i am confident

i am confident
i am confident
I am a positive and calm person
i am a positive and calm person
i am a positive and calm person

i am so happy and grateful that i had a good day at school today

i am so happy and grateful that i met cool and chill people today
i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict

welp today is officially the first day of my sophomore year in high school . i
didn’t have a freshman year so this is technically my freshman year. i’m going to
make it a great year. i’m gonna have a great day today is gonna go smoothly and my
schedule will change again in my favor . i believe this to be true . i’m gonna
claim it as mine. spirit, ancestors please protect me and give me the confidence to
act normally today and not absolutely make a fool of myself. i’m gonna be ok.

thank you ancestors, spirit , universe, god, for protecting me this far. continue
to do so please

♡︎
i commit to being myself and loving who i am and who i became today. ♥︎

i am a positive and calm person

i am a positive and calm person
i am a positive and calm person
I am social and able to easily talk to anyone
i am social and able to easily talk to anyone
i am social and able to easily talk to anyone

i am so happy and grateful i met cool people today

i am so happy and grateful my schedule changed in my favor today
i am so happy and grateful i had a good day today

i don’t have much to say. i’m just happy yesterday went good. i actually met
someone and was able to talk to them like a normal person . i hope to keep on going
like this on a positive road, and make more friends . i’m gonna have a good day
again. no, a good week overall. a good year . i’ve come a long way

thank you spirit, ancestors, god for protecting me as always

i commit to being myself and becoming a better overall person ♡︎♥︎

❥

i am confident
i am confident
i am confident
I am calm during public speaking
i am calm during public speaking
i am calm during public speaking

i am so happy and grateful i met cool and funny people today.

i am so happy and grateful my schedule was changed in my favor today.
i am so happy and grateful today went smooth without any conflict.

i’m so glad my counselor finally decided to email me back. i’m am sure now the
necessary changes will be made in my favor and today will be great again. also, not
to sound pessimistic, but i hope i don’t have to present that all about me thing in
lit. if i do, then i’ll be ok. remember, i’m calm during public speaking. i’ll do
good.

thank you spirit, ancestors, god for protecting me all the time, hope to get to
connect with you more

i commit to being myself, loving myself, and being at peace♥︎

❥

i am confident
i am confident
i am confident
i am a natural at public speaking and social interaction
i am a natural at public speaking and social interaction
i am a natural at public speaking and social interaction

i am so happy and grateful that today went smoothly without any conflict
i am so happy and grateful my cramps didn’t hurt too much today
i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today

sorry i didn’t journal yesterday. whatever that was yesterday, i’m glad it’s over.
if it was karma for something i did, i’ve paid my dues. or it could’ve just been me
being stupid. who know. all i know is today is going to be better. maybe i had to
stay home for a reason, or maybe i deserved a break, anyways hope i’m still going
to barnes & noble tomorrow. let me just get threw today first tho.

thank you spirit, ancestors, god, for protecting me from everything, i hope to get
to connect with you more

i commit to being myself and staying positive and grateful ♥︎

❥

i am cool and fun to be around

i am cool and fun to be around
i am cool and fun to be around
i am confident and worthy of compliments
i am confident and worthy of compliments
i am confident and worthy of compliments

i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict

i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful my energy was protected today

welp it’s officially the start of the second week of school . it’s a real shame i
didn’t get to go to barnes and noble on saturday. i honestly think the girl ditched
me but we’ll see in bio . or could just be me jumping to conclusions like i always
do. but i want to admit, i feel like i’m not being honest and for real here. like ,
yeah my goal here is to be more positive, and i really am, but i think i’m not
being honest with my thoughts here. i’m supposed to connect with spirit here, but
i’m not being honest so i’m gonna try and be 100% here from now on. my thoughts can
be extremely negative and weird at times but that’s how i’m can tackle that stuff ,
by letting it all out of my head , right?

thank you, spirit, ancestors, god, for always protecting me and my energy, i hope
to connect with you more

i commit to being myself and being honest ♥︎

❥

i am always attracting fun stuff into my life

i am always attracting fun stuff into my life
i am always attracting fun stuff into my life
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me

i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict

i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses

OH MAN, do i actually have a lot to say. FIRST OOOOHH MYYY GOOIDDD I LOST MY ROSE
QUARTZ!! no because i’m actually mad upset about that. not only did i lose it but i
knew DAMN well it was going to happen that’s why i’m upset at myself for not
putting it up the first couple of times in was going to fall . i’m HOPING that it’s
a sign form spirit saying that the rose quartz job was complete but man am i mad
about that. once again, i’m trying to be positive but i’m also being honest . i’m
sorry universe/spirit/ancestors i’m very dumb and i need you to send more obvious
signs. that’s why i’m kinda iffy on the whole “it’s job was complete” thing because
i knew i was going to lose it so it might not really count?? idk ANYWAYS moving on
to a more happier (?) topic, let’s talk about those dreams. i only vaguely remember
at least three of them but i know i had more dreams than that . i just can’t
remember them for the life of me , i only remember like two second moments form
three of them. one of them was about an asian dude in our laundry??? who was like
unconscious for a while and then eventually “woke up” he was rambling about
something and i could tell he was pretty nerdy. we started to unpack his stuff and
there was a bunch of anime theme and japan-esque things/clothes, so he was like an
otaku. idk he seemed pretty cool i think he had like red hair, i can’t remember
clearly. he had a lot of fucking clothes too , i can just remember them all
exploding out at once, majority anime themed. another dream , which i only remember
like one split second from it me and bunch of other people , they felt familiar ,
like old friends, i can’t remember their face tho. we were going through a bunch of
clothes , like either in a closet or a store, it feels more like a closet tho . and
that’s all i remember. i remember seeing like a bunny purse to and some really cute
like “aesthetic” “y2k” ish like pinterest board type clothes. and that all. a last
dream i remember is mama saying,”we got boba” and i got all excited . and then it
skips to like some restaurant. corey was there mama was there and i know a couple
other family members were there, just can’t remember the names or the faces. mama
and the other adults were at one table, and me corey and the other family (probably
like one of the younger cousins,IDK!) were at another and there was one table
behind us with like a dude and his little brother i wanna say. on our table there
was boba and a bunch of other really good/ cute looking food, and like LOTS of it.
i remember getting mad at one of the little boys (probably a cousin) for drinking
my boba. and then i got in a fight with the older brother behind us, he was really
wasn’t fighting back either. idk why or how the fight started, but the only other
thing i remember is my phone breaking , like a big black like glitch line going
across it, like diagonally for bottom right to top left and the bottom right was
bent and broken open . it’s very specific, i know, but i just wanted to right down
as much as i remember, but that’s literally it. i’m not sure if that was supposed
to mean anything, but if it was , i have absolutely no clue. i fucking love having
dreams , especially when it’s multiple in one night and i remember them, more of
that please . i hope writing down my dreams will help me remember them more and
have more of them and maybe understand what they might mean? but hey i just can’t
except of the fact that not everything is a sign (maybe)

thank you spirit, universe, ancestors, god for protecting me and my energy , i hope
to get to connect with you more and understand your signs/messages

i commit to being myself, loving myself , and being honest about my thoughts and
feelings ♥︎
❥

i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life.
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life.
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life.
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me

i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict

i am so happy and grateful that i made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful that i am healthy and free of any illnesses or viruses

kinda upset how i really don’t have much to say. journaling is fun especially when
you have a lot to say. i don’t think i had dreams last night , if i did i wouldn’t
remember them anyway. i want to have more dreams, but not like them weird
disturbing dreams i had for a short period of time. anyways , i set my intentions
yesterday (i don’t know if that’s the right terminology sorry) and now it’s time to
release, like actually. i may continue adding on to it but now it’s time to
release, once again, asking for a (obvious) sign from spirit/ancestors/universe, is
this correct , am i getting close, was i specific enough, is this the right path?
i’ll be patient tho.

thank you spirit, ancestors, universe, god for protecting me and my energy all the
time, i hope to get to connect with you more and understand your signs/messages

i commit to being myself, loving myself and being patient ♥︎

❥

i am confident
i am confident
i am confident
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me

i am so happy and grateful that today went smoothly without any conflict
i am so happy and grateful my schedule changed in my favor today
i am so happy and grateful i am free of any viruses and illnesses

ok so i think i had a dream last night . it was about like a class i was in and we
were all getting our nose pierced. i was with a few familiar people , don’t know
their names and can’t remember their faces , but i know they were old friends and
hispanic/latina, probably people from middle school. anyways ever one was in line
to get their nose pierced and once it was my turn, i entered like a dark looking
room, there was an old woman in the first room , i can’t remember anything else
from that room, so there was an entrance to another room straight ahead that had
the same dark ambiance , this time an old man, the one who was doing the piercings.
there was a chair and a light above it, and a HUGE piercing gun thing. right when i
was about to get the piercing, it was like the dream had stop and i was like
narrating, something along the lines of, “and the dream stopped because i’ve never
gotten a nose piercing before and i don’t know what it feels like” and that’s
literally all i remember. i have nothing else to say i just wanted to write down
this dream, if it was supposed to my something, i have no clue

thank you spirit,ancestors ,universe, god for protecting me and my energy for all
this time, i hope to get to connect with you more and understand your messages and
signs

i commit to being myself, loving myself and being grateful ♥︎

❥

i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life

i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me

i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict

i am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses and illnesses
i am so happy and grateful that i made more friends today

i’m having such a hard time getting up in the morning . i don’t want the dread of
going to school already start back up, it’s only the second week of school. it may
just be because i didn’t get enough sleep(which is bull shit because i get 6/7
hours of sleep) or it’s because i don’t have many friends yet to look forward to
seeing. i want to make more friends but nobody talks to other people! and i don’t
know how to start conversations . i just want someone with the same interest as me,
and it’s doesn’t seem like there is anyone like that around here , and if so, it’s
rare and they are not in my classes. or they ARE just like me, and don’t talk to
people until someone comes up to them . i really need to learn how to go up to
people on my own i stop waiting for people to come to me.

thank you spirit,universe,ancestors,god for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself, loving myself and stepping out of comfort zones ♥︎
❥

i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive , powerful and healthy people into my life

i am so happy and grateful that today went smoothly without any conflict
i am so happy and grateful i’m made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any diseases or viruses

third week of school. my mouth hurts so bad , i had to get my braces tightened. i
may start journaling on the weekends. i would say “if i have time” but i have all
the time in the damn world. for now i’ll just do it every morning on the bus, once
i get a habit of doing it , i’ll start every day. now i had a dream . i forgor
almost every bit of it but i’ll talk about what i do remember . i was asking
jenascia how to work this award app that can either buy you groceries or ship you
things from all over the world. that’s all from that moment . then there was a
short moment where we were driving from a furniture store??idk what the store was
but for some reason i feel like it was a furniture store, and jenascia and mama got
into a argument and left jenascia there. that’s all i remember idk what the hell
that could’ve been about . moving on , the past couple of days i’ve been really
irritable, maybe it was that new moon , idk and i’m actually upset i didn’t get to
see it because none of the windows in the house point towards the moon so i’m mad
about that as well. and i sort of feel like i’m at a pause in my life rn. like,
nothings happening, it’s feeling like there’s some type of barrier stopping me and
my life from progressing. idk but i just feel like i’m stuck , nothing interesting
is happening yet. idk but i hope things start to happen soon (good things btw)

thank you universe, spirit, ancestors, god for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself and loving myself ♥︎

❥

i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life

i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict

i am so happy and and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses
i am so happy and grateful my doc martens weren’t squeaky/sticky as shit today

welp. missed the bus. nature calls i guess. i wanted to talk about that dream i had
but i can barely remember it. i was in school and something was going on with the
teachers? and then i was with a girl and people were asking who the “dominant” one
was?? and we were saying it was me. i was hugging the girl and i could tell by the
way i was hugging her she was kind of big. i literally cannot remember anything .
like i had it earlier but after missing the bus i literally forgot. i have no idea
what that was about. but now that i’m thinking , i actually want to talk about all
the dreams i had about them. well, all the ones i can remember. there are five .
the first one was me and them in like a clothes store and it was kind of awkward. i
had ask them a question, they said something and like they disappeared, like in the
blink of an eye. their hair was orange/ginger in this dream. the second one was me,
mama, her, and their mom. we were in like a regular looking store but there was
like glowing things, like patterns on totems and shoes and note books. my mom and
her mom was talking and they were saying something to us. i asked for their age and
she said 16 . then we where in a bed just looking at each other, that’s it. her
hair was black and in a middle part. this is one of my favorites. the third one was
like her, me and a man (probably a father figure) walking up to a house that was in
the process of being built . it was like the only house and i was sort of on a hill
. it was two stories and there was nothing but wood . their dad(?) was saying
something and then all of a sudden and bunch of people was in the house. i guess we
were playing some type of game and people falling out of the window? it started to
get weird at the end but that’s all i remember. their hair was like a mullet with
short bangs and was sort of ginger/ brownish . the fourth dream (i don’t know if
this one came before or after the next one but oh well) was with me , then and a
couple of other boys . i don’t know who they are but it felt like we were friends.
we were in the kitchen and we were all getting ready to leave the kitchen and all i
remember saying was “i was born in a cup of water”???(idk man) and everyone was
clearly shocked by that . i had went back to my room(it looked like my room from
our old apartment in jonesboro ) and she was there with me, laying on the air
mattress. she was laughing so i guess we were like joking around or something? and
all i kept saying was”why are you in my grease””get out of my grease” (look man
idk) it wasn’t in a threatening way like we were joking , but i remember saying”no
seriously “ And then the dream stopped. their hair was orange again. the fifth and
last dream i can remember was really short. it was a split second moment, i was
laying my head in her lap and i just remember thanking the universe over and over ,
then it slowly started to fade away because it felt so real at first and it then
disappeared after realizing it was a dream. it felt super super real. i couldn’t
see her face but i knew it was them. and that’s it. i just wanted to write this
down so that i don’t forget the dreams (which i probably won’t) and try and see
what they might mean. i’m trying to let go tho but my mind won’t shut the fuck up.

thank you spirit, universe, ancestors, god for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself and loving myself and being grateful ♥︎

❥

i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive , powerful and healthy people into my life
i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict
i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful that i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses

i actually made it on the bus this time and my bowels didn’t get the best of me.
but i had a dream last night. i forgot nearly half of it but it was a pretty
enjoyable dream. i was in an argument with some dude on the bus but i wasn’t all
shaky and stuttery like i would usually be. idk what the argument was about . then
we were in a school cafeteria i was with a friend, i couldn’t see their face
though. and some other people was talking to me from another table, i don’t
remember what it was about but i was being myself. like, my sense of humor, my
irony, sarcasm, tone , like the way i was talking was how i would be with someone
who knows me and who i’ve been with for a long time. like how i talk with sydney n
them. it was me , i wasn’t using a formal way of speaking with like a person i just
met. but that’s all i remember from the dream, which sucks because i actually
enjoyed that dream. anyways i want to talk about how i’ve been feeling lately. i’m
just starting to realize how lonely i am/feel . like i know i have a couple of
people who talk to me at school but it’s just not resonating , i don’t have anyone
i can call an actual friend yet . i’m starting to feel desperate now. like i know
these people are trying to talk to me but we’re just not clicking, but i know it’s
because IM not putting in the effort ! idk how tho, idk how to talk to people idk
how to start conversations like?? i just wait for people to come to me, but there’s
over 2000 kids in this school, no ones worried about me. i can tell they’re kinda
getting bored of me as well . but that’s my own fault because i’m boring!! i know
i’m not but idk how to prove that. someone just come to me please!! i’m so
desperate and bored please!

thank you universe , ancestors, spirit , god for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself and loving myself ♥︎

❥

i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive , powerful and healthy people into my life

i am so happy and grateful today went smoothly without any conflict

i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses

lately i’ve been unbelievably thirsty . like a crave affection so desperately right
now. i’ve been so touch deprived for like forever and it’s starting to catch up
with me. maybe it’s just the teenage hormones that’s starting to come up . i want
to cuddle with someone so badly . i’m a very touchy feely person and to not have
hugged or just been in some ones embrace for so long is causing mental strain. im
definitely being overdramatic right now but i need some physical affection soon .
nothing but sexuality and exploring/experimenting sexual desires have been on my
mind lately. i guess that’s normal for people my age to start getting curious, i
hope. i like to think i’m responsible so i’ll steer clear of anything that looks
like it’ll put me in a dangerous situation . i’m smart, i can tell when a situation
is making me uncomfortable or when it’ll look like trouble. i’m won’t be taken
advantage of. but let’s focus on school right now. i don’t want to go down this
rabbit hole.

thank you spirit, ancestors, universe, god, for protecting me and my energy
i commit to being myself, loving myself and being responsible and trusting my
intuition ♥︎
❥

i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life
i am attracting positive, powerful and healthy people into my life

i am so happy and grateful i had a fun and eventful day at school today
i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses

yesterday i fiiinally finished painting my wall after it almost reaching 8 months

since i started. you know, i really didn’t expect that i’d finally finish this
project because as many excuses as mama made to not buy the ladder, i didn’t think
she would actually do it. but i’m glad she did and now that’s one less thing on my
list to worry about . i get to move on to other things now, like actually
decorating my room. i have a bunch of things i want on amazon already , and i want
to start buying jojo figures . i know , that’s loser shit but it’s jojo’s so i’ll
let it pass. i doubt mama or momo would ever buy an anime figure for me so i’ll
have to use my own money , or get a job, which is not happening anytime soon. and
about this homecoming thing. i really do want to go but i still have yet to have a
person i could call a friend. i’m not tryna spend money to go to homecoming ALONE
and that chelsea girl obviously wants nothing to do with me. i’m also not sure
about tamya cause she knows too many people and i’m not tryna third wheel or look
like a loser clinging on to her. homecoming is not until the 25th so i guess i have
time? can i really make a FRIEND friend within the span of 3 week? hell, not even
three week because tickets might be sold out. idk but i’m going to have to figure
in out. i’m not with this loner shit any more i’m tired of being a lonely loser who
sits alone at lunch and walks to class by themselves. do better.

thank you spirit, ancestors, universe, god, for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself, loving myself and being more social ♥︎

❥

i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me .
i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.
I believe I AM worthy enough to manifest my desires.
I believe I AM worthy enough to manifest my desires.
I believe I AM worthy enough to manifest my desires .

I am so happy and grateful i had a fun and eventful day at school today .
I am so happy and grateful i made more friends today .
I am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses and illnesses.

let’s talk about the dream i had last night first. I forgot nearly all of it but
i’ll tell what i can remember . it was two dreams. first it was mama and i think
corey? she had some crystals and then she had a whole bunch of them and we got to
choose them. i went for rose quartz and something else i can’t remember. but the
“rose quartz “ was like in a little tube and powder. the other one was in a tube
and liquid . they were both pink too. that’s all i remember from that dream . the
other dream was i was in world history class and we were taking notes. it was weird
though, but i forgot almost all of that dream so that’s it. what i really wanted to
talk about was this whole thing. journaling, horoscopes, manifestations,
spirituality. i’m supposed to be building a relationship with my spirit guides and
ancestors. like i can tell i’m rushing things or i’m just doing shit thinking it’s
doing something, but it’s not. i’m supposed to connect while journaling, but i
don’t think anything’s happening yet. i would love to build a relationship with
spirit and my ancestors, but the thing is i don’t know how or where to start . i
mean i could research it but, once again,i don’t know where to start or who to
trust . i can’t just go on twitter and expect all my solutions to be there and
youtube may not be that reliable either. i just want something to happen, some
confirmation that what i’m doing is actually making something happen. like i can’t
just ask for shit from beings i don’t have a relationship with and expect it to
happen right away. remember, you have to put the work in! stop expecting things to
just work out for you out of no where! stop expecting to be spoon fed this
relationship can’t be one sided.

thank you spirit , ancestors , universe, god, for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself, loving myself and building a relationship with spirit ♥︎
❥

i believe I AM worthy enough to manifest my desires

I believe I AM worthy enough to manifest my desires
I believe I AM worthy enough to manifest my desires
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me

i am so happy and grateful i had a fun and eventful day today

i am so happy and grateful that i made more friends today
i am so happy and grateful that i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses

i don’t have much to say. which is sort of why i almost forgot to journal. i didn’t
get to meditate last night because the wifi AND the service just mysteriously
stopped working . wonder what that was about. but that should explain why i woke up
in sort of a bad mood. that’s all i have to say i can’t think of anything else.

thank you spirit, ancestors, universe, god, for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself, loving myself and being patient ♥︎

❥

i’m a living breathing magnet for love and success.

I’m a living breathing magnet for love and success.
I’m a living breathing magnet for love and success.
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.

i am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses.

i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today.
I am so happy and grateful i had a fun and eventful day today.

i’ve been mad irritable as of late. from mama constantly harassing me about grades
and school to being alone every day and not having any friends at school and not
talking to anyone. it’s actually starting to get to me. i’m trying to stay positive
and keep high vibrations but literally every little thing is making me mad. could
be pms but i doubt it. i’m just sitting here complaining about not having friends
while also not making an effort of talking to anyone and being dry as fuck . but
idk how to fucking do that bro. i don’t want to be rejected and also none of the
cool looking people are in any of my classes. school is lame as hell , the people
are lame as hell, nothing interesting ever happens, this school is so boring. there
no way , out of all the 2000+ kids in my school , that none of them have the same
interest as me. and if so then WHERE ARE THEY AND WHY ARENT THEY IN MY CLASSES!! at
least it’s pretty outside. not a single cloud in the sky.
thank you spirit, ancestors, universe, god, for protecting me and my energy.

i commit to being myself and loving myself ♥︎

❥

i am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.
I am grateful for every blessing the universe has and will ever create for me.
I surrender to the presence of love and oneness.
I surrender to the presence of love and oneness.
I surrender to the presence of love and oneness.

i am so happy and grateful i made more friends today.

I am so happy and grateful i am healthy and free of any viruses or illnesses.
I am so happy and grateful i had a fun and eventful day today .

i want to talk about my dream first. once again, i can barely remember them but
i’ll try to explain as much as i can. one of the dreams was me getting a septum
piercing. i was with corey and i asked him to record it. while i was getting it
done , it wasn’t hurting at all and when they did the piercing i didn’t feel any
pain. but that might be because you can’t feel pain in your dreams. that’s all for
that one. i can’t remember anything from the other dream, but i know it was like, a
continuation? of certain dreams i have often, like on the same topic or story . i
can’t remember anything from it, which sucks. but moving on from the dreams, i
figured out the source of my frustration. it’s at home. the place where i’m
supposed to be at peace and tranquillity, my peace is being disturbed by the owners
of the house. it’s like my mom would purposely try to find SOMETHING to be upset
about or complain about. i was literally just sitting at the table , on my phone,
and she talking bout some “why you sitting like i don’t see you” or some stupid
shit like that. like she would just start shit for no reason! she has a HUUUGE
victim complex , like she would cause problems and then blame me for it!! she loves
to call me ungrateful and disrespectful and then wonder why i’m in a fucked up mood
all the time, it’s because of her! and when she constantly ask “you good? what
wrong? you good?” and i actually am, it gets annoying when she thinks somethings
wrong when nothing is wrong and constantly asks over and over and over again. like
i’m genuinely trying to get better and stay positive but she’s ruining it!!! like
it’s genuinely suffocating she is and how i literally can’t escape or get a break
from her and it doesn’t help how i don’t have any friends to go to or hang out with
to get a break. she loves to blame me for everything and can never admit when she’s
in the wrong. like i can’t believe it took me this long to realize how manipulative
she it. she would create a problem that doesn’t even exist just to get mad at me
for it and to try and make me feel “bad” or sorry for her. well,spirit,ancestors,
tell her i don’t. i don’t feel bad at all and tell her she needs to stop acting
like a hormonal child and be an adult and realize that yes, she is wrong sometimes
and needs to admit it, and leave me alone.

thank you spirit,ancestors, universe,god, for protecting me and my energy

i commit to being myself, loving myself and standing up for myself.♥︎

❥