Understanding the Self

Assignment Task

Group members:

Dela Cruz, Elaine

Fiebre, Dianne

Pegarro, Jeralph

Reyes, Miyoko

Tamula, Kye Justine

Neuroticism (Tamula, Kye Justine)

Neuroticism is defined in psychology and development, as a broad personality trait dimension

Since when I was in Junior Highschool up until now, I always feel tired about anything and
everything. There are times when I want to distant myself from everyone because I just don’t have the
energy to interact with them. My friends are always wondering what is happening with me, but they
know that I am not okay. I feel sorry for them because I know that I am affecting their mood, I am
basically killing the vibe. In this phase, I don’t even know how mental health issues work. But
remembering it, I feel so sad because it reminded me how hard it is for me. I am so young yet I am so
sad, I am always crying wondering what is really wrong with me. It’s like nothing is wrong, but nothing is
right either.

Every night I always overthink about my future, especially when I’m still out of school. I’m
always worried if could I really make it? How am I going to make my parents proud of me? Will I ever get
out of the situation that I am currently in? There’s a lot of thoughts going on in my head and it doesn’t
go away so I just cry and cry, until I couldn’t cry no more. I also came to the point where I couldn’t even
breathe and thought I was going to die and my mom told me to stop overthinking because it’s a
symptom of anxiety attack. It was the worse, I never want to be in that situation again.

Just recently, when I am still working as a Customer Support Representative, I also had a mental-
breakdown while working. I couldn’t take the stress anymore. I am so drained about the work. I talk to
other people every day through phone call to help them about their problem. Yeah, it was really fun in
the beginning, but I realized how heartless people can be, I know I shouldn’t let it get through my head.
But maybe, my heart or ego is just too weak for that kind of job; I always received a bunch of bad words,
sexual harassment, and racism. I stayed there for about 4 months then I decided to submit a resignation
letter.

Now, I am still in the process of healing. I am doing the best I can to have a peace of mind and to
have a stable mental health. I hope that no one goes through to what I’ve been. And I just want to
mention that I am beyond grateful for the people who stayed by my side during my hard times and
never let me go. I guess it’s my time to be happy again…

Extraversion (Fiebre, Dianne)

Extraversion. I already experience this all the time, I have circle of friends and I can tell if you're
all my friends, I'll tell you even if it's private, but once my friends and I have quarreled. We split up and
divided into two groups and one day I told a secret about it to the other group who used to be my
friend, I told my friend not to tell the other group but one day I found out that he told the other group,
the secret I said should only be with us and there I became extraversion. I become shy and I limit saying
important things to people, I recognize the person first, before I trust him. but once I meet the person I
can trust, the real me will come out. I'm so different when I’m close with someone.

Agreeableness (Dela Cruz, Elaine)

I believe that agreeableness refers to a person’s ability to prioritize the needs of other over their
own. Agreeable people are generally well-liked and prefer cooperation over conflict. My highest quality
is agreeableness. I prefer to work in an environment where individuals collaborate and a group setting
where people work together. There is no crab mentality in which I can see everyone engaging together.

I remember when I was in Junior High, every time we have a video making, I am always part of
the set. The other members don’t have an opportunity to experience acting and be part of the video.
The moment I realized that, I immediately talked to my groupmates to let the other members be part of
the video. I became the scriptwriter though I still want to act in the video but I know that it’s the right
thing to do. This scenario made me more unselfish and kinder, being thoughtful is not bad and being a
good person is not hard.

Conscientiousness (Reyes, Miyoko)

When I step up in high school, I have recognized that this is the start of my high school life
journey, it may be easier but a little bit harder and we all know that we will encounter difficulties,
struggles, and fears. It came up to my mind that this is not what I expected it about, I expect that is
typically easy but you may also experience of hardships. I am the type of person every once in a while,
be the lazy, procrastinator and disorganized person. But sometimes, things I have to control myself
when it comes what are the important things need to do. One day, during my high school online class
days my teachers are generally giving the assignments or school works when the exam comes shortly.
My instructor in creative writing, she’s the type superiority when it comes to her subject, thereupon we
have a task to make a poetry, and yes, I am not good at making poems but I started to think regarding
poems, therefore the deadline is only today and few hours to accomplish the task. So, when the few
hours left and I’m still in process of working on it. However, I make my own way just to make it fast
because the time is running. Therefore, I decided to ask help with my oldest brother because my oldest
is great when it comes to poem but not only him, I just ask for help for some helpful tips and small ideas
then after that the time is coming, and I passed it at exactly on time. Truthfully, it’s really hard for me to
make a poem but at least I tried my best. My reliable friends are guiding me also in my school works
when I’m getting stress and nothing much more ideas for my school woks but the small help and guide
of my friends would really lessen my difficulties and stress, without my friends I can’t do this my own
because of a lot of school works. I am so thankful that I have a reliable friend and I also appreciate their
efforts as all the time. I often over think at the same time that I cannot do it but I believe in myself that I
can do it. As I put myself together to cheer up myself and always think positive thoughts. Although, I am
not the type of intelligent person but I’m trying my best for the sake of my family and my future. I have
to just work harder and just trust yourself; they say that “Self-belief and hard work will always earn you
success”

Openness to Experience (Pegarro, Jeralph)

I experience this all the time, for example, even if I only know someone as long as this person
shows good manners to me and I feel good and trustworthy, I become open to it even though we have
only been together for a short time. And I have a circle of friends who asked me join them even though I
don't know what to do, I become curious and I want to go with them so that I can experience that, for
example one of my friends went with his bike to Bulacan and he invited me to come because he said the
falls there are beautiful and I immediately said I'll just let my parents come with you because I want to
come and experience the new place. I'm so going different and kind of weird when I heard the places
and who randomly invited us to play basketball I immediately went along and almost everything that
was wrong and right that happened to me was wholeheartedly if I told them even once the others
weren't cupping you were so close as long as there was a happy bonding in a circle of friends.