautiful linens that have been passed down for
generations. Every Friday night in December, they hold a candlelit vigil,
and our family always attends the second one.
As a child, I’d sing in the chorus, and as an adult, I donate and kept my
head down. Year after year, I’m reminded by my family that it’s improper to
boast, and apparently, they believe that if I continued to sing with the
chorus, that’s what I’d be doing.
I loved the event, even when I couldn’t participate, and a part of me
wishes I were there. Though a bigger part, the part that finally worked up
the nerve to cut off everyone there but Dina, knows that I can’t go back.
That the tradition has been sullied. The magic that surrounded it and so
many other special activities died when my family chose Jason over me.
Me: Miss you.
It hurts, how Jason is still stealing from me. How often I think that it
would be so much easier to agree with my brother. To believe that my
consent was implied because he was my boyfriend. Or that I obviously
tripped the time I ended up with a broken ankle. But I do know better, and
wishing for things to be different does no good.
As the car pulls into the arena parking lot, my phone buzzes again.
Sara: Are you here yet? I’m stuck with the press right now, but
Lennox is going to meet you at the players’ entrance. That
should allow you to stay under the radar.
I haven’t been able to stand in line for my own beer or souvenir in years.
Most people would gladly give it up if they could, but it’s one of those
normal activities I miss. When I’m touring, venues provide gift bags full of
their team’s merch, and when I’m out and about, I’m always assigned a
server who takes care of my every need.
So between the first and second period, while Sara and Lennox are busy
chatting with a donor, I sneak out the suite’s door and head to the
concession stand. My shoes stick to the floor as I walk, and the concourse
smells like fried food, stale beer, and sugar, yet I can’t help but smile like
I’m meandering down the streets in Paris.
Bolts fans push past me, and not a single one stops to notice me.
Because hello, why would anyone with celebrity status like mine willingly
fight through a throng of people to fetch their own goodies?
Because they can.
Excitement courses through me, making my steps lighter. Like I’m
getting away with a crime. It’s absurd, I know, but truly, this simple act is
renewing me, pouring life back into me.
When the concession stand comes into view, I’ve almost convinced
myself that I’ve gotten away with it. I’ve almost completely bought the lie
I’ve told myself—that I’m safe here—when a hand grasps my arm roughly,
and I’m slammed against a wall. Before I can react, another hand covers my
mouth, and the eyes of the one person I never wanted to see again look
down at me.
“You’ve been a very bad girl.”
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CHAPTER 14
Declan
My phone rings nonstop the entire way. I know I’m an ass for not calling to
let Lake know Melina is okay, but with the way she’s shaking in my arms, I
don’t dare let her go for even a second. I stroke her arm with my thumb,
molding my body around hers, wishing I could shield her from pain.
The driver helps me get her into the house, carrying her bag and
unlocking the door once I’ve dug my keys out of my pocket. I head straight
to her bedroom, but when I try to set her on the bed so I can lock up, she
clings to my chest.
“Please don’t go.”
Pulling her tight to me again, I nod at the driver. “Thank you. I’ll lock
up later.”
With tears streaming down her face, she whimpers. “I’m so sorry I’m a
mess.”
“Don’t ever apologize for your emotions. I know I’m not good at this. I
know I’m probably not who you want—”
She clutches at my shirt and buries her face in the crook of my neck.
“You’re who I need.”
The desperation in her voice, the sadness, it’s all overwhelming.
Just as I drop my cheek to the top of her head and soak in the feel of her
pressed up against me, my phone chimes again. “That’s probably Lake,” I
murmur.
Sucking in a hard breath, she peers up at me. The brokenness in her
gaze damn near kills me. “Why would she be calling you and not me?”
“Your phone is off. It’s why no one could reach you to warn you
about—”
Melina flinches, so I snap my mouth shut and swallow his name.
“Shit,” she whispers. She wriggles in my arms, so I ease her down and
help her settle on the side of the bed. With her phone out, she powers it on,
and when the screen lights up, one message after another pops up in rapid
succession. She doesn’t bother to read them; she just hits Lake’s name and
calls her.
My head is a jumbled mess as I listen to her tell Lake that she’s okay,
that she’s home with me. I take a step back and thumb over my shoulder at
the door, silently asking whether she wants privacy. She responds with a
resolute shake of her head, so I pull out my phone and get to work dealing
with the mess I made at the arena.
Without sorting through the text messages and missed call notifications,
I navigate to the contact I need.
Me: I need you to pull the security footage from the hallway
outside of C 110 and probably the surrounding ones too.
Me: Don’t care. It’s her choice, and I’m not taking it away from
her.
I set my phone on her bedside table and turn it on silent. I never switch
off the ringer. It’s important for me to be available for the guys at the
department. But for tonight, they can figure it out. The entire town could be
on fire, and I wouldn’t leave this room.
“I don’t know what to do,” she whispers, though I don’t think she’s
talking to me.
Thank god I’m trained in trauma response. If I had to do this using only
my own instinct, I’d fail. And failing her isn’t an option.
“How about we focus on small things right now? Like getting changed
and ready for bed?”
With her lip caught between her teeth and her eyes downcast, she gives
me a small nod. From there, though, we’re both still, quiet. She drags her
focus up to my face, frowning, like she doesn’t even know where to start.
I push off the mattress, but she grabs my leg, halting the movement.
Dropping down again, I place my palm over her trembling hand. “I’m just
going to grab something for you to sleep in.”
She shakes her head. “Please don’t leave me.”
I squeeze her hand and duck closer. “I’m not leaving you.”
She’s dressed in a Bolts jersey and jeans. Neither would be anywhere
close to comfortable enough to sleep in, so I slip off my sweater, then pull
my white undershirt over my head.
I hold it out to her, my heart stuttering. “You can sleep in this if you
want.”
She nods but doesn’t make a move to take it or to undress.
“Do you need help?”
Her eyes well with tears, and her breathing grows more ragged. “I-I—”
She snaps her mouth shut, quieting a sob.
“I got you,” I murmur, my heart aching for her. “Can you put your
hands up for me?”
She does as she’s told, and I undress her. Her chest is covered in red
blotches, the sight enough to make my anger surge again. Despite the way
her breasts spill out of her bra when she unhooks it, nothing about this is
sexual.
Once I’ve tugged my white T-shirt over her head, she sighs, and the
tension in her shoulders eases. She brings the collar of my shirt to her lips
and rubs it against them. “Smells like you.”
It probably smells awful. Fear and adrenaline combined inside me
tonight, causing me to sweat buckets while I searched for her and as I
pulled that asshole off her. But her expression has softened, like the scent
brings her comfort, so I don’t give it too much thought.
“Can I unbutton your jeans?” I ask.
She nods again, her breath finally beginning to even out, and lifts the T-
shirt high enough that the underside of her breasts peek out. I focus on the
task at hand, getting her comfortable, all the while ignoring the longing that
hits me at the sight. The desire to hold her against my bare chest. I’m not
sure either of us will be at rest until I do. Once I’ve undone her pants, she
leans back, allowing me to pull them off, revealing a pair of black lace boy
shorts.
She sits again, the shirt falling over her hips before I can study the way
her panties mold to her curves. Thank god for that.
“You should have some water and an aspirin before bed. Do you want to
come me to get them, or do you want to stay here?”
The fear that flashes in her eyes is the only response I need. Hovering in
front of her, I grip her ass and guide her legs around my waist. Once she’s
settled and I’ve got a good hold on her, I carry her like a koala.
For the first time tonight, she smiles at me. “Thank you.”
The ache to kiss her, to thank her for allowing me to take care of her,
almost overtakes me.
But she’s not mine, and even if she were, the last thing she needs right
now is to be mauled by another man.
So I ignore the way her plump ass feels in my hands as I lumber down
the hallway and toward the kitchen. I ignore the way she lays her head
against my collarbone as I detour to the front door and turn the lock. And I
ignore how her warm breath skates over my neck when she sighs and the
shiver that runs down my spine as she curls her hand around the back of my
neck and plays with my hair.
Bottle of water in hand, I take her to my bathroom, where I set her down
on the counter and search the medicine cabinet for aspirin.
She looks around my space, eyes wide, as if she’s memorizing it. “You
have a nice shower,” she says of the oversized tiled space with multiple
shower heads, including a rain one.
I grunt my agreement. “Feel free to use it whenever you want.”
She gives me a soft smile as I press two aspirin into her palm and then
hold out the bottle of water.
Once she’s recapped the water, I pick her up again and carry her back to
her bed.
As I settle her beneath the covers, she lets out a heavy sigh. “Okay,
you’ve done enough babysitting me. I’ll be okay.”
I study her, searching for a hint of what she really wants. If she’s not
comfortable with me here, I’ll sit outside her door. But if she wants me
close, nothing could pull me from her side.
“I can sit above the covers until you fall asleep. I don’t want to make
you uncomfortable,” I offer.
She turns so she’s on her side, her face smooshed adorably against the
pillow, making her lips pout as she regards me. “I think I’d be pretty
comfortable wrapped up in those big arms of yours.”
This girl. Even after the night she’s had, she’s still got the flirty sarcasm
going for her. Breathing easier knowing he hasn’t destroyed her spirit, I tug
back the covers. “Then that’s what you’ll get.”
“You can’t sleep in your jeans.” Her voice is raspy, and fuck if I’m not
cursing myself for what I’m about to do.
Head dropped back, staring up at the ceiling and deciding that I’ll ask
for forgiveness from Cade rather than seeking approval, I unbutton my
pants and shuck them off. Then I slide beneath the sheets with his girl.
I have no idea what the fuck is really going on between them, but she
cares for him, and he likes her too. And even though the two of us are in
bed together, wearing very little, I’m here as her friend only. Or at least
that’s what I tell myself when she pulls my hand to her lips and kisses it and
then doesn’t let go.
I’m woken by a loud noise and then heavy footsteps.
Guilt mixes with adrenaline as I realize that Melina has wrapped her
warm body around me, her thigh draped over my hips and my hard cock,
her lips brushing against my bare chest.
The door swings open, startling me. Out of instinct, I roll on top of her,
hovering over her body, shielding her.
“What the fuck?” Cade hisses.
I breathe a sigh of relief and look down at the sleeping woman beneath
me. Sitting up, I nod at Cade, silently signaling him to move out into the
hall. He’s panting like he ran here, and his eyes are murderous.
Fuck.
Despite the dread that’s working its way through me, I don’t rush off the
bed. I take my time so as not to wake her. The last thing she needs is to be
woken in the middle of the night.
I slip out the door and press it closed before I turn to face my best
friend.
“What the fuck?” He looks me up and down, teeth gritted, eyes blazing
with anger.
It’s then that I realize that I’m in only my boxers.
I adjust myself, because my cock is jutting out like I was just naked in
bed with his girlfriend. Then I fold my arms across my chest. “It’s not what
it looks like.”
“I don’t care what it looks like. I’ve been calling you for three fucking
hours. I was in the middle of a press conference when I heard, and when
you didn’t pick up any of my hundred fucking phone calls, I got in the car
and drove here. Is she okay?”
His breathing is ragged, and he’s shifting his weight from foot to foot
like he’s considering going through me to get to her.
I hold up my hand. “I’m sorry. I should have called, but she needed me,
and I—” I pinch the bridge of my nose. “I’m sorry.”
“Is she okay?” he grits out again.
I force myself to meet his gaze, and for the first time tonight, I really
take him in. This is a side of Cade I didn’t know existed. He’s never
emotional. Never out of control. But right now, I’m pretty sure he could tear
me to pieces. It’s in this moment that I understand just how much he cares
about her.
“She’s okay. And nothing happened between the two of us.”
He frowns. Probably because he doesn’t believe me after the way he
found us tangled together in bed.
“You can trust me. She was in shock and didn’t want to be alone.”
With a heaving breath, Cade deflates a little. “Did he hurt her?”
Anger pummels me from the inside when I replay the moment I heard
Jason’s palm hitting Melina’s cheek. The memory of the fear in her eyes as
he squeezed the air from her lungs is like a knife to the heart. “It could have
been worse,” I say.
“Beckett says he was hospitalized.”
Maybe I should feel bad. Maybe I should be concerned about what
happened to him. Instead, I feel nothing.
“You did that?”
With a single nod, I say, “I told you, I’ve got her. You can trust me.”
Dropping his head forward, he curses softly. “Can I see her?”
“She needs rest.”
“Fine.” He lifts his hat from his head and settles it again, a nervous tic
of his. “I’ll sleep in the guest room and check on her in the morning.”
“Don’t you have a game in California on Sunday?” I glance at the clock
on the wall. “You have to be on the plane in what, five hours?”
Shoulders sagging, he roughs a hand down his face. “Four.”
I frown. “Go home.”
“No.”
I stare at my best friend. What the fuck is his issue? Does he just want
to know that she’s okay? Or is it something else?
“Cade, I’ve got her. You’ve got a job to do, and this is my job. Let me
take care of your girl until you get back. She’s going to need a few days to
recover anyway. Let her lick her wounds and get her bearings.”
Hands clenched, he mutters something indistinguishable, his head still
bowed. The man is clearly at war with himself.
Without overthinking it, I step forward until I’m chest to chest with him,
then I grab him by both arms and force him to look at me. “She’s okay. I’ve
got her. I promise you. She’s going to be okay.”
Cade’s blue eyes swim with so much emotion, so much conflict. “I care
about her,” he admits, like he needs me to hear that she’s different. As if I
didn’t know. I’ve never seen him this way. Never knew he had it in him to
break for someone else. This is a different side to Cade, and I’m not sure
how I feel about it.
But outside of my family, he is my closest friend—the person who
matters most to me in the world—and right now, he needs my help.
“I know you do. And you can trust me to take care of her. You know
that, right?”
Cade blows out a breath, and I taste the acceptance against my lips. For
a moment, I consider pulling him into my chest. He looks like he needs a
hug, and dammit, so do I. I could fall apart so easily right now, if only I
weren’t the one who needed to hold it all together.
I’m still battling with myself when he steps back and claps me on the
shoulder. “Thank you.”
Swallowing back my disappointment, I dip my chin. “You need to get
back to Boston. You okay to drive?”
It’s after one a.m. By the time he gets home, he’ll be lucky to get an
hour or two of sleep before he has to head out again.
“I’m wired,” he admits. “I’ll be fine.” He regards the door, roughing a
hand over his mouth. “You gonna go back and sleep in there with her?”
I clench my fists at my sides. Fuck. I have no idea how I should handle
this. Or maybe I do. Melina made it clear what she wants, and I can’t say no
to her. “She asked me to.” My chest goes tight. There’s no way he’s okay
with how he found me in bed with his girl.
To my utter shock, he nods simply. “Good. You should do that, then.”
He thumbs toward the door. “I’ll lock up on my way out.”
Even after he’s dismissed me, he stands in the hall, watching me. Like
he needs to see me go. Like he needs to know that I’ll be there to protect
her. So, despite the discomfort settling in my gut, I shuffle into the bedroom
and climb into bed with Melina, ignoring his scrutiny. I can’t handle
looking at him right now. I don’t want to see the hurt or jealousy or anger
he’s got to be feeling.
The moment I settle, it’s like she subconsciously knows I’m back.
Without waking, she scoots closer, wrapping her warm body around me.
The sharp hiss from the doorway snags my attention, and I finally force
myself to look at Cade. I’m not sure what to make of the expression he
wears as he watches us. Maybe it’s my exhaustion, or maybe it’s the dark,
or maybe I know jack shit about feelings and reading people and I’m
making it all up in my head, but to me, his expression looks a hell of a lot
like love.
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Melina
FOR YEARS I dated a man who was never content with what he had.
More money, more attention, more sex. More, more, more was his
mantra.
I can’t count the number of mornings I woke up with a pounding head
after he’d spent an evening shouting at me. Or with a bruise he explained
away by blaming my sensitive skin.
“Someone just has to look at you, and you bruise.”
So when I wake up to a cup of coffee by my bed and the strong arms of
Declan Everhart wrapped around me as he gently rocks me awake, I burst
into tears.
“Shh, I’ve got you, Melina. You’re safe.” The deep timbre of his voice
is a calming melody that I wish I could write a song about.
“Because of you.” I peer up into his warm brown eyes. As the sunlight
streams in, they turn golden. “Did I dream that Cade was here?”
Declan shakes his head. “He was worried about you. Drove here like a
bat out of hell. Woulda missed his flight if I hadn’t sent him back,
promising that I have you.”
I smile, imagining that entire scenario. Waking up in Declan’s arms may
be the most comforting experience of my life, but butterflies flutter in my
belly at the thought of Cade coming for me. And that he left knowing
Declan would take care of me. Though I’m not sure what any of it means,
the two of them settle me in completely different ways.
“Want your coffee?”
The butterflies settle, and the heavy weight on my chest presses a little
more firmly. Coffee sounds incredible, but he’ll have to let go of me in
order to reach it, and the feel of his arms wrapped around me is a decadence
I’ve never known. I’m not ready to give it up.
“Maybe in a minute.”
With a soft grunt of agreement, he strokes the hair from my brow.
Pressing my face to the crook of his neck, I inhale deeply, then pull
back to look him in the eye. “I have a question.”
His lips curl up almost imperceptibly in response, like he’s maybe
enjoying this moment as much as I am.
“Why do you pretend to be grouchy when you’re really a big, snuggly
teddy bear?”
He shakes his head, but there’s no hiding the way that hint of a smile
grows just a fraction. “I’m not.”
“You are with me.”
Sighing, he looks away. “You’re different.”
Chest tightening, I search his expression for some kind of clue as to
what he means. “Why?”
“Stop asking questions and drink your coffee.”
I don’t fight him. I’m too busy dissecting those simple words.
You’re different.
How and why? And what does it mean that I’m asking these questions
of him, the best friend of the man I’m sleeping with?
It’s a bizarre conundrum. One I’d rather focus on than the very real
disaster that happened last night. Though from what I know of Declan, he
will only let me live in this land of denial for so long.
“Would you want to go into town with me?”
The question is so surprising, I actually sit up, escaping his hold.
He clearly takes my reaction as a negative one, splaying both hands in
the air in front of him. “Or not. I could drop you off at Lake’s while I run
errands.”
With a long exhale, I lean into him. “I was just surprised, is all. I’d love
to go to town.”
Declan blushes. The grown man who speaks almost exclusively in
grunts turns pink. “It’s nothing great. I told Shawn that I’d try to bring you
by the bakery since Jules has been dying to meet you. Then I need to stop at
the station to check in with the guys. Normally I’d be working tonight, but
they can handle it without me.”
With a mixture of gratitude and guilt swirling inside me, I squeeze his
bicep. “It sounds perfect. But if you have to work, that’s okay. I’m a big
girl. I can hang out here alone.”
Declan’s no is immediate. “I know you can, but you shouldn’t have to.”
Heart lifting, I smile. “Thank you. Can I have my coffee now?”
As promised, our first stop is Jules’ Bakery. If I wasn’t already smitten with
this town, this magical heaven would have sealed the deal. From the pink
walls to the checkered floor to the adorable donut signs—my favorites
being Donut worry, be happy and Donut stop believing—I adore every inch
of this space.
And don’t get me started on the actual donuts. Declan informed me that
this is where he got the donuts the first morning after I came. Naturally, I
giggled and asked if there was a plural version of the word came, because
Cade made it happen multiple times. Declan blushed again, and I swear my
damn heart floated in my chest.
After I discovered that Jules’s blueberry donuts are what made her
famous, there was no question about which kind I’d order. As I devour it—I
can see why she’s known for the recipe; it’s incredible—I can’t help but feel
Declan’s heavy stare.
“So,” he hedges. “We need to talk about last night.”
“Not supposed to talk with food in my mouth.” With a grin, I take a
giant bite.
The glower he directs at me is oddly comforting.
“There’s video,” he says evenly.
A phantom pain, the sensation of Jason’s fingers digging into my arm,
flashes in my mind. The way he slammed me against the wall grips me, and
my heart drops when I remember the slap. From that moment on, the
encounter is a blur. The marks I found on my body this morning when I got
out of the shower are evidence enough of what happened, but video? I
shudder at the thought of ever seeing it.
Cold dread seizes me then, at the memory of how Declan slammed
Jason against the wall. How he held him up by his neck so his toes dangled
off the floor and the color drained from his face.
“No,” I say resolutely.
Frowning, Declan ducks down and catches my gaze. “No what?”
“If there’s video of what he did, there’s video of what you did,” I
whisper, scanning the small shop to make sure no one is watching us.
“Is this the first time he’s hurt you?”
My stomach sinks at the question. At his knowing expression.
“You’re hiding here for a reason. He’s obviously part of it, but is there
more?”
Lips pressed together tightly, I shake my head. I’m not doing this now.
Not here. Maybe not ever.
How do I explain that I told people I thought would support me, help
me? That I told my family, and they didn’t believe me? That he was my
agent, so it wasn’t as easy as just walking away? It all seems absurd now.
Excuses I made so that I didn’t have to make a difficult decision. Though
eventually I did when I turned to Ford and asked for help.
Declan covers my hand with his, his palm warm and rough. It’s then I
realize my hands are trembling. “There is video. He can’t lie about what
happened. There is no other version of the truth.”
“But you—”
“I did what I did, and I’d do it again.” He strokes my hand with his
thumb. “I’m not worried about explaining my actions. Or answering for
them. So you tell me what you want to do, and we’ll make it happen.”
His expression is softer than I thought possible, his brown eyes
imploring me to do what I need. The comfort I find in a man I barely know
is unexplainable, and yet…
“I want to file a report,” I admit. I don’t think I’d have been able to even
utter those words if not for the strength he’s giving me by holding my hand,
by simply sitting quietly with me.
His eyes warm with affection. “Okay, let me make some calls.”
Declan sits beside me in his office, a pillar of unwavering support, while the
detective from Boston takes my statement. I have a feeling I have Beckett
Langfield to thank for the police officer’s willingness to drive out here to
speak to me.
Either way, I tearfully walk through each detail of last night’s
altercation. Though I’m swamped with trepidation, I detail every incident I
can think of, each time he hurt me. A broken ankle from being pushed down
the stairs—he claimed I tripped while we were fighting, but I can still feel
him leaning close, and I can still hear the hiss of his breath as he pressed a
palm to my back and uttered the words “stupid bitch” as I was catapulted
forward. Or the time he slammed me into the wall after one of my shows.
For a week, there was this awful ringing in my ear that he blamed on my
drinking. He couldn’t explain away trying to rape me, though. By that point,
I’d had writer’s block for months. The stress of our toxic relationship made
it impossible for any creativity to bloom. When he held me down and told
me he’d give me something to write about, even as I begged him to stop, I
knew there was no turning back. Our relationship was over. I kneed him in
the balls and ran out of his apartment.
After hiding out at a hotel for two nights, I stupidly ran straight to my
mother’s house. I was desperate. Distraught. But Jason had already
poisoned my family against me. He’d shown up with some sob story about
how I’d had too much to drink and had accused him of awful things. He
said he knew we needed a break and asked my mother to give me my
things.
At the top of the box full of things, Jason had left my music journal. It
was full of every song I’d ever written, lyrics and notes, my soul bled into
every page. The relief I felt to hold it in my hands was short-lived, because
when I opened it, I discovered he had taken a marker to every page. It was
unreadable. Destroyed.
I left my mother’s house even more broken than when I had come.
I don’t say any of this to the detective, though. I keep it straightforward.
Detailing the abuse. The attempted rape. Last night’s events.
When the detective asks why I didn’t report Jason’s behavior before—
yes, that’s how he words it—Declan grips my knee beneath his desk and
says, “I’ve got someone coming in for a meeting any minute. I assume
that’s enough information for now?”
As Declan walks the man out of the office, mortification eats at me,
tearing me into pieces. I’m a twenty-eight-year-old woman with more than
enough resources, and still, I was too afraid to go to the police. Too worried
they’d believe Jason over me.
And why wouldn’t they? My own family did.
Women who report their abusers are the strongest people in the world to
me, but women who don’t aren’t coward. Why is it that a woman’s
character is questioned based upon her reaction to a man’s bad behavior?
Until you are in the situation, it’s impossible to know what you’d do.
“You ready to go home?” Declan asks as he steps back into his office,
hand gripped tight on the door handle.
Disappointment swells inside me. He has to work, and he can’t babysit
me all day. But I don’t want to be alone in an empty house, and I don’t think
I can face Lake right now. I don’t want to talk about last night, and I don’t
want to think about Jason or how close I came to being seriously hurt.
And what if Jason tries something again, and Declan isn’t there? A
shudder works its way down my spine at the idea.
“Would it be okay if I hung around the station for the afternoon? I
promise I’ll stay out of the way.”
Declan loosens his hold on the door handle. “You sure? I don’t mind
taking you home.”
I try to hide my wince. I’m being so damn needy. “Yup. You won’t even
know I’m here.” I stand from his chair and walk toward the door, forcing a
smile to my face.
For the next few hours, I leave Declan alone. He’s clearly busy, because
he doesn’t come out of his office all afternoon. That doesn’t mean I’m left
alone, though.
While I’m pulling a bottle of water out of the fridge, Shawn Chase—the
ex-baseball player turned firefighter, and Jules’s boyfriend—appears and
introduces me to all the guys on shift. Then he invites me to read along with
their book club and helps me download their current read onto my phone so
I can join their discussion later in the week.
I spend the next few hours reading about two hockey players who fall
for the same girl. When one of them tells her he doesn’t want to fight with
his friend over her, my stomach tightens, and at the word share, I close the
Kindle app and stand from the comfy couch in the lounge.
My imagination is running wild. Declan has been nothing but kind to
me, and the last thing he deserves is to be the center of some taboo fantasy.
Cade is there, too, of course—how could he not be?—but he’d probably
like the idea of it.
Needing a distraction, I step out into the bay. The guys are busy
cleaning and organizing out here, so I stand off to one side and watch. I
glance up at Declan’s office, only to find him standing at the glass wall,
arms crossed, wearing a frown. He’s occupied with looking out over the
bay, so I take a moment to study him unnoticed, relishing the freedom to
take in all his rugged features. His cheeks are covered in a dark scruff, his
jaw hard. Though his lips are almost always set in a straight line, his mouth
is wide, and his lips are full. It’s impossible not to imagine pressing mine
against them. I don’t see him being an aggressive kisser like Cade. Despite
his gruff exterior, I think Cade is right. Declan would be gentle with me.
The thought of Cade’s aggressive lovemaking, his dirty, hot mouth on my
neck, and Declan’s soft tongue stroking against my lips has my cheeks
burning.
Clearly, the book is getting to me.
I force my attention down to the floor in front of me, and an instant
later, I feel Declan’s gaze settle on me. I don’t dare look up. Instead, I round
a fire truck, my chest rising and falling with heavy breaths, and hide from
his scrutiny.
An hour later, I’m playing cards with the guys who work for Declan.
Shawn seems like a genuinely nice guy. Colby is the obvious playboy of the
group. I swear he winks more than he blinks, reminding me a hell of a lot of
Cade. Mason wears a plaid button-down open over his BFD T-shirt and a
scowl. I can imagine that he and Declan enjoy not talking to one another
often. Dane is a single dad of twin boys he talks about practically nonstop.
It’s adorable.
But it’s been hours since Declan has interacted with anyone. He just
remains in his office, and I have absolutely no idea what the hell he does up
there.
“Did you seriously just win another round?” Colby asks as I lay down
my last match.
“It’s Go Fish,” Mason grumbles, shifting in his chair.
I laugh for what feels like the first time in days. It bubbles out of me,
and when it hits, I can’t stop it. Shawn and Colby are smiling, and Mason,
of course, is still scowling when the door upstairs scrapes open.
On instinct, I search for the man I can’t stop thinking about. He appears
at the floor-to-ceiling window overlooking the bay again, zeroing in on me
with a small frown.
I hold up a handful of cards and shriek, “I won!”
In response, his lips tug upward into a real smile.
My body is moving before I have the chance to overthink this. “Be right
back, boys. I’m going to gloat.”
“I’ll start on dinner,” Mason says, pushing from his chair.
As I scurry across the space, I keep my focus fixed on that smile waiting
for me upstairs. I lose sight of him when I hit the stairwell, and by the time I
make it up, he’s moved back into his office. He probably expects to be left
alone again, but my restraint is gone. I can’t explain the way I’m constantly
being pulled toward Declan, like he’s the sun, and I’m caught in his orbit,
but I can’t deny the urge to seek him out, to demand his attention. Under his
watchful gaze, I feel safer, more at ease, than I’ve ever experienced.
I tap on the door but don’t wait for him to answer before I step into his
office. When he looks up from his desk and zeroes in on me, my breathing
stops. Why is it that when his brows pull together, almost like he’s annoyed,
my blood heats?
“You ready to go home?”
With my lip caught between my teeth, I wander toward him. “Are you?”
His forehead creases as he studies me. “I’m good with whatever you
want to do.”
I perch myself against his desk, right next to his chair. He has to tilt his
head back to maintain eye contact.
“Are you done with work?”
“Melina—”
“Why do you always call me that?” I ask, frowning.
Declan doesn’t make a smart-ass comment about how it is my name,
after all. Instead, he regards me silently, his expression full of sincerity.
“Because that’s who you are to me.”
My heart clenches. I’m certain he’s the only person who can see through
my façade to the real me. Sometimes not even Lake can tell when I’m
wearing a mask. But Declan? It’s like our souls connect on another level.
Cade may have my heart, but I think Declan has my soul.
Is it possible to fall for two people at the same time? To want them in
different ways but also recognize that without one, the other couldn’t make
me whole?
I don’t know how else to explain it. When I’m with Declan, I’m safer,
more comfortable, than I’ve ever been. But thoughts of Cade give me
butterflies. He’s exciting, while Declan grounds me. But who am I to them?
Based on the interactions I’ve observed between them, it’s hard not to
wonder whether they’re the soulmates, and I’m the distraction.
I barely know them. They barely know me. But there is no denying that
they are incredibly important to one another.
“Everyone else calls me Mel,” I mumble, as if he doesn’t know that.
He nods, his eyes swimming with confusion as they dart from my face
to where I’m propped up on his desk and back again.
“What else am I to you?” Vulnerability leaches into my tone in a way I
wish I had the ability to hide.
Declan doesn’t shy away from the rawness of the question. He doesn’t
look away.
The tension between us grows as I wait for his response. Lips parted, he
angles forward.
My heart rate ratchets up.
Is he going to pull me onto his lap? Kiss me?
I want him to. God, I want to feel his lips against mine. I want him to
own me with his mouth. I’d give him everything.
At the shrill sound of my phone ringing, he lurches back, and his
expression goes blank.
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Cade
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Declan
Clenching my fist, I drop my head and give it a shake. No, I’ll work the
whole weekend. It’s safer. Smarter.
I’m so in my head that I don’t notice that Melina has appeared until she
wraps her arms around my waist and presses her cheek against my back.
I’m so taken aback by the move that I don’t pull away.
“You’re up early,” she says with a gentle squeeze.
I shouldn’t wrap my arm behind me and hold her there, but I do. And
with one hand on her to hold her steady, I turn and take in the woman who
is slowly unraveling me. “Was just texting with Cade.”
She smiles up at me without even an ounce of guilt or apprehension
over the way she’s touching me while talking about him. “You were texting
with Cade, or Cade was texting you, and you were grunting at your phone?”
I will my face to remain impassive, but her teasing smile and the
general joy she finds in my grumpiness make it hard not to smirk. With my
hands laced behind her back, I heave out a breath. “He answered his own
question before I could come up with a response.”
Snorting, she pulls away. I’m not ready to let her go.
“Because you were really going to reply.”
“I’ve replied to him all week,” I argue, pulling two mugs from the
cabinet.
She takes one and fills it, then doctors her coffee so it’s just how she
likes it—extra sweet. “What did he have to say this morning?”
“Just mentioned making plans for the weekend with you.”
Smiling, she cups her mug with both hands. “That’s thoughtful. So what
are we doing?”
I turn away from her affection, tamping down on the effect her words
have on me. “He wants to take you out to dinner. I’ll be working all
weekend, so you’ll have the house to yourselves.”
“Declan—” Her voice comes out soft, full of pity.
Irrational anger bubbles under my skin. There’s no need to feel sorry for
me. I’ve watched plenty of people fall in love over the years. My sister. The
guys at the station. This is nothing different. I knew Cade would eventually
meet someone.
Just never thought I’d have feelings for the woman too.
“I have to head to the station,” I say without turning around. “Want me
to drop you at Lake’s on my way?”
She doesn’t respond, and the silence bleeds for so long that I don’t have
a choice but to turn around and look at her.
She assesses me with those green eyes of hers, then shakes her head.
“No. She’s picking me up. We’re getting our nails done.”
I nod. That’s good. Less time alone with Melina is good.
Then why do I feel like I’ve been kicked in the gut?
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Melina
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Declan
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Melina
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Cade
His reply comes so quickly that the dots don’t even dance.
Declan: I’m not uncomfortable.
Declan: But you need to tell me if you get uncomfortable.
I huff a laugh and rough a hand over my mouth. That won’t happen.
There’s nothing he could do to her that I wouldn’t be totally on board
with. Just the thought of him touching her has me so hard I can barely
breathe.
Me: FaceTime me when you guys are ready.
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Melina
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Declan
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Cade
I WASN’T the least bit surprised when Declan saw me between Mel’s
thighs, grew about ten inches, and then disappeared, claiming he had to get
to work.
He wasn’t ready. Maybe he never will be.
I can’t deny, though, that I’d hoped he’d at least be open to fooling
around with us. Because watching him and Mel last night? It was so
fucking hot.
But a small part of me—the part that spent decades fighting this
unreasonable crush—knew that I couldn’t handle it if we took things too
far, only for Declan to pull back and decide he didn’t want it. Didn’t want
me.
And really, why would he?
He’s never given me any reason to hope. Any reason to believe that he
would ever want me that way.
Mel herself is truly enough. The taste of them together, though? The
sounds they made while he fucked her? It was otherworldly.
A vision I dream about but will never truly have.
I make peace with that.
Eventually.
Right now, I’m balls deep in Mel, thrusting and cursing as she squeezes
around me every time I remind her of what I heard this morning.
“Bet you were a fucking dream, riding him like that.” Thrust. “Your tits
bouncing.” Squeeze. “Your pussy clenched him so tight he saw stars, didn’t
it?” Roll.
With a flick to her clit, I drag one of her legs up so her calf is resting on
my shoulder. Fuck, the deeper angle is almost enough to send me over the
edge. “And you let him have you bare.”
She’s panting, biting down on her swollen lip as she rolls her hips
against me, seeking more.
I’m in a condom. I was too impatient to have the safe-sex talk first
thing, though I intend to fuck her bare once I’ve confirmed we’re all good
with it.
Declan was reckless this morning. Though I know he’s been safe, he has
no idea what the fuck I’ve done.
Who I’ve done.
Even if it’s only been Mel since I met her.
If I have my way, it’ll only be her for a long fucking time.
And the last person to have her before Declan was me.
The image of him thrusting into her has me teetering on the edge of
losing control.
“Come for me, Trouble. Squeeze my cock just like you did his, and then
I’m going to come across these hot tits.”
The color in her cheeks deepens. She arches her back, head tilted up,
and screams out my name, coming apart at the seams. I grit my teeth,
working her through her orgasm until she’s finished pulsing around me.
Then I pull out of her, toss the condom to the floor, and jack myself over
her. Images of the two of them flit through my mind as my impending
orgasm looms. And as I realize that Declan’s and Mel’s moans filled this
room only a little while earlier, I come across her chest in spurts, painting
her with my pleasure.
“Holy. Fucking. Shit,” Mel chants, her chest rising and falling rapidly.
Chuckling, I slump onto my side next to her.
“Is there such a thing as too much pleasure?” she huffs, though she’s
smiling. “Because shit…you boys are killing me.”
With a laugh, I bite down on my lip. She’s so goddamn beautiful. So
perfect. I blow out a breath and jump out of bed. Fuck, I’m at a loss for
what to do with this feeling in my chest, the way my ribcage is strangling
my heart. If I lie beside her any longer, I may blurt out something I can’t
take back.
Still reeling, I grab a washcloth—the one Dec brought out, only to find
me cleaning Mel up myself—and run my tongue along my lips, savoring
that taste.
Declan. Melina. Them.
I wet the cloth again, warming it, then stride back to the bed. Kneeling
on the mattress beside this beautiful woman, I delicately swipe at her skin.
When her green eyes flutter and she smiles that knowing smile of hers,
my cheeks heat.
“Fuck,” I curse out through clenched teeth. “You’re so perfect. So much
trouble, but so fucking perfect.” Dipping low, I swipe my tongue across her
lips, then dip into her mouth.
I can’t just kiss this girl. A press of our lips would never be enough.
When I kiss her, the need to devour her overwhelms me. Her moans, her
whimpers, her thoughts. I want them all.
“Did you enjoy yourself?” I pull back, giving myself space to breathe.
As much as I’m willing to risk my heart, I’m not willing to risk hers. If
she’s catching feelings for Declan, we may have a problem, because Declan
doesn’t do feelings.
Then again, who the fuck am I to talk? He’d probably be better at the
whole relationship thing than me. Not that either of us has ever been in one.
God, we’re a mess.
“Let’s see,” she teases, tapping her finger against her chin. “I got fucked
by not one, but two hot men, and I’ve come four times already this
morning. Yeah,” she says, “I’d say I enjoyed myself.”
Despite the lightness her snark always brings, there’s still a niggle of
doubt in my mind. “You know what I mean.”
I settle beside her again and pull her to my chest, hoping she can sense
how much this means to me. That it’s so much more than just sex. Silently
urging her to understand that I can be the person she talks to, the person she
feels comfortable enough with to share more than just her bed.
“Did you enjoy yourself?” she asks, hitting the real issue here. Declan.
Me. Declan and me. Whatever the fuck that is.
I lace our fingers and pull them to my lips, keeping my gaze on her. “I
loved watching him fuck you, if that’s what you’re asking.”
She smiles. “I loved it too.”
Heat builds inside me at the satisfied look on her face. “He stretch you
differently?”
Blushing, she sinks her teeth into her lip.
I loom over her, tickling her side. “He did, didn’t he?”
She giggles, her cheeks darkening further. “He’s got a really thick
cock.”
I groan, awash in heady desire at the memory of exactly how that thick
cock looked when he fisted it last night.
“And yours? It’s so fucking big it hits me in just the right place,” she
rasps.
Balls aching, I claim her mouth. Damn. The more she talks about my
best friend, the harder I get. Pretty sure I could fuck this woman all day.
“So you’re saying you need two cocks?” I bite down on her lip and suck
it into my mouth.
“No,” she moans when I release her, rolling her hips against me. “I’m
saying I need your two cocks.”
That’s all it takes to destroy all sense of control. With a grunt, I rut
against her, sliding my cock through her wet heat.
“You want his, don’t you?” she whispers as she grabs ahold of my cock
and squeezes, holding me in place.
I shake my head, a confusing mix of disappointment and desire swirling
inside me. “Dec’s not like that.”
Mel smiles. “And if he was?”
“Trouble, Mel. You are so much trouble.”
“Tell me your fantasy, Cade, and I’ll put you inside me bare too.” She
runs the tip of my cock along her slit, then holds me at her entrance,
squeezing tight.
“I’m safe,” I tell her.
She smiles, her eyes warm and soft. “I know.”
My heart pangs. Fuck. I really like this girl.
With a brow arched, she licks her lips. “Now tell me.”
Whimpering, I let my mind go wild, sorting through all the things I’d do
if the feelings were reciprocated.
My mouth waters as I imagine settling my hands on his thighs. The hair
on his legs coarse against my palms, his cock jutting out.
“I’d tell you to sit on his face, and I’d watch as he ate you.”
Her grin widens, her breaths picking up just a little. “What else?”
“I’d slide down his shorts to see how hard he was from your taste.”
She pushes me inside her, just an inch.
“He’d be rock hard,” she whispers. “Just like you are right now.”
My tongue tingles. “There’d be a bead of precum on the tip of his cock
because he’s so turned on by you,” I tell her.
Moaning, she slides me in another inch.
“I’d stick out my tongue and taste it.”
“He’d whimper between my legs.” Digging her fingers into my ass, she
pulls me into her with more force than I thought she was capable of, taking
my entire length in one move.
A zap of electricity shoots up my spine. “I’d suck him to the back of my
throat.”
“He’d thrust up into your mouth. He tastes so good, Cade, and he loves
it rough.”
We’re fucking with abandon now. Rutting against one another as we
dream about the man who’s already left. The man who’s too scared to let
any of this happen.
The man we both want.
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Melina
Lake: Hi! It’s me. Your best friend. You ever leaving that sex
dungeon?
Me: LOL. It’s not a sex dungeon. Cade just got here this a.m.
Lake: Are you telling me nothing’s happened with the chief?
Lake: Okay, I read that like six times, and this momma brain
isn’t sure if you’re confirming or denying that something is
going on with Declan.
Lake: Hello?
Lake: Melina?
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Declan
WORKING side by side with Colby, the rookie, I run the cloth over
the truck until it shines. I never do this. Washing our fire engine is a job
reserved for the new guys. My job is to be in my office. To talk to the
mayor. To attend functions. To delegate.
But today I need to work off my stress. My usual method, with rope, is
out of the question. Just the idea is steeped in thoughts and visions of the
two people I’m currently trying not to think about.
What the hell was I thinking, using my escape with them?
“I don’t know if I could share like that, Cap,” Colby says to Dane.
On my other side, Dane grunts. “I’ll give my wife to anyone who will
take her.”
Colby laughs, but the comment leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Dane
and his wife have been having troubles, and I can’t say I like the woman
even a little, but that isn’t what has my stomach souring.
Shawn appears out of nowhere and slaps me on the back. “They’re
talking about our book for book club.”
I roll my eyes. That’s what has me squirming. “Is there nowhere safe?”
“Nope,” Mason grumbles.
Mason may be the one person here who talks less than I do. Though
I’ve heard rumors that he has no trouble rambling to the reindeer on his
farm and the kittens that never seem to age.
“But we promised Mel we wouldn’t talk about it until tomorrow,”
Shawn adds, cocking a brow and pinning Colby with a look.
This is the book Melina is reading along with them?
Turning, I take a step closer to Dane. If Colby heard me, he wouldn’t
know how to stay quiet. Everything about the kid is loud. “Sharing?”
Shawn leans in—apparently that single word wasn’t quiet enough. “I
told you to ask Mel about it.”
I affect the impassive expression I perfected years ago and look between
the two of them, waiting for an explanation.
Dane chuckles. “Two best friends fall for the same woman.”
Despite my flat look, heat creeps up my neck, so I turn, hoping like hell
they don’t notice. “So they share her?” I ask in what I hope is an even tone,
keeping my attention focused on the truck.
Shawn chuckles. “I don’t give spoilers. Ya gotta read the book. But…”
His pause has me turning to face him.
Fucker is smiling that damn knowing smile. “Mel already asked if she
could pick the next one and told me in it, the guys don’t just share her.”
I scowl. “What the hell does that mean?”
He shrugs. “Ask Mel.”
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Cade
WITH HER LIP pulled between her teeth, Mel studies her phone,
then taps the screen like she’s sending a text. All afternoon, we’ve strolled
down Hope Street, perusing the shops and admiring the Christmas
decorations in each one. Mel has purchased at least one thing from every
store, like she wants to support the shop owners, and she’s only too happy
to talk to each one of them, taking her time to smile for pictures when they
ask and asking questions about the history of each place.
Between shops, she creates stories about each couple we pass. Made-up
tidbits that are so detailed, I’d swear they were true if I didn’t actually know
most of the people she’s spinning complex stories about.
“Something making you smile?” Or someone? That’s what I really want
to ask. I’m greedy. I’d rather not share those smiles with anyone but Dec.
She turns the phone to face me, showing me the message thread.
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Declan
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Melina
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Declan
I WAKE up with Melina wrapped around me. I give myself ten minutes
to hold her, and when I force myself to get up, I roll her into Cade’s arms
and drop a kiss to her shoulder.
This is easily the most insane morning of my life, because I’m not
freaking out in the least. After tying my best friend up, edging him for
almost an hour, then coming all over his cock, I’m completely calm and can
admit that it was the goddamn hottest night of my life.
After we finished, I untied him and kissed each indentation left behind.
By the time I’d gotten to them all, he and Melina were asleep. Only then did
I close my eyes and drift off too.
For as outrageous as the whole scenario was, it couldn’t have been more
perfect.
I’m half hard just thinking about the marks he wears on his body. The
evidence of what we did.
Despite how turned on I am, apprehension slithers through me as I pour
myself a cup of coffee. I don’t have the first clue what to expect today. Will
we fuck again? Will it get awkward? Will Cade leave?
My chest pinches at the mere thought of him going.
“Making breakfast?” he asks, his voice scratchy. As he steps into the
kitchen naked, he yawns, arms outstretched and dick bobbing between his
legs. No fucking shame.
“Didn’t want to put on clothes?” I tease as I turn and prop myself up
against the counter.
Grinning, he circles his hips, making his cock swing ridiculously.
“Couldn’t find clothes. Besides, this thing is beautiful.”
Heat licks up my spine as I allow myself to take him in. He’s long and
thick, even when he’s not aroused. I’ve never been turned on by the thought
of another man’s dick, but Cade’s? Fuck, I can’t take my eyes off it.
Chuckling, I walk past him, determined to find a pair of shorts he can
slip on so I’m not so distracted.
He stops me with a hand to my waist. “I was thinking,” he mumbles,
stepping up closer. “You should be naked too.”
When I meet his eyes, he’s smirking. “Oh yeah? And why is that?”
“It’ll be easier for me to suck your cock that way.”
My body heats, but I hold steady. “Melina’s still sleeping.” Not sure
why, but it feels relevant.
“She is,” Cade says with a smirk. “Think you can be loud enough to
wake her up?”
Without waiting for a response, he tugs my shorts down and drops to his
knees.
Blood rushes to my cock so quickly, I sway on my feet, lightheaded.
From the floor, he peers up at me and takes me in his hand. “Do you
remember your colors?”
“Fuck you,” I laugh as tingles course down my spine and into my balls.
“I’m serious, baby,” he says, stroking my shaft. “Tell me green, and I’ll
swallow this fat cock right now.”
Dropping my head back, I groan. “Oh, fuck.”
“Say it, Dec. Say please, and I’ll make you see stars.”
His hooded blue eyes are my undoing. My body heats as I stare down
into them. Are we really doing this? Fucking the same girl is one thing.
Touching one another with her in the room takes it a little farther, but still,
it’s about her.
Kissing him certainly crossed a thousand lines, but still, she was there.
Right now, it’s just the two of us.
Am I ready for this?
Even as I ask the question, I know the answer.
I’m ready for this. We’re ready for this.
“Please, baby.” I stroke his cheek as I slide my dick across his lips,
painting them with precum. “Let me fuck your mouth.”
His tongue darts out, licking up my arousal. “My pleasure.” He slides
his lips over my crown, and I get lost in the wet heat of his mouth.
Pleasure washes over me, and my eyes roll back. It’s not just the feel.
It’s the vision. The truth and the history behind all of this. The man I’ve
been captivated by for far too long is sucking me down. He takes me
deeper, using more suction than I’ve ever experienced.
Grasping his hair, I pull him closer and fuck his face. I’m rough, and
he’s gagging, but I don’t stop. If anyone can take it, it’s him.
I don’t slow when Melina appears, wearing nothing but my shirt. Arm
outstretched, I beckon her, needing her close. Our girl doesn’t hesitate. If
anything, her expression is full of intrigue. As she steps up beside us, I stop
thrusting for a moment so I can set her on the counter.
“This okay?” I need to know she’s on board with my feelings for my
best friend. I need her, but now that I’ve opened the door, there’s no
stopping my need for him too. He’s in my blood, and now that I’ve tasted
his lips, felt his heart beat, and rubbed my cock against his, there is no
going back.
Melina’s smile is warm and full of affection. “Best way to wake up.”
A laugh rumbles from my chest. “Tell me about it.”
Cade sucks me deep again, and like he promised, stars dance in my
vision. With a hand on the counter for balance, I rest my head against hers
and watch Cade work, licking and swallowing and jacking me with his
hand.
With a pop, he releases me and shoots me a taunting grin. “Color?”
“Green, baby,” I say as he circles his thumb over my head. “So fucking
green.”
“I can’t wait to make you scream yellow,” he warns, his voice rough.
My balls tighten and my spine tingles. Me fucking too.
As Cade swallows me down again, I devour Melina’s mouth. This is
audacious. My best friend is sucking my cock while the woman of my
dreams tangles her tongue with mine. There isn’t a luckier bastard in the
world.
“Fuck, this is so hot,” Melina whimpers, squirming on the countertop.
“Get down, sweetheart.” I loop an arm around her waist and slide her to
the edge. “Let Cade fuck you while you finish me off.”
Eyes on me, she drops to her hands and knees, ass out, and waits for
Cade to fill her.
With a kiss to the head of my cock, he backs up. “She gets to drink you
down today, but next time, your cum is mine.”
While I’m doing everything I can to rein in the orgasm threatening to
overtake me, he lines himself up and thrusts deep. In unison, they groan. He
weaves a hand through her hair and tugs so her mouth meets my dick. With
all she has, she takes me into her mouth and sucks me good.
It’s filthy and hot, and we come within seconds of one another.
Fuck, I never want this weekend to end.
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Declan
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Melina
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Cade
With a laugh, I shake my head and navigate out of the thread to pull up
a new one so I can shoot our right winger a text separately.
My chest tightens. The rest of the guys don’t know yet, but War’s life has
gone through an enormous change over the last few months, and it all took
a dramatic turn two weeks ago. It’s not my story to tell, but he could use a
friend. As much as I don’t want to leave Dec’s, I may need to head back to
Boston to see if I can help him.
So many of our friends and colleagues have settled down recently,
leaving only a handful of single guys who still go out after games. Daniel
and Camden, the young fucks, scour the bar for their nightly conquests
pretty quickly, then disappear. War seems to have lost interest in the
meaningless hookups, and I have too, choosing instead to be War’s
sounding board. Guy needs it, and to be honest, it’s felt good to be needed.
The more we talked, the more I realized that maybe I could see myself
settling down with someone.
Me: want me to head your way? Happy to hang with you and
the kids or watch them for a bit so you can get out.
War: Nah. I’m good.
Me: promise?
War: yeah, I’ve got a plan. I’ll fill you in next week.
“What should we do until Melina gets home?” Dec asks, instantly garnering
my attention like he does every time he walks into a room.
When I take him in, my heart trips over itself. Will I ever look at this
man and not feel this way? God, I hope not. He makes me feel alive. Like I
have a purpose. Even if it’s merely to entertain him. The things I would do
to make him smile…
I pocket my phone and focus on the man in front of me. War would tell
me if he needed me.
Declan’s fresh from the shower, his dark hair damp and his scruff neatly
trimmed, wearing a pair of black athletic shorts and a long-sleeve Bolts T. I
like seeing him in my team’s colors way too fucking much.
“Want to watch football?” I ask. “Notre Dame plays at one.”
It’s just another normal Saturday. That’s what I tell myself, anyway. So
what if I was on my knees for him a couple of hours ago? So what if I know
what his lips taste like? He’s still Declan, my best friend, and on Saturdays,
we watch college football.
If I don’t focus on keeping things normal, I’m liable to beg him to join
me in the bedroom. Now that I know how he feels rutting against me, I
could spend hours doing nothing but fucking around.
We have a ton of shit to figure out first. Namely, how to be the people
we were this morning while still being who we’ve always been, because I
can’t lose us.
He grunts. “That works. Should I order food?”
I give him a simple nod, and he’s off to order. We don’t have to discuss
what we want, because we always order the same thing when we watch
football. Overloaded nachos, wings, and beer. These are the only cheat
meals I allow myself.
Declan may be disciplined in most things, but food ain’t one of them.
Ironic, since my food plans are about the only rules I do follow.
I pull two beers from the fridge and am popping the caps when he ends
the call.
“Food will be here in about forty-five minutes,” he says, taking a bottle
from me.
“Fine by me. I feel like we just ate.”
“I know I did.”
Head thrown back, I bark out a laugh. Fuck, it feels good joking around
with Dec. About sex, no less.
“You think she’s having a good time?” I ask as I settle at my usual spot
on the couch.
He’s frozen in the middle of the room, surveying me, his expression
unreadable. Damn, what I’d give for the ability to read him like Mel can.
With a sigh, he settles into his normal chair. “Yeah. I think spending
time with the girls is good for her,” he says. “She tell you how things are
going with her family?”
“Not really,” I admit, trying not to feel defeated. “Think she talks more
freely with you.”
“I’ve just been around more since she came to Bristol,” he says,
obviously trying to make me feel better by downplaying their connection.
“No. I think she feels safe with you.”
I may wish she felt as safe with me as she does with him, but I can’t
fault him for that. And I get it. Declan’s the protector. He makes me feel
safe too. Always has.
“The night she came to see you at the game, her cousin tried to warn her
about her ex. But she’d turned off the phone because her family was doing
some annual Christmas thing. She was disappointed she couldn’t be there.”
My chest tightens with sadness. Fuck. I’d do anything to keep her from
being disappointed or sad. “Any idea what kind of Christmas thing?”
He shrugs. “No.”
For a moment, he’s silent, and I figure that one-word response is all I’ll
get.
As I’m filing away the mention of the family Christmas activity,
figuring I’ll ask Mel later, Declan says, “You think she’s happy?”
There’s no fighting my smile. My best friend is a fool for her. I’m
enthralled by Mel, yeah, but I’ve never seen Declan like this with anyone.
“Yeah, I think she’s happy.”
“You don’t think she—” He rakes a hand through his hair, grimacing.
I stay quiet, allowing him time to put his thoughts into words.
“You think she’s okay with—” He points between us.
My smile turns into a grin so big, my cheeks ache. “I think she’s more
than satisfied.”
He nods slowly, his expression guarded. “And are you…satisfied?”
With my elbows on my knees and my hands clasped between them, I
lick my lips and nod. Damn. This man, who was always so confident, so put
together, so straight, is being vulnerable with me, and it thrills me in the
best way.
“Yeah, Dec, I’m satisfied.”
He lets out a slow breath and settles deeper into his chair. I figure he’s
done talking. We’ve talked more today than we normally do in a month, but
he surprises me with yet another question.
“Are we supposed to be, like, holding hands or talking about our
feelings?”
I cough out a laugh. He’s just as bad at this as I am. “I mean, I was
really hoping to watch football, but if you want, we can.”
He shakes his head and rolls his eyes. “Fuck, I’m awkward. Just ignore
me.”
“The last thing you are is awkward, Dec. And it would be impossible to
ignore you.”
His eyes light up. “Yeah?”
I laugh. “Yeah. But seriously, we can just be us. On Saturdays, we eat an
absurd amount of food and watch football. That doesn’t have to change.”
He brings his beer to his lips and takes a long sip, studying me the
whole time. “So,” he says, setting the bottle down, “just when Melina’s
around?”
Does he think I’m setting boundaries? I don’t mean to be setting
boundaries. I just want him to be comfortable, but fuck, if he wants to hold
my hand or talk, then what the hell am I doing all the way over here?
I set my beer down on the coaster on the end table and lean forward,
elbows on my knees. “If Mel were here, I’d probably have pulled her onto
my lap already and slipped my hand down her pants.”
Declan nods like that makes total sense.
“And you’d be hard as a rock watching us, wouldn’t you?”
With a heavy swallow, he nods.
“I’d get her off while I watched the game. Maybe you’d come over
here, kiss her neck.”
Declan adjusts himself.
Fuck.
He’s hard, just like I am. I lean back and slide my hand beneath the
waistband of my sweats. When I adjust my own dick, I position it so that
the tip just barely peeks out. I’m that fucking turned on.
Declan’s watching, his beer bottle dangling from his fingers and his lips
parted. “You’re hard.” The way he says it, the deep rumble of his voice, the
wonder in it, makes me want to stroke myself, but I don’t know that he’s
ready for a move like that.
My heart thunders in my ears. “Fucking steel.”
“If Melina were here, she’d already be on her knees.” He says it so
matter-of-factly, his focus fixed intently on me.
If I was any good at reading him, I’d think he’s contemplating what it’d
be like to do that himself.
“She would.”
He zeroes in on the bulge in my pants like he’s picturing it. Working
through something. Then he meets my eye, his expression full of
determination. “I’d like to try that.”
Holy fuck. My cock pulses at the thought of Declan’s mouth coming
anywhere near it. At the image of the man I’ve been obsessed with for
literal decades crawling over to me, settling between my legs, and taking
me into his mouth.
I’ve dreamed of fucking those lips for years. Punishing them for their
lack of words, the lack of emotion they show, their infrequent smiles.
I want him to smile at me more than goddamn anything.
“Okay.” I blow out a breath and settle my hands on my thighs, taking a
back seat, desperate for him to lead.
With a nod, Declan sets his beer down on his coaster. Then he’s walking
toward me. The sound of the coffee table scraping across the floor as he
pushes it back is jarring.
He lowers himself to his knees at my feet. The sight is a complete
mindfuck and has me weeping in my pants.
“You’re going to have to talk me through this,” he says quietly, his dark
eyes locked on mine. “I’ve never done this before.”
“Right. Yes,” I hiss.
Fuck, this is good. We’re communicating. While I assumed he’d never
been with another man, I couldn’t be totally sure. Not after the way he
controlled every move in the bedroom last night.
Now, having the powerful man who tied me up at my feet, ready and
willing to learn how to suck my cock, has me swelling with pride.
“You know what feels good, so I’m sure you’ll do just fine,” I say.
Declan smirks at that. “I like it rough. I like when Melina swallows me
down, but damn, I loved fucking your throat today.”
Heat creeps into my cheeks, and I have to look away as I smile, a low
chuckle breaking free. “I liked that too.”
Declan settles a palm on my knee, pulling my attention back to him.
“I like it rough too,” I grit out.
Declan merely nods. “I kind of assumed that.” Then, between one blink
and the next, he morphs from the unsure man who’s asked one clarifying
question after another to the confident, dominant man from last night. His
eyes have gone a little harder, his jaw set, as he considers me. Like he’s
determining exactly what I need, even as I’m stumbling through how to do
this with him. How to teach him. What to do if he changes his mind after he
starts.
“Take out your cock.” His tone is so rough, so assertive, it banishes the
racing thoughts in my mind. I pull my swollen dick from my pants, then
cant up a little and slide my shorts and boxers down.
As I slip them over my ass, he takes over and drags them to my feet.
Once he’s removed them completely, he tosses them over his shoulder. Jaw
working, he glances at my face, then back down to my groin. He takes a
deep breath, readying himself, but before he can lean down, I cuff his neck
and pull him close, kissing away my nerves and hopefully his too.
His tongue tangles with mine immediately, and for a moment, I’m lost
to this connection. To his mouth, his lips, his tongue, his taste, and the
sounds he makes as we war for control. He pushes up farther, wrapping one
hand around my neck and trailing the other down my chest, toward my
stomach. When he reaches my cock where it stands tall between us, he
squeezes and rolls his thumb over the head.
I whimper into his mouth. Fuck. I’m done for. He’s won. And all it took
was one damn touch.
“Please,” I beg, thrusting into his hand.
Nipping at my lip, he splays a hand over my pecs and pushes me into
the leather cushion. His eyes remain locked on mine as he works his fist up
and down my shaft. “That’s right, baby. Beg for it,” he demands. “Tell me
how much you want me to suck this cock.”
With my hands on either side of me, nails biting into the leather, I grind
against his hand, desperate to get closer to his mouth.
He hits me with a fierce look and shakes his head, as stubborn as ever.
“I need to hear it.”
“I do. Please. Fuck, Dec, this feels—” My mind is a jumbled mess, and
I’m coming apart at the seams. I’m so fucking gone for this man.
I want him in any way I can have him. Stolen moments on his couch,
early mornings in his kitchen, late nights with Mel between us. I want all of
him, but I’ll take any pieces he’s willing to give. If he wants me to beg, I’ll
gladly do it. “Please, Dec. Let me fuck your throat. Let me fill your mouth.
Let me in.”
Breaking out in a sinful smile, he angles low. And when he guides me
into his mouth, I see stars. He’s warm and wet, and the way he suctions is
just how I like it. Instinct has me reaching for his hair and pulling him
closer. He gags in response, so I loosen my grip and back out slowly. His
eyes are closed, and the muscles in his face are lax, like he’s content to
continue. My lack of movement hasn’t stopped him from running his
tongue along the bottom of my shaft, exploring me. Memorizing me.
Learning me.
“That’s it, baby. You’re doing so good,” I encourage.
The words settle him further. He takes me deeper and rolls my balls
tightly, just the way I like.
Probably the way he likes too. I make a mental note to try it next time.
“Fuck, you have no idea how many times I’ve thought of this.” I suck in
a harsh breath, losing myself in the moment, watching him take me,
watching him enjoy himself. Witnessing the way he comes into himself,
studying clues to determine what he likes.
And if I’m not mistaken, Declan Everhart, my grumpy asshole of a best
friend, really likes to suck my cock.
“Yes, right there. Shit, I’m close.” I can’t imagine he’s ready to dive in
so thoroughly that he wants me to come in his mouth, so I flex my abs and
pull back.
He doesn’t let me go far. He grasps my hip with a controlled hand and
holds me in place while he strokes me from root to tip and then hollows his
cheeks and sucks hard.
There’s no holding back. The violence with which he drags my orgasm
from me is impossible to contend with. I pulse in his mouth, and he moans,
deep and low, in response. God dammit. The idea that this man wants to
taste me as much as I want to fill him has me exploding. With a hand in his
hair again, tugging hard, I curse and demand he drink every last drop.
I’m still panting, and dots still dance in my vision, when he rolls his
tongue across my sensitive crown and hums in satisfaction. “Yeah, I like
that,” he mumbles, settling back on his toes and looking up at me.
I can’t help the laugh that escapes. “Fuck. Yeah. I liked that too.”
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Melina
“This is just cruel,” I whine as Declan carries me out of his bedroom and
into the kitchen. I was on my back, with Cade’s head between my legs, and
on the precipice of an orgasm, when Declan appeared in the doorway to his
bedroom to announce that dinner was ready.
“You need to eat, sweetheart. You’re going to need the sustenance for
what I have planned.”
Cade swipes at his mouth as he follows us into the kitchen. “Food
smells amazing,” he says as he drops into a chair at the table, “but I agree
with Mel: you should have let me finish my appetizer.”
Declan tosses me onto Cade’s lap, the move making the plug in my ass
shift, pulling a whimper from me and forcing me to jolt upward.
“I’ll serve the food, and then Cade can feed you while I keep you on
edge.”
Oh shit. I can’t help but smile at the prospect. Thank fuck the fun isn’t
ending yet. Not that it ever seems to when I’m with them.
Declan plates the shrimp Mozambique, which is my grandmother’s
recipe and one of my favorite meals of all times. I helped him make the
sauce, but when he told Cade to warm me up while the food simmered and
he cleaned up the kitchen, I certainly didn’t complain.
With rolls to dip and shrimp and rice on the plates in front of each guy,
Declan finally takes a seat and pats his knee for me to join him. Unlike my
position on Cade, where my weight is evenly distributed—leaving the plug
in my ass to just relax—this new position has his knee pushing it in farther.
I shift, seeking relief, but Declan splays a hand over my stomach, holding
me in place, then slides his fingers between my legs and slowly strums my
clit. I’m only wearing a T-shirt because Cade was between my thighs when
Declan so rudely interrupted us. Not that I’m sad about it anymore.
What’s odd—and maybe hotter than I’d like to admit—is the way
Declan starts up a conversation with Cade, as if I’m not even there.
“How do you feel about the games coming up this week?”
Cade dips a piece of shrimp into the sauce, and with one finger, he pulls
my bottom lip down. Then he feeds it into my mouth. As the spicy garlic
sauce explodes on my tongue, I lick at my lips to get every last drop,
moaning as I do.
“Good,” he says. “It’s taken some time to adjust to all the changes since
McGreevey retired, but I like the look of the rookies.”
Declan continues to roll circles on my clit, edging me while he eats and
sips wine and talks to Cade.
For every bite Cade takes, he feeds me as well, though he ignores the
way I thrash on Declan’s leg, desperate for him to slip a finger inside me. I
pulse with the need to be filled, and while I know there’s a method to
Declan’s madness, I’m practically delirious with the need to come.
When Cade tries to stick another piece of shrimp into my mouth, I fold
my lips and shake my head. “Enough,” I cry. “Please, I need to come. One
of you, please.” My need leaves me begging and whiney, and I don’t even
care. “Give me your cock. Hell, I’ll take your fingers or your mouths.”
Declan laughs, making my body shake, which only shifts the plug
further, making a shudder run through me. Dammit, I hate him so much in
this moment. He’s holding me hostage with his hand across my body. “You
just want one cock, sweetheart? We were going to give you two.” His words
are a rasp against my ear, and even though he’s taunting me, he slides a
single digit inside me, offering a little relief. “But if you only want one—”
He lets the words hang even as I thrash and beg.
“No,” I breathe, arching back against his shoulder. “I want you both. I
need you both.”
“Hear that, baby? She wants you to fill her ass.” He sucks on my
earlobe while Cade pushes his chair closer and pulls my legs onto his lap.
“Not going to lie, sweetheart. I’m a little jealous you get to feel him inside
you like that.”
Cade and I make strangled noises at that. Cade’s is full of shock, while
mine is a guttural need.
When Declan snags the hem of my shirt, I lift my arms to make it easier.
As it flutters to the floor beside us, I realize that Cade is still staring like
he’s lost in the idea that Declan has painted. A dream moment, where
Declan lets him fuck his ass. Or maybe being fucked by Declan. All of us
fucking one another.
The possibilities are endless, but if one of them doesn’t happen now,
I’m going to combust. No more teasing, no more edging. I need to come.
“Give her a finger,” Declan commands. “I want her first orgasm to be
ours. Just like she is.”
Cade smirks. “Hear that, pretty girl? You’re ours.” He leans forward and
works his finger in next to Declan’s, then takes my mouth.
Their fingers work in tandem, pulling moans and incoherent chants
from me. I’ve never experienced anything so hot. That is, until Declan
grabs Cade’s neck and pulls him in for a bruising kiss. Chest to chest with
Cade, his heart pounds against my sternum.
The two of them are licking and grunting in my ear, all the while
fucking me with their fingers. I’m pancaked between them, unable to move,
engulfed in their heat and loving every minute of it.
Cade pulls back, gasping.
“Play with her tits. She loves that,” Declan mumbles.
An instant later, Cade’s hot mouth is there, his teeth sinking into my
flesh, and I’m seeing stars. As an orgasm washes over me, Declan talks me
through it, his voice a deep rumble. “That’s right sweetheart, give it to us.
Soak our fingers. We need you to be a needy mess so that you can take our
cocks in all your holes.”
Screaming, I come so hard I swear I wet the floor, stars dancing in my
vision.
“Oh fuck, she squirted everywhere,” Cade mumbles, dropping to his
knees. “God, Dec—” He laps at me, desperate. “She tastes so good. You
need to try.”
He hauls himself back into his chair and pulls me onto his lap. I’m as
limp as a rag doll, unable to control my limbs. Then Declan’s leaning
forward and sucking me dry. Cade’s hands roam over my body, tweaking
my nipples, fondling me.
I swear I’m in some sort of love-drugged haze, so I have no sense of
time. Declan eats me for what could be seconds or maybe hours, and then
I’m coming again. As I come down from the high, still shaking, I’m certain
I won’t be able to make it through the night.
Declan leans back on his haunches, wiping his mouth, staring up at us
both. “Fuck, I don’t think this will ever get old. You in his arms. Watching
the two of you together. Kissing you. Pleasuring”—A slow, sexy smile
pulls at his lips—“both of you.”
Cade’s heart pounds against my back. It’s what we both want. For
Declan to want us. For Declan to want this. And god, based upon the hearts
in his eyes, I’d say we might just get our wish.
“It’s time,” I say, holding my hand out to the dark, serious man in front
of me. He takes it and stands, then pulls me from Cade’s arms and carries
me toward the bedroom. Finally, we’re all going to be one.
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CHAPTER 45
Cade
“I’M SO glad you could make time for me before heading back to
Boston,” my mother says as she pulls me in for a hug. She’s good like that,
chiding me gently while wiping away my annoyance by hugging me. My
mom gives the best hugs, and I’m most certainly in need of one after the
way I left Declan’s house.
“Of course, Ma, and I brought gifts.” I rest a hand on the small of Mel’s
back.
Beside me, she’s wearing a coy smile and holding the gifts I bought in
town, including the bouquet Amelia set aside.
“Oh, a girl? This really is a good gift,” my mother says with far too
much delight.
I chuckle, ignoring her teasing. “I mean the flowers and the limoncello.
Brought one for Andrea too. She here?” I crane my neck to look past her,
but she’s not having any of it.
“Introduce me to the girl,” she hisses, side-stepping to remain in my
field of vision. Her glare quickly turns into a smile, and then she’s focused
on Mel. “I’m Cade’s mother, and you are—”
“Is that Melina Rodriguez?” Declan’s mom asks as she materializes in
the dining room behind my mother. My parents built this home when I was
a kid, and I’ve helped Ma keep it up over the years.
“It is,” I say, pulling Mel closer. “Mel, this is my mother, Janine
Fitzgerald, and this is Declan’s mom, Andrea Everhart. Moms,” I say, not
bothering to fight my smile, “this is Mel.”
“It’s so nice to meet you both,” Mel says, holding out the bouquet to my
mother.
Mom takes it, but with a shake of her head, she stuffs it into my arms.
Then she pulls Mel in for a hug.
“Never thought I’d see the day that my son brought home a girl.”
I cough out a laugh as they embrace.
Andrea steps up and wraps her arms around Mel too. When they pull
apart, she frowns at me. “No Declan?”
“He had to work,” I say, swallowing back my annoyance.
“The boy works too much,” his mother replies, though she seems to
take the news in stride as she and my mom usher us into my childhood
home.
“He’s got an important job,” Mel says, as if she feels the need to remind
us.
I brush a kiss to her temple. “He’s right. You are a sweetheart,” I mutter.
With a small smile, I step away, taking the flowers and bottle of limoncello
to the kitchen.
“Has my son been a good host?” Andrea asks Mel as we settle around
the kitchen island, where appetizers have been laid out. “He can be pretty
reserved.”
My mother laughs. “That’s her nice way of saying that Declan talks in
grunts.”
Mel’s responding smile is tight. “He talks to me.”
I bristle with annoyance. If Declan had come to dinner, our mothers
wouldn’t be peppering Mel with all these questions.
Though it would have been a big step to show up together now that
we’re—
Fuck, what the hell are we?
My irritation melts into concern, and I find myself reaching for my
phone and texting Declan.
Me: You should see our mothers with Mel.
I stare at the screen, heart beating quickly, waiting to see that little
delivered message turn to read. When I’ve watched far longer than is polite
while in the presence of other people, I give up and stuff the device into my
pocket.
Declan doesn’t text.
With the exception of Olivia and Mel.
Even after all this time, even after all that’s transpired over the last few
days, I’m not one of his exceptions.
Why the fuck does that bother me so much?
The moms and Mel have moved on to a new topic when I finally force
myself to remain in the present. Unsurprisingly, both women are enthralled
by my girl. She entertains them with stories about music tours and other
musicians.
By the time we say goodnight and my mom pulls me in for an extra
tight hug, the older women have exchanged numbers with Mel and have
planned a trip to Boston to watch a game and meet the two of us for dinner.
Tonight was exactly the type of night I’d have wished for if I’d ever
thought of being in a committed relationship. Before Mel, I’d never seen
myself as the committed type.
Now, though?
Now the idea of hanging out with her and our moms is easy. Incredible.
It would have been perfect had my phone not remained dreadfully silent all
evening.
I had to hold myself back from checking my messages at least a dozen
times.
And when we get in the car and I finally pull it out, only to find Declan
still hasn’t responded, anger takes over. For thirty-five years, we’ve been
friends. Sure, he had to work today, and maybe disappearing the way he did
had nothing to do with Mel and me. But he could have fucking responded to
my text. Could have—fuck, I don’t even know. Declan’s never been one to
talk. It shouldn’t bother me so much, but the difference between the way he
communicates with me and the way he communicates with Mel is hard to
ignore. The lack of contact is like a punch to the gut.
Despite how much he does talk to Mel, she didn’t seem upset when he
said he was busy today. She didn’t check her phone all night long like I
wanted to. She always knows exactly what he needs.
And I don’t.
“Cade,” she says, her tone concerned, like maybe it’s not the first time
she’s said my name.
I look over at her, our surroundings coming into focus. Shit. I’m parked
in Declan’s driveway, and I don’t recall a single moment of the drive.
She nods toward the door. “We going in?”
I shake my head. No. I have zero interest in hurting myself by walking
in there and exposing my raw heart to my best friend. “I think I’ll just head
back to Boston so I can get some rest before the team flies out tomorrow.”
Mel’s green eyes widen, and she settles back in her seat. “Cade.”
“It’s fine.”
“We should talk to—”
“We’ve talked enough this weekend. He’s done a lot. Maybe too much,”
I add bitterly.
It’s all too much too soon. For him, at least. Me? I’ve wanted Declan for
more than twenty years. What I’ve gotten so far is nowhere near enough.
We’re moving at a snail’s pace in my mind, but for him…
I drag my hand through my hair. “He kissed me today. Then I asked him
to come to my mom’s for dinner, and he said no.” Swallowing past the lump
in my throat, I blink at her, willing her to understand what a big deal tonight
could have been for us. And how disappointed I am that he wasn’t ready.
That he was okay touching me, but that he wasn’t ready for anything more
than that. “I need a little space.”
Shoulders falling, Mel squeezes my hand. Though her posture is one of
defeat, her expression is understanding. She gets it, and she knows precisely
what I need, so she won’t argue. “Okay. I’ll miss you, though.”
I angle over the center console. Fuck, I hate that I have to leave her
already. “This changes nothing for me. I’m happy you met my mom. She
loved you.”
Mel’s lips curve. “Yeah? I liked her a lot. Both of them. They’re
wonderful.”
Cupping her jaw, I brush my thumb against her cheek. “You’re
wonderful.”
She closes her eyes and presses her lips to mine. They’re warm and soft
and exactly what I need.
Cursing myself and my stupid feelings, the need to leave, I press my
thumb to her lip and pull back. “Don’t think you need to keep yourself from
him because I’m not there.” I turn and survey the front of the house. “You
don’t have to call me to ask for permission.”
She bites down on my finger, the move meant to draw my attention
back to her face. “Call me when you get home?”
Nodding, I press my lips to hers, hoping like hell this isn’t the last time I
get to taste her.
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Cade
“YOU KNOW it’s not the greatest idea to tire me out before the
game, right, Coach?” Brooks groans as I force him through another set.
I’m struggling just as much, going full-out to keep up, when he falls to
his ass on the ice.
Chest heaving and lungs burning, I hold up my hands. “You’re right.
Sorry, I just…”
Brooks shakes his head. “I get it. When Sara drives me nuts, I tend to
work it off this way too. Mel coming to visit soon?”
Lips pressed together, I shake my head. Mel is so not the problem. I’ve
been traveling all week, so I haven’t seen her, but we’ve talked every day.
It’s the person I haven’t heard from that’s causing all this frustration.
Brooks, who’s on his skates again and stopping at the edge of the ice,
picks up his towel and drags it across his sweaty face. “Come on, tell me
what’s going on. If getting it off your chest will keep you from forcing me
into these extra practices, I’ll even grab Aiden and listen to him give you
relationship advice.”
I chuckle as I skate to his side. “It’s just…” I rough a hand over my
face. “You and Sara were friends first, right?”
Brooks nods. “She was my best friend.”
“Weren’t you nervous that you could ruin what you had if your
relationship didn’t work out? How did you know that you wanted the same
things? That one of you wasn’t more invested than the other?”
“Sara is honest to a fault. We talked about everything,” Brooks laughs,
“and I mean everything, before we jumped into a real relationship. She
made sure to tell me what she was feeling, and that freed me to do the
same.”
My chest tightens further, making it hard to breathe. “So talking? That’s
your big advice?”
Brooks grins. “Yup.”
I’m falling for a person who says about three words a year, so basically,
I’m fucked.
It takes me hours to decide what I want to say to Declan, but even after
I’ve finally typed out the message, I chicken out before hitting Send.
As I head into the arena, having resigned myself to trying again later,
my phone pings. I slip it from the pocket of my suit pants, assuming it’s
Mel. She said she’d be in Boston this weekend. Hopefully she wants to
make concrete plans.
But it’s not her name on the screen.
It’s Declan.
Declan: I’ve been told I need to grovel, but I have no fucking
idea what that means. Even so, I didn’t want to let another day
go by without saying I miss you.
“Isn’t that Melina?” Aiden points to a section where his wife normally sits
with the rest of the team members’ significant others.
We’re in the second period, and they’ve just come in for a trade with the
next line.
As I scan the faces in the crowd, War nudges me. “And Declan.”
Instantly, I find them, and the air whooshes from my lungs.
Groveling. That’s what he said.
Is that what this is?
Declan has never come to a Bolts game. The year I came on staff for the
Bolts, I asked him over and over if he wanted tickets. He turned me down
every time, so when the next season started, I didn’t bother. I haven’t
offered since.
Fuck, I’ve never considered what it would be like to look up and see
him here.
Seems irrational to be filled with such an inexorable sense of pride. I’m
not the one playing.
But my chest is tight and my cheeks are aching as I take them in. Fuck.
Yeah, it feels a hell of a lot like pride.
“Yeah, I think it is.”
Gavin sidles up to me, tablet in hand, asking for an opinion on a play. I
let my focus drift back up to the stands one more time. And when Declan
smirks at me, I know that I’ll like whatever the man has planned.
Groveling.
Is that a kink? Because if so, it’s one of mine.
I slap my goalie’s back. “Guess our practice wasn’t too rough on ya, huh?”
The game was a shutout. Three to nothing.
He laughs. “Heard Mel is here. That the reason for the big-ass smile?”
Aiden and War are standing at their lockers, each working on their ties
before they head out for postgame interviews.
I shake my head and keep my mouth shut. They know why, but I’m not
ready for the rest of the team to be privy to the details. Until Declan is on
board with it, I’ll keep them to myself.
Doesn’t stop me from wanting to tell them that my boyfriend and
girlfriend are here, though. Doesn’t stop me from hoping it’s true.
But that’s ridiculous, right?
Me? The permanent bachelor, dating not one, but two people. Declan
Everhart and Melina Rodriguez. It’s too fucking good to be true.
And yet when we walk out of the tunnel after interviews are over,
they’re both waiting for me. Lennox is there too. When she sees Aiden, she
takes off and jumps into his arms.
Mel is worrying her lip, shifting from foot to foot as I make my way
over. Declan is, unsurprisingly, wearing an expression I can’t read. It’s one
I’ve never seen before. He doesn’t look angry, but his mouth is turned
down. He tracks my every move, my every breath, his look growing more
intense the closer I get. Until I’m right there, a step away from them, and
Mel is launching herself into my arms and squeezing me tight.
“I missed you,” she breathes.
Fuck, she feels good. I wrap my arm around her, burying my nose in her
neck and inhaling.
Declan is still silent, still wearing that unreadable expression.
“I heard there’d be groveling.” I pull Mel into my side and meet
Declan’s brown eyes.
He rears back in surprise and coughs out a laugh. “You want me to
grovel here?” Swallowing audibly, he scans the space where my coworkers
and hockey players and their spouses and children, some of whom are part
of his extended family, are mingling.
Mel digs her fingers into my hip and squeezes. “Don’t tease him. He’s
got a plan.”
I drag my attention back to her. Fuck, she’s pretty.
Her green eyes swim with delight. “It’s a really good plan,” she adds.
Declan clears his throat, garnering our attention. “I could grovel here.”
He rolls his shoulders back and moves closer, like he’s working up the
courage to do whatever he was going to do in private, right here, right now.
I hold my breath and then let it out in one big whoosh.
Before either of us can speak, Gavin appears with his daughter in his
arms and his wife by his side. “Great game tonight, Fitz.” He nods. “Dec,
Mel, glad you could make it.” He holds out his hand to Declan. “You
coming to Beckett’s tomorrow for Christmas Eve?”
With a nod, Dec shakes his hand. “Yeah, I’ll be there.”
“Great.” Gavin hikes Vivi up a little higher. “Have a good holiday, Fitz.
See you next week.”
Millie gives Mel a quick hug, and then the little family is gone.
Heart thumping, I turn back to Declan. “Not here.” I don’t want to share
this moment with anyone but the two of them. “My place.”
Declan’s lips tilt up, and his eyes brighten a little. That small response
speaks volumes. Knowing I’ve pleased him is enough to send a spark of
excitement through me.
With my arm around Mel and with Declan by my side, I usher them to
the garage where the players and coaching staff park. It isn’t until Dec steps
in front of me to open Mel’s door that I catch sight of the back of his Bolts
jersey.
The sight of Fitz emblazoned on the Bolts blue fabric takes my
goddamn breath away. Swallowing hard, I angle back without letting Mel
go. Sure enough, hers says Fitz too. But they’re wearing different numbers.
On her back, under my name, is a 1. Declan’s sporting the number 5. I
shake my head, lips pursed, confused.
“That’s another part of his grovel,” Mel whispers.
Declan’s watching me, holding his breath. Like he’s waiting for me to
put the pieces together. After a solid thirty seconds, he pulls Mel to his side,
and they turn their backs to me.
It hits me then, like a punch to the solar plexus.
“Get it now?” he mumbles, turning back, hiding the number 15. Fifteen.
My number through high school and college.
I still don’t quite get it, though. Why didn’t they put 15 on each of their
backs?
Declan, obviously sensing my confusion, takes Mel’s hand. “Separately,
our jerseys were meaningless, right? But put us together, Cade, and we’re
perfect for you.”
I rear back, so bowled over by the admission that I almost lose my
balance. “That’s really fucking good.”
Mel breaks out in a bright smile. “I told you it was a really good
grovel.”
Declan steps closer and runs his thumb across my bottom lip. “Will you
forgive me for taking so long?”
“It’s only been a few days. I can’t imagine you could have custom
jerseys made and shipped overnight,” I sputter. My mind is jumbled, and
my heart gallops at his proximity.
Declan shakes his head. “That took a few days, but that’s not what I
mean.”
I swallow. I know what he means. It took him a while to be ready for
this. For us. Nose stinging, I pull in a breath to rein in my emotions and pull
Mel in close. “Like you said, it’s perfect like this. We wouldn’t work if we
weren’t all together.”
Mel bites her lip and blinks. “And that’s what you want?”
I guess we are doing this in public. “Yes, Mel. You and Dec. If that’s
what the two of you want, then that’s what I want.”
Declan’s relieved breath fans against my cheek as I kiss our girlfriend.
When I pull back, he’s watching me, his focus intent. Then, jaw working, he
scans our surroundings. Guys are still trickling out to their cars, hollering
goodbye and merry Christmas to one another.
Despite my concerns about how he’s handled things, I don’t need him to
do this here. It doesn’t need to be public to count.
Before I can tell him that, he cups my face, his thumb pulling on my
lips.
“Fuck it,” he mumbles. Then he’s pressing his lips to mine.
For an instant, I’m stunned, rigid. But his warm lips and rough calluses
brushing against my jaw soothe me, and I kiss him back.
Between us, Mel squeals.
I melt against her, craving Declan’s firm embrace. These two, this
moment, are everything.
He pulls away, but not before sinking his teeth into my lip and tugging.
“Take us home.”
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Melina
“You two go get in the shower. I’ll get things ready,” Declan says the
moment the door is shut behind us.
A thrill zips up my spine. He’s as anxious to be together as I am, and
I’m 100 percent on board with his command. We can play it slow another
night.
It’s ridiculous how much it turns me on to see him so comfortable
taking the lead even in Cade’s space. I shouldn’t be surprised. This is our
dynamic. It feels like we’re all settling into who we were meant to be. With
one another and on our own.
“You don’t want to join us?” Cade asks, though he’s already tugging me
toward his bedroom.
“Just tell me where the lube and toys are, baby. I’ll meet you in there
once I’ve got everything set up.”
With a shake of his head, Cade chuckles. “You just assume I’ve got it
all.”
Declan strides across the room and cuffs his neck. “You’re my filthy
boy,” he says, bringing their faces close together. “Of course you do.”
Cade’s breath hitches. “Top drawer. Left-hand side.”
With an arch of a brow, Declan drops a quick kiss to his lips. Then he
gently pushes us toward the bedroom.
Cade’s apartment is sterile in comparison to Declan’s home. No wonder
he spends his free weekends in Bristol. Though I’m sure Declan has more to
do with that than how empty this place feels.
Cade’s shower isn’t quite as big as Declan’s, but there will still be
plenty of space. Once he’s got the water going, he turns, his eyes warm as
he studies me. “How are you feeling?”
My heart flips at the genuine affection in his tone. “I’m good. Really,
really good.”
With a hand on my cheek, he pulls me in for a long kiss. It’s sweet, like
coming home. “You know how much I missed you?” he murmurs, his lips
brushing against mine.
“If it’s anything close to how much I missed you, then it had to be a
whole lot.”
He smiles that easy smile of his, one dimple popping. “Oh yeah?”
“Yeah,” I murmur, nuzzling into his neck.
“Do you know that I love you?” His words are so soft, I almost miss
them.
Butterflies swarm my belly as his truth registers, their wings fluttering
so violently I think they could carry me away. “I love you too.”
His eyes light up. “Yeah?”
“Yes, Cade. I’m in love with you.”
“I still can’t believe you’re both here.” He nips at my lip, his tone light.
“Can’t believe we’re doing this. You’re the first person I’ve ever said that
to, ya know? That I love you.”
Chest to chest, I tip my head back and study his face. “Really?”
He nods, eyes never leaving mine.
“But I’m not the first person you’ve ever loved.”
He averts his gaze, one side of his lips ticking up in a shy smile, and
shakes his head. “No, I suppose that’s true. Though the feeling is different
now.”
“It is different.” I lace my hands behind his neck. “You shouldn’t be
afraid to tell him, though. He loves you too.”
Cade looks away, his breath stuttering. “Isn’t it too soon?”
“To tell the man you’ve always loved how you feel about him? Was it
too soon for us?”
“Fuck no,” he says on a laugh.
I tilt my head, waiting for him to really look at me. “Then why would it
be for him?”
He rubs a thumb gently over my cheek. “I don’t want to rush him.”
“He kissed you in front of your team. He’s taking you to family
Christmas tomorrow.” I give him a sharp look. “He loves you.”
With his forehead pressed to mine, he closes his eyes. “Maybe.”
Before I can rebut, his lips are on mine again. It’s the kind of kiss a
person can get lost in. One of those that begins softly but then grows until
waves of heat emanate between us.
We’re groping one another, moaning, nipping, and licking, when
Declan’s voice startles us apart.
“Why are you two still dressed?”
With my lip caught between my teeth, I smile up at the bossy man I’m
so in love with. “We didn’t want to start without you.”
Declan grunts. “Seems like you were doing just that.”
Steam billows around us, and the mirror is nothing but a white fog.
Cade spins me toward Declan and grasps the bottom of my jersey.
“Maybe I just wasn’t ready to peel her out of this.”
Declan smirks, lifting his chin. “The jersey was a nice touch, huh?”
Cade ducks down and laughs into my neck. “It was perfect.”
Declan crowds us. He’s so close that all I can see is his matching blue
jersey. With one hand on my hip, he uses the other to pull Cade’s mouth off
my neck and toward his own. They’re kissing with me sandwiched between
them again. Fuck. Being in the middle of their embrace, with Declan’s heat
at my front and Cade’s at my back, has me squirming, losing my mind with
lust.
Declan pulls back with a curse, his focus lowering to me. “Sorry,
sweetheart.”
“Never apologize for going after what you want.” I pat his chest. “It’s
incredibly hot.”
There’s that delicious smirk again. “Good. Right now, what I want is
you naked and in the shower.”
I point at Cade, arching a brow. “First I want to watch him take off your
jersey.”
“I like the way she thinks,” Cade grumbles. He grasps my sides and lifts
me onto the bathroom counter. “Think you can be a good girl and sit here
for a minute?”
I nod as warmth pools between my thighs. I’m so fucking wet, the idea
of a shower is comical.
Cade spins around and takes a step toward Declan. “I swear you’ve
never looked better than you do in my jersey.”
“I’ll wear it again when you fuck me one day, but right now, I need us
both naked.”
Holy shit. Cade’s jaw drops, and mine does too. The ease with which
Declan mentioned being fucked by his best friend? The heat simmering low
in my belly kicks up a notch. That scenario just jumped to the top of my list
of fantasies. If I have my way, it’s something we’ll experience soon and
often. I’ve got a lifetime to have it all. Them. Us. It’s what dreams are made
of.
Cade runs a hand through his blond hair. “I gotta fuck you because your
cock’s too big for me to take?”
Declan shakes his head. “You’ll take my cock just fine. I was made for
you.”
Cade undoes his best friend’s belt, the metal clanking, then moves on to
his zipper. As he tears his pants down his legs, he takes his boxers with
them. The shirt is next. Cade is so tall that he tugs the jersey over his head
with ease. As it flutters to the floor, Declan fists his thick cock, and my
mouth waters at the sight. I’m tempted to hop off this counter and drag him
to the ground so I can ride him here.
Amused brown eyes find mine. “Like what you see, sweetheart?” He
strokes his shaft, moving down, then back up, flicking his wrist at the tip.
I squirm on the counter.
“I’m not enough for her on my own, though.” He’s talking to Cade,
though he’s got me locked in his gaze. Taunting me.
Cade chuckles. “Nope, our girl needs two cocks. Isn’t that right,
Trouble?”
He shucks his Oxford and dress pants quickly. Then, facing Declan, he
strokes himself, mirroring his best friend’s movements.
“She may need two cocks, but you only get one. Right, baby?” Despite
Declan’s hard tone, there’s a layer of vulnerability just beneath the surface
of the question. He needs reassurance that he’s enough. That we’ll be
enough.
“Damn right.” Cade bats Declan’s hand away from his own cock and
strokes him.
My stoic grump of a man lifts his chin, his neck muscles straining, and
grunts. Cade pulls him closer, jacking them both simultaneously.
“Fuck, that feels good.” Declan stretches an arm out to me. “I need your
lips, sweetheart.”
I scramble off the counter and fall into his arms. His chest heaves as he
slips his tongue into my mouth. We only stay like this for a moment before
he pulls away and pushes Cade toward the shower. “I need you both now.”
As Cade steps beneath the stream of water, Declan turns and tugs my
jersey over my head.
“I love you,” I remind him.
With a smile, he pushes my hair behind my ear. “I love you so much.”
Once I’m naked, he carries me into the shower, where both men take
their time washing every inch of my body. It’s decadent and beautiful, being
with these men. My men.
The air, already heavy with moisture, thickens as we dry off quietly. The
three of us have been together more than once. But that felt like fooling
around. Like sex.
Tonight, our emotions are running high, and there are still unspoken
confessions hanging between us. This is so much more than anything I’ve
ever experienced.
Several toys are set up on Cade’s nightstand. As I peruse them, I squirm,
wondering which are for me and which are for Cade.
“Lie down on your stomach, baby,” Declan says.
With a kiss to my mouth, Cade obeys, draping himself over the towel
Declan laid out on the bed.
The man in charge tonight eyes me, one brow lifted. “You going to help
me prep him?”
And I’m done for. For a man who’s never fucked another man, he sure
is taking to this quickly, and I am here for it.
I bite my lip, excited at the prospect. Thrilled that I get to be here for
this. It’s an honor to experience this first with them.
Declan rounds the bed and picks up a bottle of lube and a silicone anal
plug. He coats the plug, then drizzles a healthy amount of lube between
Cade’s cheeks.
With one hand fisted on the mattress, he looms over Cade and whispers
in his ear. Cade nods in response, then Declan slowly begins to work the
plug into his ass.
Cade grunts, but he follows the sound with a “green.” He’s handling the
sensation just as well as I did. Although when Declan did this to me, he ate
me out until I was so wet, I didn’t know what was happening. Feeling like
Cade’s been cheated, I step forward, taking control for once.
“My turn,” I say. “Cade has forgiven you, and so have I, but you
promised you’d grovel.”
Declan arches a brow. “And what is it you’d like me to do for you,
sweetheart?”
“Lie down.”
Declan can’t hide his smile in response to my bossy tone. He settles on
his back next to Cade and laces his fingers behind his head as he waits for
my next instruction.
“I didn’t get to see the way Cade fucked your throat last week. I want to
watch it while I ride you.”
Declan’s chuckle is dark. “Sweetheart, you and Cade are terrible at
demanding apologies. It would be my fucking pleasure.”
Cade props himself up on an elbow and kisses him. “Maybe we just like
to see you happy.”
Cupping Cade’s neck, Declan gazes at him lovingly. “Then give me
your cock.”
Eagerly, Cade shifts into position on his knees. The way Declan licks
his lips as he takes in the sight has heat racing up my spine.
“Don’t go easy on him,” I tell Cade as he feeds his length into his
mouth. Fuck, I want to watch every second. See just how much they want
one another.
I climb on top of Declan and slide up and down over his dick, coating
him with my arousal. A moan slips out as I use him like a toy, rolling my
clit until I’m edging us both beyond reason.
“Color?” I tease as I sink onto his length.
Cade has a firm grip on Declan’s head and his dick shoved so far down
his throat there’s no way he can answer. “He’s fucking green. Don’t you
worry.”
Declan smiles around Cade and takes him impossibly deep.
“Stay that way. No one comes until I say so,” I remind them.
He swells inside me, clearly liking this game.
Still fucking Declan’s mouth, Cade leans forward and kisses me,
sharing ragged breaths and tangling his tongue with mine.
“Fuck. Yellow,” he groans after a moment, reeling back and pulling his
cock out of Declan’s mouth. Glaring at his best friend, he practically
strangles his erection in his fist. “What the hell were you doing with your
tongue?”
“Like that, baby?” Declan taunts.
With a deep breath in, Cade shakes his head, but then he’s smiling.
“Okay, green.” He slips between Declan’s lips again, this time moving
slower, sliding himself in and out until he’s once again pulling back. I can
barely focus on my own orgasm when I watch them. They’re so fucking
beautiful like this.
Declan is thrusting up. Little teasing movements that have me grinding
down in need of more. “Holy shit,” he groans. “I need to fuck.”
I peer up at Cade, scrutinizing his expression. Is he ready for this? He’s
focused on the two of us, just as lost in us as I was in him and Declan.
The hunger in his eyes is all the answer I need. I know what he wants.
What the two of them need. And I intend to give it to them. Pressing my
breasts against Declan’s chest, I bring my mouth to his ear. “He’s ready for
you.”
He stills beneath me and darts a look at his best friend. Above him,
Cade worries his bottom lip. But he nods, his focus never leaving Declan’s
face.
“Thank fuck.” Declan pulls me in for a deep kiss, then rolls so that I’m
beneath him. He fucks into me, hitting me in a way that has my muscles
spasming, before he pulls out. “I want to see you when I—” His voice
catches.
With a grin, Cade nods. He understands what Declan wants, and he
knows how to give it to him. He grabs a pillow from the head of the bed
and settles himself on top of it, canting his hips just a bit. Then he holds out
his arms and waves me to him. “C’mere, Trouble. You’re going to ride me
while Declan fucks me.”
“Holy shit,” Declan and I say in unison.
Cade grabs my leg and pulls me on top, not giving any of us a moment
to overthink it. Then he slides himself inside me and pulls me close.
“I love you,” I whisper, my body shuddering. Pressing a hand to Cade’s
chest, I arch back and peer at Declan, holding out a hand. “And I love you.”
Declan, who’s wearing his patented unreadable expression, visibly
relaxes as he slips his hand into mine. “I love you so much, Melina. We
wouldn’t be here without you. We wouldn’t be us without you.” With his
other hand, he squeezes Cade’s thigh. “And I love you,” he says to the man
beneath me. “I love you so fucking much. I’m so sorry it took me so long to
get here, but I’m damn happy to call you both mine.”
Cade’s heart beats rapidly beneath my palm, his eyes wide and his lips
parted. “I love you too.”
“Lean forward, sweetheart.” Declan pushes gently between my shoulder
blades until my breasts are pressed to Cade’s chest. “I’ll go as slow as I
can,” he adds. For a moment, he’s quiet, working the plug out. Then there’s
a click—the cap to the lube bottle, I assume.
Cade is breathing through his teeth. Maybe in apprehension over
Declan’s big dick, or maybe he’s still in shock after his best friend’s
declaration.
I strum my fingers across the side of his face. “You okay?”
He nods, the tension in his body melting. “He loves me,” he whispers.
“Told you,” I mumble.
With a smile so big both dimples pop, he pulls my mouth to his. As he
swipes his tongue against mine, he groans.
Behind me, Declan shifts forward, working himself inside him.
“Holy fuck,” he mutters. “You feel—”
“Perfect,” I supply. “He feels absolutely perfect.”
Everything about this moment is perfect. Because the three of us are
joined. We’re one, and these two deliciously wonderful men are all mine.
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Cade
FOR A MOMENT, I feel like I may actually black out. Like this
entire night has been nothing but a crazy dream. These last few weeks,
really. Because it can’t be real—the woman of my dreams grinding on me
like this while the man I’ve been in love with for more than half my life is
burrowing inside me like he never wants to leave, like if he was given a
choice between breathing or never feeling the inside of me again, he’d stay
right where he was.
Declan’s face as he finally works his huge cock into my ass, the
pleasure that tinges his cheeks pink, that pulls a “fuck” from his lips and
another heavy breath as he tries like hell to get used to this new sensation, is
nothing short of beautiful. And despite the fact that he’s filling me in a way
I’ve never experienced—because like Mel and I lament constantly, the man
is huge—I refuse to so much as blink for fear of missing a second of it.
“That feel okay, baby?” he asks in that soft rumble that makes my toes
tingle. He’s such a gruff man—one of so few words—so when he uses
them, especially in that tone that is apparently reserved for only the ones he
truly loves—I fucking melt.
“Nothing, and I mean nothing, has ever felt better than my girl on my
cock and my man in my ass,” I tease, trying to bring some levity to the
moment.
If I don’t—if I think about all we’ve gone through to get here—I may
sob.
Every nerve ending in my body feels like a live wire, flying free and
sparking each time one of them moves. Declan leans his forehead against
Mel’s back and sucks in a heavy breath. “Give me a color, sweetheart.”
With her eyes on mine, she mumbles, “Green.”
“What do you say we get him to yellow?” I grit out.
She leans down and presses her lips to mine. “That’s your job tonight.
Squeeze those cheeks. Give him a taste of his own medicine.”
Declan groans, but I think he knows there’s no way in hell I’m in
control tonight. Especially when he finally moves, one of his hands landing
on Mel’s hip while the other grips mine. When he begins sliding out, it hits
me that there’s no way I’ll be able to speak, let alone taunt him. Then when
he slams back in, it’s the greatest feeling I’ve ever experienced. That is,
until I feel the hot gush that comes from Mel as she clenches around me.
“Oh shit. You fucked up into me when he fucked you.” Her eyes are wild,
and they only grow more so as Declan fucks us both with abandon, using
my cock and his own to pleasure us. It’s insane how good he is at this. The
way he knows what we both need. But it’s not long before our girl is crying
out, her pussy pulsing around me, and I’m seeing stars and panting “yellow.
So fucking yellow.”
Declan stops all movement, and I know what’s coming before he
speaks. “Hold it, baby. I want you to stay right there on the edge. Can you
do that for me?”
Sweat coats my forehead, and a full-body shiver rolls down my spine as
the aftershocks of Mel’s orgasm pulse across my already sensitive dick. But
I suck in buckets full of air until I’m able to nod.
Mel collapses on my chest, and I rub a hand over her back, soothing her
through the intense emotions we’re all feeling.
“What are you thinking?” I ask Dec over her shoulder.
He leans down and peppers kisses to her back, then meets my eye. “I
want you to fuck me.”
All the air in the room evaporates then, and I grow dizzy. Is there such a
thing as too happy? As too perfect? Because having him suck my dick and
then sink inside me has been a dream come true. But fucking him? Holy
shit…
“Oh, I like that idea,” Mel murmurs, even as her voice sounds sleepy.
“After Mel comes again,” I say.
Chuckling, Declan leans over her and kisses me. The moment is filthy,
full of tongues and teeth and dirty words. “I love that you love to make her
come as much as I do.”
Fuck, do I.
“Trouble, can I eat your pussy while Declan fucks me for a little
longer?”
Mel practically scrambles off me. “Only if I can face forward and
watch.”
For a moment, Dec catches my eye, and when he thrusts up into me, I
lose myself.
“This doesn’t feel real,” I whisper.
Declan leans forward, and with his chest to mine, I can feel the unsteady
pounding of his heart. “It’s real, baby. And it’s forever. You, me, and Mel.
This is it.”
Mel is cuddled up next to me, her head kissing my own. She looks sated
and happy and oh so in love. Without hesitating, I kiss her, getting lost
when she whimpers in surprise. When we pull apart, Dec is watching us,
expression hungry and full of lust, just like the first time he watched us kiss.
“Holy shit.” I huff out a breath.
Dec gives me that dangerous smirk of his. The kind that makes me do
crazy things like throw my heart at him for years when he barely blinked in
my direction. He grinds up into me, and my cock pulses as he rolls his body
against it. “If you want me to fuck you, you’re going to have to give our girl
her orgasm. I’m never going to last with your dick working its magic like it
is right now.”
Declan takes my mouth in a rough kiss. “Come, baby. We can clean up
and go again. Let me see you come with my cock in your ass. Show me
how good I make you feel.”
Mel leans in and kisses my neck. Then she reaches between us and rolls
gentle fingers against my weeping cock, squeezing and then fisting it,
working me until I’m delirious.
We stare down at where our bodies are joined. The place where Declan
fucks me ferociously. Like he’s been doing it for years. Like this is how we
were always meant to be. And with her hand wrapped around me and him
deep inside me, I unravel completely.
“That’s it, baby,” Dec says as his thrusts grow slower, as if he’s
relishing the final moments of being inside me before he cries out. “Holy
fuck, give me your mouth.”
I obey, and then he kisses me while he pulses wickedly inside me,
filling me with his hot cum.
Panting, he pulls back and takes Mel’s mouth, murmuring thank yous
and I love yous and reminding her that she’s our everything. It’s beautiful,
despite our mess, because, like Dec said, we’ll just clean up and start all
over again.
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CHAPTER 52
Melina
IT’S impossible to get a word in during dinner. The Langfield brothers are
all loud. Their women are equally so. And there are more kids in this single
room than I’ve been near in years. Yet sandwiched between Cade and
Declan at the table, I don’t feel even slightly invisible. Declan has his arm
draped over the back of my chair, his fingers randomly teasing the ends of
my hair. Cade holds my hand while he eats with his other. He jokes around
with the guys and stays overly involved in the conversations, while Declan
and I are more subdued.
I fit with these two in a way that I’ve never fit with anyone else.
Until the doorbell rings, and in walks my best friend with her little boy
in her arms, and suddenly, she’s the loudest person in the room. “Oh my
god. I can’t believe you’re here!”
My smile is wide as her gaze swings from Declan to Cade back to
Declan again, before her attention fully settles on me. “And you have been
holding out on me, woman.”
I laugh as I get up so I can hug her. “No, I haven’t. I just didn’t have
anything to tell you this week.”
While Declan worked on his plan to get Cade to forgive him, I spent my
week working on music with Lake. I even recorded a few songs just before
my deadline with the label.
“What are you guys doing here, though?”
As if answering my question, Ford makes a beeline for Millie, who’s
already getting up to welcome him, with Vivi in her arms. “Couldn’t miss
Vivi girl’s first Christmas,” he says as he reaches for his granddaughter. The
one-year-old I got to spend some time with tonight is now all smiles as she
grabs Ford’s cheeks and pinches, then slobbers all over one in what some
might call a kiss.
“We had a meeting at the label, and I wanted to see you before we left
Boston,” Ford says, turning his attention to me.
I swear that comment has the eyes of every person in the room turning
in my direction.
Apprehension courses through me at the scrutiny. Enough to make it
hard to breathe.
“What’s he talking about?” Cade rumbles, stepping closer.
Declan, who’s appeared at my side, arches a brow as he stares down,
imploring me to tell everyone.
I drop my head to his chest, pulling strength from him. His proximity is
enough to allow me to get the words out. “While you were traveling this
week,” I say to Cade, “Declan finished the music studio in his basement,
and I finished three songs.”
Cade steps closer, his lips parted. “Music studio?”
“So she doesn’t have to go back to New York if she doesn’t want to,”
Declan explains. His eyes are soft as he takes me in. Then he drops a kiss to
my forehead. “But it’s nothing special.”
“That’s not true,” I tell everyone. “It has a piano and a guitar. It’s
soundproofed too. And the best part is that it’s in Bristol. My home.”
Declan grasps my hip and squeezes. This isn’t a surprise to him. He
knows how I feel. Where I want to live. And who I want to live with.
But Cade is looking at us like we’re offering him every wish he’s ever
had. “Really? You built a studio for her, Dec?”
“I don’t want either of you to ever have a reason to leave,” Declan says
quietly. “My home is your home.”
Cade’s easy grin goes wide, both of his dimples popping. The reaction
makes the man behind me suck in a breath. The way these two love one
another, the way they love me, is beyond special. It’s rare. And I’m going to
hold on to it. Because it’s a once-in-a-lifetime love.
“Ah, I love this!” Lake’s declaration breaks our little spell.
I blink back to the moment, only then realizing that everyone is
watching us.
“You’re really moving to Bristol?” she asks, her hands clutched at her
chest.
I glance at my two guys, then nod. “Yeah. I’m sure we’ll be in Boston
so we can attend Bolts games, but Bristol is where I’d like to create a life.”
“Hope I don’t burst your bubble when I say this,” Ford says, “but you’ll
have to spend some of your time touring, because this new sound is going
to sell out arenas.”
“Bolts Arena being the first,” Gavin adds at the same time Beckett says,
“Lang Field should be the first stop.”
Liv rolls her eyes. “Do you guys need to make everything about the
Langfields?”
“Yes,” all four brothers holler, making the room break out in a round of
laughter.
“New sound?” Declan asks, his focus, as always, remaining on the three
of us.
“Yes. It’s less pop; more emotional. The guitar addition on the last one
was perfect,” Lake says.
I can’t help but fill with pride. The songs I created are 100 percent my
own. For so long, I’ve followed my best friend’s lead. And even now, I’m
moving to her town, settling down and starting what I hope is a family right
beside her. But this—my music, my sound—it’s all me.
Okay, maybe not all me. It’s the three of us. It’s this feeling of safety
and joy, of being comfortable in my own skin for the first time in my life
because these two men have given me the space to feel that way.
It’s not conforming to what’s expected of me, or aligning myself to what
I think I should be doing to sell myself. It’s alchemy. A complete
transformation of my brand, of myself.
And I’m in love with it.
I can honestly say that not only do I love the men flanking me, but I
finally love myself.
Perhaps that’s why I can accept their love. Because I can see what they
see in me. I can see how I fit them just as much as they fit me. How I need
them just as much as they need me.
“Can we hear it?” Millie asks.
Everyone is in the room nodding, but I’m shaking my head. “Let’s just
listen to some Christmas carols. Tonight shouldn’t be about me.”
“Every night should be about you, sweetheart,” Declan says, dropping a
kiss to my neck. “But in case we weren’t clear, we want to hear your
music.”
Everyone around us seems to talk at once, begging for me to share my
new sound.
Lake is the loudest. “Please. I think this is your best song yet. I’m
obsessed.”
Emotion makes it hard to swallow. Tears blur my vision. For so long, I
was told to sit in the corner. To hide behind others. To dim my light so
others could shine.
But no one here wants that from me.
Not only have Declan and Cade shown me love, and shared each other’s
hearts with me, they’ve shared their family.
It’s so different from past Christmases. Where I faded into the
background. Made-up stories to keep myself company. For so long, my
music was comprised of nothing but stories of other people’s lives.
Romances I created because I had no real experience to work with. But
now, in this room, I feel that love I only ever tried to write about until now.
So, wrapped in Declan’s arms, while holding Cade’s hand, I allow Ford
to pull out his phone and play them my newest song.
The rest of the group settles in, finding their loved ones, and we listen to
my song. A song about love, about finding oneself. And both my guys smile
at me when they realize it’s the story of us.
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Acknowledgments
With every book I write, I like to challenge myself in a different way. Flip
tropes, make a reader like an unlikeable character, figure out how to make
someone smile through my words. This book was no different. The idea for
Declan’s story came quick and shifted multiple times as I sat with how this
relationship would work. Because that’s always important to me. Just like
you as the reader question motives and realities of our fictional characters
choices, I agonize over these decisions. Because most importantly, I want
their story to remain true to them. I don’t write stories for shock value or to
make you all throw your kindle, I write them because these stories vividly
exist in my head and I can’t not tell you their truths.
And as soon as Declan and Cade existed on the page, I knew this would
not be an MFM. I knew that it would be a story about two people who have
loved one another for years but didn’t make sense until they met her. Melina
was important. She was integral to their story. And they were integral to
hers. The three of them belonged to one another, but they had to work to get
there. And boy did I enjoy the ride of getting them there. I hope you did too.
So thank you for allowing me to share every story as it exists in my head.
My truth for the characters, even if it’s messy and somewhat
unconventional at times.
As always, this story wouldn’t exist without some incredible people. My
amazing work wives and besties, Sara and Jenni. My fantastic editor Beth.
My beta readers Becca, Ari and Emily. The amazing people who help with
my social media and marketing, Andi, Glav, Anna, Jess, Mackenzie and
Courtney and my amazing street team who are always shouting from the
rooftop about my books. Thank you! This year has been incredible because
of all of you.
And to my amazing readers, thank you. Thank you for reading my
words, for all of your edits and your reviews and your support for these last
three years. You have changed my life more than you know.
If you want to follow along on my writing journey and have sneak
peeks into all the characters in Bristol, follow me on Instagram, join my
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Also by Brittanée Nicole
Bristol Bay Rom Coms
She Likes Piña Coladas
Kisses Sweet Like Wine
Over the Rainbow
Boston Billionaires
Whiskey Lies
Loving Whiskey
Wishing for Champagne Kisses
Dirty Truths
Extra Dirty
Mother Faker
(Mother Faker is Book 1 of the Mom Com Series, but is also a lead in to the Revenge Games
alongside Revenge Era. This book can be read as a Standalone, or after Revenge Era and before
Pucking Revenge)
Revenge Games
Revenge Era
Pucking Revenge
A Major Puck Up
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