The Transsexual Phenomenon
The Transsexual Phenomenon
The Transsexual Phenomenon
Part 1
There exists a relatively small group of people - men more often than
women - who want to "change their sex." This phenomenon has
occasionally been described in its principal symptoms by psychiatrists
and psychologists in the past; but a deeper awareness of the problem,
and especially its general sexological as well as its therapeutic
implications, was largely neglected, at least in the United States. It
has been considered only during the last (roughly) thirteen years and
then with much hesitation.
And so, without Christine Jorgensen and the unsought publicity of her
"conversion," this book could hardly have been conceived.
This criticism was not long in coming. New and rather revolutionary
medical and surgical procedures readily found their opponents,
especially since sex was involved. Such a contretemps, however, is no
novelty in the history of medicine.
The forces of nature, however, know nothing of this tabu, and facts
remain facts. Intersexes exist, in body as well as in mind. I have seen
too many transsexual patients to let their picture and their suffering be
obscured by uninformed albeit honest opposition. Furthermore, I felt
that after fifty years in the practice of medicine, and in the evening of
life, I need not be too concerned with a disapproval that touches much
more on morals than on science.
My thanks must also go to Mrs. Rhoda Sapiro in New York and to Miss
Maureen Maloney in San Francisco for their ever-ready and valuable
assistance in many ways.
Harry Benjamin
New York
Spring 1966
The object and purpose of sexual relations varies with various persons
and under various circumstances. In the animal world, the sex urge is
the instrument for procreation. Animals fornicate instinctively for that
purpose only. Humans do not do so as a rule. Yet the Roman Catholic
Church would want just that: sex relations for the same purpose in
man as in animals, procreation only. But most individuals seek
pleasure in sex or at least seek relief from unpleasant tensions. More
and more persons realize that sex serves recreation as well as
procreation. But such is rarely admitted and rarely taught in any
schools, including medical schools. Sexology as a branch of medicine is
still rather widely ignored in formal medical education, to the great
disadvantage of the young doctor and his future patients.
For the simple man in the street, there are only two sexes. A person is
either male or female, Adam or Eve. With more learning comes more
doubt. The more sophisticated realize that every Adam contains
elements of Eve and every Eve harbors traces of Adam, physically as
well as psychologically.
Aside from such diversity of the expression of the sex urge, there is
another more basic multiformity rarely considered except by research
scientists, but highly essential for the subject of this book. The
reference is to the various kinds of sex that can be identified and
separated, in spite of overlapping and interaction.
The chromosomal sex, rather loosely equated with the genetic sex, is
the fundamental one and is to be considered first. It determines both
sex and gender.
A great deal has yet to be learned about the genetic sex and until
more is known, it may be well to keep an open mind as to the possible
causes of some mental abnormalities and sex deviations. At present,
they are mostly ascribed to psychological conditioning; but they may
yet find an additional explanation in some still obscure genetic fault,
perhaps as a predisposing factor for later environmental influences.
In this area, errors of sex can occur and are not too infrequent. The
obstetrician or the midwife may be deceived. Usually they take only a
quick look at the newborn baby and congratulate the parents on a boy
or a girl. But they may have made a mistake. Hermaphroditic or -
much more frequently - pseudohermaphroditic deformities may have
escaped them, or the organs may be so incompletely developed,
"unfinished" (as John Money calls it), or the testes undescended, that
the observer was misled. In this way the so-called nursery sex was not
the true sex. Consequently the legal sex was wrong too and
complications may loom large for the future.
The germinal sex serves procreation only. The normal testis produces
sperm and where there is sperm, there is maleness. The normal ovary
produces eggs (ova) and where they are found, there is femaleness.
The endocrine sex, however, is not linked to the sex glands only.
Other glands too supply hormones essential for both sexes to maintain
their sex status. Without normal pituitary activity, the endocrine
function of the gonads could suffer. Without normal adrenal function, a
man is said to lose more of his androgen supply than if be lost his
testes, that is, were castrated. This theory, however, based on
laboratory work, does not fit the clinical picture and may have to be
revised. Just as the anatomical sex is never entirely male or female
(one must recall the existence of nipples in men and of a rudimentary
penis, the clitoris, in women), so is the endocrine sex "mixed" to an
even greater extent. Testes as well as the male adrenals produce small
amounts of estrogen. Androgen, in more or less distinct traces, can be
found in the ovaries and in larger amounts in the adrenals of females.
Their metabolic end-products can be identified and measured in the
blood as well as in the urine.
The diverse amounts of both sex hormones in both sexes can have
their influence on appearance as well as behavior, the appearance,
however, largely determined by the genetic constitution, the behavior
also by environmental and educational factors.
Even more flexible than any other is the next and highly important
psychological sex. It may be in opposition to all other sexes. Great
problems arise for those unfortunate persons in whom this occurs.
Their lives are often tragic and the bulk of all the following pages will
be filled with the nature of their misfortunes, their symptoms, their
fate, and possible salvation.
In the vast majority of all people, these latter sexes as well as the
psychological sex blend harmoniously with all the other kinds of sex.
The genetically normal female presents the opposite picture. She feels,
looks, acts, and functions as a woman, wants to be nothing else,
usually marries and has children. She dresses and makes up to be
attractive to men and her sex and gender are never doubted either by
society or by the law.
Such more or less perfect symphony of the sexes is the rule. Yet,
disturbances may occur more often than is usually assumed.
Unfortunately, our conventions and our laws have no understanding,
no tolerance for those in whom nature or life (nature or nurture) have
created a dissonance in their sexuality. Such individuals are frequently
condemned and ostracized. Among them we find transsexuals,
transvestites, eunuchoids, homosexuals, bisexuals, and other deviates.
These latter, however, are not under consideration here.
In rare cases and often against great odds, defying tradition and
orthodoxy (not least in the medical profession), some of them,
particularly transsexuals, may succeed in "changing their sex" and find
a degree of happiness that our present society denies them.
Any interference with the sacrosanct stability of our sex is one of the
great tabus of our time. Therefore, its violation is strongly resented
with emotions likely to run high, even among doctors. Much of this will
appear in the chapters that are to follow.
Hirschfeld and his pupils saw many of these persons in his Institute of
Sexual Science in Berlin, Germany. This memorable Institute with its
famous and rich museum and its clinic and lecture hall (Haeckel Saal)
was destroyed by the Nazis rather early in their march to power
(1933). (This destruction occurred soon after the first and only issue of
Sexus, an international sexological magazine, was published by
Hirschfeld while he was away from Germany.) The Institute’s
confidential files were said to have contained too many data on
prominent Nazis, former patients of Hirschfeld, to allow the constant
threat of discovery to persist.
Many times in the 1920’s, I visited Hirschfeld and his Institute. Among
other patients, I also saw transvestites who were there, rarely to be
treated, but usually, with Hirschfeld’s help, to procure permission from
the Berlin Police Department to dress in female attire and so appear in
public. In the majority of cases, this permission was granted because
these patients had no intention of committing a crime through
"masquerading" or "impersonating." "Dressing" was considered
beneficial to their mental health.
Havelock Ellis proposed the term "eonism" for the same condition,
named after the Chevalier d’Eon de Beaumont, a well-known
transvestite at the court of Louis XV. In this way, Ellis wanted to bring
the term into accord with sadism and masochism, also named after the
most famous exponents of the respective deviations, the French
Marquis (later Count) Donatien de Sade, and the Austrian writer,
Leopold von Sacher-Masoch.
Because of the much more permissive fashions among women, and for
other reasons, the problem of transvestism almost exclusively
concerns men in whom the desire to cross-dress is often combined
with other deviations, particularly with fetishism, narcissism, and the
desire to be tied up (bondage) or somehow humiliated (masochism).
The desire to change sex has been known to psychologists for a long
time. Such patients were rare. Their abnormality has been described in
scientific journals in the past in various ways; for instance, as "total
sexual inversion," or "sex role inversion." Beyond some attempts with
psychotherapy in a (futile) effort to cure them of their strange desires,
nothing was or could be done for them medically. Some of them
probably languished in mental institutions, some in prisons, and the
majority as miserable, unhappy members of the community, unless
they committed suicide. Only because of the recent great advances in
endocrinology and surgical techniques has the picture changed.
The facts of her case, which she herself related with good insight and
restraint - unfortunately only in a magazine article - caused emotions
to run high among those similarly affected. Suddenly they understood
and "found" themselves and saw hope for a release from an unhappy
existence. Among the public, there was praise for Christine for the
courage of her convictions; also there was disbelief with criticism of
her physicians, as well as outright condemnation on moral grounds.
Such emotional reactions in lay circles reached the height of absurdity
and bigotry when Christine was once barred from a New York
restaurant and night club as a guest.
This clash with society, the law, and the medical profession is still
more pronounced and tragic in Group 3, which constitutes fully
developed transsexualism. The transsexual shows a much greater
degree of sex and gender role disorientation and a much deeper
emotional disturbance. To him, his sex organs are sources of disgust
and hate. So are his male body forms, hair distribution, masculine
habits, male dress, and male sexuality. He lives only for the day when
his "female soul" is no longer being outraged by his male body, when
he can function as a female - socially, legally, and sexually. In the
meantime, he is often asexual or masturbates on occasion, imagining
himself to be female.
This, very briefly, is the clinical picture of the three groups as they
appeared to me originally during the observation of over two hundred
such patients. More than half of them were diagnosed as transsexuals
(TSs).
Some investigators believe that the two conditions, TVism and TSism,
should be sharply separated, principally on the basis of their "sex feel"
and their chosen sex partners (object choices). The transvestite - they
say - is a man, feels himself to be one, is heterosexual, and merely
wants to dress as a woman. The transsexual feels himself to be a
woman ("trapped in a man’s body") and is attracted to men. This
makes him a homosexual provided his sex is diagnosed from the state
of his body. But he, diagnosing himself in accordance with his female
psychological sex, considers his sexual desire for a man to be
heterosexual, that is, normal.
It is true that the request for a conversion operation is typical only for
the transsexual and can actually serve as definition. It is also true that
the transvestite looks at his sex organ as an organ of pleasure, while
the transsexual turns from it in disgust. Yet, even this is not clearly
defined in every instance and no two cases are ever alike. An
overlapping and blurring of types or groups is certainly frequent.
TABLE 2
Type II Fetishistic TV
Relationship to homosexuality
To quote again from Sexual Behavior in the Human Male (page 652),
"since only 50 per cent of the population is exclusively heterosexual
throughout its adult life, and since only 4 per cent is exclusively
homosexual throughout its life, it appears that nearly one half (46 per
cent) of the population engages in both heterosexual and homosexual
activities or reacts to persons of both sexes in the course of their adult
lives."
The most evident distinction between these three disorders lies in the
sex partner: for the present discussion, a male sex partner, his
existence or nonexistence, and his significance. Homosexual activity is
not feasible without him. He is a primary factor. The homosexual is a
man and wants to be nothing else. He is merely aroused sexually by
another man. Even if he is of the effeminate variety, he is still in
harmony with his male sex and his masculine gender. The TV and the
TS are not in such harmony. Besides, TVism (that is, cross-dressing) is
a completely solitary act, requiring no partner at all for its enjoyment.
In TSism the chief object is the sex transformation. A male sex partner
may afterward be desired more or less urgently, but he is a secondary
factor, often enough dispensable and by no means constant.
The sex relations of the male homosexual are those of man with man.
The sex relations of a male transsexual are those of a woman with a
man, hindered only by the anatomical structures that an operation is
to alter. The sex relations of a transvestite are (in the majority) those
of heterosexual partners, the male, however, frequently assuming the
female position in coitus.
In other words: Homosexuality is a sex problem, affecting two
persons, a sex partner (of the same sex) being a primary and
generally indispensable prerequisite.
From all that has been said, it seems evident that the question "Is the
transsexual homosexual?" must be answered "yes" and " no." "Yes," if
his anatomy is considered; "no" if his psyche is given preference.
Again the thought clearly emerges that what we call "sex" is of a very
dubious nature and has no accurate scientific meaning. Between
"male" and "female," "sex" is a continuum with many "in betweens."
After having devised the first S.O.S. chart, it was shown to two of the
most earnest students of the transvestitic problem, both transvestites
themselves, and they formulated charts of their own. In one, seven
types were likewise recognized and recorded as follows:
Type Characterization
1 Fetishist
2 Low intensity TV
3 True femiphile TV
4 Asexual type
5 Gender type TS
7 Operated TS
In the other chart, five groups of transvestites were classified and their
prevalence estimated as follows:
Type Percentage
1 Fetishist 25
2 Narcissist 50
3 Exhibitionist 10
4 Pseudo-transsexual 10
5 Transsexual 5
Nonaffective dressing
There are also homosexual men who go "in drag," that is to say, dress
as women in order to compete at a contest or, as male prostitutes,
wish to attract normal men. Their aetions usually have nothing to do
with transvestism either, the female attire being incidental,
nonaffective, and without eroticism. There are, of course, also
transsexual male prostitutes, as we will see later on.
Pseudo transvestism
Many such cases undoubtedly exist, but since they are not obsessive
or likely to cause complications, they require no treatment and are of
minor importance to the individual as well as to society. They may be
called pseudo-transvestites.
Another, probably very small group of men may belong to the same
category. They do not ever "dress" overtly, out of fear or shame, but
greatly enjoy transvestitic fantasies and literature. It is probably
immaterial whether to classify them as pseudo or not at all.
The facts may apply to the female as well as to the male, but this
chapter will be devoted to the male only. Female transvestism seems
to be rare and of somewhat doubtful reality. Women's fashions are
such as to allow a female transvestite to indulge her wish to wear male
attire without being too conspicuous. Her deviation has been
considered merely arrogant while male transvestism is to many
objectionable because, in their opinion, it humiliates.
"A great erotic stimulant," "a sexual release," "a sexual glow," "a
wonderful erotic pleasure," were others.
Every TV follows his own individual pattern that does not readily fit
into a too rigid classification. Anticipating a later discussion, I may say
here that in my opinion, TVs are products of their congenital or inborn
sexual constitution that is shaped and altered by cultural factors and
by childhood conditioning. It can, therefore, produce an endless
variety of clinical pictures.
One of my patients of many years ago a man in his late sixties, was
accustomed to this form of transvestism when he went out. Only at
home did he "dress" completely. Once he was in a street accident and
was taken unconscious to a hospital. When the female undergarments
were discovered, the examining physician, completely unacquainted
with transvestism, wrote the fact into the hospital record (where I saw
it), together with the diagnosis of "concussion" and "patient evidently
a degenerate." The only consoling feature is that this example of
medical ignorance occurred over twenty years ago.
Transvestite publications
Side publications by Prince, called Femme Mirror and Clip Sheet, add
little if anything to the original educational nature of a praiseworthy
enterprise and may even - by its vague commercializing charaeter -
detract from its value.
The denial of sexual motives for transvestites, except for those that
are fetishists, is meant to make TVism more respectable and therefore
more acceptable to the public. "Virginia" and her followers believe in
"the need for adornment and personality expression" and in the "relief
from the problems of masculinity and social expectancy" as
explanation and justification for transvestism.
The actual cause of sex and gender disorientation, with its transvestitic
and transsexual syndromes, is still to be discovered. An immature or
an infantile sexual constitution (fostered by a faulty upbringing) may
have something to do with the cause of transvestism, even if
gradually, and with advancing years, the social contentment and a
gender harmony that goes with "dressing" overshadows or even
replaces its original eroticism.
They disagree with "Virginia Prince" and her principal theory that "the
girl within" prompts transvestites to be what they are and to act as
they do. Yet - as we have seen - such theory does contain a grain of
truth, namely, the biological fact that in every male there is an
element of the female, and vice versa. Our culture and upbringing,
however, lead to the practical demands (for males and females), for
masculinity and femininity as such, and allow no "girls within" men. It
does exist only under just such abnormal conditions as transvestism,
transsexualism and certain cases of homosexuality with effeminacy. All
this, however, permits no generalization.
Those TVs, however, who wish to get away from their disturbing hobby
would have to shun these publications, together with all transvestitic
temptations, gatherings, and the like, and train themselves to live in a
completely "normal" (sit venia verbo) environment.
TV publications with their detailed descriptions of "dressing" and their
many photos over female names can be an endless delight to the TVs.
They can be instructive to the psychologist, but are an unmitigated
bore to all others. So are undoubtedly "girlie magazines" to
homosexuals and "muscle men" pictures to the heterosexuals. Shoe
stores and lingerie shop windows can be sexually stimulating
("obscene," our moralists would say) to the respective fetishists and
utterly indifferent to others. So the old clichés are only too true. "It's
all in the mind of the spectator," or "One man's meat is another man's
poison."
Interpretations of transvestism
Psychoanalysis has a language and jargon all its own. In the field of
transvestism (and homosexuality) we owe to the psychoanalysts the
concepts of the "mother with a penis," the "phalic woman," the
"castration fear" which "transvestism attempts to overcome" and
others, unnecessary to describe here. These psychoanalytic concepts
have been accepted variously as important scientific discoveries, or as
ingenious theories, but have also been criticized and rejected as
merely intellectual "games," a sophisticated voodoo, if not as plain
nonsense and balderdash. This author neither feels competent to pass
judgment as to which of the above characterizations is most likely
correct, nor would this be the place to express a preference on his
part. The prominent psychiatrists and university professors Buerger-
Prinz, Giese, and Albrecht in an important German monograph call
some psychoanalytic theories "think possibilities without evidence in
clinical observation" (phenomenology).
The hour I spent with Freud can never be forgotten. Among many
other topics, we discussed the body-mind relationship (suggested by
Steinach's researches) and when the pun came to my mind that "the
disharmony of the emotions may well be due to a dishormony of our
endocrine glands," Freud laughed and fully agreed.
If I learned one thing from this visit, it was that Freud certainly was no
"Freudian," in the sense of some of today's practitioners. His biological
background and training protected him against the "extremism" of the
Bergler and like types. Besides, Freud was big enough to recognize his
own occasional errors, admitted them, and tried to correct them.
Illegality of transvestism
In any event, it seems inexcusable for any father to let his chil,en see
him openly indulging in his transvestitic pleasures. Few wives and
mothers would stand for it either, although I have known of two or
three such marriages to persist.
Transvestites' wives
I have observed rare examples when the wife actually was more
homo- than heterosexual and liked her husband better as a woman
than as a man. A lesbianlike relationship existed that satisfied both,
with the husband's transvestism on a transsexual basis (S.O.S. III-IV)
finding an almost ideal outlet.
Perhaps a majority of transvestites' wives are willing to tolerate he
husband's hobby, provided they do not have to see him dressed as a
woman. I also know marriages of many years' standing when the wife
actually never knew of the husband's transvestism, although he
indulged in it regularly, several times a month outside of the house.
Hugo Beigel, in an article, "Wives of Transvestites," described the
situation in similar terms.
Concomitant deviations
Fetishism (S.O.S. II) complicates other TVs' sex lives. At the same
time, it puts an additional strain on married life. There are those who
like furs or leather. They buy jackets, coats, and entire outfits at
considerable expense so that the wife has a just grievance, if she
cannot afford anything like it for her own wardrobe.
That applies equally to expensive silk gowns and still more so to shoes
made to order, often with extra high heels, and new ones all the time.
Considerable expenditures also go into the purchase of wigs, jewelry,
and accessories.
Much has been made of narcissistic tendencies in TVs. True, most of
them spend an abnormal time in front of mirrors, admiring their
images as women, only too often overdressing and overadorning
themselves with costume jewelry. But whether they are really "in love"
with themselves as the classic Narcissus was supposed to be is
another question. Exaggerated female vanity may account for the
same actions and also for the delight in being photographed in all
kinds of poses to show off their new dresses, wigs, or hair-dos. Mirror
and camera are certainly indispensable adjuncts to a transvestite's life.
Since they are harmless and help emotionally, they have their
justification.
The transvestite types discussed here are the S.O.S. II and III
principally. In them the symptom of cross-dressing is by far in the
foreground of the clinical picture. The TVs with their desire to see such
physical changes as gynecomastia through hormone treatments or
plastic operations show enough of an overt transsexual trend to be
included in the following chapter.
Garment Percentage
Shoes with high heels 10
Stockings 16
Panties 22
Nightgown 26
Full costume 19
Age Percentage
Before 4.9 years 14
Between 5 and 9.9 years 39
Between 10 and 17.9 years 39
After 18 years 8
Stekel was first a pupil of Sigmund Freud, but later became his rival
and antagonist.
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According to my observations, the 25 per cent is too optimistic.
I remember only too vividly thirty-year-old Juan, a true TS, who much
preferred to be called Juana. Aside from his gender unhappiness, his
greatest physical handicap was a very heavy dark beard which would
have taken much time and money to remove. He was also
handicapped by extreme, almost paranoic sensitiveness to remarks
referring to the feminine impression he made and to his assumed
homosexual inclination. In addition, there was great poverty and
inferior education. It all added up to deep unhappiness without hope
for the future.
Attempts to get in touch with him failed. I would like to believe his
note to be not more than a hysterical outcry, but the probability is he
did find the only solution that he could see for his problem.
Many transsexuals have no overt sex life at all. As Burchard has said,
the sex drive in some of them is turned inward toward their own ego.
Masturbation is then occasionally practiced, but the urge for it is low
and under estrogen treatment gets even lower, to the point of zero.
Other transsexuals, however, have a sex life. There are those who still
preserve a normal married life, that is to say, with a woman. They say
they are able to have sex relations with the help of fantasies, by taking
a succubus (under) position in intercourse, or by wearing a female
nightgown. Some of these married transsexuals described to me a
mental state during intercourse in which the penis seems to lose its
identity of ownership. "The penis may just as well be my wife's being
inserted into me as vice versa," one patient expressed it. Another one
said bluntly, "I don't know whether I screw or am being screwed."
Psychoanalysts may find ingenious explanations for such a
phenomenon.
Sex relations vary, the "husband" most often substituting the anus for
the not yet existing vagina. Orgasm may be claimed by the "wife," but
especially under estrogen treatment, "she" has difficulty getting an
erection, which is not considered any handicap at all, rather the
opposite, as all manifestations of masculinity are abhorred. Erections
are often described as painful, which may have a psychosomatic
explanation. Ejaculations gradually diminish and finally disappear as
the prostate shrinks under estrogen therapy.
Aside from the emotional satisfaction that prostitution may afford (in
spite of its hazards as an illegal occupation) it has its decided practical
advantages. Not only can the transsexual make his living, but he may
also be able to save enough money for the trip abroad (usually
Casablanca in 1965) that is his ever-present goal.
The Unfree
by William J. O'Connell
After a fortnight's wait for a bed, I went to the hospital that had
agreed to the operation being done provided, I was told, their
psychiatrists approved. One of them turned up the first day and, after
conversations and tests, endorsed the views of his colleagues. This
made a total of five psychiatrists unanimously in favor of the
operation. The staff surgeon, who would collaborate in doing it, also
came round, friendly and sympathetic. But then there was a delay. A
staff psychiatrist was supposed to come by, but, it seemed, he was
unwilling to do so. Day after day I lay there, existing on the meatless
diet, having to go outside to smoke - rigors imposed not by my
religious beliefs but by the hospital's. Finally a member of the all-
important Tissue Committee appeared: the Committee, because of
protest from the "religious elements" of the hospital, were to review
my case. But my visitor, although he was perhaps to present my side
of the matter to his colleagues, seemed much more interested in
talking than in listening; I think his mind was made up, and I think
that neither justice nor "the needs of the sufferer" found any room
there.
The Tissue Committee refused to permit the operation. They did not
ask me to present my case; indeed, it was quite obvious (as I was told
by one of the doctors) that they did not consider me at all but only
considered placating the "religious elements." Thus the careful,
conscientious studies of sexologist, surgeon, and a battery of
psychiatrists went for nothing. The hospital had sacrificed their honor
(since I had been admitted under an implicit agreement) and their
mission (to help those in need) for the sake of a bigoted few. For all
that, they did not hesitate to charge me two hundred of the dollars I
had so laboriously saved for the operation - two hundred dollars for
discomfort and profound disrespect. No other hospital, now, would
accept me after this one had turned me out; in any case, my short
vacation was gone for another year. There was nothing to do but
accept defeat and go home to Seattle. Later I wrote twice to the
Committee, protesting, offering religious reasons for the operation.
There was no reply at all - perhaps they had carried out an
ecclesiastical excommunication with bell, book, and candle. More
probably, the individual soul was not important to these "Christian
gentlemen."
Where does the blame lie for this fiasco? I had sought my own
happiness, a happiness that could harm no other living person; and I
had been stopped by the bigoted and the self-righteous; my freedom
had been denied. Not very much can be said in extenuation of the
particular hospital involved, for they had admitted me and charged me
under an agreement which they dishonored; and the gentry who voted
not to allow the operation were manifestly false to their oath to be
governed in their treatment "by the needs of the sufferer" - they were
governed by bigotry and timidity and my needs were not considered.
But other hospitals, though less dishonorable, are as timid. What lies
behind their unwillingness to permit an operation that, in the
considered judgment of nearly a dozen doctors, is necessary? There
are, it seems to me, three elements of their timidity: legality, religion,
and disrespect for freedom.
The law is not lucid in matters of this sort. The common law and
certain ancient statutes forbid mayhem. Mayhem is depriving someone
of limbs necessary for self-defense - a sword arm or a trigger finger. It
is somewhat difficult to regard sexual organs as being useful in self-
defense. Moreover, such laws had in view, of course, maiming by
force, without consent. In short, the law of mayhem is not
automatically applicable, if at all, to the removal of sexual organs with
the patient's consent. Especially since the courts themselves castrate
certain criminals. Nevertheless, a prejudiced district attorney might
drag out this law and attempt to apply it to a hospital which was a
party to the operation. Whether there could be a conviction and,
particularly, whether any higher court would sustain such conviction, is
perhaps doubtful. The surgeons were willing to risk it, if their
consciences approved. It is difficult to believe that the hospital refused
me because of this law.
And freedom, both religious and secular, was denied me, by that
hospital specifically, and by every hospital tacitly, that refuses to allow
the operation. It is necessary to be very clear about this. What is this
freedom we cherish? Someone has said that to define freedom is to
limit it, and to limit it is to destroy it. This is not quite true. There is
one, and only one, necessary limit to freedom: one must not exercise
it so as to infringe on the rights of others. Thus one may not put
arsenic in the salad, or sell atomic secrets to smiling Soviets, or run
down old ladies with one's car. There is no other rightful limitation of
human freedom. As to defining freedom, it can be said at least that it
is not a negative thing, not "freedom to conform" or "freedom from
want"; a slave has those - and still he is unfree. Freedom is the right
to choose, to act, to pursue one's happiness. "The philosophy of the
First Amendment is that man must have full freedom to search the
world and the universe for the answers to the puzzles of life" - so
wrote one great jurist; and another: "The essence of an individual's
freedom is the opportunity to deviate (from the norm)."
Ought you, reader, to be concerned about this, since you do not want
- certainly not! - what I want? Of course you should, for freedom is
indivisible. If it is denied to me in this, it is precedent for denying it to
you in your deviation from the norm. Does the fact that what I want is
wanted by few rather than many alter in the slightest degree my right
to have it? If you love freedom, you should paraphrase Voltaire and
cry: "I do not agree with what you do, but I will defend to the death
your right to do it." I tried very hard to do it, and skilled men stood by
to help me: but between me and the happiness I sought there stood a
formless specter compounded of bigotry and self-righteousness and
disrespect for freedom, supported by all the Little Timid Men - and it
won. That's what is so horrifying - it won! We frequently hear an
anthem rendered with spirit if not precision, which includes the
inspired phrase, "the land of the free." But freedom here has been
denied me.
To bring this tale to a close and up to date, this patient, after another
year or so, did find a skillful surgeon abroad. The operation was
successful as I was able to convince myself. This is a more contented
person now.
Before discussing further the handicaps and plights of transsexual
patients, an example of each of the three types (S.O.S. IV, V, and VI)
may be in order..
Peter is in his late forties, dark of complexion and with hair that is just
turning gray, somewhat overweight, but with a skin that could be the
envy of any normal woman. As a man, he is softspoken and gentle,
though not an effeminate type. As a woman, he is attractive, fully
believable, and could be taken for a school principal, a housewife, or a
dowager.
He is an only child who had the desire to dress in girl's clothes from
early childhood, was reared as a normal boy, and had a good
education, graduating from college. He travels a good deal and then
"dresses" as much as possible. Without it, he says, he would be "a
nervous wreck." Estrogen medication is almost equally as necessary
for him. After much experimentation, he has found the dose that gives
him a calming effect, with slight fullness of his breasts, but that does
not interfere too much with his potency. He claims to have satisfactory
sex relations with his wife and with her only. He had rare homosexual
contacts during his college days, but none since, although he thinks he
might enjoy them.
Hoping to cure his TVism and TSism, H. married at the age of nineteen
a completely unsophisticated, seventeen-year-old girl whose femininity
he envied with irrational possessiveness. With the help of fantasies, he
succeeded in fathering three children. Although a good provider as a
successful salesman, the marriage was in an "off again, on again"
state when he and his wife came to see me first. His transvestism (on
the surface) was the principal stumbling block in the marriage and
appeared much more prominent than any transsexual urge. (He
admitted later that he purposely failed to mention his transsexual
desires, fearing he might antagonize me as he had other doctors in the
past.) Brave attempts to preserve the marriage for the sake of the
children were doomed to failure. When H. told me that he had been
under psychiatric treatment in his home town, I suggested that I
consult with the psychiatrist by phone to get his psychiatric diagnosis
and see what possibly could be done to calm his emotional turmoil
with estrogen in addition to the psychotherapy he was receiving.
H., a deeply disturbed and bewildered young man, then told me that
his sessions with this psychiatrist had been expensive hours of nothing
but argumentation and berating on the part of the doctor without any
psychological benefit to him . After every session he was worse than
before.
Another psychiatrist examined H. later at my suggestion, found him to
be nonpsychotic, of superior intelligence, a greatly disturbed
transsexual for whom psychotherapy in present available forms would
be useless, as far as any cure might be concerned. Operation was
suggested.
Early in 1965 the great day arrived at last and H. flew to Europe for
the operation that was to change him into the woman that he wanted
to be all his life. After an insufficient time at the hospital, following the
rather major operation, and after an unusually strenuous plane trip
home, H. arrived utterly exhausted but happy nevertheless. He had
been compelled to travel as a man and being overanxious to get into
female attire, he had unduly hurried the homecoming. Complications
(an internal abscess) developed and some further surgery was
required. At the end of the summer, however, a much improved and
"deliriously happy" attractive young lady presented herself at my
office.
The difficulty in procuring surgical help is not the only plight of the TS
patient. Any medical help, including hormone treatment, may be
denied him by overcautious and overconservative physicians. Dr.
Walter C. Alvarez said in one of his recent editorials: ". . . because of
our national ignorance, prissiness, and lack of sympathy for a person
terribly gypped by nature, no one will help." For these physicians (and
they are usually quite unfamiliar with the problem) transsexuals are
"mental cases" and should be under psychiatric care, possibly
institutionalized. But, alas, the failure of psychotherapy to achieve any
change in the patient's attitude is fully acknowledged by those who
have had any pertinent experience. With a rather unprofessional
antagonism, some physicians are known to have hurt these patients
psychologically. Here is an example:
The family physician is often the first one to whom a parent brings the
child who behaves differently from expectation. Usually he advises
them to take the boy (or girl) to a psychiatrist. In adolescence, or later
in life, the same may happen, and I was told again and again that the
psychiatrist then diagnosed "homosexuality" and - at best - advised
the patient to accept himself (or herself) as he or she was. The "gay"
life, however, is no solution for the transsexual. He does not like it. He
actually dislikes homosexuals and feels he has nothing in common with
them. His loneliness therefore becomes more and more evident and
painful.
Cross-dressing is a help, but not always and not enough. The law
forbids them to "dress" and hold a job as a woman. Yet this would be
the most effective form of therapy (together with estrogen) until an
operation can be had, provided the demand for it persists.
Another patient, living after her operation the woman's life that she
always wanted, once - as her surgeon related to me - bought a car
from a used car dealer, and paid for it in cash. The salesman had
assured her that she had made a good buy. After driving only a few
blocks the car proved to be defective and could hardly be driven back
to where it was bought.
The salesman listened to the complaint, but refused a refund or an
exchange for a different car. "You have bought yourself a car, lady,"
was all he had to say. The "lady" saw red. With a "We'll see about
that, you bastard," she proceeded to give that salesman the beating of
his life. Perhaps with memories in her subconscious mind of the
Chevalier d'Eon drawing his sword from under his petticoats to defend
his honor, her masculinity, aided by army training, had evidently
reasserted itself temporarily. She also got her money back.
While all these measures are more often applied after a conversion
operation than before in order to complete the transformation and
perhaps satisfy the urge for more and more feminization, they
illustrate nevertheless the transsexual's burden, which becomes
particularly heavy if economic factors prevent some of or all these
measures.
On the other hand, there are also those patients who are touchingly
appreciative, grateful, and eager to cooperate. They compensate the
doctor for many of his disappointments. Alas, they seem to be in the
minority.
The same may be true of drug addiction. I have found telltale marks of
"main-lining" in only one instance, but the use of "goof balls" was
occasionally admitted.
One tragic case is that of Joan. She was twenty-six when I met her
and that was just after she had her conversion operation as well as
plastic breast surgery. She was then a strikingly attractive redhead,
vivacious, possibly somewhat reckless, making her living as a call girl
and cocktail waitress. I lost sight of her for several years. When I saw
her again, I was hardly able to recognize her. Her attractiveness was
all but gone. She had lost much weight, had aged considerably, and
looked sick. She had become a "goof ball" addict and was still "in the
racket." One day, she was found dead in her furnished room. There
was a vague rumor of suicide but no evidence. The medical examiner's
office listed her death as "narcotic." In all probability, she died from an
overdose accidentally administered when she experimented for the
first time with an injection.
In a few instances under my observation, criminality complicated the
transsexual's life. Aside from prostitution, there have been rare
examples of theft, forgery, and attempted blackmail, however only
before the operation had been attained.
These many personal letters from almost 500 deeply unhappy persons
leave an overwhelming impression. One tragic existence is unfolded
after another; they cry for help and understanding. It is depressing to
realize how little can be done to come to their aid. One feels it a duty
to appeal to the medical profession and to the responsible legislature:
do your utmost to ease the existence of these fellow-men who are
deprived of the possibilities of a harmonious and happy life - through
no fault of their own.
(PLEASE READ THE LAST FOUR PARAGRAPHS AGAIN.)
I look about me and see all that I cannot be and cannot do. My
heart cries with a pain like no other, for my deepest desires - to
me, my most natural wishes - cannot be fulfilled. I am forced to
be and act that which I am not.
That is what I want, yearn for, seek more than anything. Now I
live only incompletely. I am in a prison - the prison of my body,
the prison of a society which does not understand.
I am a transsexual.
The causes of transsexualism and the possible sources from which the
desire to change sex may spring are probably the most controversial,
puzzling, and obscure parts of this book. There is so far only the very
beginning of a type of scientific investigation that takes more than
merely psychological aspects into consideration.
The two principal theories are concerned either with possible organic,
that is, biological (inborn) causes not necessarily inherited, or - much
more often - with purely psychological ones.
Genetic sources
We are still used to speaking of a "male" when there are (or were)
testicles and a penis, and of a "female" when there are (or were)
ovaries and a vagina. As we have seen, the geneticist has now added
to our knowledge the "chromosomal sex," which is not always the
same as the anatomical. How many unknown factors may still await
elucidation, nobody can tell. Even the term "transsexualism" may
prove to be inappropriate if it should ever be shown that an
anatomically normal male transsexual may actually be a genetic
female, or at least not a genetically normal male. In such event, we
would be dealing with a transgenital desire instead of a transsexual.
Endocrine sources
A few years ago the American psychiatrist, Robert J. Stoller, and his
collaborators reported the case of an evidently transsexual man who
had a typically feminine body build with feminine hair distribution, but
with testes and a normal penis and without internal female organs as
revealed through laparotomy. Nevertheless, there was "evidence of
continuing estrogen influence from a source which has not been
determined . . . The microscopic examination of testicular tissue has
failed to reveal estrogenproducing cells."
Schwabe and his collaborators, however, reported shortly afterward
that in another, probably transsexual male, large amounts of estrogen
(more than double the normal) were found in the testes. The
hormone-producing Leydig cells were held responsible for this
estrogen production.
More investigations have been made along these lines with negative or
doubtful results and still more are in progress. It must not be forgotten
that transsexual patients are not too frequent and that reliable
scientific studies can be made only where the necessary facilities exist,
that is to say, through hospitals, laboratories, and research institutes.
And so, after fifty years and more, the fundamental experiments of
Eugen Steinach of Vienna, who masculinized castrated females by
implanting testicles and feminized castrated males through ovarian
implants (and later female hormone injections) have found a modern
substantiation, explanation, and elaboration.
With the help of exceedingly fine electrodes inserted into the brain
structure, response to stimulation could be tested. Moving these
electrodes only a fraction of a millimeter, either fear or anger or sexual
excitation would be elicited.
However, a report recently came from Dr. Roger A. Gorsky of the Brain
Research Institute of the University of California at Los Angeles that
may prove to be of greatest importance. Dr. Gorsky, as reported in
Science Newsletter found that at least a portion of the brain, known as
the hypothalamus, is inherently feminine.
Psychological causes
Imprinting
The difficulty of proving (not only assuming), imprinting lies in the fact
that parents may not remember the details in their households during
the very early lives of their children and the patients themselves can
hardly help. But their incongruous gender role is already recognizable
when they are still very small.
Childhood Conditioning
I was raised the only boy among five sisters and I was always
envious of their nice dresses and wanted to be like them.
Buchner found among his 262 TVs (with a small but unknown
percentage of TSs) the following:
These figures are based on the first eighteen years of life. Taking a
more vital earlier period, conditioning may be much more important.
"Janet Thompson" says: "It seems evident to me that the inception of
TVism falls in the one- to five-year-old period of the child' s life as a
result of faulty, incomplete, or distorted sex identification."
We all know men who lost their fathers at an early age, devoted their
lives for years and years to their mothers, and by all psychoanalytic
theories should have become homosexuals, transvestites, or
transsexuals. But they did not. They had girl friends off and on and
married as soon as the mother had passed away. It seems to me that
conditioning cannot be the whole story. Unless there is a constitutional
weakness, conditioning won't "take."
Around the turn of the century, it was widely customary to raise boys
almost the same as girls. They kept their long curls and wore dresses
till they were five or six, that is to say, during rather critical years.
Winston Churchill was one of those children, according to early
pictures of him. Were there more transvestites, and the like then than
there are now? Certainly not.
" He always looked and behaved more like a girl than a boy," is the
explanation that parents gave to me to justify their errors.
Whenever "conditioning" went against a healthy boy's true nature, no
harm was done. As soon as he was old enough, he would rebel against
the girl's dresses, because he wanted to be like all the other boys. But
when the false upbringing harmonized with a constitution of a high
feminine component, then it was a different story. Then the ground
could have been laid for a future sex and gender disharmony.
Childhood Percentage
Treated as a girl because mother wanted a girl 4
Made to wear dresses as a punishment 3
Kept in curls longer than other boys 6
Treated just as any other boy, as far as can be
84
remembered
Therapy in transvestism
The true transvestite as a rule does not want any treatment. Doctors
do not see them except in rare instances. They want nothing from the
medical profession. They merely want to be left alone to pursue their
own particular form of happiness, that is to say, "dressing," and rather
want society to be treated educationally so that a more tolerant
attitude would gradually emerge.
He may be disturbed and annoyed with himself or feel that his job is
endangered. Or his family may have found out and may urge him to
seek psychiatric help. Psychotherapy, possibly with hypnosis, would
then be the method of choice, and if the patient persists long enough
in an honest wish to be cured ("honest" at least in his conscious mind),
success may be attained. There are former transvestites who claim
that they have overcome their desires, but relapses have occurred so
often that the state of an actual cure must, at least for the first few
years, be considered uncertain.
For any success, much will also depend upon the atmosphere in which
such patients continue to live. Part of the curative treatment would
have to be removal from transvestitic temptations, friends,
transvestitic literature, and the like, as completely as possible. To
continue in the old surroundings would be like trying to treat an
alcoholic inside a brewery or a bar.
The alcoholic may join Alcoholics Anonymous and may find help that
way, but the transvestite has, at least as yet, no parallel institution to
cling to. Wherever he goes, he is surrounded by attractively dressed
women whom he envies passionately, by lingerie shops, by shoe
stores (fascinating if he is a shoe fetishist), and so on. The enticement
is all around and his plight is a serious one. He would have to retire to
a lonely island to be free from outside temptation.
It has been said that transvestites can simply use will power and stop
"dressing" and then they will be cured. That is nonsense. Many have
tried, have burned their female wardrobes, "purging" themselves, so
to say, but without psychiatric or other help, a relapse was almost
unavoidable. If the transvestitic urge (no matter whether basically
fetishistic or latent transsexual) is forcibly suppressed, it is likely to
find a different outlet through some other, perhaps more serious
neurotic syndrome unless, of course, it is successfully treated
psychiatrically, or a completely new interest such as marriage to the
right kind of girl will prove strong enough to act as a cure.
Success has been claimed for this rather brutal and humiliating form of
brain-washing, but the time of observation for the "cure" was, at the
time of the report, only three months. And will such violent and
undignified interference with an emotional life not again produce other,
perhaps more serious substitutional symptoms?
I know that for having written this column, I will get a number
of vituperative letters from people who will think that I am foul-
minded. No, I am just talking about these people
dispassionately and scientifically. Let all of us who tend to look
on these people as vile, remember that their mixup was obvious
in early childhood when, surely, there was no vileness. We must
all learn to have sympathy for these persons who were so badly
gypped by Nature. But for the grace of God, we too might be
caught in the same cruel trap.
Psychotherapy in transsexualism
In my own practice, I have seen ten or more patients who have been
in analysis for as long as three and more years without the slightest
change in their transsexual attitude.
This help has been given by two therapeutic measures aside from
psychological guidance and living as a woman: first, estrogen
medication and second, surgery. Most of the time, both.
Estrogen therapy
Fat may shift from the shoulders to the hips in feminine fashion so that
hip measurements increase by as much as five to seven centimeters
within a year's time, in spite of stationary weight.
Strikingly affected are the sex life and the sex functions. Within a few
weeks of treatment, some patients report they no longer feel like
masturbating, their sex urge, including the desire to "dress," being
much reduced. There are no or fewer involuntary morning erections
and after six months or so, voluntary erections also become difficult to
elicit and about one out of ten patients describes them as distinctly
painful. If orgasm can still be reached, there is in more than 50 per
cent of the cases no ejaculation, which may to a large extent be due to
prostatic shrinkage.
This may be the occasion to mention the fact that, in about one
quarter of my patients, androgen in the form of testosterone injections
had been administered at some time in the past, the doctor evidently
hoping to cure the transsexualism and the effeminacy of the patient
through masculinization. Alas, it is the wrong treatment. The conflict is
aggravated when the body becomes hairy and the libido increases
without, of course, changing its direction. Androgen is to my mind
contraindicated in male transsexualism.
Estrogenic Preparations
Parenteral use
As to the particular estrogenic preparations and dosages to be
employed in transsexualism, a good deal of experimentation was and
will still be necessary. There are so far very few leads in the medical
literature.
Oral use
Diethyl Stilbestrol is the cheapest, but has the most frequent side
effects in the form of nausea and gastrointestinal upsets. Better borne
and rarely causing nausea is ethinyl estradiol in the form of Schering's
Estinyl. The largest dose of 0.5 mg. daily or three times a week is
usually necessary to accomplish positive results. Occasionally a patient
may not tolerate Estinyl and then Premarin (Ayerst) or Amnestrogen
(Squibb) in doses of at least 5 mg. daily could be employed. These are
excellent preparations of so-called natural female hormones, of
somewhat lesser potency but often useful and sufficient, especially in
patients operated upon and castrated, to prevent castration
symptoms, and to further their feminization.
The latest female hormone preparation that has been used in cases of
transsexualism is Enovid (Searle), the well-known birthcontrol pill,
containing both estrogen and progesterone. Promising results have
been observed, but more extensive observations by a number of
different clinicians is advisable. Enovid in doses of 10 to 20 mg. daily
has served me well in the endocrine management, articularly of those
transsexual males who were underweight. An increase in appetite and
weight was almost regularly observed. The repressing influence on
libido and sex functions seemed to me less pronounced than that of
estrogen alone. Therefore combinations of Enovid with Estinyl or
Premarin occasionally gave the best results.
Conversation Operation
The patient has first one and then the other inguinal ring
opened. The testicle is isolated from the scrotal sac and is
pressed upward through the inguinal ring into the abdomen. The
inguinal canal is then closed as in a hernia operation. The
testicle now lies like an undescended one outside the perineum,
but inside the abdominal cavity. It is hidden from sight and
touch. It loses its procreative, but retains its glandular function.
The reason why some surgeons may wish to retain the testes is chiefly
endocrine, based on the theory that the testes in transsexual men may
produce more estrogen than they do normally. The findings reported in
Chapter 5 strengthen this view, although they have as yet found no
confirmation.In any event, this reasoning supports the patient's
intended feminization.
Scrotal tissue is used to fashion the labia majora and, in the hands of
a skillful surgeon, the appearance ultimately can indeed be deceiving. I
know of a case when even a gynecologist was fooled. He had made a
vaginal examination (undoubtedly superficial ) and exclaimed: "I
cannot find any uterus in this girl."
In recent years a rather ingenious and, from what I have seen, so far
the most successful method, has been perfected and is exelusively
used by Dr. George Burou, a French surgeon in Morocco. Instead of
using skin from the body to line the vaginal canal, the skin is stripped
from the amputated penis and is inverted like the finger of a glove.
This tubelike organ is then inserted into the previously prepared canal
and utilized to form the inside of the tunnel that is destined to be a
vagina. Penile skin offers advantages over skin from other areas
because it has no hair at all and has nerve endings which cause it to
bear the closest resemblance to that of a sexual organ. The two wound
surfaces usually heal together without difficulty but dilatation is
required the same as previously described. An uncircumcised penis is
better because more skin is available, thus permitting the vagina to be
made deeper. In any event, the outside skin of the penis, later on,
represents the inner wall of the vagina.
This third method utilizes a part of the gut, a loop of ileum, to serve as
a vagina. The operation is a more formidable one as it requires not
only the opening of the abdominal cavity but also a more intricate
technique to insure the proper blood supply for the implant. The
advantage is that a mucous membrane (with natural lubrication) and
not skin forms the vaginal wall and that this wall may be less likely to
contract.
One other patient had his initial operation recently performed with an
ileal loop implant. The early outcome was unfortunate. The new and
hopeful young "girl" suffered intensely for weeks afterward with
abdominal pain and discharge from a vagina that had much too narrow
an entrance to serve its intended purpose. It was found that an
abdominal abscess had formed and a new operation was required for
its removal. At the same time the entrance to the vagina was widened.
An added difficulty for American patients is the fact that they have to
leave the country to seek this particular surgical help abroad. Being
anxious to get home as soon as possible, they deprive the surgeon of
sufficient time for observation and themselves of the important follow-
up care.
In order to have all transsexual patients realize what they are doing
when they undergo a major, transforming operation, I wrote an
"Advice" for them that Sexology Magazine published first and which
was reprinted in several other publications likely to be read by
transsexuals. The magazine's identification of one is included in
Footnote 4, together with that of the writer.
Dear Doctor:
Life has played a dirty trick on me, forcing me to live with the
outer appearance of a man, but the inner feelings and emotions
of a woman. Although my sex is male, I really think I am very
much on the feminine side. Except that I do not have breasts, I
have a womanly figure. On occasion, while dressed as a female
(something I feel compelled to do quite frequently to ease my
emotional tension) I have been told that I am quite beautiful.
People look at me with respect and admiration. Not so when I
am dressed as a man.
Yet, it is true, you could look like a woman in the genital region
and function as one after the operation. Even a climax (orgasm)
during sex relations has been reported by most such patients.
But remember, a time may come when sex is no longer
important. Would you still want to be a woman then?
Furthermore, constant glandular treatment with hormone
injections or tablets - off and on - probably would be necessary
for the rest of your life.
Is your general appearance and physical build such that you can
pass as a woman, or is it possible you will look more like a man
dressed up as a woman?
The law too may cause you many difficulties and complications,
even after the operation. Much red tape stands in the way for
you to have your birth certificate read "female" instead of
"male." But you may need that for a new job, or if you should
want to get married as a woman.
And then, please remember that you are not alone in this world.
You undoubtedly have relatives, parents, brothers and sisters.
You must ask yourself how they would feel, having a daughter
instead of a son, a sister instead of a brother. Their attitude and
their happiness deserve your consideration before you
undertake such an irrevocable step as a "conversion operation."
You can only hope that they will put your happiness before their
own preferences.
Religious convictions may trouble your conscience. Find peace
and clarity before you decide on something that cannot be
undone.
When you have recovered from the pain and the aftereffects of
the operation, after a few weeks or months, your real work
begins - to change into a "woman." You have to learn how to
behave like a woman, how to walk, how to use your hands, how
to talk, how to apply make-up, and how to dress. Existing
handicaps would require special attention.
Finally, but highly important, how do you know you can make a
living as a woman? Have you ever worked as a woman before? I
assume that so far, you have only held a man's job and have
drawn a man's salary. Now, you may have to learn something
entirely new. Could you do that? Could you get along with
smaller earnings?
The above advice was written with the male transsexual in mind
who desires to become a woman. But there are also female
transsexuals who want to become men and live and work as
such. They are rarer, but their emotional problems are the
same. My explanations and warnings, in principle, apply equally
to them.
Finally, last but not least, I was concerned with the economic
prospects of the future woman. Could "she" make a living and blend
into society without friction and failure? I have seen difficulties in this
respect and therefore preferred (without actually advising it) to have
the patient live and work as a woman, although illegally in a technical
sense, for a year or so before taking an irrevocable step. But such a
trial period was not always possible.
Contraindications
"If a patient came to you and wanted you to remove his normal eft
eye or his right hand, would you do that, just because he asked you
to?"
The fourth motive is a social one and applies only if the transsexual
patient happens to have a conspicuous feminine physique,
appearance, and manners. It may constantly embarrass him through
snickering, pointed remarks, and knowing looks. It has even
endangered some of them through physical attacks by moronic,
would-be "he-men," sometimes undoubtedly latent homosexuals who
were "protesting too much." The appearance of the very feminine-
looking young man could also be a serious handicap in procuring a job.
"I hated to go out with my son," a mother once remarked to me. "He
embarrassed me no end by his looks. Now he made the change and
lives and works as a girl (waiting and hoping for the operation). Now I
am proud of my new and attractive 'daughter.' A former nasty remark
from someone is now - if anything a wolf whistle. I love to be seen
with her."
In many patients, all four motives, especially the first three, play a
part, merging and overlapping according to individual traits and
circumstances.
It seems almost unbelievable that in the United States, with all its
resources and abundance of surgical talent, the operation is not
available for a TS patient, at least not legitimately, in spite of valid
indication and psychiatric recommendation. He has to leave the
country and go to Europe, Africa, or Asia to find surgical help.
I have quoted at such length from this official document issued by one
of the foremost universities in the country, because it is the first of its
kind. While, to the best of my knowledge, no transsexual patients are
being accepted by the Medical Center of the University of California for
surgery, I feel the first step has been taken to help these patients and,
at the same time, provide the opportunity for further studies. A
change in attitude always has to precede a change in policy.
A sex change operation will naturally make emotions run much higher,
not only on account of the aforementioned tabu but also because
procreation is prevented. It is difficult to reconcile this argument with
the only too well justified fear of overpopulation. The following chapter
will provide a brief survey of my own observations during the past
thirteen years with patients who have undergone a surgical alteration
of their (male) sex organs.
They are only a relatively small number (51), not enough to allow final
conclusions. More case histories over a longer period of time should be
reported, especially by different observers. That may take time as
there is still much hesitation on the part of the doctors and medical
editors to publish data dealing with such a controversial subject.
Operative data
In the three northern European countries, the operations are still being
performed but only on their own citizens, not on foreigners, because
too great an influx of patients from other countries, especially the
United States, is feared, patients who would want to take advantage of
the more enlightened attitudes in matters of sex in Denmark, Holland,
and Sweden.
As far as pain and discomfort after the operation are concerned, the
reports that I received varied greatly, probably in accordance with the
constitutional pain threshold of the individual, his psychological state,
the atmosphere in the hospital, the operative technique, and the way
the surgeon and his staff acted.
From "It was rough," "I had dreadful pain, especially the first few
days," to "It was really nothing," "I had very little discomfort," all
kinds of descriptions were related to me. It seems that the most
frequent complaint was about painful, early, and sometimes forcible
dilatation of the newly created vagina with an instrument or with the
surgeon's fingers.
Personal data
23 in their 20's
14 in their 30's
11 in their 40's
3 in their 50's
The youngest patient was twenty years old. The oldest was fifty-eight.
The average age was 33.02 years.
Upper 6
Middle 37
Lower 8
At the time of their operation, the patients stated the following
occupations:
Occupation Number
Office work 10
Salesperson 3
Musician 1
Store proprietor 3
Hairdresser 6
Housewife 5
Stockbroker 1
Show business (acting) 10
Domestic 1
Office manager 1
Prostitute 3
Teaching 2
Practical nurse or companion 2
Photography 1
Retired 1
Unknown 1
There are nine only children among the 51. This amounts to
approximately 17.6 per cent, which is higher than in the general
population at a given time (Maximum 10%).
Early childhood 43
Puberty 2
Unknown 6
Positive conditioning 12
No evidence 28
Doubtful evidence 10
Early history unknown 1
In perhaps twenty-three patients, the sexual motive appeared to be
dominant. The gender motive seemed to prevail in twenty-eight cases.
A sharp separation is not possible. As explained previously, the legal
motive exists in all cases and the social motive has to be thought of in
only a minority.
The impression of the total result was judged with the inclusion of the
sex life, provided it played any part for this particular patient. This was
not always the case. The results were:
Regarding the sex life, more will have to be said later. Here it should
only be noted that an absence of an orgasm, if unimportant to the
patient, did not necessarily exclude her from the good classification. If
this defect, however, was sorely missed by the patient, the result was
not considered good.
If the result was distinctly lacking in any of the above areas but
otherwise fulfilled the patient's wishes, it was termed satisfactory.
In this case, the sex motive had probably played an equal part with
the gender and legal motives when the operation was decided upon at
the age of fifty-six. Emotional frustration, however, compounded by
economic failure and the aging process, probably led to the present
unsatisfactory state which, as may be hoped, can be improved under a
new life pattern.
Here, the outcome of his venture into the female world was considered
unsatisfactory by the patient himself. Such selfassessment, I feel, is
necessary to justify an unfavorable diagnosis. I found no other similar
example among the 51 patients.
Three of the 51 TSs operated upon unfortunately have died. One was
successfully married as a woman for six years, a house wife and
clubwoman, a charming, intelligent lady who succumbed to a fatal
heart attack at the age of 50.
The third died in her 51st year. Her "sex change" dated back to 1954
when she was operated upon in Holland but without the formation of a
vagina. This was first attempted later in the same year in the United
States, but unsuccessfully. The vagina was reconstructed in the United
States in 1958 but a vaginorectal fistula developed. It was repaired
successfully the following year.
An Example of Success
If an example was given above in some detail of an unsatisfactory
outcome of the operation, at least one history should in fairness be
related where a good (if not excellent) designation is justified.
Jonathan, usually called Johnny, was twenty-four years old when I saw
him first. He was a miserable, unhappy young man of rather short
stature, slightly overweight and moderately underdeveloped sexually,
a transsexual of the VI type in the S.O.S. He worked in a restaurant as
a checker. One of the headwaiters was homosexual and gave our
patient a bad time with his unwanted propositions. While Johnny was
attracted to men, he disliked homosexuals. "They want another man,"
he said, "but I feel I am a girl."
Then Johnny (now Joanna), met a man a few years older than he (now
she) when she was working as a receptionist in a dentist's office. He
was and still is a reasonably successful salesman. He fell in love with
Joanna and married her. He knows only that Joanna as a child had to
undergo an operation which prevented her from ever menstruating or
having children. They have had a distinctly happy marriage now for
seven years. Joanna no longer works but keeps house and they lead
the lives of normal, middleclass people. To compare the Johnny I knew
with Joanna of today is like comparing a dreary day of rain and mist
with a beautiful spring morning or a funeral march with a victory song.
The old life in the original (male) sex is all but forgotten and is actually
unpleasant to be recalled.
Physical Changes
The physical changes soon after the operation were few. It takes time
for them to develop. They can generally be described as
demasculinization, but actual feminization is probably due more to the
continuing estrogen medication than to the surgery (see Chapter 6). If
the technique included castration, it is conceivable that a reduction of
androgen production aided the estrogen effect, unless one adheres to
the theory that the testicles of transsexuals always produce a
considerable amount of estrogen. As yet, this has not been proved,
although one may suspect it at least in some cases from evidence so
far inconclusive.
"How do you feel now, after it is all over?" was my regular question.
The answers ranged from "In seventh heaven," and "Oh, so
wonderful," to the more cautious "Okay, I'm glad it's all over." My
"Would you do it again?" was answered in the great majority of cases
with an emphatic "Yes." A few were hesitant; two said: "I don't know"
and one or two inclined toward "No," because there had been too
much pain and discomfort and the result, because of sexual difficulties
or frustrations, not sufficiently rewarding, at least at the moment (see
also remarks on page 120 in this chapter).
The physical state of the vaginal canal is, however, paramount for all
those whom the sex motive led to the conversion. To repeat: unless
proper, skillful dilatation of the vagina is resorted to from the very
beginning, the vagina may contract through scar formation, even
years later, and eventually close up entirely. This would necessitate a
new and major correction, possibly with the formation of a new canal,
lined with skin from the thigh or even a loop of intestine.
Orgasm
The inability to achieve orgasm was a handicap for only a few.
Pleasurable sensation and satisfaction were repeatedly claimed even
without an actual climax. However, definite orgasmic ability with a
more or less distinct ejaculation from the urethra was described by
more than half of these 51 patients, although the orgasm did not take
place on every occasion (which is the case in normal relationships
too).
The explanation for the orgasm without a clitoris and a natural vagina
is probably twofold. First, the psychological effect of, at last, being
able to take the longed-for female role in the sex act. Second, the
possible retention of sensory nerve ends in the scrotal (now labial) fold
and also in the penal (now vaginal) tissue, provided this particular
surgical technique was used. Occasionally it took several months, and
of course the right partner, before the first orgasm was achieved. But
even without it, they were satisfied with their ability to be a normal
sex partner (in a face-to face position) to their husband or lover.
Ejaculation even with orgasm does not persist for long.
Corrective surgery
Among the 51 cases, major corrective surgery was required in eight
instances, minor in seven. The major consisted of the formation of a
new vagina with a lining different from the one originally used. Minor
ones were usually the removal of scar tissue and surgical dilatation of
the vagina or urethra with prescription for molds or dilating objects for
the former.
A physician with such a concept may enjoy the feeling of being on the
side of the angels but he scarcely has ethics or logic for support.
Should a physician refuse to heal the injured right hand of a
pickpocket because he may return to his profession and perhaps forge
checks besides? Should a urologist - for argument's sake - decline to
treat sexual impotence because a cure may induce the patient to start
an illicit love affair or, if married, lead him to adultery?
A doctor could hardly be held responsible, and should not hold himself
responsible, for what a patient will do with his regained health. That is
none of his business. Such an attitude could lead to endless
absurdities as the above examples show.
Conclusions
For all practical purposes, "dressing" concerns only the man who puts
on female clothes. The female transvestite hardly ever gets into
trouble with the law.
This law had been passed more than one hundred years ago for an
entirely different purpose. It was directed against farmers who
disguised themselves as Indians and sometimes attacked law officers
when they tried to enforce an unpopular rent law.
Three cases
But this and other testimony did no good. The arrest and conviction
could not be undone. The man lost his job. And this, a year before he
would have been eligible for pension. This case was appealed but came
to an end when the U.S. Supreme Court refused to review.
Back from abroad after the conversion operation, and no longer a male
anatomically, she felt safe and confident in her new role as a female.
Two detectives thought otherwise and arrested her for
"impersonating." Her plea that she was a woman brought forth only an
"Oh yeah! Let's see." She was taken to the police station and there
examined by a matron who told the detectives that they had made a
mistake. The suspect was a woman. But, contrary to the case
previously described, when the arresting officer tried to make good his
error with a dinner invitation, these two detectives thought of another
way out of their predicament (false arrest). They changed the charge
from "impersonating" to "soliciting." The girl had to stand trial as a
suspected prostitute. A wise judge, however, recognized the charge for
what it was and promptly dismissed the case.
A remedy?
All this can be avoided and is being avoided, for instance, in Hamburg,
Germany, where an enlightened administration found way to help
transvestites and serve justicia at the same time. Based on a
physician's certificate, the Hamburg police department issues a card to
the transvestites, not giving them permission to "dress," but merely
stating that this person is known to the department as a transvestite.
That is all, but it is enough to absolve the particular person from any
suspicion of "criminal intent" in "dressing" and therefore from arrest.
More than thirty years ago, I wrote to the then New York Police
Commissioner, Edward P. Mulrooney, in the interest of a transvestite
patient of mine, suggesting the method described above and at that
time in use in Berlin. A polite but negative answer came, pointing out
that the law would have to be changed.
DO OFFER your male name and address only, if you are asked
to do so by a bona fide policeman.
I sometimes wonder if the Chevalier d'Eon ever had trouble like that
and needed such advice.
Older than the law used against transvestites is the one that could be
used to forbid the performance of a conversion operation. It is the so-
called "mayhem statute" that goes back to the days of Henry VIII, and
as the New York attorney R. V. Sherwin says, "has no connection with
anything remotely related to the subject under discussion."
England had many wars in those years and soldiers too often tried to
evade military service by mutilating themselves, or would have
someone do it for them, by amputating fingers, toes, even a hand or a
foot. The king therefore had a law enacted that forbade depriving a
soldier of any part of his body necessary for his defense and making
him less able to fight. To visualize the male genitalia in this category is
difficult; yet this old English law, having with many others been
embodied and still existing in our present American penal code, could
be used to prosecute a surgeon - at least theoretically. I know of a
surgeon who refused to operate after being warned by a district
attorney. I too have received a letter from another district attorney's
office with the same warning after I had asked for the respective
information. While no case of an actual prosecution under this law has
come to my attention, it has undoubtedly served to intimidate doctors
who otherwise might have been willing to operate upon an occasional
transssexual patient. Whether fear of actual legal complications, or
fear of blackmail, or fear of being criticized predominated, is a matter
for conjecture. Eventually a Supreme Court decision may be required
to ban the specter of the mayhem statute for surgeons and allow them
to act in accordance with science and their own consciences.
But there is another point that should not be forgotten. Many of the
objections against a sex conversion are rooted in religion, as are most
sex laws and legislation of morals. One may ask whether such
legislation is justified in a society in which church and state are
supposed to be separated.
In practice, and in the United States, much depends upon the state in
which the applicant for a legal change of sex status bad been born. In
some states, it proved to be easy and merely required filling out some
form and sending it to the respective Bureau of Vital Statistics, with a
doctor's certificate. I have repeatedly used the following statement:
Some few states promptly issued a new birth certificate with the name
and gender changed accordingly. In other states, a more complicated
procedure was required, namely, a court order. Sometimes that took
so much time and money that the applicant gave up and continued to
live in his or her "new sex" illegally, hoping that there might never be
the need for a birth certificate, for instance, for the purpose of getting
married. (A trip to Nevada could then be a way out of it.) Again, in
other states, the request was such a novel and unprecedented one
that delaying tactics were resorted to or the application was denied,
unless proof could be rendered that the original certificate had been
issued in error. Such is, of course, not possible in transsexualism (at
least not yet), only in clear cases of hermaphroditism. (See Appendix.)
In any event, the male transsexual may find no easy road to travel if
he wants to be the same law-abiding citizen after the operation that he
has been before.
And so, the transsexual's plight exists in the legal field as it does in the
medical. That may be partly because there is actually no legal
definition of "male" and "female." Such a definition hardly seems
necessary since everyone knows the answer, or thinks be does. But we
have seen in the preceding pages and especially in the introductory
chapter that the still young science of genetics is already confusing the
issue. I asked a well-informed and prominent San Francisco attorney,
Mr. Kenneth Zwerin, how the law defines the two sexes and his answer
is so clear and striking that it is worth recording here:
There are many cases that deal with rape committed on the
body of a female and other cases which construe the meaning of
the term "male issue" for inheritance purposes, but the
decisions are silent as to what these words specifically mean.
All these figures, however, are of little value as they merely indicate
the accidental frequency with which these patients appeared in a
particular doctor's office. More significant is the figure of one to three
that Dr. Christian Hamburger gives and that was arrived at from
letters he received after the world-wide publicity of the Jorgensen
case.
While this particular publicity dealt indeed with the case of a male
transsexual, the female patients who wanted to be males may have
been equally awakened to the possibility of a sex change, thanks to
modern medical advances described in newspaper and magazine
articles of thirteen years ago.
Symptomatology
The female transsexual has many symptoms in common with the male
and much that was said in the previous chapters could apply equally to
her.
Sex life
Of the twenty patients, five had been married as women before I ever
saw them. These marriages were entered into either in the hope that it
might reverse the psychological trend, or under pressure from the
family, or to escape family supervision. All these marriages failed,
ending in annulment or divorce, or, in one instance, in a reversal of
roles with the wife becoming the husband and the former husband
becoming the wife. Some were never consummated and were highly
unpleasant experiences, probably for both partners. There were four
pregnancies in three patients with one abortion, one miscarriage, and
one ending in normal birth twice. This person, living as a male
(whether married as a male is unknown) now has two children to
which "he" is the mother.
Etiology
Much that has been said on etiological speculation for the male
transsexual applies equally to the female, especially as far as
conditioning is concerned. Definite conditioning could be proved in only
two cases, and not at all in eleven. The remaining seven were
considered doubtful.
The relatively large number of only children (five out of twenty) would
lead one to think that the parents wanted the child to be a boy,
because this is the more frequently desired gender for the first or only
child (carrying on the family name, and the like). Accordingly, parents
may be tempted to rear the child as a boy, even if it were a girl. But
those parents who could be questioned did not confirm this view. One
mother especially insisted that she wanted a daughter and never
became reconciled to the fact that this daughter, an only child, had
made a successful change to a man. The same strong resentment of a
mother against having a son in later life, instead of a daughter, was
evident in at least three other cases.
Physical data
Social position
The social and education levels were divided into upper, middle, and
lower levels. The upper level included those who bad graduated from
high school or had some college education. The lower level never
finished grade school, and the middle was in between. The social,
economic, and cultural position of the family could, however, modify
the classification so that a girl with a "middle" education but from a
well-to-do or socially prominent family might be classified as "upper
level."
Six of the twenty patients thus were upper level, twelve were middle,
and only two were lower level.
Occupation Number
Artist 2
Entertainer 1
Librarian 1
Engineer 2
Selling 1
Ranching,
3
farming
Office work 6
Factory
2
work
Restaurant 2
The patients who came for consultation and possible treatment were
mostly in their twenties (twelve), one in her teens, four in the thirties
and three in the forties; 30.3 was the average age as compared to
29.3, the average age of the male transsexual when first seen.
The most immediate help to these often very disturbed and deeply
unhappy girls is to lend a sympathetic ear to the descriptions of their
lives and their ambitions for the future. Ridicule, moralizing, or hostile
rejection is as unethical, harmful, and ineffective as it is in the male
TS.
Great emotional relief is obtained, if the doctor does not refuse offhand
the hormonal (androgen) treatment, and does not try to eliminate the
possibility of surgical intervention at some time in the future. If he
insists on psychotherapy instead, he may do more harm than good.
Mere psychiatric evaluation, however, is usually accepted.
The masculinizing side effects of the treatment are likewise helpful for
the patient's emotional balance. Very gradually, there may be more
hair growth on face and body, a slightly deepening, somewhat husky
voice, better physical strength as measured by a hand dynamometer
and often a gain in weight which, of course, could be due to water
retention. An occasional diuretic or a saltpoor diet is then indicated. It
is wise to warn the patient that sometimes facial acne may develop
and if severe enough, may require interruption of the treatment. A
menstrual period may then promptly reappear. A thinning of scalp hair
is a theoretical possibility under androgen medication, although in
practice I have never seen it occur.
Whenever the libido seemed to become unduly strong, one may add
small doses of progesterone to the testosterone injection, but that
again may counteract to some extent the suppressing influence on the
menses. It is therefore rarely useful before a hysterectomy has been
performed. A tranquilizer by mouth can help.
Surgery
It seems strange that the conversion operation for the female does
not, as a rule, include the closing of the vagina. To the best of my
knowledge, it was done in only one instance. Such closing would
justify the statement later on that the patient, could no longer function
as a female, even sexually, and that in turn, should make the legal
change of the sex status (for instance, by issuing a new birth
certificate or amending the original one) a good deal easier.
A mastectomy, the reduction of the breasts so that they resemble the
male, is at least as important to many patients as the genital surgery.
It all depends upon how large the breasts are (even after androgen
treatment may have caused a shrinkage) and how disturbing the
"bulge" is for the patient's particular mode of living and for the sex life.
The sex partner's taste in this respect may be a decisive factor. This
plastic operation is almost as difficult to obtain in the United States for
the female as the hysterectomy. Some surgeons have refused the
patient's request until after a hysterectomy and androgen treatment
had created a more masculine personality and with it, an acceptable
indication.
Results of therapy
Six patients are married as men to women. Two married before and
four after their operations. There has been no divorce. Two patients
experienced marriage both as female and male.
More cases could be related, almost equally satisfying. There are those
for whom an operation is not yet attainable, but androgen treatment is
at least a partial substitute. A great and deeply disturbing handicap for
some is their inability to secure for themselves the legal change of sex
status. But there are prospects that conversion operations and
treatments will eventually be recognized by the medical profession as
accepted therapy for the transsexual state, female as well as male.
Legal and administrative processes would then have to follow suit and
a way would have to be found to overcome the technical and
bureaucratic barriers that now exist in almost every state in the United
States. Those few states, however, that have cut through red tape,
issued a new birth certificate (probably with retention of the old one in
their files) and have therefore helped the patients greatly in their new
lives, certainly deserve the highest credit for their logical and humane
actions.
Appendix A
Concluding Remarks and Outlook
(December 15, 1965)
The etiology of the transsexual state is still largely obscure, but a light
seems to blink here and there in publications from the laboratories of
brain physiologists.
The director of this Health Department, very wisely, turned the matter
over to a representative committee of physicians, who studied the
novel problem conscientiously. In their report (October 4, 1965), they
came to the conclusion that:
It shall be assumed that neither the medical committee nor the Health
Department could have acted any differently under present
circumstances. Eventually, however, this irritatingly academic attitude
will have to collapse under the weight of reality. Either the welfare of
patients will constitute this reality or new scientific evidence
establishing, for instance, the constitutional nature of transsexualism,
will do so.
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