Victims of China's Cultural Revolution: The Invisible Wounds: Part II Author(s) : Anne F. Thurston
Victims of China's Cultural Revolution: The Invisible Wounds: Part II Author(s) : Anne F. Thurston
Victims of China's Cultural Revolution: The Invisible Wounds: Part II Author(s) : Anne F. Thurston
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Anne F. Thurston
* This is the conclusion of a two-part article, the first part of which appeared in the
Winter 1984-85 issue of Pacific Affairs (vol. 57, no. 4), pp. 599-620.
' Kai T. Erikson, Everything in Its Path: Destruction of Community in the Buffalo Creek Fl
(New York: Simon and Schuster, 1976), pp. 135-246.
2 Leo Etinger, "The Concentration Camp Syndrome and Its Late Sequelae," in Joel E.
Dimsdale, ed., Survivors, Victims, and Perpetrators: Essays in the Nazi Holocaust (Washington,
D.C. and New York: Hemisphere Publishing Corporation, 1980), pp. 127-63.
3Jim Goodwin, "The Etiology of Combat-Related Post-Traumatic Stress Disorders," in
Tom Williams, ed., Post-Traumatic Stress Disorders of the Vietnam Veteran: Observations and
Recommendationsfor the Psychological Treatment of the Veteran and his Family (Cincinnati, Ohio:
Disabled American Veterans, 1980), pp. 1-6, 10.
4 Etinger, "The Concentration Camp," pp. 131-5; "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder,"
Diagnostic and Statistical Manual III (Washington, D.C.: American Psychiatric Association,
1980), pp. 236-9.
5 Etinger, "The Concentration Camp," pp. 131-8; Erikson, Everything in Its Path, pp.
136-7; Goodwin, "The Etiology," pp. 5, 11-17; Diagnostic and Statistical Manual III, pp.
326-9.
6 Ghislaine Boulanger, "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder: An Old Problem with a New
Name," paper prepared for inclusion in Sonnenberg and Talbott, eds., The Psychiatric
Effects of War (Washington, D.C.: American Psychiatric Association, 1983), p. 21.
7 Etinger, "The Concentration Camp," p. 135.
0 Bruno Bettelheim, "Trauma and Reintegration," in Surviving and Other Essays (New
York: Vintage Books, 1980), pp. 29-35.
l Robert Jay Lifton, Death in Life: Survivors of Hiroshima (New York: Random House,
1967), pp. 479, 489-500.
12 Robert Jay Lifton, "The Concept of the Survivor," and Elmer Luchterhand, "Social
Behavior of Concentration Camp Prisoners: Continuities and Discontinuities with Pre- and
Postcamp Life," in Dimsdale, ed., Survivors, Victims, and Perpetrators, pp. 1 18-20 and 271-5.
13 Elie Wiesel, Night (New York: Bantam Books, 1960), pp. 86-7 and 99-106.
14 Erikson, Everything in Its Path, esp. pp. 156-73.
15 Goodwin, "The Etiology," p. 15.
itself; guilt over having betrayed relatives or friends; and guilt over
having been unable to protect one's family from attack.
Perhaps the most complete and complex statement of survivor's guilt
was conveyed to me by a man who now regrets the unquestioning belief
he once had in China's Communist party, and who is additionally
burdened by a sense of guilt over his mother's death during the Cultural
Revolution:
None of us are innocent. Not really. Not completely. Not even those of us who
were victims. Perhaps somewhere in China is someone, some people, who have
always been honest, who have always told the truth, always spoken what was in
their heart, who have never had to speak words that they did not feel. Who they
are, where they are, I couldn't say. For all of us, at one time or another, have had
to speak words that we did not really believe. Because the political line has
changed so often, so dramatically. Only people who do not think at all, who have
lost the capacity for thought, could follow all those changing lines, could believe
all the shifts in line. There are people like that, people who blow with the wind,
without ever questioning or thinking. But they have lost the capacity for thought
and therefore, perhaps, the capacity to be human. They are torpid.
When the Cultural Revolution began, and the attacks against me started, I
believed those attacks. Many of the attacks had to do with status and privilege,
and I thought at the beginning that, yes, perhaps we intellectuals did have too
much status, too many privileges. So I felt guilty.
But later, I felt guilty for another reason. Because you see, as a young boy before
Liberation, as a young man after Liberation, I believed in the party. Not just
believed in the party. I believed that the party was China's savior, China's
Messiah. And so, as the Cultural Revolution progressed, I felt guilty for having
believed, for having been so unthinking, for having followed so blindly, for
having accepted so unquestioningly, for having glossed over my doubts.
And for what I had done. Like the anti-rightist campaign. I participated in the
anti-rightist campaign. Criticizing people. Innocent people.
And then, while I was cleaning the toilets, my mother came under attack. She
was in another city, and there was very little communication between us. But I
knew that she was suffering, suffering badly, that she needed me, that I should
go to her, to try to help her. But I couldn't. They wouldn't let me go.
And then I learned that she had developed cancer. We believe in China that
one's emotional state and one's physical health are interrelated. We say that
disease can be caused by seven types of emotions-by too much joy or anger, by
worry, or too much inner contemplation, by sadness, fear or shock. So I believe
that it was my mother's emotional state, her fear, her anxiety, her worry that led
to her death. But even as she was dying, they wouldn't let me visit her, wouldn't
let me help her. And I felt guilty for that. It was only when she was on her
deathbed, actually dying, that I finally got permission to go to her.
So, yes, many of us feel guilty about the Cultural Revolution. I don't mean to
suggest that we should feel guilty, that we really did something wrong. But, still,
I feel that this guilt is a good thing, not a bad thing. It shows that we still have
a conscience, that our consciences are intact. And so long as we still have our
consciences, so long as they work, there is hope.
I feel I must apologize to my country and my people. I must fall on the ground
on my knees and beg for their forgiveness. Because if we fanatic young Red
Guards had not done what we did the country would not have been paralyzed.
10
11
Since then, the mother has carried a heavy burden. After the downfall of the
Gang of Four, the father was proven innocent of the charges and was rehabil-
itated and allowed to resume his former position at the institute. But the family
that had been shattered by the Cultural Revolution could never be rebuilt. The
husband could never be rebuilt. He said that, given the circumstances in which
he found himself during the Cultural Revolution, hearing his wife stand up and
lead the slogan shouting against him was worse than any torture, any pressure,
any slogan that had ever been used against him. He could not forgive her. He
would not forgive her.
After that, the mother became mentally ill, began suffering from mental
disorders. She herself felt she was guilty for what she had done, and that guilt
was only compounded and reinforced by the fact that her husband would not
forgive her.
Their son, my best friend, has another view. He says that not all the blame
should be placed on his mother, that she should not be made to assume full
responsibility for having stood up and shouted those slogans. He points out that
she had been under heavy pressure to denounce her husband, to draw a clear
line of demarcation. And he points to the fact that his father could not stand the
pressure, could not bear the torture, that it was he who had confessed to being
a spy for Japan. How then could his mother be blamed?
But the husband still refused to forgive. Even when he was lying on his deathbed
with his wife there beside him, he still refused to forgive.
There is still another kind of guilt in China today, a guilt all the more
tragic because the people who feel it are blameless and were completely
powerless to prevent the attacks against those about whom they now feel
guilty. They are people who, within their families, were the primary
focus of attack. They did not betray other members of their family, but
they were helpless in protecting them from similar attack. The case of
China's great twentieth-century novelist Ba Jin is a good example.
Bajin's wife, who was thirteen years his junior, died of cancer during
the Cultural Revolution. That statement carries a different connotation
to the Chinese from the message it carries to us. While we and our
medical profession only recently increasingly recognize the relation
between mind and body, and studies are underway on the relationship
between stress and cancer,'6 the Chinese I interviewed took this rela-
tionship as given. They believe that anxiety and depression are major
contributing factors in the onset of cancer. Chinese doctors I spoke with,
although their interpretation is more sophisticated than one of simple
cause and effect, believe this as well.'7 Thus, to such people, the mere
16 See Glen R. Elliott and Carl Eisdorfer, eds., Stress and Human Health: Analysis and
Implications of Research (New York: Springer Publishing Company, 1982), pp. 268-88.
17 The precise quotation is, "Anxiety can be considered one of the factors leading to
cancer. If a person already has the factors that produce cancer but that patient is
psychologically healthy, then that could prevent the cancer. If not, this can quicken the
onset and development of the cancer."
12
fact that Ba Jin's wife died of cancer is a message that it was her
depression and anxiety during the Cultural Revolution that was a major
cause of her death. Ba Jin says so quite explicitly.
One small part of Ba Jin's reminiscences of his wife is an accusation,
an outcry, against the Cultural Revolution.'8 But the thrust of his
message is an accusation against himself for the death of his wife. He
argues that because of him, because she was his wife, she came under
attack during the Cultural Revolution. This man who had to kneel on
broken glass before 10,000 people claims that he was never beaten, that
it was his wife who suffered and died because of him. He says that he
regrets ever having written literature, because what he wrote was the
precipitating factor in the accusations against his wife and his children.
He says he would willingly have suffered 1,000 or 10,000 slashes of the
knife against his flesh in order to have saved his wife. He proclaims
himself guilty for her death. He wishes he could have died for her.'9
There is an analogue to the guilt felt by Ba Jin for the death of his
wife in the guilt felt by the many mothers who came under attack during
the Cultural Revolution who were powerless to protect their children
from similar attacks. There are those who say that there was almost an
entire generation of children that grew up in China with living parents
but who were raised nearly as orphans. Liang Heng's recent book is
additional testimony to that argument.20 For parents did not have to be
incarcerated for their children to have to go for long periods of time
without adult supervision. In many work units, the political meetings
and the struggle sessions lasted so far into the night that neither parent
could return home in the evenings; they could return home only on
Sundays. In one work unit, it was only when a seven-year old child, too
young to manage the propane stove that he was attempting to use to
cook his meal, had set both the kitchen and himself on fire that mothers
with young children were finally allowed to return home in the evenings.
But when one or both of the parents were under attack, the problem was
different. The children often also came under attack, and the parents
were often unable to protect them.
One woman I interviewed was accused during the Cultural Revolu-
tion of being a landlord and a spy. Shortly after the attacks against her
had begun, she bicycled home from a struggle session late one evening
18 At least one respected scholar in the China field has read this piece as a lite
equivalent of "J'accuse." This interpretation, however, is a misreading of Emile Zola and
his relationship to the Dreyfus case and of Ba Jin and his relationship to the Cultural
Revolution. The thrust of Ba Jin's message is not "j'accuse" but 'je m'accuse." See Leo
Ou-fan Lee, "Recent Chinese Literature: A Second Hundred Flowers" (Washington, D.C.:
The China Council of the Asia Society, July 1980). For an English translation of Zola's
letter to the president of the French Republic, printed on January 13, 1898, in the French
newspaper L'Aurore, see Louis L. Snyder, The Dreyfus Case: A Documentary History (New
Brunswick, New Jersey: Rutgers University Press, 1973), pp. 177-87.
'9 Ba Jin, "Huainian Xiao Shan" ("Reminiscences of Xiao Shan"), in Huiyi yu Daonian
(Reminiscences and Memorials) (Hong Kong: Chunhui Publishers, 1979), pp. 1-13.
20 Liang Heng and Judith Shapiro, Son of the Revolution (New York: Alfred A. Knopf,
1983).
13
21 Patricia Benner, Ethel Roskies, and Richard S. Lazarus, "Stress and Coping under
Extreme Situations," and Elmer Luchterhand, "Social Behavior of Concentration Camp
Prisoners: Continuities and Discontinuities with Pre- and Postcamp Life," in Dimsdale, ed.,
Survivors, Victims, and Perpetrators, p. 243.
22 Erikson, Everything in Its Path, pp. 10-11, 143, 179.
23 Goodwin, "The Etiology," p. 15.
14
Chairman Mao and what would have happened in China had anyone
dared display a caricature of him. "They would have been killed," she
said.
If the fear of recurrence is often expressed involuntarily, triggered
by nearly random and often apparently trifling events, that fear is also
expressed more consciously. For once extreme events, however unique,
occur, their particular horrors enter into the realm of future possibil-
ity, permanently altering the way human beings perceive their world.24
Thus the Jewish Defense League has taken as its clarion call the slogan,
"Never Again," and survivors of Hiroshima have devoted themselves to
the cause of peace.
Indeed, some Chinese draw a distinction between their subjective
and their objective view on this question. Objectively, they argue,
conditions have changed sufficiently, sufficient reforms have been intro-
duced, to prevent another Cultural Revolution. Subjectively, though,
they are still afraid. Other people, though, do not make such distinc-
tions, and are frankly afraid, many for the next generation-their
children.
I think there will be another Cultural Revolution just like I think there will be
other wars. So I tell my son to prepare to live during another war, another
Cultural Revolution. But he says that every revolution is different from those of
the past, that there will be another Cultural Revolution but that it won't be the
same as the one I had.
It isn't fear that makes me feel this way, that there will be other Cultural
Revolutions, that I want to warn my son. I am old enough. Maybe I won't
experience another Cultural Revolution. I will pass away when the next Cultural
Revolution comes. My son is the one who will meet another Cultural Revolution.
That is why I don't like him to be that way. I want him to think, to see things are
more complicated, not so simple as he makes them out to be, so that when the
next Cultural Revolution comes, he will know how to deal with it. But he refuses
to learn from my experience. He thinks there can't be two movements alike, two
movements of the same kind. He says, "Don't worry, we have to experience our
own Cultural Revolution."
Maybe we can prevent it. But now I think there is still a danger. If our central
government and provincial government can lead successfully ... I am not so
sure. If the country becomes rich enough, if the living standard becomes good
enough, if we are progressive enough, maybe when the leftists launch another
Cultural Revolution, people-most of them-won't believe. But if the country is
not that rich, if we don't make progress, if we are still backward, maybe most
people would believe that the intellectuals, the professors, are the spiritual
aristocratic class and that cadres are capitalist roaders. It is quite possible. That
is why I think we should have real equality. The sooner we abolish privilege, the
sooner we abolish the back door, the better.
That is why sometimes, even today, I still go back and clean the toilets on
campus. When people see me cleaning the toilets, they think I have gone mad.
15
But the most poignant expressions of the fear that the Cultural
Revolution could happen again are often to be found in the dreams, the
nightmares, from which so many in China continue to suffer. If, during
their waking hours, most are able to forget the Cultural Revolution, it
often comes back to haunt them asleep, as scenes from that period are
repeatedly replayed in their dreams. And the dreams of mothers who
were unable to protect their children during the Cultural Revolution are
now being passed down to the next generation of women, who were
young and unmarried at the time of the Cultural Revolution, who now
have children of their own, and who fear that what happened to them
may someday happen to their children. This is the answer of one young
woman in response to the question, "Do you ever dream about the
Cultural Revolution?"
Yes, I have dreams, nightmares. I can tell you the one I had this morning.
It was about my daughter. They were trying to take my daughter away from me,
to snatch her away from me. You will meet my daughter, and then you will know
that she is pretty, so very pretty. I love her. In the dream, they try to snatch her
away, and as I try to grab her back, somebody else comes and grabs her away.
But as they are trying to take her away, as I am fighting for her, trying to protec
her, she becomes very small, and fat, and black, like an ugly black ball. Even her
grandmother came and tried to snatch her away, but her grandmother looks old
and shrivelled, and ugly, like the wolf grandmother. I keep trying to fight for my
daughter, to protect her, but at the end, she is nothing but a little, ugly, black
ball,
During the Cultural Revolution, I thought I would never get married and have
children. I even vowed not to get married and have children. I knew I could only
bring trouble to a husband, and I don't want my daughter to go through the
same experiences I had. I am afraid for my daughter and my husband still.
16
The nightmares, the guilt, the fear that have already been described
are among the symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder. The young
woman who just described the nightmare about her daughter describes
many of the remaining symptoms in herself:
My friends see me now, friends from my university, and they don't recognize
me. They all say how much I have changed. I look so old.
My face. It's all puffy, and my husband, even my husband notices. He says I look
yellow. He is right. My skin has become yellow. My face.
I can't talk to my husband about these things. When he asks me what is wrong,
I just say that I have been working too hard, that I am very tense about all the
work there is to be done.
And I have other dreams, too. Sometimes I dream I am being attacked by tigers.
They attack me and claw at me. When I wake up after these dreams, I have to
sit on the bed, like this, with my hands over my eyes. Sometimes I sit for ten
minutes. I have to keep telling myself that it wasn't real, that it was only a dream.
Whenever I get so upset, I just have to keep telling myself that they are only
dreams. They are only dreams.
25 "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder," Diagnostic and Statistical Manual III, pp. 23
17
precisely those ways. The young man described in Liu Xinwu's "Awake,
My Brother" is described as cold, detached, dispirited, unresponsive,
withdrawn from the "mundane world," without interest or hope. His
eyes are without lustre or gleam. He has lost trust, faith, ideals. His elder
brother asks, "Don't you have any heart at all? Don't you feel?"26
In the "literature of the wounded" such detached and unresponsive
youth are typically saved by an old party cadre or the leader of the Youth
League, themselves usually also victims of the Cultural Revolution. But
in practice such salvation is not always available. Moreover, what one
does not read about in the "literature of the wounded" is the extreme
end of the spectrum of troubled Chinese youth-those who suffered
some form of mental breakdown during the Cultural Revolution from
which they have yet fully to recover. The young woman described in the
first part of this article, who went mad after her parents had been
incarcerated and her boyfriend had left her, is still (says her friend) mad
today. Many young people describe similar instances of friends who
went mad during the Cultural Revolution and who have yet fully to
recover.
One of my friends had confessed early in the movement. He had suffered a lot
more than I because he had tried to escape and been caught. The army officers
had been furious with him for trying to escape, and he had suffered a very cruel
beating. But the most terrible torture was not the beating but not being allowed
to sleep. So he decided notjust to confess but to hand over a membership list of
all those people he had introduced into this clandestine May 16 group. Once,
when I was locked in my room, I heard him outside in the corridor when he was
being escorted to the lavatory. I heard him shouting, "Give me back the list I
gave you yesterday. Now I recall there are two more people I have to add to the
list." That wasn't forced. He didn't have to add to the list. So he must have
already been insane.
He came to see me when I was packing and said, "Do you know me?" I said, "Yes,
of course, you're XXX." But he said no, he was the liaison officer of the May 16
group. He said, "I introduced 300 people to that movement, including you." He
was already crazy at that time. People wouldn't lie in front of their victim. If they
told a lie about you, they would never tell you right to your face.
I saw him again much later, around the time of the downfall of the Gang of
Four. He was still insane, but in a particular way. He asked me many silly
questions. He was working in a school, but he couldn't teach. His job was to carry
mortar for the school's masons. He asked me questions about whether I thought
the plaster was poisoned, which of the masons was better, which of the masons
was most likely to be putting poison in the mortar.
18
began, who were married to men who became victims of the Cultural
Revolution, whose primary function was that of housewife, and whose
primary tasks during the Cultural Revolution were, in the face of
overwhelming difficulties, to hold together their families and their
households. For the full ten years of the Cultural Revolution, these
women, despite the enormous difficulties with which they were bur-
dened, performed those tasks admirably. But when their husbands were
rehabilitated, the strength they had maintained intact during their
period of tribulation suddenly melted away. In two cases with which I
am familiar, the behavior of such women became not only disoriented,
but bizarre. In others, the reaction was one of apparently severe
depression.
In 1980, Arthur Kleinman, a psychiatrist, anthropologist and China
specialist, conducted a study of neurasthenia (shenjing shuairuo) at the
Hunan Medical College where one of his patients was a woman who fits
the category just described. Neurasthenia, as Kleinman interprets it, is
often (although not always) a form of clinical depression-not the type
of depressing mood from which most human beings suffer intermit-
tently at one time or another, but a serious form of depression which can
be a potentially deadly disease. For such depression can be accompanied
by a general, profound and implacable sense of hopelessness, and in that
state of utter and unremitting despair, a small but significant portion of
the clinically depressed attempt suicide. Some succeed.
The woman treated by Kleinman was the wife of a "rightist." In 1958,
her husband had been sent to live in the countryside, able to visit his
family only once a year. They had four children, and his wife-because
of her husband's background-was unable to find work, and therefore
had only a very limited income on which to support her family. During
the Cultural Revolution, the situation for her husband, the woman
herself, and the family, worsened considerably. Her depression began in
1978, just after her husband was rehabilitated, promoted to an ex-
tremely responsible position, and returned home to live with his family
after having been absent for twenty years. In her interview with
Kleinman, the woman begins by denying that the onset of her depres-
sion was related to difficulties of readjustment in living with her
husband, and tries to explain why she is depressed. Kleinman para-
phrases her explanation:
Suppose, she said, looking at the ground, you were climbing a mountain and this
mountain was very steep and terribly difficult to climb. To the right and the left,
you could see people falling off the mountainside. Holding on to your neck and
back were several family members so that if you fell so would they. For twenty
years you climbed this mountain with your eyes fixed on the handholds and
footholds. You neither looked back nor ahead. Finally, you have reached the top
of the mountain. Perhaps this is the first time you have looked backward and
seen how much you had endured, how difficult your life and your family's
19
PSYCHOSOCIAL CONTINUITY
Few who have studied extreme situations would agree with Terkel,
"That there were some who were untouched, or indeed did rather well
isn't exactly news. This has been true of all disasters." Disasters, by their
very nature, leave few unscathed. When people appear initially to be
little changed as a result of severe stress, the psychologist might be led to
suspect that they are practising denial. Many psychologists and psychi-
atrists would argue that the most natural and prevalent response to a
major stressful life event is denial or repression, an apparently persistent
belief that, after the stressful event has passed, one can pick up where
one left off and proceed as usual. Most psychiatrists would also recognize
that during immersion in extremity, denial in the form of "psychic
numbing" or "emotional anesthesia" serves as a coping mechanism
essential to survival. The woman who spent twenty years "climbing a
mountain" was practising denial or "psychic numbing." And, while she is
suffering today from depression, she did reach the top of that mountain,
carrying her children with her.
Psychiatrists would also argue that however natural and frequent
denial as a response might be, once the stressful event has passed, denial
becomes maladaptive. It does not allow an individual to integrate
significant events of his life into his overall view of the world. What
appears initially as continuity might be regarded instead as an inability to
adapt. But specialists and laymen might well differ in the interpretation
of the function of denial in the wake of the Cultural Revolution. No
Chinese with whom I have spoken has ever pretended to be able to
explain the Cultural Revolution-or in any case not fully, not com-
pletely. No one has yet been able fully to integrate that experience into
his or her life. For most, it is not a question of picking up the pieces and
moving on. Rather it is a question of leaving the pieces scattered around
like so much rubble and still standing up and going on. The remarkable
resilience of so many Chinese who have gone through so much may be
to a large extent a function of denial. And because so few were able to
find meaning in their suffering during the Cultural Revolution, it is also
a way of continuing to find meaning in the past.
One of the universal features of old age is a retrospective stock-
taking of one's life, an effort not uncommonly accompanied by depres-
sion.28 Literature provides us with examples. In one of the final scenes
20
Ever since I was a young girl of only sixteen, I have believed in Chairman Mao.
I have believed that without Chairman Mao I would have no future, no
happiness. I suffered in the old society, and then suddenly, in 1949, I was
liberated. The party sent me to the university to study and then on for
post-graduate work as well. I read Marxism-Leninism, Mao Zedong thought. My
situation got better. I got a good position. It was Chairman Mao who rescued me
from being such a poor girl before Liberation.
I know that Chairman Mao believed in violence. He said that revolution is not a
dinner party, that revolution is violent. During the movement against counter-
revolutionaries in 1955, Chairman Mao said that we had killed a number of
people but that still the number of people we killed was not so great. We did kill
29 Giuseppe di Lampedusa, The Leopard (New York: Pantheon, 1960), pp. 288, 290-91.
21
During the Cultural Revolution, I kept thinking Chairman Mao doesn't know
how much we are suffering' he doesn't know what is going on here. Actually, I
think I didn't really believe that, but it was easier for me to think that. It was
more comfortable that way. And then another quotation from Chairman Mao
would come out, and we ox ghosts and snake spirits would all have to recite it
and then we would suffer even more. People destroyed themselves because they
loved Chairman Mao so much, because they just couldn't admit that he was
wrong.
But I still love Chairman Mao. His motives were good. He wanted to prevent
China from becoming like the Soviet Union, from becoming revisionist. If I ever
thought that Chairman Mao had done something wrong to harm the Chinese
people, something about me would change. I would lose my own sense of
self-confidence. All my beliefs would have to change. And my past. All my past
experiences. What would happen to them? If I didn't love Chairman Mao, how
could I look back over my life?
30 Elliott and Eisdorfer, eds., Stress and Human Health, pp. 55-69, 149-67.
3 John Hersey, Hiroshima (New York: Bantam Books, 1959).
32 Arthur Miller, The Crucible (New York: Bantam Books, 1959).
33 Terrence Des Pres, The Survivor: An Anatomy of Life in the Death Camps (New York:
Oxford University Press, 1976), pp. 160-61; also, Bruno Bettelheim, The Informed Heart:
Autonomy in a Mass Age (New York: Avon Books, 1960), pp. 258-9.
22
PSYCHOSOCIAL GROWTH
23
34 In 1978-79, wall posters demanding more freedom and democracy were displayed
at a major downtown Peking crossing which became known as "Democracy Wall," and
young people began publishing unofficial journals making similar demands. This practice
was banned in March 1979, and a number of young people associated with it were
subsequently arrested.
24
change, but as to what kind of change is adequate, they are not so sure. I have
some sympathy with Wei Jingsheng,35 but I don't quite agree with him. The
changes he was calling for were too radical, and to pursue such radical changes
could only bring another disaster to China. I agree with some of Deng's policies.
I think perhaps he is the right man for the job right now, even though I have
some doubts about some of his policies. But in the future, perhaps Deng will not
be the right man for the job.
So it is hard for me to say what my own attitude is. People say this is a period of
exploration. We are reassessing all our previous conceptions. Some people are
skeptical. They doubt everything. Skepticism always works at times of crisis;
skepticism shakes old beliefs. But unless we find something positive, some really
positive alternatives, we cannot really change society. The rule of the party is an
established fact. We cannot bring about reform, we cannot change China,
without taking account of this fact. The party is the only organized power in the
country.
So I don't know what will happen. I believe China will change eventually. Of that
I am sure. Today, I don't know what kind of changes there will be, and
sometimes I find myself furious with the patience of my own people. Many
people are very sad, very pessimistic about the future. In the long run, though,
I think the changes will be for the better. But before that, there will be some
setbacks, some serious ones.
3 One of the editors of the unofficial magazines banned in 1979, Wei was arrested and
sentenced to fifteen years' imprisonment.
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CONCLUSION
36 The more accurate quotation is "Dad, you love our country. Through bitter
frustration you go on loving her .... But, Dad, does this country love you?" See Bai Hua,
Kulian (Unrequited Love) (Taipei, Taiwan: Institute of Current China Studies, 1981), p. 102
(in Chinese) and p. 83 (in English). The disabled Vietnam veterans express a similar view.
Stan Pealer, the National Commander of the Disabled American Veterans ends his preface
to Williams' study Post-Traumatic Stress Disorders by saying, "We did it because we loved
America. America, it's time that you love us."
37 Liang and Shapiro, Son of the Revolution.
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it credibility is the fact that she is a returned overseas Chinese and heir
to a family fortune waiting for her outside China. At the conclusion of
the Cultural Revolution, as restitutions were being made, she was
approached by high Chinese officials and assured they would under-
stand should she choose to leave. But she stayed. Here, she tries to
explain why:
38 Aldous Huxley, The Devils of Loudun (New York: Harper and Row, 1952), p. 218.
3 Albert Camus, The Plague (New York: The Modern Library, 1948), p. 278.
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