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The artist now produced it, with evident pride. It was quite beautiful;

it was startling; it seemed to live. It was the effigy of Carmilla!

“Carmilla, dear, here is an absolute miracle. Here you are, living,

smiling, ready to speak, in this picture. Isn’t it beautiful, Papa? And

see, even the little mole on her throat.”

My father laughed, and said “Certainly it is a wonderful likeness,” but

he looked away, and to my surprise seemed but little struck by it, and

went on talking to the picture cleaner, who was also something of an

artist, and discoursed with intelligence about the portraits or other

works, which his art had just brought into light and color, while I was

more and more lost in wonder the more I looked at the picture.

“Will you let me hang this picture in my room, papa?” I asked.

“Certainly, dear,” said he, smiling, “I’m very glad you think it so

like.

It must be prettier even than I thought it, if it is.”

The young lady did not acknowledge this pretty speech, did not seem to

hear it. She was leaning back in her seat, her fine eyes under their

long lashes gazing on me in contemplation, and she smiled in a kind of

rapture.

“And now you can read quite plainly the name that is written in the

corner.

It is not Marcia; it looks as if it was done in gold. The name is


Mircalla, Countess Karnstein, and this is a little coronet over and

underneath A.D.

1698. I am descended from the Karnsteins; that is, mamma was.”

“Ah!” said the lady, languidly, “so am I, I think, a very long descent,

very ancient. Are there any Karnsteins living now?”

“None who bear the name, I believe. The family were ruined, I believe,

in some civil wars, long ago, but the ruins of the castle are only

about three miles away.”

“How interesting!” she said, languidly. “But see what beautiful

moonlight!” She glanced through the hall door, which stood a little

open. “Suppose you take a little ramble round the court, and look down

at the road and river.”

“It is so like the night you came to us,” I said.

She sighed; smiling.

She rose, and each with her arm about the other’s waist, we walked out

upon the pavement.

In silence, slowly we walked down to the drawbridge, where the

beautiful landscape opened before us.

“And so you were thinking of the night I came here?” she almost

whispered.

“Are you glad I came?”


“Delighted, dear Carmilla,” I answered.

“And you asked for the picture you think like me, to hang in your

room,” she murmured with a sigh, as she drew her arm closer about my

waist, and let her pretty head sink upon my shoulder. “How romantic you

are, Carmilla,” I said. “Whenever you tell me your story, it will be

made up chiefly of some one great romance.”

She kissed me silently.

“I am sure, Carmilla, you have been in love; that there is, at this

moment, an affair of the heart going on.”

“I have been in love with no one, and never shall,” she whispered,

“unless it should be with you.”

How beautiful she looked in the moonlight!

Shy and strange was the look with which she quickly hid her face in my

neck and hair, with tumultuous sighs, that seemed almost to sob, and

pressed in mine a hand that trembled.

Her soft cheek was glowing against mine. “Darling, darling,” she

murmured, “I live in you; and you would die for me, I love you so.”

I started from her.

She was gazing on me with eyes from which all fire, all meaning had

flown, and a face colorless and apathetic.


“Is there a chill in the air, dear?” she said drowsily. “I almost

shiver; have I been dreaming? Let us come in. Come; come; come in.”

“You look ill, Carmilla; a little faint. You certainly must take some

wine,” I said.

“Yes. I will. I’m better now. I shall be quite well in a few minutes.

Yes, do give me a little wine,” answered Carmilla, as we approached the

door.

“Let us look again for a moment; it is the last time, perhaps, I shall

see the moonlight with you.”

“How do you feel now, dear Carmilla? Are you really better?” I asked.

I was beginning to take alarm, lest she should have been stricken with

the strange epidemic that they said had invaded the country about us.

“Papa would be grieved beyond measure,” I added, “if he thought you

were ever so little ill, without immediately letting us know. We have a

very skilful doctor near us, the physician who was with papa today.”

“I’m sure he is. I know how kind you all are; but, dear child, I am

quite well again. There is nothing ever wrong with me, but a little

weakness.

People say I am languid; I am incapable of exertion; I can scarcely

walk as far as a child of three years old: and every now and then the

little strength I have falters, and I become as you have just seen me.

But after all I am very easily set up again; in a moment I am perfectly

myself. See how I have recovered.”


So, indeed, she had; and she and I talked a great deal, and very

animated she was; and the remainder of that evening passed without any

recurrence of what I called her infatuations. I mean her crazy talk and

looks, which embarrassed, and even frightened me.

But there occurred that night an event which gave my thoughts quite a

new turn, and seemed to startle even Carmilla’s languid nature into

momentary energy.

VII.

Descending

It would be vain my attempting to tell you the horror with which, even

now, I recall the occurrence of that night. It was no such transitory

terror as a dream leaves behind it. It seemed to deepen by time, and

communicated itself to the room and the very furniture that had

encompassed the apparition.

I could not bear next day to be alone for a moment. I should have told

papa, but for two opposite reasons. At one time I thought he would

laugh at my story, and I could not bear its being treated as a jest;
and at another I thought he might fancy that I had been attacked by the

mysterious complaint which had invaded our neighborhood. I had myself

no misgiving of the kind, and as he had been rather an invalid for some

time, I was afraid of alarming him.

I was comfortable enough with my good-natured companions, Madame

Perrodon, and the vivacious Mademoiselle Lafontaine. They both

perceived that I was out of spirits and nervous, and at length I told

them what lay so heavy at my heart.

Mademoiselle laughed, but I fancied that Madame Perrodon looked

anxious.

“By-the-by,” said Mademoiselle, laughing, “the long lime tree walk,

behind Carmilla’s bedroom window, is haunted!”

“Nonsense!” exclaimed Madame, who probably thought the theme rather

inopportune, “and who tells that story, my dear?”

“Martin says that he came up twice, when the old yard gate was being

repaired, before sunrise, and twice saw the same female figure walking

down the lime tree avenue.”

“So he well might, as long as there are cows to milk in the river

fields,” said Madame.

“I daresay; but Martin chooses to be frightened, and never did I see

fool more frightened.”

“You must not say a word about it to Carmilla, because she can see down

that walk from her room window,” I interposed, “and she is, if
possible, a greater coward than I.”

Carmilla came down rather later than usual that day.

“I was so frightened last night,” she said, so soon as were together,

“and I am sure I should have seen something dreadful if it had not been

for that charm I bought from the poor little hunchback whom I called

such hard names. I had a dream of something black coming round my bed,

and I awoke in a perfect horror, and I really thought, for some

seconds, I saw a dark figure near the chimneypiece, but I felt under my

pillow for my charm, and the moment my fingers touched it, the figure

disappeared, and I felt quite certain, only that I had it by me, that

something frightful would have made its appearance, and, perhaps,

throttled me, as it did those poor people we heard of.

“Well, listen to me,” I began, and recounted my adventure, at the

recital of which she appeared horrified.

“And had you the charm near you?” she asked, earnestly.

“No, I had dropped it into a china vase in the drawing room, but I

shall certainly take it with me tonight, as you have so much faith in

it.”

At this distance of time I cannot tell you, or even understand, how I

overcame my horror so effectually as to lie alone in my room that

night. I remember distinctly that I pinned the charm to my pillow. I

fell asleep almost immediately, and slept even more soundly than usual

all night.

Next night I passed as well. My sleep was delightfully deep and


dreamless.

But I wakened with a sense of lassitude and melancholy, which, however,

did not exceed a degree that was almost luxurious.

“Well, I told you so,” said Carmilla, when I described my quiet sleep,

“I had such delightful sleep myself last night; I pinned the charm to

the breast of my nightdress. It was too far away the night before. I am

quite sure it was all fancy, except the dreams. I used to think that

evil spirits made dreams, but our doctor told me it is no such thing.

Only a fever passing by, or some other malady, as they often do, he

said, knocks at the door, and not being able to get in, passes on, with

that alarm.”

“And what do you think the charm is?” said I.

“It has been fumigated or immersed in some drug, and is an antidote

against the malaria,” she answered.

“Then it acts only on the body?”

“Certainly; you don’t suppose that evil spirits are frightened by bits

of ribbon, or the perfumes of a druggist’s shop? No, these complaints,

wandering in the air, begin by trying the nerves, and so infect the

brain, but before they can seize upon you, the antidote repels them.

That I am sure is what the charm has done for us. It is nothing

magical, it is simply natural.

I should have been happier if I could have quite agreed with Carmilla,

but I did my best, and the impression was a little losing its force.
For some nights I slept profoundly; but still every morning I felt the

same lassitude, and a languor weighed upon me all day. I felt myself a

changed girl. A strange melancholy was stealing over me, a melancholy

that I would not have interrupted. Dim thoughts of death began to open,

and an idea that I was slowly sinking took gentle, and, somehow, not

unwelcome, possession of me. If it was sad, the tone of mind which this

induced was also sweet.

Whatever it might be, my soul acquiesced in it.

I would not admit that I was ill, I would not consent to tell my papa,

or to have the doctor sent for.

Carmilla became more devoted to me than ever, and her strange paroxysms

of languid adoration more frequent. She used to gloat on me with

increasing ardor the more my strength and spirits waned. This always

shocked me like a momentary glare of insanity.

Without knowing it, I was now in a pretty advanced stage of the

strangest illness under which mortal ever suffered. There was an

unaccountable fascination in its earlier symptoms that more than

reconciled me to the incapacitating effect of that stage of the malady.

This fascination increased for a time, until it reached a certain

point, when gradually a sense of the horrible mingled itself with it,

deepening, as you shall hear, until it discolored and perverted the

whole state of my life.

The first change I experienced was rather agreeable. It was very near

the turning point from which began the descent of Avernus.

Certain vague and strange sensations visited me in my sleep. The


prevailing one was of that pleasant, peculiar cold thrill which we feel

in bathing, when we move against the current of a river. This was soon

accompanied by dreams that seemed interminable, and were so vague that

I could never recollect their scenery and persons, or any one connected

portion of their action. But they left an awful impression, and a sense

of exhaustion, as if I had passed through a long period of great mental

exertion and danger.

After all these dreams there remained on waking a remembrance of having

been in a place very nearly dark, and of having spoken to people whom I

could not see; and especially of one clear voice, of a female’s, very

deep, that spoke as if at a distance, slowly, and producing always the

same sensation of indescribable solemnity and fear. Sometimes there

came a sensation as if a hand was drawn softly along my cheek and neck.

Sometimes it was as if warm lips kissed me, and longer and longer and

more lovingly as they reached my throat, but there the caress fixed

itself. My heart beat faster, my breathing rose and fell rapidly and

full drawn; a sobbing, that rose into a sense of strangulation,

supervened, and turned into a dreadful convulsion, in which my senses

left me and I became unconscious.

It was now three weeks since the commencement of this unaccountable

state.

My sufferings had, during the last week, told upon my appearance. I had

grown pale, my eyes were dilated and darkened underneath, and the

languor which I had long felt began to display itself in my

countenance.

My father asked me often whether I was ill; but, with an obstinacy

which now seems to me unaccountable, I persisted in assuring him that I


was quite well.

In a sense this was true. I had no pain, I could complain of no bodily

derangement. My complaint seemed to be one of the imagination, or the

nerves, and, horrible as my sufferings were, I kept them, with a morbid

reserve, very nearly to myself.

It could not be that terrible complaint which the peasants called the

oupire, for I had now been suffering for three weeks, and they were

seldom ill for much more than three days, when death put an end to

their miseries.

Carmilla complained of dreams and feverish sensations, but by no means

of so alarming a kind as mine. I say that mine were extremely alarming.

Had I been capable of comprehending my condition, I would have invoked

aid and advice on my knees. The narcotic of an unsuspected influence

was acting upon me, and my perceptions were benumbed.

I am going to tell you now of a dream that led immediately to an odd

discovery.

One night, instead of the voice I was accustomed to hear in the dark, I

heard one, sweet and tender, and at the same time terrible, which said,

“Your mother warns you to beware of the assassin.” At the same time a

light unexpectedly sprang up, and I saw Carmilla, standing, near the

foot of my bed, in her white nightdress, bathed, from her chin to her

feet, in one great stain of blood.

I wakened with a shriek, possessed with the one idea that Carmilla was

being murdered. I remember springing from my bed, and my next


recollection is that of standing on the lobby, crying for help.

Madame and Mademoiselle came scurrying out of their rooms in alarm; a

lamp burned always on the lobby, and seeing me, they soon learned the

cause of my terror.

I insisted on our knocking at Carmilla’s door. Our knocking was

unanswered.

It soon became a pounding and an uproar. We shrieked her name, but all

was vain.

We all grew frightened, for the door was locked. We hurried back, in

panic, to my room. There we rang the bell long and furiously. If my

father’s room had been at that side of the house, we would have called

him up at once to our aid. But, alas! he was quite out of hearing, and

to reach him involved an excursion for which we none of us had courage.

Servants, however, soon came running up the stairs; I had got on my

dressing gown and slippers meanwhile, and my companions were already

similarly furnished. Recognizing the voices of the servants on the

lobby, we sallied out together; and having renewed, as fruitlessly, our

summons at Carmilla’s door, I ordered the men to force the lock. They

did so, and we stood, holding our lights aloft, in the doorway, and so

stared into the room.

We called her by name; but there was still no reply. We looked round

the room. Everything was undisturbed. It was exactly in the state in

which I had left it on bidding her good night. But Carmilla was gone.

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