The Search For Happiness
The Search For Happiness
N. Sri Ram
THE search for happiness is a universal phenomenon. Where Life is, there is this search. It is part of
the process of the movement of life. Being happy and the movement towards a deeper, fuller, more
perfect happiness is a natural thing, an ordinary thing. Nevertheless, happiness is ever perfect.
But when that principle which we call “mind” enters this process, it differentiates itself from life;
because the mind is ever objective in its outlook - there is the cognizer, and the cognized - which
differentiation is a false view, a delusion.
Of course the mind is also an activity of life, but the activity of a part separated from the whole. The
very essence of mind is this separation of part and whole.
Instead of letting life as a whole enter into itself, Manas, the thinking principle, identifies itself with,
eagerly joins, the particular movements which constitute sense-perceptions, sense-experiences. It
chooses the part, the isolated, in preference to the whole. This choice is really an adherence, an
attachment or addition, which impedes the free flow of life in the aspect of consciousness, that is, a
full cognition.
We see this in the phenomenon that the mind plays attention to one thing - what pleases it - and not
to others. It is moved by the search for gratification, the stimulating, the exciting, which it mistakes
for happiness.
The enjoyment derived from gratification contains in it the “I” principle. For there is the enjoyer and
the enjoyed. The enjoyment turns like a delectable spectacle round the enjoyer. The “I,” which
separates itself from others and sets itself up in opposition to them is a delusion arising from the
partial movement of the mind. It is destructive of that happiness which is an experience of
wholeness.
When life is a whole, it is happy with the limits of that wholeness. Wholeness is harmony and
happiness is the experience of harmony. Conflict and discord breed suffering and vacancy or void.
The voiding of the relationship between oneself and the other is the isolation of self. In that voiding
is loneliness. The relationship is there in life, but it is not seen by the mind, which creates walls of
separation and self-hood. Unhappiness arises from the forfeiture of that wholeness which is the
fulfilment of life.
What is this fulfilment? It is a movement from one state of wholeness to another. Both are
expressions of itself, that is, just a part of living. It is not movement with an objective, but a
movement of spontaneous self-expression. It is self-expression without a self.
The awareness is broken, the action queered and misled, the unity lost, and the happiness denied,
when that which is only a tiny part arrogates to itself the status and function of the whole; in other
words, when the consciousness which should be part of the whole movement of life, which is a
movement of unity, separates itself, originally for the purpose of focussing, for mere cognition, but
subsequently in independence, out of an attachment to the objects of cognition.
Thus, an illusion which persists until the mind redresses itself; thus conflict; thus Karma; thus un-
happiness.
Happiness lies in the restoration of the wholeness, following the transcendence of attachments, which
are not in reality attachment to persons or things, but an attachment to the gratification which one
derives from them. When nothing is sought and nothing is held, there is no “I” The subject vanishes
with the predicate, the enjoyer with the enjoyment that is desired or clung to.
When the “I” is gone, the separation is gone, the loneliness is gone forever - that loneliness which
dragged out the processes of time. Then happiness, which is immeasurable, because it is as vast as
life, and love, which is an eternal communion through the ever-open door of the heart, come into
being and reign supreme.