A GOOD MEAL

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Th e cosm os h as been ch ocked by life. I affirm everyt h in g

as I kn ow t h ere's n ot h in g for m e t o affirm . Niet zsch ean
affirm at ion was n ever su pposed t o be abou t open n ess in an
en ligh t en in g liberat in g way or open -n ess at all; it s blade t h irst s
for bu t ch erin g an d h u n t in g all t races of econ om ical grou n d-
based open n ess (as econ om ical open n ess h as n ot h in g t o do wit h
closu re bu t parsim on y an d t h e grot esqu e dom est icat ion s),
devou rin g t h e en t ire su rvival econ om ies based on t h e polit ical
grou n d of 'bein g open ' [1 ].
Affirm at ion [2 ] does n ot m ake you open t o t h e world bu t
closes you progressively t h rou gh t h e grot esqu e dom est icat ion s
of econ om ical open n ess, m akes you m ore solid an d econ om ically
open , m ore m oralized an d m ore ideal for t h e bou n dary wh ose
u n con t rollable m ach in ery is based on t ran sform in g open n ess t o
affordan ce [3 ], an d loyalt y t o su rvival econ om y. It is n ot abou t
h ow m u ch you are open bu t h ow m u ch you afford. It bu ries you
u n der t h e grou n d of su rvival econ om y an d it s affordan ces. Bein g
open is t h e u lt im at e t rick of affordan ce an d t h e dom est icat ed
in t erfaces of t h e bou n dary wit h t h e ou t side; it presen t s it self as
an open n ess, part icu larly on t h e in evit ably secu red(in g) plan e of
bein g open (bein g open t o, bein g open -m in ded, et c.) an d n ot
bein g open ed. 'Bein g open ', polit ically an d cau t iou sly,
econ om izes t h e su rvival econ om y as an econ om ical, h eavily bu t
slyly appropriat ed sph ere of affordan ce (J. J. Gibson ) (n ot
referrin g t o t h e rest rict ed affordan ce of on e or m u lt iple syst em s
t h rou gh com m u n icat ive n exu ses bu t t h e wh ole en viron m en t ,
t h e h orizon .) " I am open t o you ." m ean s, I h ave t h e capacit y t o
bear you r in vest m en t or 'I afford you ' (t h is is n ot m y
con servat ive voice bu t wh at arises as t h e fu n dam en t al n oise
produ ced by t h e m ach in ery of differen t levels of organ izat ion
an d bou n dary, an d fin ally t h e Su rvival E con om y); if you exceed
t h is capacit y I will be cracked, lacerat ed an d laid open .
However, affirm at ion is a 'St rat egy' [4 ] t o call an d brin g an
epidem ic Open n ess wh ich always com es wit h plagu e, base-
com m u n icat ion an d part icipat ion , con t am in at ion an d pan dem ic
h orror; it t rails you r solid st at e, you r dwellin g syst em t h at is t o
say you r n ich e or Hieddegerian rau m [5 ] (dwellin g /
accom m odat in g syst em s), you r su bsist en ce an d su rvival
econ om y: libban , lifian . It doesn 't n eed t o ru n aft er you , it
h u n t s you down from wh ere you will be (Wh eren ess) [6 ].
Open n ess always kn ows h ow t o h u n t . It (u n )folds as an in t ern al
cu t from wh ere you h aven 't seen before an d you can 't see it in
t h e fu t u re (it is t h e blin dn ess) ... em ergin g an d ru n n in g t h rou gh
you r body as a su rgical m ach in e -- gaseou s, odorless, wit h a
m et allic wisdom of an scalpel -- cu t t in g you ; t earin g apart ,
spreadin g an d open in g ou t m olecu le by m olecu le ... cu t t in g
t h rou gh t h e n on h u m an dept h s ... crawlin g across you r gu lfs of
illn ess an d bu t ch erin g you t h rou gh it s rect al dept h s. If an at om y
is cu t t in g from u p t o down t o exam in e t h e body h ierarch ically as
a t ran scen den t al dissect ion ... t h en t h e kat at om y [7 ] of
open n ess does n ot cu t an at om ically, it bu t ch ers everyt h in g
t h rou gh t h e pin k dept h s of t h e darkn ess spreadin g as an
u n grou n d bet ween t h e m olecu les (you rs? ) ... kat at om y of
open n ess is t h e experien ce of u n grou n d ... Open n ess on ly n eeds
t o be t riggered off.
Open n ess is n ot t h e an t h ropom orph ic desire of bein g open
bu t bein g open ed, lacerat ed an d laid open . Open n ess (an d bein g
open ed) is t h e War, it n eeds st rat egies t o work. Affirm at ion is a
vect or t o St rat egy.
To becom e open an d experien cin g t h e ch em ist ry of
open n ess (U n grou n d) is im possible by open in g you rself (a
regu larized desire germ in at ed on t h e m an eu verin g lin es of
bou n dary, h orizon : h orism os an d in t er-st rat a t ran sform at ion s at
t h e organ izat ion al level) bu t affirm able by m essin g you rself u p:
erect in g you rself as a solid an d m olar volu m e exposed before t h e
let h al radiat ion s of t h e Su n an d t h e rest of t h e killer plan et s
(Maraka), secu rin g you r h orizon , im m ersin g you rself deep in t o
you r im m u n e syst em , sealin g you rself off from an y dan ger, ...,
goin g deeper in t o you r h u m an h ygien e, bein g m ore fru it fu l t o
Su rvival E con om y an d fin ally, t akin g 'bein g open ' as you r
grot esqu e dom est icat ion wh ich all m ean su m m on in g an d
brin gin g a faceless plagu e an d a let h al radiat ion an d disease
im m in en t t o all im m u n it y syst em s, all bou n daries, all m on olit h ic
an d m olar volu m es ... Th en it arrives crypt ogen ic, as t h e Plagu e
of Open n ess (open in g an d bein g open ed at t h e sam e t im e), wit h
n o t rail or ext en sion , an on ym ou sly an d su bt let y (Open n ess is
An on ym ou s u n t il Now, t h e in cogn it u m h act en u s [8 ]), as a
h u n t er wh o is an already-t h ere, u n coat s you bit s by bit s (t h e
on ly qu est ion cou ld be asked is 'wh ere does it st art from ; h ead,
face, n erves or t h e cavit ies? ), eat in g an d grin din g you as
veget able an d m in eral; t u rn in g you in t o a fin e m eal, in t o a n ew
m eat . . . a n ew food, for a n ew eart h (Deleu ze).
Yazidian (t h e Sat an ist s of an cien t Persia) for t h e first t im e,
discovered t h at " wh en it com es t o darkn ess, we m u st t h in k
st rat egically." ... t o affirm t h e L ife-Sat an (call it Dru j-, Malec
Tavoos or Sat an ), we m u st en gage wit h it t h rou gh a st rat egic
com m u n icat ion t h at is t o say n ot by affirm in g posit ively bu t by
st rat egically t u rn in g ou rselves in t o m eals, good m eals, act in g as
an affirm in g decoy t o spark t h e h u n t , t o st rat egically con ju re u p
t h e life-Sat an : be a good m eal, be a decoy. U n like t h e west ern
Sat an ist cu lt s, t h ey don 't t ake t h e an n ih ilat ion ist evil as t h eir
Sat an ist blu eprin t (t h ey are n ot an n ih ilat ion ist s) ... t h ey
su m m on t h e life-Sat an t h rou gh t h e cu t t in g edge of t h e Asiat ic
Peace (h orror) [9 ]. To su rren der you rself t o t h e ecst asy of Sat an
(t h e life-h orror, epidem ic open n ess or t h e divin e) you MU ST t ry
t o pu rify you rself from u glin ess, part icipat e in n u m erou s
h ygien e cou rses, t ake a qu ot idian an d in t h e sam e degree
ext rem ely syst em at ic an d in st it u t ion alized life as you r own life-
st yle (livin g), bot h ph ysically an d m en t ally at t em pt t o be away
from defilem en t ... you sh ou ld ju st t ry t o m ake A Good Meal ou t
of you rself for t h e life-Sat an an it s Nih ilest h et e-Com plex, you
sh ou ld m ake a decoy ou t of you rself ... t h is way you
st rat egically lu re t h e life-Sat an t o t ear you t o sh reds; in t h is
case, t h e in t en sit y of life-Sat an , you experien ce is
u n t h in kable ... you becom e an u n grou n d t o all defilem en t s,
h orrors, an d darkn ess wh ich life-sat an pou rs in t o t h e syst em s
an d organ izat ion s. Accordin g t o Yazidian , t h e Sat an , always
lan ds on t h ose wh o live an d we m u st live (in t h e m ost
organ izat ion al aspect of t h is process) t o affirm su ch a
cat ast roph ic in t en sit y of u ph eaval. It 's war an d we m u st t h in k
bot h st rat egically an d pest ilen t ially. Now, you see t h e iron y of
t h e food ch ain wh ich t raverses n ot on ly t h eism , bu t also liberal
polit ics, an d socio-polit ical su rvivals, an gelic win gs, et c. E very
yan g you drop in you r pocket m ean s accu m u lat in g m ore
excit at ion for t h e life-sat an .
Th is is t h e case: you sh ou ld m ake you rself a n ew fresh
m eal: Obelisk, m on olit h u s, t h e world t ree, et c. Bu t h ow can we
t u rn ou rselves in t o a n ew food, an u lt im at e food for t h e
open n ess em erges t o con su m e u s as it is con su m ed as well n ot
t o t h e poin t of pu rgat ion bu t in volu t ion of t h e com posit ion al
m ess? (Make you rself a m eal an d t h e rest will be don e: you will
be served n ot as a gu est bu t a m eal; you are served t o be h alf
eat en [1 0 ] an d en zym ed.) Here com es t h e plagu e. E pidem ic
open n ess devou rs an d bu t ch ers you wit h an absolu t e in t en sit y
t o su ch a level at wh ich open n ess loses all it s m ean in gs: wide-
open , open -m in ded or broad-open as t h e su bject ively
accom m odat ed(in g), appropriat ed(in g) an d spat io-logical m odes
all u n fold as t h e crap-words (m ere com m odit ies of affordan ce) ...
open n ess n ot in t h e sen se of wide-open (fit t in g t h e docile
polit ician s of su rvival econ om y) bu t devou red-open , lacerat ed,
bein g t orn t o sh reds, cracked an d laid open , or t o be precise,
st rat egic en gagem en t , com m u n ion , act ive com m u n icat ion ,
playin g as an accom pan im en t an d base-part icipat ion . Th ere is
n ot h in g dist u rbin g h ere bu t pu re love of t h e plagu e, eat in g you
greedily sin ce open n ess is bein g open an d open ed con cu rren t ly:
Th e god is a psych opat h lover; ... is sick of love.
Th is is wh y gods t ake solar voyages t o com e t o t h e grou n d
an d becom e t h e dead gods. Th ey com e t o open , t o eat an d
defile, t o im m erse t h em selves in m ess. Th e Dead God is a god
wh o h as t aken an avat ar or h as fallen t o t h e gru n d (t h e so-
called ch t h on ic [1 1 ] god). Th e word 'avat ar' t h at is t h e realit y of
ch t h on ic com m u n icat ion su ggest s t h e labyrin t h in e voyage of t h e
dead god as a ch t h on ic open n ess (bein g open an d open ed)
rem arkably brillian t an d deviou sly sin ist er. Avat ar [1 2 ]
t ran slat es it self as a ch t h on ic or a deat h m ask com in g from t h e
San skrit 't o descen d', n am ely, t h e rect al dept h s of darkn ess or
t h e blacken in g en ergies of fall, kat abasis an d descen t wh ich t h e
gods u n dergo an d t h rou gh wh ich t ran sm u t e t o t h e dead gods
[1 3 ]. Th e fallin g God is n ot h in g bu t an open n ess wh ich seeks t o
open an d be open ed, eat an d be eat en . Th e dead god is n ot t h e
t ired, abolish ed or doom ed God bu t t h e god(s) wit h it s u lt im at e
weapon of cat ast roph ic devast at ion s; a plagu e com in g on eart h
t o m ake t h e grou n d an u n grou n d of a pest ilen t ial bu t in fern ally-
filled-of-love Open n ess, doin g a secu lar bu t sacred crim e:
open in g it self by eat in g an d in fect in g t h e ot h er an d open in g t h e
ot h er by t u rn in g it self t o a corpse, a cold m eat bein g ch ewed,
scaven ged an d h alf-eat en away by everyt h in g on t h e eart h ,
t h en bein g exh u m ed for a love m akin g: a n ecroph ilic m ess.
In Begot t en (t h e m ovie, direct ed by E lias Merh ige), t h e
God cu t s h im self open wit h a razor blade, ru n n in g in t o h is
Black& Wh it e en t rails; jerkin g, ben din g, t wist in g, coilin g,
con vu lsin g, m elt in g, jarrin g an d wan kin g off h is in n ards wh ile,
for t h e first t im e, deat h -cru isin g h is jelly-flesh , st eppin g in t o
t h e plat eau of black m at t er. Aft er bein g liqu idat ed (bloom in g as
a corpse), a m asked wom an lu rch es ou t of t h e sh adows,
in sem in at in g h erself wit h t h e sem en boiled ou t of t h e God's
corpse. Sh e gives birt h t o a dwarfish creat u re ren dered t h rou gh
a h u m an body (Mu t an t Dead God). Mu t an t Dead God is im m in en t
t o t h e Dead God an d t h e God h im self. Th e Mu t an t Dead God is
t h e on ly solu t ion t h at God an d m ascu lin it y cou ld fin d t o
in t rodu ce t h em selves t o t h e root less jou rn ey of becom in g
wom an , by becom in g 'It ', a m u t at ed coldy or a cold an d
m u t at in g 'He': It .
'It ' in sin u at es t h e pest ilen t ial solu t ion m ascu lin it y fou n d
(in ven t ed) t o m ess u p it s closu re, it s rigidit y, t h en , t akin g t h e
fligh t of becom in g wom an , t h e cat afligh t of epidem ic open n ess.
On ly t h rou gh becom in g It , m ascu lin it y an d t h e God can
t ran splan t t h em selves in t h e body of becom in g wom an as
'prost h esis', A Good Meal' or 'it ': 'He' can on ly affirm becom in g
wom an by becom in g It , by becom in g a prost h esis, a good m eal.
Mu t an t Dead God is t h e u lt im at e Good Meal ou t of a n ecroph ilic
m ess (coldies en gin eerin g) t h at m ascu lin it y can u n dergo for
wast in g it self on Zero; t o be lacerat ed open at last ; bu t h ow
m u ch sem en t h e dead god can afford t o dissem in at e t h e 'm u t an t
dead gods'? We cou ld n ot see t h e m u t an t dead god if t h e screen
pain t ed wit h sem en t o a desolat ed Wh it e or a lu m in ou s wh it e
sparklin g in colorless liqu ids ... a screen blan ket ed wit h
wh it en ess (Call it Moby Dick.)
Mu t an t dead god is n ot on ly a solu t ion for t raversin g t h e
GAS-plat eau of becom in g wom an (com m u n icat in g wit h it s lin es
of fligh t ) bu t also a cat aclysm ic solu t ion for en cou n t erin g t h e
Mot h er of Abom in at ion s (t h e m ot h er of all becom in gs). U pon
su ch an im m en se fem in in it y, becom in g wom an (t h rou gh direct
t act ical lin es) for m ascu lin it y is im possible; m ascu lin it y can on ly
affirm t h e Mot h er of Abom in at ion s by becom in g it , a cold wast e
drippin g from t h e at roph ied m u scles of m alelessn ess; jam m in g
in t o it an d becom in g prost h esis. Mot h er of Abom in at ion s is n ot a
sh e-m ale bu t a sh e-it ... a fem in in it y fu sed wit h t h e prost h eses,
n ot m erely life-su pport bu t of all sort s an d kin ds, a spon ged
u n grou n d of it (s).
Sadegh Hedayat 's Th e Blin d Owl [1 4 ] illu st rat es su ch
im possibilit y of t h e st raigh t becom in g wom an on t h e dark
jou rn ey of Zero t h at m ascu lin it y en cou n t ers, an d wh at a vividly
dark illu st rat ion , wh at an experien ce ... t h is is exact ly wh at
Deleu ze, u n fort u n at ely, m issed in becom in g an im al, becom in g
in t en se, becom in g im percept ible. To con t in u e an d en gage
becom in g wom an , m ascu lin it y m u st u se it s own grou n d an d t u rn
it again st it self [1 5 ] t h rou gh t h e GAS-flu xes of st rat egy an d
t erm in al t act ics n ot t o t h e poin t of dest ru ct ion bu t a m u t at in g
an d com posit ion al m ess of base-com m u n icat ion (an exh u m ed
arch it ect u re over t h e ru in s of m ascu lin it y), exh u m in g it t o a
fibroproliferat ive [1 6 ] u n grou n d t h at st rat egically affirm s
becom in g wom an ... in becom in g it on e becom es an on ym ou s
even t o zero bu t n ot ext ern al t o it .
Th e dead god is a God beyon d ju dgm en t an d m u t an t dead
god is t h e m ess im m in en t t o it ; a good m eal ou t of t h e
st rat egies of affirm at ion . Th e am brosia or t h e food of t h e gods is
prepared in su ch a diabolically possessed kit ch en wit h dish es
t ot t erin g on h eat -sn u ffed oven s an d floor em bedded wit h m ess;
am brosia plagu e (A Good Meal) is germ in at ed t h rou gh t h e
epidem ic dept h s of open n ess. I am du st in g m y blood as a cru st
t o forge an u n grou n d t h rou gh wh ich t h e god is bu ried an d t h en
exh u m ed.
Open n ess on ly com es in t h e im percept ible recesses of
in fect ion : A faceless love.
Notes

[1 ] On 'open n ess' (bein g open an d open ed) also see: | Cat a-|
[2 ] On 'affirm at ion an d Niet zsch e' see: | Cat a-|
[3 ] On 'affordan ce' see: | Cat a-| especially en dn ot e 3
[4 ] " Tact ic is t h e t alen t of h an dlin g t roops in war an d
st rat egy is t h e art of brin gin g forces t o t h e bat t le field." Field
Marsh al E arl Wavell
[5 ] On rau m (room ) or t h e plen u m of capacit y see: Bu ildon g
Dwellin g Th in kin g in 'Poet ry, L an gu age, Th ou gh t ', Mart in
Heidegger, t ran s. Albert Hofst adt er, Harper Coloph on Books,
1 9 7 1 ; also | Cat a-| at Cold Me
[6 ] On 'Wh eren ess' an d 'Wh ere' see: | Pest is Solidu s| an d |
Aceph alou s Mou t h s|
[7 ] See | Cat a-|
[8 ] On An on ym ou s-u n t il-Now (in cogn it u m h act en u s) see: |
Cat a-| an d | Pest is Solidu s|
[9 ] See | Rem arks on Asiat ic Peace|
[1 0 ] See | Aceph alou s Mou t h |
[1 1 ] 'Ch t h on ic' (Greek) from Kh t h on (eart h ) an d Kh t h on iê
(Sh e ben eat h t h e E art h : t h e Qu een of t h e U n derworld)
relat es t o t h e t wist ed n et h er of t h e eart h (kat abasis of
dept h ) so it is m ost ly u sed as t h e u n derworld, n am ely, t h e
plu t on ic aspect s of t h e eart h as a lair for t h e gods wh o
st rat egically affirm exh u m at ion an d u n grou n d. (Kh t on : t h e
t eet h of t h e m ot h er eart h )
[1 2 ] Roger Caillois in L es jeu x et les h om es (t ran slat ed t o
E n glish u n der t h e t it le of Man , Play an d Gam e, t ran s. Meyer
Barash , U n iversit y of Illin ois Press, 2 0 0 1 ) con siders Masks as
" secret weapon s" of t ot al disorder, m et am orph osis an d t ru e
social bon ds. Now, Avat ar as t h e ch t h on ic or ch t h on ic-
m akin g m ask u n dergoes su ch m et am orph oses, allian ces an d
disorders. Mask is t h e delirial apparat u s of 'becom in g god' of
a person wh ile avat ar is t h e opposit e. Avat ar is, first of all, a
m ask t u rn ed in side-ou t ; it is a defacin g equ ipm en t for t h e
on e wh o pu t s it on (it t arget s t h e h ost ); sin ce u n like m asks,
it radiat es m ore at an d t o t h e in side rat h er t h an ou t side;
m asks radiat e m adn ess an d avat ar oozes blin dn ess. Th is is
wh y Mu t an t Dead God is born ou t of t h e cat aclysm of vision .
Avat ar, t h is equ ipm en t an d labyrin t h in t h e cu lt of t h e dead
god, m ore t h an bein g a m ask is a sac in t o wh ich t h e Dead
God spills all h is sem en , all h is excit em en t for becom in g
ch t h on ic; it h olds t h e h yper-excit em en t of t h e dead god.
[1 3 ] On 'Kat abasis' see:| Cat a-|
[1 4 ] Hedayat , Sadegh , Blin d Owl, t ran s. D. P. Cost ello, Grove
Press, 1 9 8 9 ; or Hedayat , Sadegh , Boof-e Koor (Blin d Owl),
Siem orgh Pu blish er, Teh ran
[1 5 ] On 'E xh u m at ion ' see: | Aceph alou s Mou t h |
[1 6 ] On fibroproliferat ion of t h e gru n d (t ran scen den t al,
arch it ect u ral, et c); see: | Aceph alou s Mou t h |