Mothers Divine Consummation

Now for a short while let us go to Babas birth -mother at Fakharpur village in Bihar. Mother had intense desire to see the face of her sannyasi son atleast once. A plot was therefore made to fulfill this desire, but it failed. In fact, the true welfare of the mother rested within this failure. Babas thoughts were one-of-its-kind, aimed at mothers absolute and eternal spiritual welfare. Few moments of meeting in this material world was an occasional temporary gain, but Baba was thinking of mothers eternal ultimate welfare which will continue to be imperishable, perpetual, and unlimited even after this life. Not only this, it would also be a greatly significant fact that during the final moments of her life, mother will experience my close presence. Babas thoughts manifested in full. Now the final moments of his mothers life has arrived. Her body was in bad health. It was two days before her death. On Ekadasi, mothers situation was critical. People at home felt that her life air would leave any moment. Mother was brought down from her cot to the floor. In this situation, one of them asked the mother Are you remembering your sannyasi Babu ? Mother, pleasantly said Look, there he is. He is right in front of me. Look, there he is. Whenever mother was asked about Baba, she always pointed out to his location, sometimes near, sometimes far, sometimes at her right, sometimes at her left. Mother constantly experienced that my sannyasi son is next to me, and it was true that she was seeing Baba. That pleasant faced mother began to ask her sannyasi son You are doing well, right ? You are getting your food properly, right ? In this way for sometime she would continue talking to her sannyasi son and then on her own she would become silent. Death was nearing every moment. In the year 2013, Poush shukla ekadasi (13-1-57), mother told her family members Please take me to Kashi. Babas big brother was greatly devoted to his mother. He would always be on his heels to meet her demands. He was greatly wishing to fulfill mothers last desire. He was in agony that neither was there any railway station nearby nor did anyone in the village have a motorcar. Seeing his mother close to death, he was unable to think what is to be done? In situations of hopelessness, remembrance of the Lord is the only shelter. He began to remember the Lord within his mind. The next day he saw an empty motorcar passing by, near his home. He ran to the driver and asked where is this car going? Driver said Kashi !!

He said Brother, you can ask me for any amount of money, I will give you. My mother is on the verge of death. And her desire is to go to Kashi. Please, kindly take us to Kashi. The driver agreed. Immediately, they spread a mattress at the back of the motorcar. Babas elder sister, who was about twenty years elder to him, sat along with mother. Pandit Devdattji carried enough money with him and sat next to the driver. Two more people sat along with them in the car. Thus total five members of the family went along with mother to Kashi. No one knew whom the motorcar belonged to, where it was coming from and how it came, but it reached by the plans of the Lord to fulfill mothers last wish. No sooner the motor car reached the holy abode of Lord Vishwanath and the car crossed the bridge over river Ganga, entered the borders of Kashi and stopped at the cross-section, immediately mother gave up her physical body. Babas worshipful Mothers death occurred in 2013 on Makar Sankranti, Poush shukla 13, Monday the 14th January 1957. It seemed that she was awaiting Lord Surya Narayans ascend to the North. On the day of Makar Sankranti, Lord Surya Narayan traveled from the southern hemisphere to the northern hemisphere and on this pious day at the Holy abode of Kashi, which is unique from the three worlds, she gave up her body. Now there was not the need to stay at the Dharmashala. The body was taken to the Manikarnika ghat and placed on the pyre. The life of the children of the Rishis and Munis are greatly sacrificial for the benefit of all hindu samskars from birth to death. Even the death ceremony of the hindus is a Yajna of its kind. They are greatly fortunate, whose body is offered as oblations in the Yajnic-fire of funeral pyre on the banks of Ganga at a holy place and on a pious auspicious time. This Yajna is not performed by the parents, rather through the son. Son is the extension of the parent. In the form of the son, the parents are performing this Yajna. The Yajna of life attains its completion by the final offerings of oblations of the body into the fire of the funeral pyre. Seeing the final oblations, Sri Taradattaji sat in one corner looking at the fire consuming the body with its high raised flames. Seeing his worshipful mother turning into ashes, his heart was overwhelmed with separation from mother, and he began to cry aloud. Hugging his brother, Pandit Sri Devadattaji, he began to say Oh Brother! Now I am bereft of my mother and father. Have I become an orphan? Devadattaji said Arey, You are crying? How fortunate it is to become the son of such a mother? A mother, who gave up her body on the most auspicious day of Makara Sankranti at the holy abode of Lord Sri Vishwanaths kshetra of Kashi, a mother who continued to perform sadhu-seva and seva to mankind with enthusiasm and jubiliation, a mother whose mood of serving the husband has always been applaudable, and topmost of all one who gave birth to the most ultimate worthy sannyasi son - such a mother is virtuous, her dynasty is virtuous, both her family lineages are virtuous and all her relatives are virtuous. May the Lord give such a mother to one and all.

Hearing the words of Pandit Sri Devadattaji, Sri Taradattaji attained great consolation. The body was only half consumed and a very special event took place. There were clouds in the sky and it began to pour. Although the rain was light, both the brothers were in anxiety. The most amazing part was that the rain had no effect on the pyre and it remained as blazing as before. In order to give the message of mothers passing away, Bhai sen t a telegram to Baba at Ratangadh. Baba had taken up the vow of Kasth moun on 19 oct 1956. About 45 days later they had shifted from Gorakhpur to Ratangadh for the better health of worshipful Babuji. Baba too went along with them. The telegram reached Baba very late. However, prior to the reaching of the telegram, there happened another incident at Ratangadh. Baba was in his room. Around 9 or 10 in the night, Babas mother came and stood in front of Baba. Baba recogonized his mother and Baba was greatly surprised how she has come here! Baba asked her How come you are here? Standing there, mother began to smile. Her feet were not touching the ground. She was standing slightly above the earth, in the air. Seeing this, Baba instantly realized that she has given up her gross body and is right now standing in front of me in her subtle body. After giving up her body, Babas mother underwent some divine transformations and within 3 days of her death she reached where she was to reach. Her first transformation was in the form of Goddess Parvati. Mother had given up her body within the borders of the holy Kashi, the abode of Lord Vishwanath, as a result of this her first transformation took place in the form of Goddess Parvati. Her second transformation took the form of the legitimate wife of Maharshi Bhaguri. The great sage Shandilya is the priest of Sri Nandas dynasty and the great sage Bhaguri is the family priest of Vrshabhanus dynasty. Babas fathers transformation took place in the form of Maharshi Bhaguri, therefore it is natural that mothers transformation took place as his legitimate wife. Babas mothers next transformation was to the form of Mother Kirtida. And her final transformation was in the form of Saudamini, who is the unique chandrika residing on the head of Vrshabhanu Nandini, Sri Radhika. Soon after her death, mother appeared in her subtle body to Baba at Ratangadh. There occured an incident 3 days after this darshan. Baba was sitting in his room at Ratangadh. Both the doors of the room were locked. And a lady came into Babas room. Her bodily effulgence was greatly illuminating, and she was decorated with divine ornaments. Her attire appeared extra-ordinary. Seeing a lady in the solitary room, Baba was perturbed. Baba was sitting on a plank in his room facing north, and this divine lady was standing facing the east. Baba could not recognize her. Then Baba began to stare at that lady. After deeply beholding her, Baba could realize that this is my mother who gave birth to me. Immediately Baba climbed down his plank, and placing his head on the earth he offered his obeisance to his mother. Baba was feeling great happiness on

the fact that my mother attained her final own-form so quickly. No sooner Baba offered his obeisance placing his head to the ground, she raised both her hands in the gesture of blessings and bestowed blessings upon him. Swaying her hands she blessed him three times. Baba said within his mind Go mother, may you remain happy. After this she disappeared. She then never came to Babas vision.

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Mahabhav Initiation
Four incidents are greatly significant in Babas life in view of his passing through the ocean of mellows. Firstly, his initiation into Sri Manjulila bhav, that was bestowed upon him in 1939 by his Guru-sakhi Sri Rupa Manjari-ji. Secondly, his initiation into Sri Manjushyama, that was bestowed upon him by Priya-Priyatam Sri Radhakrishna in 1943. Thirdly, the secret initiation into the Devi-mantra, that was bestowed upon him by Goddess Sriman Maha Tripura Sundari in the year 1949. And fourthly, his initiation into Sri Radha bhav, that was bestowed upon him by Priyatam Sri Krsna Himself in 1957. In 1956, Sharad Purnima, Baba took up his kasht moun and he became deeply inward, a faint glimpse of which has already been presented above. This is about an event at Ratangadh in the year 1957, in the month of Chaitra. The ashtami day was getting over and the navami day was to begin. The mahabhav initiation into Sri Radha svarup occurred at the conjoint of these two days. Baba was situated in one of his divine forms in the lila-kingdom, when this great fortune dawned upon him. Baba has himself accepted this truth in his poem Jay Jay Priyatam. In the beginning of the first stanza of this poem Jay Jay Priyatam, Baba has given an introduction of his bhav-svarup as below :I am the very one, to whom you said Queen of my life, Hey Priyatam Those hands that you had held, decorated with Mehandi, Hey Priyatam Sort of wrecked was that house in which the young girl lived, Priyatam Completely engulfed with darkness was the night, when you came, Hey Priyatam Residing in that crude house, still serene was, that young girl, Priyatam Couldnt touch her, a single particle from outside that came, Priyatam

Was hidden in her, the strength of a thousand agiyari trees (fire-trees), Hey Priyatam Capable was no one, anywhere, to contaminate her, Priyatam

In these verses Baba, indicating his divine form, his divine sringar, his divine purity, his divine strength, has given clear reference to that transcendental pure relationship and to his most dear salutations, when that great fortune dawned upon him in the month of Chaitra-sukla paksh at the time of the conjunction of the eighth-ninth day. Once, a great inquisitiveness awoke within the mind of mother to ask Baba about his own original eternal form. One day while engaging him in accepting alms, mother asked Baba Tell me, who are you? Due to the vow of kasth moun, Baba could not say anything. Baba had only taken the exemption of meeting eye to eye with mother. The severe austerity of kasht moun went on for six years and during this period up to three years Baba did not meet eye to eye even with Bai (Sri Savitri Bai Phogla). No sooner mother asked the question, though Baba did not say anything for that moment, however still, the answer arose within his mind. Baba even framed that answer into a meteric verse. In the future, one day Baba sang that verse and explaining its meaning he said The blue outer body of Sri Krsna is me, and my golden outer body is Sri Krsna. In this verse, there is a line which means that I am a sweet dream of Sri Krsnas heart. Explaining this, Baba said that the sweet dream of Vrajendra Nandan Sri Krsna is Sri Radha, and I am that Sri Radha. This line means that Sri Krsnas heart is Sri Radha, and I am a sweet dream of that Sri Radha.

Baba has personally described about his extraordinary school and his extraordinary teaching process in Radha-Sandesh, in view of the state of Mahabhav and the various experiences that he had attained. Babas title of Radha -Sandesh, a heart rendering description, has been published in the book Chalo Ri Aaj Vrajraj Mukh Nirakhiye. And this prose composition is the detailed explanation of the eleventh section of the poem Jay Jay Priyatam. One whose life is only of crying , and in whose life there never seems an end to that unlimited crying, that Krsna Vallabhaa Sri Radha tells her Priyatams dear messenger, Sri Uddhavji

Listen, will you learn that art? Look, there is a school on my chest. I do not know when this school got built. But I have been studying there from when, I dont know and till today I am still studying there. The name of that school is Love School. So I was studying in that school, and I am still studying, and the first lesson of that school is To recite the alphabetical series and then write the alphabets. Look! But I will tell you only one name for those alphabet series. Listen - Krsna by constantly reciting this character, all the rest of the complete alphabetical series will be known to you. And then, you continue to inscribe the shape and color of those alphabets in your heart. I only do this. And I had been doing this only. Look! In the inner sanctum of that character Krsna you will see twenty reddish ruby like nails. No sooner you concentrate your attention on it, a new hue of orange color will manifest where, how, you will understand it yourself. After this you will see a yellow color. Then, within this a green color will manifest. Do not get exhausted as you keep writing. Then you will see a sky-color, indigo-blue color and violet color all these will manifest. With an unceasing mood continue chanting Krsna-Krsna and continue to construct the shape of these alphabets. However, Attention! Not with chalk, for this, drops of tears from within your inner core will arise. Glass like round drops of tears will keep manifesting and you will keep writing those characters. Knowledge of letters will come to you within this itself. Then you will understand that the rays of the sun manifest the shades of the shades of these characters. When you will become aware of letters, at that time you know, the substance of the entire material existence will disappear from your sight. One Truth, one knowledge, one bliss - one complete Truth, one complete knowledge, one complete bliss you must have heard of this sometime, isnt it ? That you will attain in more than what you pay for. Now listen further one who becomes aware of the letters, who has learnt the alphabet series, then he begins to write words. Do you know, one word of shadaj will arise, one rushabh, one gandhar, one madhyam, one pancham, one dhaivat and one nishad. But this word-series is the shade of the shade of that word. But for those words there is no name at all. Hey Messenger, what do I say? The way I understood, the lesson I learnt, the same, in the same manner you should understand, therefore I am saying all this. In the flow of time, when, how, and how much I myself have taken shelter of this procedure, I dont know, Messenger! Now within this you will come to realize conjunctive words. These conjunctive words are very simple, Messenger! Then as you go ahead, the lessons related to special goaloriented feelings will begin. However, the meanings of those lessons are so deep, that you will not be able to know. Those deep meanings of that lesson will remain unknown. After this, for some days you continue to keep expecting.

What will happen after this, shall I tell you? One is the knowledge of mahabhav, which you have not learnt till today. Messenger! How that knowledge is, shall I tell you? Fine, listen! No one has been able to explore the cause of the appearance of that knowledge. It is extremely subtle. There is not the slightest smell of the smell of dirt that knowledge of mahabhav is so pure, and it increases every moment. And there is no trace of any depletion. It is constant at all times. It has no limits. Till today no one has been able to cross over it. And look! Words cannot even touch it. At all times, in all parts, it is self educating. It is greatly profound. Even to say atha(now begins) of that great knowledge, is dependent on the drop from the stream of this vishuddha sattva. Touching that very atha you will proceed. What comes after this - this no one can say. And the truth is that whoever has gone ahead and submerged in this, such a person never returns.

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The above lines are an extract from Radha-Sandesh. Within these lines, the description of that love-school, its lessons, its procedures and its ultimate attainment are greatly conventional and mysterious. In this narration, there is a description of seven colors and the names of seven sounds. Inspite of repeated readings, when even the slightest understanding was not attained, then at one time Baba was asked Baba! What message is being said here through the medium of explanations of the seven colors? Baba said By the plea of those descriptions I have given an indicative description of my experiences. There I have mentioned all that has occurred in my life in the manner that they have occurred, but it is said in a covered way. That, which has occurred in my life, has its descriptions in the shastras. However that which occurred in my life, is not in accordance to the sequential order mentioned in the shastras and also not in accordance to the steps of the conclusions given by those who have deep insights into ras (mellows). As a result of the mercy of the Lord, from the very beginning I was established at the topmost stages. It is true that, the only main cause for me being established in that highest stage is solely the mercy of the Lord. But in the descriptions of those words, is the substance of my experiences. This fact is now separate that, in my life those different stepping stones and revelations of those different stages continued to take place later at different times. In the development of love for Krsna, shastras describe sneh, maan, pranay, raag, anuraag, bhav and mahabhav. These have been expressed here through the media of different colors. The white rays of the sun have seven colors that can be seen in the rainbow or in the water bubbles or in the

prism. These seven colors combine in one ray of the sunlight to form a white color, spreading the topmost illuminating brightness, by which the entire world is beheld. Sri Radha, the enjoyer of transcendental pastimes, the daughter of Sun God, and the worshipper of the Sun, is also the great splendor of that supremely transcendental kingdom of mellows. She is eternally adorned with her matchless-transcendental greatness. She is the principle foundation and nourisher of the seven mellows (bhavs). Amongst the group of seven mellows she is the embodiment of the ultimate topmost level of mahabhav, whose total existence is completely devoid of any impurity, and who is the personification of complete splendor. One more fact, these seven mellows have been compared to the seven colors, but this comparison is also unfit. In our material world, the seven colors in the rays of the sun are so separate, that one color does not exist in the other. However, in that transcendental kingdom of mellows, all the seven mellows exist within each other, always. Only the one, who chants the name of Sri Krsna by constantly drenching it with ones tears, can move towards that kingdom of bhav. As he chants he becomes completely aware of that ultimate Truth which is beyond the influence of time, beyond the three modes, which is indestructible and imperishable; and he attains the greatest fortune of the auspicious-darshan of those twenty ruby like nails of Sri Priya Priyatam. The highest bliss that the Brahm-Jnanis attain after undergoing severe sadhana, that highest bliss he easily experiences without any difficulty. Then he constantly sings with those seven svars, the nectarine pastimes which are filled and nourished by the seven bhavs. And in the end, he is submerged in the ocean of mahabhav. This is the supreme exalted science of this Love-school. One, who has drowned in the ocean of mahabhav, never returns to this material world. In Srimad Bhagavatam, eleventh canto, 11.16.37, Lord Krsna tells Uddhavji Where there is no mode of goodness (sattva), no mode of passion (rajas) and no mode of ignorance (tamas), that nirgun or pure goodness is Me. By all means it is greatly difficult to attain this stage of pure goodness in a human body. Now the tribute to this extraordinary love is that - drifting in this, Lord Sri Krsna has altered his rules and has established me in this stage of pure goodness. Seeing this inconceivable-immeasurable love of His, a stanza has outpoured from my mouth Niyam hutou gun deh me mahabhav nahi hon Mere sukh hit saanvaro so-u kinou goun (Meaning The rule is that within this body that is influenced by the three modes, mahabhav does not take place, but for my sake, O Sanvaro, you have reformed it.) The description of mahabhav stage is available only in the Vaishnav scriptures. Followers of impersonalism (nirgun-niraakar) cannot even imagine of this stage. This has been defined by Sri Poddhar Maharaj as Jnanottarabhavrajya or Kingdom of mellows beyond knowledge. Thus, the meanings of the word-descriptions is that - only

after the chanting of names of Sri Krsna in bhav and after the development of true love for Sri Krsna, does the journey of bhav-sadhana begins. And the ultimate end of this journey is immersion into mahabhav. The above said is the essence of the explanation given by Baba on the teaching procedures of that love-school.

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The auspicious beginning of Babas absorption in ras was in the sentiments of svadhina-bhartrka. When a Priyatam, becoming subservient to his beloved, always remains in close proximity, then the beloved is called Svadhina-Bhartrka Nayika (or the heroine in the mood of svadhina bhartrka). Sri Vishakha is the personification of the mellow of svadhina bhartrka. And Babas entrance into the Kingdom of mellows was in the sentiments of Sri Vishakha. Sri Radha only is Sri Vishakha. Sri Radha always forgets her own-form as Sri Radha, and she begins to consider herself as the complete form of Sri Vishakha. By the strength of her loving sentiments, she begins to think and consider like this that I am not Vrshabhanu Nandini Radha, but I am Vishakha. In actuality she begins to experience this from her heart. When this Vishakha-sentiment becomes deeper, she begins to consider herself as Madhumati. And when the sentiments become even more deeper, she begins to consider herself as Chandan Manjari. As the sentiments grow more and more dense, from Chandan Manjari she begins to consider herself as Shashirekha Manjari, and then from Shashirekha to Haarhira manjari. As the waves of the mellows becomes denser, such transformations continue to be ever increasing. Attaining ever increasing elevations, Baba thus experienced these six waves of the mellows of svadhina bhartrka bhav. In the kingdom of lilas, Baba also experienced that it is the lubricity of Sri Radhas thick volume of hair that has taken up the sakhi form of Sri Vishakha, who is submerged in the nikunj seva of the Divine Couple. Sri Vishakha-ji is herself Sri Radha and the personification of the lubricity of Sri Radhas hair. She is both the whole and the part. In that transcendental lila-kingdom, there are no differences between the whole and the part. The part is also complete like the whole. Similarly, all the sakhis and manjaris, who are constantly immersed in the delightful services of the mellow-relishing Divine Couple, are the various forms of Sri Radha and they are the personification of Sri Radhas limbs, ornaments etc. Sri Radha, the eternal Queen of the bowers, is the personification of mahabhav. And this ocean of mahabhav is constantly gushing with waves to give pleasure to Sri Krsna, the Lord of the bowers. Within this ever plunging ocean of mahabhav, various waves of sentiments high and

low, big and small are constantly rising. However the eight waves of sentiments arising from the eight directions are the most important. And one among these eight is the wave of svadhina bhartrka bhav, whose rising-sport occurs in the direction of NorthEast. The ever-rising waves of the mellows of svadhina bhartrka (its form, its name, its attributes) as well as the attributes of the location of Vishakha Kunj, the vegetations of this kunj, the love sports of this kunj etc are all the internal truths of Babas own pastime-kingdom. Similarly, in the Northern direction of that ocean of mahabhav, when the waves of khandita bhav begin to ripple, at that time Sri Radha arises as the personification form of Sri Lalitaji. According to the divine experiences of Baba, it is the rosiness of Sri Radhas red lips that becomes the personification of Sri Lalita Sakhi, who remains constantly immersed in the service of the Divine Couple. The ever increasing, pleasuregiving six waves of the khandita bhav also ripples in the ocean of mahabhav and their names are Lalita, Manjushyama, Rupa Manjari, Lavanga Manjari, Modini Manjari and Madhavi Manjari. Like the svadhina bhartrka bhav and the khandita bhav, there are also divabhisarika bhav, proshita bhartrka bhav, vasaka sajja bhav, utkanthita bhav, vipralabdha bhav and kalahantarita bhav whose divine waves ripple on that ocean of mahabhav in the directions of east, south-east, south, south-west, west and north-west respectively. And the personifications of these waves of mellows are Sri Chitra-ji, Sri Indulekha-ji, Sri Champakalata-ji, Sri Rangadevi-ji, Sri Tungavidya-ji and Sri Sudevi-ji respectively. The ever dense waves of these bhavs ripple in their own directions. And each bhav has their six waves with different names. These eight bhavs, each with six waves, thus leads to 48 waves, and one common wave, leads to 49 waves, the discussion of which is itself a splendid topic. Only a glimpse of all this is being described here. However, the truth is that these facts of lila-kingdom are Babas own accomplishments and a great gift of the period of kasht moun. * * * * * *

At one stage, in these bhav-experiences Baba has a little difference in opinion from the previous acaryas. In the ras-scriptures, it is being said that an utkanthita-heroine is a girl who upon the failure of the arrival of her offenseless priyatam - greatly longs to meet him; and, vipralabdha-heroine is a girl who upon the providential failure of her priyatam who has received the indications of the meeting place - becomes tormented with internal grief. Both the utkanthita heroine and the vipralabdha heroine are awaiting the arrival of the priyatam due to which both exhibit weeping, anxiety, various arguments and speculations. However, in the expectations of the utkanthita-heroine, the desire of meeting is in complete fullness ; whereas in vipralabdha-heroine, the desire of meeting is diminishing. In vipralabdha-heroine, the desire to meet the priyatam is

towards the end and so her heart is full of indifference, regret etc and in extreme degrees of distress, she faints. In the ras-scriptures, Sri Rangadevi-ji is considered as the personification of utkanthita-bhav. However, during the period of kasht moun, Babas experiences were different. The point of confluence of the sentiments of utkanthita-heroine and vipralabdha-heroine, that points personified form is Sri Rangadeviji. That expectation, where the point of complete hopes and the point of complete hopelessness are touching each other, the personified form of that wonderful state of bhav is Sri Rangadevi-ji. It is for this reason that the leaves of the creepers and plants (Malati Juhi) etc of Sri Rangadevis kunj are greatly fluttering. In relation to this amazing truth of his personal pastime experiences, Baba used to say that - this is a greatly peculiar state of bhav and as a result of this peculiarity, I was unable to give any new name to that state of bhav. Baba could not get an appropriate word that could be used as the name for that state of bhav. Baba also told that as a result of this peculiar state of bhav, many acharyas have accepted Sri Rangadevi-ji as the most important sakhi. The great musician, Sri Hari Vyasdevji has paid his foremost remembrance and prayers to Sri Rangadevji only.