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Im Currently Doing A Mess Right Now

The author expresses frustration with art and abstract expressionism, feeling that some abstract art lacks meaningful expression of feelings or thought. They reflect on art as a way to control one's emotions and distract from problems by focusing intently on the creative process. The author questions whether they are a burden or problem for their family, and expresses love and gratitude for their family alongside worries about their family members and a desire to spend more time with them.

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Im Currently Doing A Mess Right Now

The author expresses frustration with art and abstract expressionism, feeling that some abstract art lacks meaningful expression of feelings or thought. They reflect on art as a way to control one's emotions and distract from problems by focusing intently on the creative process. The author questions whether they are a burden or problem for their family, and expresses love and gratitude for their family alongside worries about their family members and a desire to spend more time with them.

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Im currently doing a mess right now, artwork if you name it

I don’t have a paint brush temporarily and paints.

But I have a lot of hatred on art

It never really started

I just hated it

Im frustrated whenever I do something artistic, specially when I cant see a image or where this mess
would go. Then after a bit of paints here and there, I saw and undersea im not quite satisfied with it
because the subject would just be jelly fish.

I remember why I hate art. I hate abstracts, some people will throw paints on canvas and put a subject
and call it art. Im not looking at an image, im looking for the feelings. The anger resentment even in
simplified arts its hard to find. Yet people who are brash while doing it with aggression disgust me.
What? You’ll put blu paint black paint red : all types of color then throw it all in the canvas and say “I just
released my anger and it turns out beautiful” stop with that rubbish. I hate it.

Why?

Considiring it as an art is hopeless. You don’t think about it, you’re just playing around. Not thinking if
anything. Where will the feeling be placed?. Saan lulugar ang nararamdam mo kung hindi naman ayun
ang iniisip mo.

Art should be finest effort in that way all of your problems will brush away because you have something
that you can control, manipulate and lead where it will end and begin once again.

Thinking througly while doing an artwork keep your mind busy and distracted. Away from everything its
just you and art materials.

So now don’t come to me and say that painting and drawing is your coping mechanism when you don’t
understand how it truly happens.

Wala na akong gagawin kung ganyan ang mindset mo, hindi ko nalang ipapaintindi kung hindi mo
maiintindihan point of view ko.

My thoughts are running and I wish to have cassette tape in my mind so it can record every word that
run loose around my head.

Im going to finish this and hopefully im satisfied.


Questions. Doubts. Possibility

Thoughts that ran around our minds.

Everytime I answer each, another begins. Why cant it just wait?

Another starts, it’s a cycle that never ends.

Where should I begin.

I want to tho many things. I want to do this but I feel like a burden

Am I the problem?

I know I shouldn’t think of this but im sorry. Im a problem to you.

Im sorry, I cant even hug you. Or give you a letter because it not that time anymore.

Now im drowning in thoughts. What if tomorrow youre gone. Am I going to do?

What am I going to do without you.

How can I say my appriciation without facing you.

How can I say my thankfulness without saying it to you.

How am I going to say I love you without crying infront of you.

How am I going to hug you when I cant even touch you.

Am I a bad daughter?

I feel the love that I received

But do you feel mine?

Im the reason why you feel obliged to do.

I want to make you relax, both of you.

Im so thankful for everything.

I have many unsaid I love yous so from now on im starting to write it.

What happened to me?

im part of this family but why can I like im one?

I really want to say I love you.. but even thankyou is silent in my mind

Because of this stupid books.

Im feeling a lot of things and take it deeper than I should.

Why cant I just continue.

I know youll say it to me again and again that its not my problem.

Im just worried about you.


I don’t want to fail you.

I don’t want to hurt you

I want to say sorry

But next day all of this thoughts will disapear because I can see you.

I promise.

Once Im capable of many things.

The first thing I will do is to travel with you.

To spend my time for both of you.

I want to remove you from the tiredness

I want to take you somewhere you can have your time

I want you to think for a quite long time.

Please take your time.

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