The Fandom (Excerpt)
The Fandom (Excerpt)
FA N D O M
ANNA DAY
E
xactly one week from t oday, I will hang.
Iw
ill hang for my friends, my f amily, and, above all e lse,
love. A thought that offers surprisingly little comfort when I
think about the noose closing around my neck, my feet searching
for solid ground, my legs flailing . . . dancing in midair.
This morning I was clueless. This morning I was at Comic-
Con, inhaling the scent of hot dogs and sweat and perfume, taking
in the brightly colored costumes, the flash of the cameras, the bass
drums and the violins. And yesterday I was in school, stressing over
some stupid English presentation and wishing I w ere in another
world.
Be careful what you wish for, b ecause sometimes the reality
truly blows.
CHAPTER 1
I
begin to stand, realize my maxi skirt has stuck to my thighs,
and subtly unpeel the cotton from my skin.
“Go for it,” Katie whispers.
I don’t reply. Why did I volunteer to do this stupid presenta
tion? Public speaking: not my strong point. Let’s be honest, public
anything: not my strong point.
“Whenever you’re ready, Violet,” Miss Thompson says.
I give the fabric one final tug and make my way to the front of
the class. I suddenly feel very small, like my classmates have shrink
rays attached to their eyes. Shrinking Violet. This makes me
laugh—now I look unhinged as well as nervous.
Miss Thompson smiles at me from her crumbling desk. “So,
Violet, tell us about your favorite novel, which is . . . ?”
“The Gallows Dance by Sally King,” I reply.
A collective groan from the boys in the back row. But they’re
only faking disappointment. I saw them at the cinema less than a
year ago when the film version came out and, as I recall, they all left
with suspiciously red eyes.
I take a deep breath and begin to talk.
“Once upon a time, there lived a race known as the humans.
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“The h umans w ere smart and ambitious, but they w ere also greedy, a
greed that extended to their ever-increasing obsession with perfection—
the perfect body, mind, and life. At the turn of the twenty-second century,
this obsession led to the first wave of genetically enhanced humans.”
I leave a dramatic pause and glance around the room. I’d
hoped they’d look enthralled, wide-eyed, but instead they look
half-asleep.
“The Gems. Genet ically Enhanced Man. Tall, strong, good-
looking, Intelligence Quotients above 130. It w asn’t long before the
Gems moved to beautiful areas of countryside called the Pastures, free
from disease and crime.”
I shift my weight between my feet, sweep my hair from my
eyes, and push that nagging thought that I’m making a giant fool
of myself into the dark, unused part of my brain.
“But what of the non-genetically enhanced h umans? Normal men
and woman like you and me. They became known as the Imperfects.
The Imps. Sealed inside the old cities—London, Manchester, Paris,
Moscow—rife with disease and crime, locked b ehind miles of snaking
city walls and bombed into submission. Only the stronger and more
able Imps w ere permitted to enter the Pastures, to serve the Gems as
slaves.
“The word human became unspoken . . . forbidden.
“There w ere only Gems and Imps—”
“So, I’m an Imp,” Ryan Bell interrupts from the back of the
class. “Is that what y ou’re saying?”
Great. Just what I need—a heckler. And I wish I had the balls
to point out that he must already know this, having sat through
two hours of the film, Kleenex firmly clamped to nose.
“Shut it, jerkhead,” Katie says. Her red bob whips in a perfect
arc as she spins around to face him. I c an’t see her features, but I
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know she’s giving him that look. The one where she narrows her
pea-green eyes and presses her lips together.
“There a in’t nothing imperfect about me,” Ryan says.
Katie makes this strange noise, halfway between a laugh and a
cough.
Miss Thompson frowns. “I think what Violet is trying to say is
that w e’re all Imps, Ryan. Unless you’re a superhuman from the
future—which I highly doubt.”
Deep breath. Ignore the numb lips.
“To ensure the continued subjugation of the Imps, the Gems gath-
ered every week in great Coliseums and watched the Imps hang, an
event known as the Gallows Dance. But some of the Imps refused to
accept their fate, forming a group of rebels, determined to reinstate
basic Imp rights. The rebel leader was called Thorn.”
I fumble with my papers and locate his picture. A printout
from the film. Miss Thompson slides it from my clammy fingers
and pins it to the wall. Thorn’s image completely fails to capture his
power, his drive. This small, he just looks like a bondage-pirate-
action-man, head to toe in black leather, eye patch slung across his
chiseled face.
“Thorn hatched an elaborate plan to obtain Gem government
secrets and asked his two most trusted rebels to recruit a young,
female Imp.
“They recruited Rose.”
Rose. The heroine of this tale. Passionate, impulsive, coura-
geous. Every day, without fail, I wish I were her. And so far, h ere’s
how I measure up . . .
Passionate: My nickname is Violet the Virgin.
Impulsive: I spent two days planning this presentation.
Courageous: My face has started to sweat.
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In fact, the only t hing we share is our pale skin and our taste
in men.
I nod to Miss Thompson, who takes her cue and crosses to the
interactive whiteboard. A YouTube clip launches into action—
the opening scene of the film. The camera zooms in on Rose as she
scales the outer stone wall of the Coliseum. She looks awesome, her
long dark hair tumbling down her back. She reaches the crest of
the wall, accompanied by a swell of violins.
The camera switches to the spectators inside the Coliseum. A
crowd of Gems—their beautiful faces baying for Imp blood. Nine
condemned Imps are led onto a wooden stage, the nooses placed
around their necks. I know t hey’re only moments from being freed,
yet I still feel this twist of anxiety in my stomach. I steal a quick
look at my classmates. They actually look concerned, absorbed. A
smile pulls at the corners of my mouth.
The Gem president appears on a g iant screen b ehind the
stage and introduces the condemned Imps by their alleged crimes:
theft, rape, murder. The camera swings back to Rose, her dark
hair whipping before her eyes—she knows the condemned Imps
are guilty only of poverty and hunger. She pulls a grenade from
her belt, touches it to her lips, and then hurls it over the crowd
below.
The clip ends just before the bomb goes off.
I turn back to the class, bolstered by their sudden interest.
“While the Gems were distracted by the bomb, the rebels launched
a rescue mission and saved the condemned Imps from the gallows. Rose
slipped down the outer wall undetected, her worth as a rebel secured.
“So Thorn sent Rose on the most dangerous rebel mission to date:
the Harper mission. Rose infiltrated the Harper estate deep in the
Pastures and posed as a slave for the master of the house—Jeremy
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continue, he begged them to join him. So moved w ere the Gems by this
tragic scene, they ripped the gallows to the ground.
“The Gallows Dance was finally banned.
“Rose’s death sparked a revolution.
“And the Imps and Gems called themselves humans once again.”
The walls seem to absorb my final words, and I somehow
manage to swallow even though I have no saliva in my mouth.
Another silence. I wish Alice were h ere; she would clap and cheer
and shout, “Encore,” and everyone e lse would join in.
I catch Katie’s eye for a moment. She winks. Not quite the
public display of support I’d hoped for, but it makes me feel better
all the same.
“Thank you, Violet.” Miss Thompson peers at me from over
her glasses. “What a wonderful presentation.”
“Thanks, I wanted to do the book justice.”
Miss Thompson smiles. “I can tell from the amount of color
you put into it. We’ll make a writer of you yet.”
I flush with pleasure. Writing has always been Alice’s thing—I’ve
never dared touch it, until now. “Thanks, Miss Thompson.”
Kiss ass. Teacher’s pet. Hisses from the back of the class.
I slide back into my chair. Katie nudges me and whispers, “That
went really well.” But I can still hear Ryan and his accomplices snig-
gering, the edges of their words blurring together, and my cheeks
begin to feel hot and itchy again and the bastard notes w on’t stop
sticking to my palms. Rose w ouldn’t have fallen to pieces like this.
I let my hair fall in front of my face, providing a dark, wavy shield.
“So t here we have it,” Miss Thompson says. “We’ve heard the
plots of three very different novels, yet seen how they all follow
roughly the same structure.”
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in my chest and I hate myself for it. We join the throng of students
in the corridor, all hurrying to get home.
I change the subject. “I can’t believe you still haven’t read The
Gallows Dance, it’s a rite of passage.” The crowd snatches my voice
away, and I’m left feeling very small once again.
“Well, I d on’t need to now. You should come with a spoiler
alert.”
“You h aven’t even seen the film.”
“Again. Spoiler alert.”
We elbow through a group of fourteen-year-old girls who d on’t
seem to know the unspoken rule of moving out of the way for
upperclassmen.
I accidentally-on-purpose tread on a blonde girl’s toe. “Yeah,
but Russell’s seriously fit.” I’m talking about Russell Jones, the actor
who plays Willow in the film.
“Really? Y ou’ve never mentioned it. H ere comes Alice.” The
smile never leaves Katie’s mouth, but it slips completely from her
eyes. Like me, she’s learned to tell when Alice approaches by read-
ing other p eople. Every male glances over his shoulder, every girl
falls s ilent, brow knitted in a tight frown.
Sure enough, the crowd parts like the Red Sea, but this Moses
has long, bronzed legs that swallow up the tiled floor as she
strides toward us. A smile lights up her perfect oval face. She’s
always had that smile, ever since I met her on our first day at pri-
mary school—the kind of smile that makes you forgive her for
being so beautiful.
She stops dead in the middle of the corridor, confident she
won’t get jostled. “So how did it go?”
“It was a bag of crap,” I say.
Katie pats my back. “No, it wasn’t, it was g reat.”
12 AN NA DAY
W
hen i pulled on my costume this morning, I sud-
denly understood how Clark Kent could fly, how
Peter Parker could scale walls with his sticky palms.
It’s that feeling like you can be anyone . . . do anything. I imagined
somehow absorbing Rose’s strength and beauty, simply by wearing
her clothes—that burlap fabric knitting into my skin and becom-
ing part of me.
I’d really embraced cosplay this year. Brown tunic, green leg-
gings, army boots, my dark hair allowed to curl and frizz. I’d even
smudged my cheeks with olive eyeshadow in an attempt to look
battle-ready. My only nod to vanity was the red sash I’d tied around
my middle, emphasizing the narrowness of my waist. I felt battle-
ready, Comic-Con ready, bring-down-the-Gems ready.
But now, swaying to the rhythm of the Underground, I just
feel like an idiot.
The tunnels change from cast iron to brick as we hurtle toward
Kensington Olympia. I feel the pressure of sixty-odd eyes on my
back, and my fingers grip the cool of the handrail a little tighter.
But when I finally stop staring at the grubby train floor, I notice
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Katie eyes the outline of his jacket. Her lips press together as
she prevents an insult from popping out, instead muttering, “I
know, I know” before the motion of the train makes her fumble
the pin. “She must have pricked” her finger, b ecause she grumbles,
“Crap” and sucks the blood before turning back to Nate. “But I
didn’t want to come as an Imp. Everyone w ill come as an Imp—”
She glances at me, guilt flickering beneath her dainty features.
“Sorry, Vi. And I couldn’t very well go as a Gem, not like Alice the
Amazon h ere . . . I’m only five foot two.”
Alice strokes her hair, as though coaxing an idea from her brain.
“There are loads of attractive midgets . . . Tinkerbell . . . Smurfette.”
“Who’d fancy a Smurf?” Katie says.
“Another Smurf,” I say.
The Tube hits a smooth patch and Katie finally secures the
clasp. “Well, I’m not a bloody Smurf, am I? I’m a helix and I’m
proud.”
“You should be flattered,” Nate says. “Who’d want to look like
the human Barbie over there?” He gestures to Alice.
“Aw, thanks, Nate,” Alice says, her cheeks filling with color.
He snaps up his eye patch and gives her a long, hard stare.
“It wasn’t a compliment. Filthy, Frankenstein Gem.”
“That’s brilliant . . . Filthy, Frankenstein Gem . . . and it isn’t
from the original . . . not canon?” She always refers to The Gallows
Dance as canon, once again reminding us of her status as a fanfic
writer. She’s even started calling her own work the current, as if the
original novel is totally old-school in comparison. She has no idea
how arrogant it makes her sound. She whips her iPhone from her
Michael Kors bag and begins typing in the insult, her azure nails
clicking against the screen. “Filthy, Frankenstein Gem—I’m totally
going to use that in my next piece.”
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He flicks his sandy hair from his forehead. He looks more like a
pixie than a boy.
The queue moves slowly. Time moves slowly. I examine every
stitch of Indiana Jones’s waistcoat, every crimson brushstroke of
Iron Man’s chest. I imagine Russell Jones’s face, the bow of his
upper lip, the way his hand w ill skim mine as we pose side by side
for the camera. By the time I reach the entrance, my ticket’s pretty
much dissolved in my sweaty hands.
I visited Olympia a few months ago on a school trip. Katie and
Alice came, too, looking slightly more normal and slightly less
excited. I still remember the way the sun slanted through the wall
of glass, the dust motes dancing all the way to the domed ceiling,
the white lattice of the metal beams. It looked beautiful, like a vast,
forgotten ballroom. T oday, crammed with the vivid and slightly
disorienting world of cosplay, it feels like stepping onto a film set or
a different world.
“This is awesome,” Katie says. It’s the first time I’ve ever heard
her excited about anything Gallows Dance related.
I nod. “Finally, she gets it.”
That tremor of excitement returns as I struggle to take it all in.
Cosplayers and plain-clothed fans spill from the balcony and pack
the ground floor. They talk and laugh and pose for photos—just
the sheer number of them makes me feel so insignificant. Banners
fall from the ceiling like g reat, colorful sails, boasting slogans and
Photoshopped faces. Game of Thrones, Star Wars, The Gallows
Dance. And the air feels almost humid on my skin, laced with the
scent of hot dogs and sweat and perfume. The flash of cameras
surrounds me, and it feels like I’m standing in a massive disco ball.
“There’s Willow.” Alice clasps my arm, her fingers curling into
my flesh like talons. For a moment, I think she can actually see
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W
e wait to meet Russell in a long, darkened room.
The queue’s shorter than I expected—only a c ouple of
teenage girls scrolling through selfies on their phones.
A lady with a clipboard takes our names and collects our
crumpled ten-spots. “Right, we’re doing well for time. I’ll be with
you again shortly.”
She leads the selfie girls through a door at the back. I crane my
neck to see if I can catch my first glimpse of Russell, but they’re too
damn quick.
Alice grips my hand. “I c an’t believe this is about to happen.”
“I know,” I reply.
“Do I look OK?” she asks.
I don’t even bother studying her. “Yeah, ’course.”
“Do you think Russell w ill have heard of me?”
Nate laughs. “No way. He’s a megastar, he’s not going to be
reading some random fanfic by some wannabe Sally King.”
“Thanks, but I w asn’t asking you,” Alice replies, her voice sour.
“And FYI, who’d want to be Sally King? Poor cow killed herself
after one novel. I’m g oing to write a trilogy.”
“Wow, y ou’re all heart,” Nate says. “RIP, the lovely Sally King.”
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“Who invited you anyway, squirt?” Alice pokes him in the ribs
and he squeals like he’s five. Anyone would think they were the
siblings, the way they carry on.
Clipboard Lady reappears. “Right, you guys are next.”
Alice pushes past us, her heels clacking against the floor. We
follow and enter another dimly lit room. I can see Russell Jones
standing at the back, his toned body squeezed between the selfie
girls, his strong fingers wrapped around their waists. He smiles as
a camera flashes, lighting up the network of scaffolds overhead and
the canvas behind him. The theme tune fills my head, all violins
and drums, and I feel a sudden surge of adrenaline.
Julia Starling—the actress who plays Rose—perches on a desk
and talks to some security guards. Cast in the emerald glow of the
stage lights, she looks even more ethereal than usual. Her thin
hands flutter before her face as she laughs her bell-like laugh, and
her hair cascades down her back in dark, glossy waves, no frizz in
sight. I notice she wears blue jeans and a white blouse. I suddenly
feel like a fraud, standing in my tunic, pretending to be Rose. I
know I’m pretty, in a quirky, pale way (at least, p eople tell me I’m
pretty, in a quirky, pale way) but I could never match Julia’s grace,
the delicacy of her features.
The selfie girls leave. I watch Russell take a swig of w ater. I
can just make out the shape of his Adam’s apple moving down his
throat like the tip of a blade.
“Enjoy,” says Clipboard Lady, ushering us t oward him.
He nods at us, and his gaze immediately fixes on Alice. That
little kernel of envy expands to fill my entire body.
A smile creeps across his face, his teeth so white they almost
glow. “A fellow Gem. An unpopular choice, but if you can pull it
off, why the hell not?”
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swell, drowning out the rest of her words, and this strange smell
fills my nostrils—medicine and burning fabric. I clasp my hands to
my temples, my pulse ramping up a gear.
“Violet?” Katie says.
The creaking is back, louder this time—it definitely isn’t the
violins. And that emerald light begins to flicker, like a bulb’s about to
blow or a thousand moths have gotten stuck behind the glass casing.
“Violet? Are you OK?” Katie says. Her face turns from green
to white, white to green.
The floor seems to swing a foot to the left, and I start to feel
like I’ve stepped off a carousel—this morning’s porridge hot and
thick at the base of my throat. I think I hear someone scream my
name. I turn to see Nate’s mouth pulled open in a yawn, his brown
eyes wide. Instinctively, my eyes flick up. And that’s when I see it.
The emerald light spinning from a cable, the scaffolding lurching
forward. I barely have time to cover my face as the entire metal
structure hurtles t oward us.
Copyright © 2018 by Anna Day
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