Bald Truth by Raša Todosijević
Bald Truth by Raša Todosijević
Bald Truth by Raša Todosijević
Bald Truth
Rasa Todosijevic
Only a satiated man can write a good essay on hunger. Those who think that a
satiated man cannot discuss depths he has not seen and touched with his own fingers –
are wrong. The starved exaggerate. Out of hunger, that lean weasel, they make a
monster, a Leviathan.
Regardless of its enormous success and historically proven greatness, hunger
is not a competent expert. It is an amateur and a bungler. It acts as the painter of Holy
Heart, as a jack-of-all-trades who does not decide, does not choose, does not compare,
does not connect on the basis of affinity and does not behave systematically. Hunger
is more of an astrologer that an astronomer. This must be taken into account as the
justification when demolishing the enrooted opinions on hunger. As any amateur,
hunger is enigmatically subjective: holes in education, wide and disordered
knowledge are the key to this pled manner – anything and everything. It is an eclectic
who disregards time and space. Hunger emphasizes pain, bodily experience of its own
presence. Expressionism, accident, bare fervor, unconstructive striving confuses the
picture of real state of things.
Spiritual hunger, the hunger for the knowledge of starvation is bullshit, sloppy
eclogue. You push your nose into another’s broth and proclaim it the philosophical
curiosity, and impetus of reflective gluttony, the primeval wonderment. I’d smack
such types upon the head with a fist and let them then wonder in front of their plate,
turn Logos around in their own mashed potatoes. Those are pudding existentialists,
the drawing room scum. There is no professional starveling. No educated glutton.
There is no chair for the advancement of hunger. Not to speak about immortal
starveling, a member of the Academy, even a corresponding member. Where are
veterans of hunger? Who has ever erected a monument to the unknown glutton? Who
has ever met a man for whom hunger is a profession or a conviction? Who made a
career out of his own hunger, made a fortune, acquired prestige, people’s trust, a pile
of money or a Senate seat? Van Gogh? Modigliani? Who has ever heard of a hungry
king, a queen emaciated form hunger, or at least a starving President of the Republic?
No one. Naturally!
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that subject. I gape at TV, I stare at that monkeyish bust, I hold my hand on the
mouth, and I really do not know what to say. My God, who is this half-man? A
nutritionist, a nationalist, a supporter of laissez-faire, a philosopher, a cosmopolite, an
intellectual, a paid federalist, a political worm or an idle loudmouth? What will people
say? Is this marvelous salmon a fruit of my imagination? Am I a naive victim of my
own wayward imagination? Are these bottles, these green bottles full of first class
wine, these glittering innocents – an illusion? A play of light and shadow? An
invented tableau vivant! Where did I get all this wine? Where did I procure this noble
grappa – the immaculate honor of Tuscan hills? I am neither a politician nor a
smuggler. I am not a black marketer. I got no one to fawn, to stand at hind legs in
from of me and to give me gifts of stolen goods. Are the tears of Jesus a lie? And the
sauce? And quail pate? And Jordanian lamb? And Cato’s lobster? The sauce is a
mirage? Fish – glue? A Space Odyssey? An illusion, a political frame-up, a Potemkin
village, London Zoo? Newspaper and saw-dust spread with mayonnaise? And turkey?
What about turkey? Is it also non-existent? It can’t be papier mache, Japanese plastic,
Pop Art, Oldenburg, Gestalt. I reach with my hand to tear a roasted wing, and in the
place of the turkey, my golden turkey on juicy baked sauerkraut, there stand an old,
beaten pot full of yellowish sticky macaroni: Blue color, white polka dots, burnt
bottom broken glaze. “Die Milch maht’s”, as famous late Schiller would say! Fiddle-
sticks!
No, it’s not true. I know well what is truth and what are political propaganda,
deceit, lies, drivel and dirty Balkan tricks.
According to him, it appears even my kitties remained hungry. I will never
swallow that story.
However, if all this be so, and it isn’t, why does he wear a wig? If he really
cares for truth and not aesthetics, if he is such a truth-lover, why doesn’t he show his
big bald head? Why does he hide it? Why doesn’t he show his – so to say – bald
truth?