Written Essay

For my written essay, I decided to write about my current situation, about this
chapter in my life that started a couple of years ago when this pandemic began, the
teacher told us that the topic was free, we could write about the past, about the
future, basically about any personal aspect that we would like to touch, and
although I do plan to talk about my future plans I decided to talk about a topic that
seems to have tired us all, society is tired about the topic, we have it present day
by day, every moment we find ourselves with reminders of the situation that we
have been living for a couple of years as I mentioned before.
I am aware that most of us all want to forget about this situation, this pandemic, but
at this point I wonder how to do it? When we have the Covid-19 virus immersed in
our lives, and although at the beginning it was hard for me to accept it, today I am
aware that now we are living a new normality, I did not really want to accept this
fact because for a year and some months I was patiently waiting for the situation to
improve for everyone and for this to remain as a memory, I wanted everything to
be as it was before, Now I know that the possibility of returning to normality is very
distant, so distant that I cannot imagine when everything will happen, I am learning
to accept this famous new normality, I did not want to do it but I understood that it
was necessary to be able to live again, I could not stay all my life locked up in 4
walls waiting for the day when the situation would improve.
Part of this acceptance came to me when I decided to work, I believed that we
would return to school a long time ago, I remember that at the beginning I thought
we would have a week of vacation, since that day more than 18 months passed
and from the first one I was wishing to have human contact with other people
again, the last real hope I had to go back to school was in October of this year, the
professors said that it was very likely that we would finally return to face to face
classes, this was the last time that I got my hopes up because in reality there were
other previous occasions, after this last occasion I decided that I would look for a
job and I did it, I spent some weeks creating accounts in job websites, I spent
several days creating a great resume, and to be honest I exaggerated a little in this
last one regarding my qualities and experiences but can you blame me? I just
wanted to stand out in the great line of candidates who apply for any job vacancy,
the truth is I don't regret this last one, it may sound a bit conceited but in reality I
think I can do well anything I propose myself and at that moment I knew it would be
very difficult to get the job because the current economic situation is very difficult,
proof of that are the numbers of unemployed people after the pandemic, so it
seemed a complicated mission for a young Gerardo with hardly any experience in
the working world.
It is true that I didn't need the money, but I didn't have any to spare either, maybe I
could have given up and just focused on studying at the university, but certainly my
main reason to look for a job was the fact of having some social interaction with
other people, I wanted to feel that I belonged to a group again and the truth is that I
was excited to meet other people.
Was I really that lonely? Actually I don't know, I was never really alone, I had the
permanent and unconditional support of my emotional partner, my girlfriend Lucia,
she was my partner at that time, she was my best friend as well as my lover,
besides that, I had the company of my friends of almost all my life, we are a group
of 5 people, sometimes more when we have "guests", we have known each other
for 8 or 9 years and despite living in the same city most of our interactions are
through the internet, and I don't know if it's because we prefer it that way or
because we can't see each other very often, I think it's the first option, we are
playmates, we have endless chats and we agree every so often to meet and eat
something, and update each other on some issues.
So I wasn't really alone but I would still be that need to have a routine, meet people
that I knew were going to be there the next day and even though it sounds kind of
silly I also wanted to have an excuse to board public transportation every day and
give me some time alone with my favorite songs, I wanted to have a routine and at
this moment I think I got it, before moving on to another topic I would like to
mention the important company that my friends who live in other states of the
country meant to me, from Kevin in Veracruz to Franco in Colima, I like to know
that I can connect emotionally with people who are far away from me and that is
thanks to the time in which we live, this feeling grew with the current health
situation because we were all forced to connect without touching each other.
My routine now is based on not having time for anything, as it sounds now I have
to study, work and be aware of my social interactions, I barely have time to eat and
do my homework for school, mentioning school I also have to mention that my new
occupation was reflected in my report card, before I had an average of 9 and now I
am satisfied with passing, but even that way is fine, I feel part of society again and
for the first time in a long time I feel that I am moving forward, that I am going
forward and that is what I was looking for.
In short, I am not afraid to say that this has been one of the most difficult times for
me, it has been complicated for everyone then, although it sounds bad it makes me
feel a little better to know that I am not alone in this.
The future plans are a little more optimistic compared to what I had in mind a
couple of months ago, before I was thinking about just finishing college somehow,
now I have a goal that I think is realistic and that became my next objective,
somehow, someday I want to go to work temporarily in the United States, I like the
idea of working as a staff in a camp, I want to live the experience of being alone,
away from home, another goal I have outlined is to achieve independence from my
parents, Lately I have fantasized about the idea of soon being able to buy a room
for rent, even if it is something a little humble so to speak, the truth is that I am not
materialistic and I give more value to simple things like freedom over material
things, total independence sounds complicated with a salary like mine but it starts
to seem more feasible if you take into account the option of getting a roomie to split
expenses, in this process that I am living to meet new people for work reasons I
hope to find someone with the potential to become a good roomie.