Microsoft Word - Stuttering Jack
Microsoft Word - Stuttering Jack
Microsoft Word - Stuttering Jack
STUTTERING JACK
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
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Some time ago, a stuttering teen reader of the Stuttering Brain blog,
wrote this frank and open account of her feelings about her stuttering
problem. I quickly typed my thoughts down into a response to her
seeking help for stuttering/stammering, which I now want to share
with any other teen stutterer who may find these ideas helpful in
coping with stuttering/stammering.
Life isn’t going to get better, it’s going to get worse, and there’s
going to be more stress. I know there’s no cure. I’ve been told it
countless times, and it runs through my head everyday. I know that
Pagoclone or any other pills will NEVER, no matter how bad I want
them to, take away my stuttering. But right now, my stuttering is so
bad, that anything that will improve my speech by 20% will be a
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miracle to me. If you’ve been stuttering since you were little, too,
then you would know what it feels like to think of your whole life
ahead of you as hopeless, and a life that will mean nothing to the
world. Even just enough voice to tell people what it feels like to
stutter would be great. Sure, I could write a book, but I’m not a
writer. I have no special abilities at all, and no good looks. That’s
why I have to rely on my personality fully. I want to be the person
who can accept their stuttering and make people laugh, (in a good
way), but I can never see that happening. I can’t even see getting
married. And I want to stand at the front of the church wearing a
beautiful white dress and be able to at least say, “I do.”
P.S. I’m sorry for writing such a long message, but you’re a stutterer
too, (I presume), and you may be the only person in the world who
would understand, or in the least bit care. I could write a 50,000 page
book on what it feels like to be a stutterer, and the probability of non-
stutterers actually understanding it, or even reading it is so low that
it’s pointless to waste my time writing it. I wish that some stutterers
would just compile a book of how it feels to stutter, and make it
interesting enough that people WOULD actually read it. Not laugh at
it. I’d be willing, if I could find more people, and if my life was more
interesting. Thank you for your blog, and your interest in helping
people. I want to be like you and do the same.”
I feel for you, and all of us who have severe speech blocking and
associated high anxiety, know exactly how you feel at this difficult
time in your life, where you have everything ahead of you. I believe
that one day you, like some of us, will come to see your particular
problem as a blessing rather than a curse. It will certainly shape your
life, but you will be the architect of your existence, and you must learn
to mould your life with the clay that you have been handed.
Firstly, what you must do is accept what is. You will never be able to
change until you first deeply and completely accept the situation, and
learn to fully love yourself as you are. Take full responsibility for your
situation. You are not a victim to be washed around by the tides of
life. It is within your power to change, and the answers for YOU are
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all out there to be discovered. You just have to seek them out, and it
will be the journey, not the destination, that will nourish your soul.
Love yourself and love everyone you speak to, as this alone will help
wash away the fear of communicating with others.
These are powerful forces that are currently working against you
rather than in your favor. Instead of negative affirmations like, “life
isn’t going to get better, it is going to get worse”, “I know there is no
cure”, “an improvement will be a miracle”, “whole life ahead of you
is hopeless”, “a life that will mean nothing to the world” and
visualizations like “I can never see that happening”, “I can’t even see
getting married”, I want you to use positive affirmations and
visualizations that create, in your mind, the pictures and images that
you want to see, in your life, even if they seem such a distant dream to
you, and keep them in the forefront of your mind, in big and bright
colors. See yourself in that ideal picture, and feel what it would be
like to live that dream. Do this every day and you will begin to move
towards that, even if it seems so far away.
The most encouraging comment that you made, was that you recently
did something to experience total fluency, for an extended period of
time, then stuttering returned. Now that tells me, and should tell you,
that there is a combination, (or number of combinations), that will
unlock stuttering for you. You have found it once, now it is time to
start your own little, “Sweet 16 research program”, to find a
combination that is going to bring back what you have already shown
yourself is possible.
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Your cure may not be total fluency, it is more likely to be a level of
acceptance, and a method of controlling your problem, but you will
find YOUR answer, if you take responsibility for finding the answer
and start your search now.
If you would like a few more tips to start you on your journey, here
are a few:
1) Realise that you are more than your speech dysfluency. Look for
the positive aspects of your nature, and continue to work on
improving your non-speech gifts, and work on anything that can
improve your confidence and self esteem.
3) Because the nature of your problem that you have described is,
“more than just a tangled tongue”, and is in fact like a vine, that has
wrapped itself around almost every aspect of your nature, you are
going to have to approach your treatment, in a very systematic way,
for it to have a reasonable chance of success. Here are the steps:
b) Love yourself for who you are, including the stutter, is a must.
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d) Following your learning and accepting of a controlled stuttering
method, to help you when all else fails, you must learn methods to
remove the emotions that you have built up in your body, associated
with your stuttering. Learning EFT, (www.eftuniverse.com), will
assist in this area if you want to give it a go. You must also learn to
think correctly about the world, and your place in it, in order to try to
control your stress and anxiety levels. For this I can recommend Bob
Bodenhamer’s book, about a neuro-semantic approach to stuttering
treatment. Once your thoughts and emotions have been treated, you
are ready to learn to remove your physical speech dysfluency.
Finally look for a treatment program that does not end when you walk
out the clinic door, following initial treatment. Look for a program
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that realises that stuttering treatment is a staged process, and
therefore offers ongoing retreatment and support at a reasonable
cost.
f) What ever speech reshaping program you choose, realise that you
will be fluent if you are “CONSCIOUSLY” “AWARE” of ALWAYS
applying your learned skills, or you will eventually relapse. This is not
true for all people seeking treatment, but once again, for your
severity, this will be the level of commitment that you will probably
need to apply. Now you will relapse anyway to some degree as we all
do, that is for certain, but with each relapse comes a learning
experience. A relapse is not a excuse to give up. I believe your journey
towards fluency does not really start until you have your first relapse.
Relapse is an opportunity to learn about you, and what you have to do
to achieve your goals. For most people, a level of acceptance of
stuttering is the best answer, as I have written about in my earlier
blog postings, but if your goal is fluency, and all that comes from that,
you will have to plan what you will do when you relapse.
h) When you are having success you must start to move outside your
comfort zone, and use your ability to speak more fluently. That will
also involve its own set of challenges, that I cannot go into here, but
joining a Toastmasters or speaking group, has proven to help many
people on our journey to achieving more consistent fluency skills.
By all means try Pagoclone when it comes out but as you said, at best,
it is likely to make it easier for you to get through your blocks, not
completely remove stuttering from your life. Whether that continues
to have the same effect over time, or whether you need to keep
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increasing the dose, and whether you can afford the heavy weekly
cost, only time will tell, but undoubtedly it will be where many people
will choose to stop on their journey.
Your SpeechEasy, as you have seen, works great out of the box, but
our brains soon make the timing adjustment to get our stuttering
back on track. To be fair, some people have continued to have success
with DAF devices, so don’t write them off too quickly, as they are a
great gadget to have in your, “box of tricks”, when you feel the need
for something like that, I only wish that the distributors of these
devices would sell them for under $1,000, which would still give them
a profit.
Sweet 16, don’t let your stuttering control your life. You are the
captain of your vessel, and you can take it in any direction you want to
go, and even if you go through the stormiest of weather, there is
always a calm harbor ahead of you, if you just keep moving forward.
Many others have taken the same journey as you are now on, so make
contact with these people and assure yourself that you are not alone.
Love,
Stuttering Jack
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TWO
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Prolonged Speech is relatively easy to learn, but like most stuttering
treatment methods, it can be difficult to transfer into the outside
world, unless the individual has a solid grounding in using it in a
clinical environment. The practitioner responsible for teaching the
method to people who stutter, aims to replace the client’s faltering
way of speaking, with a more smooth and controlled way of speaking
where the client becomes more aware of all aspects of the speaking
process. As such the technique is best and most effectively taught in
an intensive course, and the most effective courses have been shown
to have a duration of at least 3 weeks. It is a well know understanding
in psychology, that it takes 21 days to change a habit, and although
stuttering is more than a habit, this understanding is certainly not
lost on the effective treatment of stuttering as a behaviour based
phenomenon.
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more than 6 adults who stutter. The group sits around a table, and
while speaking in their new way, are constantly monitored and
observed by the clinician to ensure that they are continuously and
effectively using the various aspects of Prolonged Speech, in a perfect
manner and at the speech rate set for the various speaking sessions.
This prolongation rate gradually increases over the week until the
client is speaking at what would be an acceptably normal rate or
speed. Typically these daily sessions, in the first week, are 10 – 12
hours in length. The second and third weeks of the intensive are
used, to have the person who stutters, start to transfer the skills
learned in the clinic, into the “outside of clinic” environment.
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people, when they are faced with pressure in the outside world, to
speak faster and more spontaneously, with less focus on all the skills
that make up the Prolonged Speech method. For this reason, success
in maintaining the level of fluency, achieved during the intensive
course, is best facilitated by joining a stuttering support group, where
others who are also working on perfecting fluency, gained from the
use of Prolonged Speech, are also members.
So what are the “skills” that make up the Prolonged Speech method of
controlling stuttering? There are basically 9 parts to this method as
follows:
1) The pre-vocalisation-out-breath.
2) Gentle onsets.
3) Continuous vocalisation.
5) Prolongation of syllables.
7) Interesting intonation.
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breathing in instead of out when the individual goes to start to speak.
In order to speak, breath needs to be flowing out to first ensure that
the vocal folds are open, and then to keep them open and vibrating
during speech. The breath needs to continue to flow out while the
person is speaking.
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l sounds. Similarly the closing and locking of the vocal folds is
facilitated by, or given leverage by, pushing the lips hard together
when making b, m and p sounds. As mentioned above, it is imperative
that the breath continues to flow out during speech, and this can be
facilitated if the person who stutters, is able to control the tongue in
such a way that it does not actually touch the top of the mouth during
speech, and similarly controlling the movement of the lips, so that
they do not actually touch during speech when sounds that would
normally require such touching are made.
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facilitate the control of the speaking process.
8 ) Good eye contact. Good eye contact with the person that one is
speaking to, is a good trait for anyone to have, and no more so than
for a person who stutters. People who stutter generally tend to look
away from the listener, when they are in a stuttering situation. This
makes it difficult for both the listener and the person who stutters.
When the person who stutters looks away, the listener has a tendency
to become embarrassed, and also wants to look away, while the
person who stutters tends to lose his power and confidence in the
speaking situation.
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the average listener would not be able to detect that he is speaking in
any way other than a perfectly fluent normal speaker.
This describes the basics of Prolonged Speech. In the next post I will
talk further about the more advanced aspects of ensuring that
Prolonged Speech really gives the results that every person who
stutters is seeking. In the meantime, I again urge you to subscribe to
my RSS feed or email notification, so that you do not miss posts about
subjects and content that you will not read anywhere else. If you
found this post useful or thought-provoking in any way, please make
a comment.
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THREE
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I believe that stuttering is like a vine that has wrapped itself around
every aspect of your being, and in order to remove the influence of
stuttering from your life, you not only need to look at using some of
these mainstream speech therapy approaches, but you also need to
understand how these vines have formed, and how they influence
your behaviour, and then how to go about removing these vines.
These vines are made up of issues to do with:
1) Judgement
2) Perfection
3) Expectation
4) Power
5) Control
6) Acceptance
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7) Approval
8) Fear
Judgment
Now we all think we know exactly how the other person is judging us,
and the fact of the matter is that, for all intents and purposes, in our
world, we DO know what the other person is thinking. So how is it
that we know how we are being assessed or judged? Well the real fact
of the matter is that we DO NOT know what the other person is
thinking at all, and if in fact they are judging us in a positive or a
negative manner, if there is any judgment going on at all.
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What we are certain of is our own perception of judgment by the
listener towards us, and that is all that really counts in our concept of
what is real. The fact of the matter is that the toxic judgments that we
are experiencing, are in fact our own judgments of our self, that we
are bouncing off the other person back at our self.
Now this does not only apply to people who stutter, but every one of
us when we experience some form of performance anxiety e.g
speaking in front of a group. So why is it that we judge ourselves
negatively, and how can we correct this errant thinking. Well it is
perception of our own experiences in life, but more so it is a reflection
of our own personal ethos and approach to life.
You may want to read that again, to ensure that you have absorbed
what has been said there, as it is VERY important to understand and
embody from this point on. The secret to unwinding this vine, that is
holding your stuttering in place, is to look on all fellow humans for
what they are, a fellow human, who like you, experiences a range of
emotions, including love, and never attempt to pass a judgment on
them in any situation.
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others for the differences and uniqueness that God has given them, in
a positive and accepting way, and you will soon find that you are
judging your own, less than perfect speaking behavior, in the same
more accepting way when you speak to others. By beginning to live
your life with a less judgmental approach to others, you will begin to
remove one of the major vines that is holding your experience of
stuttering in place.
Aiming for perfection will add to your speaking anxiety, add to your
procrastination in moving forward in any situation, and add to your
avoidance behaviour in situations where you do not believe you will
be able to reach your expectations. If your expectations are too high,
or are not reasonable given the facts that operate in any situation,
then you are just continually setting yourself up for frustration and
disappointment, however that manifests itself in your behaviour and
your speech. Shed the vine of perfection by practicing some deliberate
dysfluency.
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speech block your “awareness” is not fully present. In a “deliberate
stuttering” situation, if it is performed correctly, you are “in control”
and your “awareness” is present. You are able to see that imperfection
in speech delivery is something that most people overlook, especially
if you give them the vibration that you are OK with it. Shed the vine of
perfection, and bring your expectations in line with the reality of the
situation, and further remove one of the supporting vines that holds
stuttering in place for you in your world.
Another set of vines that tend to hold stuttering in place are issues to
do with Power and Control. Many people who stutter, are reluctant to
exercise a level of power and control in their life, out of fear of how it
may impact on them in the eyes of another. Many people who stutter
tend to figuratively see a verbal exchange as taking place on a small
mountain, where one person has to be on top of the mountain, while
the other has to be on the bottom. In any verbal exchange many
people who stutter, tend to subconsciously assess who should be on
top, and who should be on the bottom. Invariably the person who
stutters tends to place themselves on the bottom and, figuratively
speaking, hand control of the situation to the other person, who they
have given their power to, and place them on top. In many cases it is
akin to handing the remote control that determines your behaviour,
over to the other person.
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your response, in any speaking situation, places unnecessary
performance anxiety on you, and the result for a person who stutters,
is increased dysfluency.
The power and control vine holds your stuttering behaviour in place,
by making you feel uncomfortable whenever you are speaking to a
person who perceptions have you believe is in a position of authority.
Accept that you have the right to your own level of power and control
in these verbal exchanges, and shed this vine from the mix, and
further loosen the grip that stuttering has on your sense of self.
Acceptance
The next vine I would like to talk about in this post is that of
acceptance. In order to begin to remove the vine of acceptance, we
must first accept what is. We must all learn to start from a base of
acceptance of what is. No matter what it is in your life that you are not
happy with, you must first deeply and completely accept its existence
as a fact. If you are a person who stutters, you MUST accept that fact.
If you cannot accept it as your reality, then you will continue to hold
it as your reality when you start to try to loosen its grip on your life’s
direction. Not only must you privately accept this fact, but
publicly accept it as well. If you refuse to accept the total reality of
your stuttered speech, and speaking anxiety, you will always be trying
to hide it, ever if you learn to control it.
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“sound like the other person”, instead of doing what you need to do to
control and improve your fluency. Accept your situation and this vine
will also begin to lose the support it is giving to your dysfluency
problem.
Approval
We all seek some degree of approval, but as a person who stutters this
need for approval can often work in a counterproductive way, in that
whenever we believe that the listener may not approve of what we are
about to say, we increase our anxiety level and the result is invariably
greater dysfluency. It is OK to not receive full approval for our
opinions, and for what we have to say. No one is always going to agree
with what you have to say, and no one is going to always like what you
have to say, but if you respect others, speak to them as you would
have them speak to you and speak from the heart with others mental
welfare in mind, whenever possible, you can remove the vine of
approval that is another support surrounding your stuttering.
In the next post I will talk about the most important vine of all. That
of fear and how you can seek to remove fear not only from your
speaking environment but also from you life in general. In the
meantime, I again urge you to subscribe to my RSS feed or email
notification, so that you do not miss posts about subjects and content
that you will not read anywhere else. If you found this post useful or
thought-provoking in any way, please make a comment.
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FOUR
Stuttering –
In the first part of this post, I spoke about how I believe that
stuttering/stammering is like a vine, that has wrapped itself around
every aspect of your being, and in order to remove the influence of
stuttering/stammering from your life, you not only need to look at
using some of these mainstream speech therapy for stuttering
approaches, but you also need to understand how these vines have
formed, and how they influence your behavior, and then how to go
about removing them.
In this part of the post, I talk about one of the main vines that holds
stuttering/stammering in place, and that is the vine of fear.
Fear The innate emotion at the base of all anxiety is fear. We don’t
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have to learn what fear is, as our brain is programmed to recognise
what is a threat to us, and to trigger various reactions in the brain, to
cause us instantly to react, to remove us from the stimulus causing
the fear. This can be a physical threat, or an emotional threat to our
wellbeing. It can be real and/or it can equally be perceived.
Either way, fear will cause a reaction in our brain, and that reaction
will cause both a physical and mental response in our body. As people
who stutter, this reaction heightens our anxiety to some extent, either
mildly or severely, but what is known is that that heightened anxiety,
contributes to our degree of stuttering.
If we realise then that fear leads to anxiety (or even panic), which in
turn leads to increased speech dysfluency, then it is natural that to
reduce fear, will result in less anxiety, and less dysfluent speech, and
of course a more enjoyable existence.
Many would argue that the opposite of fear is courage, but from a
spiritual point of view, the opposite of fear is love. When you are in a
state of love there is no fear, and the same can be said for the many
degrees of love. You feel a closeness toward that person, a feeling of
mutual respect, admiration and trust. In this true state, there is no
feelings of judgement, only acceptance for each other.
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So how can we invoke this state, when we have allowed ourselves to
develop a mind-set, where we feel everything except love towards our
fellow man, especially when we are required to speak to a stranger, or
person in perceived authority? Can we change that mind-set? Do we
want to, and why should we? Can we afford to, or do we open
ourselves up to having our feelings hurt if a more open, interpersonal
relationship in our communication style is not reciprocated?
From a spiritual point of view many would argue that we are all
connected, and that we all share a spark of the supreme soul, but I do
not want to go into that in this post other than to say, it will be
resourceful to you to try to look at other people, who you are about to
communicate with, as though they were your very best friend, or even
your lover.
Well that may be the case on the outside of a hardened persona, but
deep down there is a person inside all of us, that just wants to be
loved. Look for that, and speak to that in the people you speak to, and
it is very likely that it will be reciprocated, and at the very least, it will
lower your anxiety about speaking to that person. Now whether you
accept that or not is irrelevant.
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As mentioned above, you will find that you approach the
communication situation, in a totally different state of mind. A state
of mind where fear is gone, or at least minimized, and as a result your
stuttering and speaking anxiety, will be greatly improved, whether it
is a one on one communication situation, or communication to a
group.
Why would your mind be consumed with thoughts about how others
are judging you, if you have flooded it with thoughts of love for all
who you speak to.
How can I feel that way towards all people, you say?
You have not met my boss! You have not met my father! You have not
seen how they laugh at me! It is not about giving the other person
something that they have not earned, or are not entitled to, … your
love. It is about you freely giving yourself the same thoughts that
create a feeling of love, instead of freely giving yourself thoughts of
fear, which your mind is going to use, to subconsciously govern your
body to act on, and throw you into a state of anxiety, where your body
believes you are going to either have to fight, or flee, from this other
person or group of people.
You must understand that you do not know how the other
person is judging you. You think you do but you don’t. What
you are perceiving are your own thoughts, so why not have
loving thoughts in your head?
It will certainly drive out fear in many areas, other than just thoughts
that relate to speech. It is something worth trying. What have you got
to lose, really? It is an approach to life that, like the other vines that
hold your stuttering persona in place, will not only benefit your
speaking anxiety and speech dysfluency, it will improve the
whole way you see the world, and the way you move through it, with
ease and grace.
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What I am saying is, that rather than try to put yourself in this alien
state of love and appreciation for the other person only when you feel
anxious, you need to try to remain in this new state as much as you
can, which will mean that you need to be conscious of your ongoing
emotional state as much as you can be.
2) Look into the other person’s eyes, and try to see the loving soul
that resides within.
6) Try to respect that everyone has the right to control their own
emotional reactions, whether it be negatively towards others or
positive, and that you have no influence over their behaviour, only
your own thoughts and resultant behaviour.
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7) If people laugh at you or mimic you from time to time, realise
that it is only their reaction to something that puzzles them, and is
in no way a true reflection of how they see you, as a fellow human
being.
Allowing fear to take control of any part of your life, is not the way our
creator meant for us to live our lives. This is born out by words in the
Bible, where it is said that “through fear, all our lives we are subject to
bondage” (Hebrews 2:15).
We all know that our ego can sometimes get in the way of
engendering harmonious relationships, but we are not always aware
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that unfulfilled expectations are one of the main causes of frustration,
that can lead to anger. Our expectations of what other people should
do or say, will rarely be met, as we are all different, so to allow the fact
that your expectations may or may not be met, to rule your emotions,
is allowing anger to enter into your life more than it should, and
interfere with your quest for calmness and awareness of mind, and
fluency of speech.
Now that was all a bit controversial, and everyone may not relate to or
agree with what I have said, but I wanted to write that anyway for
those of you who can appreciate and learn from that wisdom, as I
have. In future posts I will get back to talking about more main
stream approaches to treating the symptoms of severe and chronic
stuttering. In the meantime, I again urge you to subscribe to my RSS
feed or email notification, so that you do not miss posts about
subjects and content that you will not read anywhere else. If you
found this post useful or thought-provoking in any way, please make
a comment.
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FIVE
Having said all that, I do not believe that CBT is a viable approach for
ALL people who stutter especially those who have severe speech
blocking. I believe it is better suited to those people who I would rate
as a mild stutterer (1,5 or 1,4 on the Stuttering Jack Scale of severity).
That is, people who are low on the actual physical scale, but high on
the psychological scale of severity.
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have some form of scale, when talking about stuttering. For to say
that CBT will definitely help “stutterers”, is a misleading statement.
You might be interested in reading my first two post on this subject.
Research has shown that the parts of the brain that control anxiety,
are linked closely to the areas that control speech, so it is not unusual
that anxiety levels effect speech fluency. Anxious thoughts that a
person has about how they might be being judged by the listener, will
invariably contribute to a degree of stuttering, as the focus is taken off
the conversation and put onto anxiety provoking thoughts. It goes
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without saying, that if we can take the focus off these distracting
thoughts, then they will no longer have the anxiety producing effect
that they are currently having.
CBT therapy, teaches the person who stutters to look at the thoughts
that they are having and attempts to have the person see, that those
toxic thoughts, invariably have no basis in fact, logic or experience, so
should be negated in moving forward into the speaking situation. If
thoughts can’t be negated, the aim is to learn to challenge those
thoughts with a view to altering them to less anxiety provoking
thoughts, when facing a particular speaking situation. Once again this
is more easily achieved for mild or covert stutterers than chronic
overt blockers.
After the individual begins to understand the role that thoughts and
emotions play on our feelings, and, how that effects our anxiety level,
which in turn effects our degree of stuttering, he then moves onto
identifying the specific thoughts, that are causing the problems to do
with his own individual speech.
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laugh at me”, or, “if I stutter no one will employ me”, or, “if I stutter
they will think I am incompetent”, or, “if I stutter they will think I am
weird”, the individual is taught to challenge that thought, by asking
the following eight standard CBT questions about the thought:
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avoidance. This can, over time, lead to a level of social anxiety in the
person who stutters. When faced with the thought that we will be
judged negatively by others, it is not unusual to choose avoidance, as
the easiest option. Having said that, if avoidance is not giving you the
outcome that you truly desire, the best strategy to adopt, is to face
your fears in these speaking situations, to discover the real outcome,
rather than your imagined outcome. For it is only through facing
fears, by moving outside your individual comfort zone, that fear and
anxiety can ever have a chance of being reduced. It is often said in
CBT that, “thoughts or predictions are NOT facts”.
CBT also seeks to address the perceptions that we have about the
opinions of others. The main perception that is addressed is the
perception of approval, or, disapproval. Invariably the person who
stutters believes that the listener will disapprove of his stuttering. The
CBT practitioner will explain that, only your thoughts can create the
emotional disturbance that make you feel uneasy, as a result of a
social rejection, or negative evaluation. Perceptions are within your
own power to alter, and your own perceived negative evaluation only
gives the listener power over you, that you have given them. If there is
any actual negative evaluation, it is generally not about “you”, but
more about the person doing the evaluation. The concept of
“predicting”, is also addressed as we tend to predict the worst, with
quite often no justification further adding to our anxiety level.
The typical CBT program then goes onto address the common issue of
social perfectionism, as another form of social fear. Aiming for
perfection, invariably leads to procrastination and avoidance. We can
often become overly worried about what other people think of us, if
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we make a mistake or if we stutter, and this, once again, leads to
avoidance, procrastination and excessive use of safety behaviors.
Having a perfectionist approach to speech fluency, will increase
anxiety and stuttering, as it makes the speaking environment very
stressful. It is a useful exercise, to pretend that you are writing a letter
to yourself or a friend, explaining why it doesn’t matter what other
people think of you.
As mentioned earlier, CBT has the possibility of being helpful for the
mild or covert stutterer, who tends to “catastrophise” the possibility
that they, “might”, have some infrequent experiences of
dysfluent speech, and what that means to them. But, I believe, it will
prove to be less helpful for the overt and chronic stutterer, with years
of “experience”, that confirms his beliefs, about the effect of severe
stuttering on himself, and his listener.
This person “knows”, what will happen, and, “when” it happens, and,
“how bad” it happens, and, what the outcome generally is. This is not
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imagined or catastrophised. It is no good telling the chronic stutterer,
that his stuttering will not make a negative impression on the listener,
when his life’s experience confirms his belief. It is no good telling the
severe stutterer, that people will not treat him differently, if he has
severe and repetitive speech blocks, when his experience confirms
this belief. It is no good telling the severe stutterer, not to worry what
others think, when he is really concerned more about his own
judgment of himself.
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If you layer that with further negative thinking like, “ if I cannot get a
job I will have no income”, and then continue to add to that further
layers like, “if I have no income I might become homeless”, “if I am
homeless I may not have any food”, “if I have no food I will die”.
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We are born with an innate belief, which is often confirmed through
our childhood experiences, that those who are “obviously flawed” in
some way, are often singled out and marginalised, or “sacrificed” in
some way by the group. So there is a deep fear there within every
human being, of being seen to be “different” when we know we are
otherwise.
This is a key understanding that you must have, if you are to alter
your innate and reflex thinking, about situations where you are
allowing the consequence of your dysfluent speech, to determine your
anxiety level. You must learn to intervene at the base thought, so that
increasingly toxic thoughts, do not escalate the consequences of
dysfluent speech to the point where they send your speech spiralling
out of control and into uncontrolled avoidance, shame,
embarrassment and panic, which ultimately leads to ever increasing
levels of stuttering.
So how can this be achieved? There are various methods that have
been, and are used, to train people, not only people who stutter, to
look at the validity of their thoughts and feelings.
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The first of these is a process known as Cognitive Behaviour
Therapy, also know as CBT.
CBT teaches the individual to look into and analyse the negative
thoughts, and the negative consequences, that they see a particular
action will have, and look for the real validity in those perceptions.
Ideally the CBT practitioner helps the individual to see that there is
no validity in the analysed perception and that the thoughts were in
fact illogical to varying degrees and lack substantiation.
In this case the thoughts revolve around stuttering. For instance if the
individual may have the perception that if he blocks and stutters, the
listener will think he is “retarded in some way”, or, “of lesser
intelligence”, or, “not telling the truth”, (see the list of general
consequences in my last post). Closer analysis of these thoughts are
aimed at revealing that there is no evidence to support them as truth.
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By getting the person who stutters, to see how unfounded or illogical
these thoughts are, by constantly asking what evidence they have for
these perceptions, one can learn to replace these thoughts with more
logical, and more personally useful thoughts, and so lower the
speaking anxiety level.
This method works on the premise, that if you can speak fluently in
any particular situation, you can learn to speak fluently in all
situations.
To do this, you need to learn to identify the “state of mind” that you
are in when you are fluent, and the different states that you are in
when you are blocking and stuttering, and then learn to step into that
fluent state of mind, at will. It works on the premise that stuttering is
a “thinking problem”, that manifests in a “speaking problem”.
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where CBT leaves off and is a more powerful process.
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SEVEN
In my last post, I spoke about the components that make up the fear
of speaking anxiety level of a person who stutters, and I pointed out
that irrespective of whether you have had some speech therapy for
stuttering to alter the “probability of stuttering”, you need to work on
the component of, the “consequence”, of the, belief, that you are
about to block and stutter.
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Most people suffer from stress and anxiety, to some degree, and the
effects of stress and anxiety effect people in different ways. One of the
ways that stress and anxiety effect people who have a, propensity or
tendance to stutter, is that they are more likely to stutter when their
anxiety level goes above, what I call, their “stuttering threshold
anxiety index level”.
Why this is, is not fully understood, but some believe that under
stress and anxiety, the demands required to produce fluent speech by
a person who stutters, are greater than the brain’s capacity to produce
that fluent speech, so a breakdown in fluency occurs. Some would
argue, that when the anxiety level reaches a certain point, the person
who stutters goes into a level of, “fight or flight” response.
In doing so, the body prepares itself to fight or flee, and resources for
fluent speech are not high on the bodies agenda in this state. John
Harrison, in his book “Redefining Stuttering” talks about what he
calls, “approach avoidance conflict”, where part of the self, (the adult
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part), wants to approach the speaking situation, while another part of
the self, (the child part), wants to avoid it. With one part of the self
wanting to go forward, and the other part wanting to retreat, the
result is a stand still, which manifests in a speech block.
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developing the ability to, “mind read”. What I mean by this is that,
while we are in the process of speaking, we are attempting to assess
what the listener is thinking about us, in terms of what we are saying,
how we are saying it, our level of intelligence, and generally, our
validity as a person.
Not only are we concerned about the primary listener’s response, but
also the secondary listeners response. By secondary listener I mean
the people around us, not directly involved in the conversation, who
are hearing us speak. How often are you just as concerned about what
others, who are hearing you speak, are thinking, and what you
perceive the consequences of their thought might be.
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In my last post, I spoke about the two main general approaches that
make up speech therapy for stuttering/stammering. Those
approaches, being the fluency shaping method and the stuttering
modification method, also known as “stutter more fluently”. I
concluded by mentioning the fact that, irrespective of which form of
speaking modification method is used to reduce the physical
symptoms of stuttering/stammering, one cannot gain total fluency or
anything approaching it, unless one realizes, that the key to real
progress, lies in the intervention on the psychological side.
Research into the cause of stuttering, over the last decade or so, has
confirmed that there are definite anomalies, within the brain of a
person who stutters, that are a major factor in identifying the cause of
stuttering, however, it is a little understood fact that we are capable of
“rewiring” or “circumventing” those faulty parts of the brain, so that
the symptoms of stuttering can be reduced, and quite substantially.
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However, as was the subject of my post on the Stuttering Jack Scale
of assessing the severity of stuttering, there are other less obvious
symptoms of stuttering that need to be considered when talking about
the symptoms and degree of stuttering. I am of course referring to the
psychological symptoms which include fear, shame, anger, guilt,
confusion and lack of clear thought, anxiety and panic, frustration,
embarrassment, isolation and social phobia etc.
As a result, one can become confused about topics which are normally
easy for them to talk about. Some people describe this situation as
“greying out”, as the mind tends to go blank when trying to
verbalize an answer while stuttering. Stuttering and/or the fear of
stuttering can lead to a degree of social phobia, and studies have
shown that a high percentage of adults who stutter demonstrate the
symptoms of social phobia.
Some people who stutter, can also feel emotions that can cause
embarrassment, and anger over the situation that they find
themselves in. As a result, some individuals can choose to isolate
themselves to varying degrees from people who they have trouble
speaking to, and avoid situations that they tend to stutter more
frequently in, hence, leading to the varying levels of social phobia,
referred to above. So there are really, as mentioned, two strains of
symptom that make up the disorder, known as stuttering, and these
two symptoms can vary from person to person, situation to situation,
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and also vary in degree from day to day.
Why it is the good news is that while it may often be a long, costly and
complex process to directly alter the physical symptoms of stuttering,
which as we have said are to do with neurological anomalies in the
brain, it is possible for the person who stutters to alter how he or she
reacts to the thoughts and feelings that trigger the blocking and
stuttering, and even better, the individual is able to change the
thoughts about the stuttering experience, and as a result alter the
reaction to it to be more resourceful rather than destructive.
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can be argued that where a person is fluent in one situation, and not
fluent in the next, it is as a result of the actions of the belief system, in
that to trigger the stuttering one must first think about stuttering,
which then triggers the belief that one will stutter. This then in turn
triggers the brain to look for words that it believes will require extra
effort to get out. This then triggers what, Bill Parry, calls a “stuttering
valsalva maneuver”, where the body, through the respiratory system,
tries really hard to get the word out and consequently gets caught up
in what John Harrison calls a “stuttering approach avoidance
conflict”, and the result of all this is a speech block. Now that is all
getting a bit complex at this point in time but as you can see, to
successfully treat both the physical and psychological symptoms of
stuttering, one needs to understand what is going on.
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unless you consciously try to alter it, that communication style is
going to stay with you. This is not just the stuttering pattern but also
includes such aspects as the speed of delivery, the enthusiasm of
delivery, the response time, the number of words uttered on a single
breath, the pause lengths within speech etc. In addition, most of the
psychological responses to visual triggers have also become almost a
reflex action by the time you are an adult. So in response to a certain
visual or auditory stimulus, you will generally react in the same way,
as far as your psychological response, and your resultant speech
pattern in that situation. So you must understand that, it is going to
be extremely difficult to change, over the long term, those innate
responses by undertaking a short speech retraining course.
There are many methods of fluency reshaping that can change your
thinking and speaking behavior in a clinical situation. Some will
reduce your level of speech dysfluency a little, and some will
completely eliminate it in that environment. A few are even capable of
having you speak totally fluently in all, “outside the clinic”,
situations for a period of time, but your innate communicating style
eventually overrides the new style that you have been taught, and the
stuttering will return to varying degrees, if not totally unless you can
maintain your awareness and consciousness on your new speaking
technique, while speaking in every situation.
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limited to, these factors:
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This has come about through:
Now as you can see, there is only one aspect, above, that involves the
actual learning of a fluency enhancing method, and that is the
learning of a physical method to control the speech dysfluency. The
others can all be undertaken outside of a speech therapy
environment, as they involve reshaping the concept of the world that
the individual has created in their mind, and their place in it.
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Greater results can be achieved by accepting that the mild and
infrequent (in terms of % syllables stuttered) dysfluency, that is being
experienced, is “something that you do, not something that you are”,
and then working on bringing down the rating on the psychological
side of the Stuttering Jack Scale.
On the other hand, if you are in the higher levels of the scale for
physical and psychological symptoms of stuttering on the Stuttering
Jack Scale, then speech therapy will be a must if you are to have any
chance of achieving the fluency level that you seek, and that will be
the subject of my next post, and in that regard I invite you to
subscribe to this blog above to ensure that you do not miss the next
post. In the meantime I also invite you to make a comment about
what I have had to say here.
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achieving the fluency level that is desired”.
Having said that, it is only natural that the ultimate aim of any person
with a speech dysfluency is to speak totally fluently, but that is
unlikely to be a realistic goal for most people. If total fluency is the
goal of the severe stutterer, then the only way to achieve that is to
take the process of speech production from auto to manual. This is
achieved by becoming totally aware of the breathing patterns,
movement of the tongue and lips, the rhythm of the speech, the
continuity of the words, the speed of delivery at the start of utterances
as well as during the delivery, and also the intonation or melody in
the voice. As mentioned, for the individual with a severe stutter total
fluency in all speaking situations can only be achieved with total
concentration and awareness of the process of speech delivery.
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Speech therapy that is designed to achieve this goal is know as a
fluency shaping method and must be taught in an intensive
clinical environment, with gradual and controlled exposure to all
outside speaking situations, when the skills required for the correct
delivery of speech, using this method, have been acquired. There are
only a handful of clinics around the world that offer this form of
treatment, which ideally needs to be in the form of a three
week intensive to get the desired results. Courses teaching this
method that run for less than that period of time, are less effective in
that they have to rush the process of teaching and “embedding” the
required skills, and then fall into the trap of sending the client back
into the outside world much too early, and the skills are quickly
eroded for reasons that include those mentioned in my last post.
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more fluent than most normal speakers, yet total fluency, in ALL
situations, can be illusive if the psychological side of the problem is
not equally addressed, but this is the subject of a future post.
As you can see, if you are a 5,5 Stutterer or close to it, with high levels
of speech dysfluency and associated anxiety surrounding speaking, it
can be an “all consuming” pastime to achieve total fluency and
freedom from speaking anxiety in all situations, but it is possible, if
that is needed to fulfill your life goals.
Once again, this is extremely hard to achieve unless one has a burning
reason to be totally fluent, matched by a high motivation level,
combined with a belief that speech fluency is a “no compromise” issue
in life.
The fact of the matter is, that by far the majority of people who have
an obvious speech dysfluency, are going to be unable to achieve these
ultimate levels of fluency that some stutterers have been able to
achieve. For the average person, the best answer for speech therapy is
more likely to be a method known as “stuttering modification
treatment”, or, “a stutter more fluently program”, rather than a
fluency shaping program. In a stuttering modification program, the
individual is taught to not resist or mask the urges to be dysfluent on
certain words and sounds, but to go ahead and be dysfluent, but in a
more fluent way.
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flowing in the direction that the speech utterance is moving, rather
than halted dysfluency in the form of severe blocking. The
individual must, however, come to terms with the fact that a form of
speech dysfluency is an inevitable, yet acceptable, behaviour for them
to have, and learn to accept the new form of free flowing stuttering as
a desirable outcome.
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stutterer, and Sam is a stutterer, and Bill and Tom are also stutterers,
but are they all experiencing the same phenomenon? The answer is
likely to be, no! Stuttering has both a physical component and
psychological component, and there is great variation in the degree of
both, from one person to the next.
On the physical side, John may have some repetitions in his speech,
but no blocking. On the psychological side, he may not give any
thought to the fact that he has a level of speech dysfluency, and does
not avoid any speaking situations because of it. On the other hand,
Sam may have severe and regular speech blocks. He may avoid some
words, and substitute others.
His stuttering may completely control all aspects of how he lives his
life, both professionally and socially. We then come to Bill, and he
may have what some see as a pronounced speech dysfluency, with a
combination of repetitions, prolongations and some blocking,
however, on the psychological side, Sam may not be concerned about
it to the same degree as Bill, in that it does not effect the way he lives
his life in any way.
Finally, we have Tom, and he may have what appears, to the outside
world, to have no problem with speech fluency at all, yet he has a
great fear of the possibility of blocking and stuttering, and as a result,
he is highly anxious about that possibility, so lives in fear of it
happening at some time and what that would mean to him.
All these personalities would say that they have a stutter, or are a
person who stutters, and seek treatment for stuttering, but if they
were all to hear that the other was a stutterer, they could only assume,
in absence of any other descriptive terminology, that the others all
experienced stuttering in the same way as themself. This becomes a
problem when we are talking about stuttering in regard to how it has
affected us in various areas of our life and, how successful treatments
have been for us and so on.
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stuttering, from both a physical and psychological perspective, and
two of the most widely used questionnaires are the OASES test and
the WASSP test, however, these are only useful for a full academic
analysis of the problem rather than for a quick and self evident
assessment method to be used in casual conversation, where
understanding of degree is necessary.
Now in the stuttering support group that I coordinate, and the circles
that I move in, we have for many years, used what others now call, the
“Stuttering Jack Scale”. We give the physical symptoms a quick rating
of 1 to 5, where 1 is mild repetitive stuttering and/or mild speech
blocking, while 5 is severe and frequent blocking. 2, 3 & 4 are degrees
in between.
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case then he may do better with a CBT or a Neurosemantic type of
treatment, as opposed to an intensive fluency shaping approach. If
someone says, “no, he is a “5,5 Stutterer”, then we know that this
stutterer has a real problem, and that would instantly and simply
explain a lot of his behaviour. We would instantly start thinking about
other treatments that would be different to what the, “1,1 Stutterer”,
might be better directed to, and so on. All this is better than saying, “I
am a stutterer, but I just get on with my life, why don’t you”, or, “I am
a stutterer and I can’t find any treatment to help me, and my life is
just a mess, why isn’t yours”. Using the “Stuttering Jack Scale”, one
might be better described as, a “3,1 Stutterer”, and the other better
described as, a “5,4 Stutterer”.
Now my little method does not replace the full clinical assessment
methods mentioned above, that should be undertaken before any
treatment is administered to a person who stutters, and it is not
trying to usurp the use of more technical and professional terms. It is
just a, “rough and ready”, way of clarifying to another person what is
being referred to, when talking about an individual, who has a speech
dysfluency problem. It can be used by professional and consumer
alike as a simple universal terminology to put the other person, “in
the ball park”, with reference to what is being described as, stuttering,
in different individuals.
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you plan to read all my blogs, or follow me on Twitter, Facebook etc,
please become familiar with this simple system so that our
conversations are more meaningful. In the mean time, I invite you to
comment on this post as to the soundness of the “Stuttering Jack
Scale”, and where you believe you sit on the scale.
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TWELVE
How often have you heard someone say, “I stutter”, or, “I am a stutterer”,
or, “he stutters”, or, “Winston Churchill was a stutterer”? Have you ever
stopped to think what the person means when they say that? What do they
mean? What is it telling you? Well if you are really interested in knowing a
little more about how that person speaks or thinks about speaking, then it
really doesn’t tell you anything other than someone thinks he or she has
some form of speech dysfluency, that has been defined as stuttering. But
are you aware that there are some people who define themselves as having
a stutter, that you will rarely, or never see stutter. So what is stuttering?
Well if we are going to talk about stuttering, then we had better know what
we are talking about, and understand “how deep this rabbit hole goes”.
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There are so many different ways that speech dysfleuncy can manifest, and
each person is different. Stuttering can be word related, (stutters on certain
sounds or words), or situational related, (stutters in certain situations), or
people related, (stutters with certain people or personalities), or time
related, (stutters when tired etc), and the list goes on. Not only can the
perceived triggers change, but the degree of stuttering can also change,
from mild to severe, seldom to regular to constant, stumbling to complete
blockages. All this we call stuttering, or if you like, stammering.
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Speech is such an integral part of communication, and human nature. It is
how we express to others our thoughts, feelings, wants and needs. We
express our emotions of love and hate and all that is in between through
the marvellous human facility of speech. So what do you think it would be
like if you were not able to speak or speak fluently enough to get your
message out in a normal timeframe without a major effort? How would you
feel? How would it affect your self esteem, your general thoughts, feelings
and emotions? How would you see the world that you live in? The answer
is that we are all affected by our experiences in different ways. In simple
terms people who stutter, along with any other person who perceives they
have “an issue” with speech fluency are affected either mildly, moderately
or severely.
Some people have, what most of us would agree, is a stutter, and appear to
not even know they have a speech dysfluency, in that it does not have any
effect on the way they live any aspect of their life, whereas another person,
with the same level of stuttering, or much less, can be so effected by their
problem, that it impacts on every part of their life, to the extent that some
individuals, are totally debilitated by it, in every way and it influences
almost every decision they make.
When one person seems to be coping well with stuttering, while another
does not, we need to have some way of indicating why this could be the
case. Finally, we need to have a way of separating one person who stutters
from another, so that treatment for stuttering can be tailored correctly for
that person’s complete problem, surrounding the dysfluent speech.
How are we going to do this in a simple and easily understood way? Well,
that is the subject of my next article, and in that regard I invite you to avail
yourself of my RSS feed here, so that you will be the first to read and
understand this simple yet revolutionary way of communicating the degree
of speech dysfluency, and associated anxiety disorder, we are talking about.
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I had been told about the so called, “choral effect” explanation, but
what was actually happening? Well when I put the SpeechEasy device
in my ear, it was a very strange and new experience for me, and my
brain. Because it was a very new experience, my focus was very much
on what was happening in my ear, but it also seemed to confuse my
brain a little.
I have always felt that many of the speech therapy techniques that I
have used over the years, have had one aspect in common, and that is
that they all tended to have an element of distraction in them. I have
always found that I cannot stutter unless I first think about stuttering.
If stuttering and negative consequences associated with stuttering do
not come into my mind, then I do not stutter.
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When I put the SpeechEasy in my ear, my brain seemed to be highly
distracted by what it was having to deal with, so stuttering, and more
particularly, focus on the words, did not really enter my mind while I
had the device in. I believe my focus was drawn to the sounds I was
making rather than the words I was saying. Focus on sounds, rather
than words, to correct stuttering, is a little understood or appreciated
phenomenon which I will talk about in a future post. Now this all
seemed to go very smoothly for a long time, and I was convinced that
I would never have to go back to using a fluency shaping method, and
that the SpeechEasy was, “the answer”, to stuttering. I talked six of
my friends into buying the SpeechEasy, after they tried mine, and
experienced effortless fluency, but things began to change.
So why was this? Well I cannot be sure, but I think that my brain
made some internal adjustments, to compensate for the delay, (about
70 milliseconds), in hearing myself speak. I no longer listened to my
speech through the ear that housed the SpeechEasy device, but
listened through the unaided ear, and pretty much ignored what was
happening in the other ear. I was also beginning to focus on words
again, and ignore the sound in my ear. I also had some trouble using
my fluency shaping skills when I used the SpeechEasy. I found that I
was no longer getting the effortless fluency, that I had been
getting while wearing the device constantly over the prior 3 month
period, and in fact sometimes my stuttering was worse.
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respecting obsessed seeker of fluency would do, and went out and got
myself another SpeechEasy for the other ear. I was now wearing two
SpeechEasy devices, one in each ear, at the same time. I referred to
this setup, when I spoke to my friends about it, as I was “wearing two
guns”. Well to say this was an experience is an understatement, and
my hat is off to any person who has to where two hearing aids, in
order to be able to hear. It was like having my head inside a stereo
sound system, and if I was in a noisy restaurant, or noisy office
situation it was hell. Speaking on the phone was also a bit of a
challenge, especially when I got a bit of audio feedback going on, but
it worked. With two SpeechEasy devices in at the same time I was
fluent again, and I thought that this would fix my problem, of being
able to hear myself speaking through the ear that had no altered
auditory feedback.
As you can imagine, wearing two hearing aids on full volume with
delayed auditory feedback, was not an easy way to get through the day,
but when you are a severe stutterer, who needs to be fluent to
function effectively in daily life, it was an acceptable price to pay at all
levels. But the story is not a happy ending, because after about a
month or two of wearing, “two guns”, the blocking and stuttering
returned. I could not believe it. This was too much to bear. I had two
SpeechEasy devices in on full volume on DAF with a tenth of a second
delay, and blocking. Wow, what an experience that was.
So how could this have happened? Well once again, all I can say is
that the brain is an amazing piece of apparatus. I can only think that
it made the necessary adjustment, to negate the scrambling effect that
the DAF is causing. I tried longer delays, FAF, switching between
DAF and FAF, a combination of the two, but nothing would bring
back the original positive effect on my fluency. I went back to wearing
one Speech Easy, and really tried hard to focus on listening through
the aided ear when I spoke, but I was never able to return to the
original benefit, that I had received, when I had the device in for that
first three months.
Now the unusual thing was that all but one of my six friends, who had
also purchased the devices, had found the same thing. Initially very
beneficial, but then they stopped using the SpeechEasy. Some had
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stopped for reasons similar to myself, but the others had stopped
because what they had to go through in wearing the device, did not
outweigh the benefit that they felt they were getting, as far as
improved fluency.
However, for the person who has no such skills, I am sure that the
SpeechEasy will reduce their stuttering, to some extent, and even over
the longer period, as long as the person is prepared to put up with the
issues that I outlined in my previous post, but that is a big ask for
most. It is a matter of comparing the costs to the benefits, both in
terms of dollars and what you have to put up with.
Now, having said all that, I believe that everyone should have a
SpeechEasy, or similar device, in their “toolbox” of tricks that we all
have to get through life with a stutter, but being asked to pay
US$4,500 or more for a device that is as hit and miss as this, is just
opportunism at its best. Should these devices cost that sort of money?
Certainly not.
These devices are being priced as though they are a cure, and they are
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certainly far from that, contrary to how they are being marketed by
the developer and some speech pathologists. Why does an “In the Ear”
Speech Easy cost US$4,500 in the USA when they cost about $150 to
make in China, where locals can buy them for about US$300. One
might argue that the investors and researchers need to recover their
investment into research and development, but hearing aid
technology and the concept of DAF has been around for a long time,
and with chip technology and the cost of programming being at an all
time low, this argument does not wash.
Like all technology, have they been reduced in price, no, so why
not? Hopefully those associated with the companies that
manufacture and sell the device, and hold the US patents for the
“idea”, as well as those associated with the university that supports
them, will reduce the price to where it should be, so that people who
stutter can buy one of these devices to tuck into their back pocket,
without it costing them an arm and a leg.
They want to help their child and feel pressured to purchase one of
these devices, yet most cannot really afford it, and do not know if it
will help their child in the long run.
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ears instead of only one, is easier to adjust and can be resold if you
decide not to use it. I will be writing about such a device in the near
future but in the mean time if you want some information on it, email
me at [email protected]. Having said everything above, I
believe that every person who stutters should own a DAF device of
some type, to keep in their back pocket, to be used when you are
having a rough day and need something that will reduce your
stuttering to some extent. Just don’t pay more than US$900 for it.
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FOURTEEN
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In this two-part post, I would like to tell you about my personal
experience with the SpeechEasy device. In the first part, I would like
to tell you about some of the general pros and cons of the device, and
in the second part, I will tell you how it is working for me.
The SpeechEasy device that I was using, was what is called an, In The
Ear device. It could not be seen from the front or the rear, but could
be seen from the side, however, having said that, it was relatively low
profile. As a result I did not have any concerns about wearing it. I also
made everyone at work aware that I had this new device, so that I
would not be concerned about what they might be thinking of me
wearing what appeared to be a hearing aid.
I would insert the device into my ear in the morning as I left for work,
and I would remove in when I walked back in the door at the end of
the day, so I guess you would say that I, “did not leave home without
it”, and used it constantly. The reason for this is that I had a high level
of fluency when I was wearing it, and an unacceptable level of fluency
when I took it off. So I guess what I am saying is, that I did not have a
great deal of carry over fluency when I took the device off, as some
people had told me I may get.
Although I was not totally fluent when wearing the SpeechEasy, I was
not blocking greatly, and when I did block, it was only for a fraction of
a second, then I was moving again. I felt liberated from stuttering,
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and liberated from the fluency shaping approach that I had constantly
worked on for many years. I found that I was pretty much able to
speak to anyone in any situation while I was wearing the device, and
my freedom to move around in all speaking situations was expanded
greatly. There were however, some drawbacks to using the device that
I discovered, and although some of these drawbacks were significant,
they did not outweigh the benefits that I gained from constantly using
the device.
So what were these drawbacks, and how significant were they? Let me
go through these one at a time:
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on my right was saying, but when the person on my left spoke, there
was so much background noise of clinking plates and cutlery, that I
was not able to hear what the person was saying, and because I was
sitting at a large round table with the person next to me, I was not
able to turn my right ear towards that person, to make the listening
easier.
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Tinnitus – I don’t know if this was just peculiar to me, but after
wearing the device constantly for 3 months, I began to develop a
slight level of tinnitus or ringing in the ear, which is still there to this
day. Adverse to Speech Fluency Skills – Although I was told that my
fluency using the device would be enhanced by combining it with my
fluency shaping skills, I found that I had difficulty applying those
skills, when I was using the device. My friends who also used the
device, said that they found the same thing. This was not so bad when
I was wearing the device, as I did not need to use my fluency shaping
technique to a great degree to be fluent, but when I took it off, the
fluency technique was not there for me, and I would begin to stutter
with greater severity.
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FIFTEEN
VIDEOS WITH JOHN STEGGLES (STUTTERING JACK) IN HIS WORK WITH VIETNAM
STAMMERERS:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sV1FgxwcPS0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6nZKd6vnW0
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