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women wear these everyday without going crazy. The answer was
stockings. I went to my step mother's dresser, took some, put them
on, and hooked them up to the girdle. This worked for the bottom,
but the top still rolled. By adjusting the top to match my natural
waist and put on some pants with a belt, the rolling top was kept
in place.
I went upstairs with the girdle, stockings, and pants on. I felt
slimmer, but not as comfortable. The girdle's tightness made me
feel stiff and harder to take a deep breath and the area around the
garters and the top of the stockings pulled and pinched. Also my
personal parts were not covered and felt naked. I would need to
wear underpants over or under the girdle. I thought this would
work and tried it. I decided to try to wear a girdle and stockings
etc. when ever I wanted. There were no sexual thoughts and no
shame involved. Just a method of looking better, but less
comfortable. Besides, half of the adults wore them, even though
they didn't like to admit it. They were called unmentionables.
When I looked in the mirror while wearing a girdle, I saw that my
butt looked similar to the butts of ladies in girdle adds. Now I
could also tell whether a woman or girl was wearing one. They
looked like they had one big cheek, instead of two separate cheeks
and felt hard instead of soft.
When one of my friends came over to play and watch TV, I
told him about wearing girdles and showed them to him. My
friend didn't seem to think wearing a girdle to look thinner was
weird and strange. If they made girdles for men, fat men could
wear them, but since they didn't, these would do. To him, woman's
clothes, in general, were weird. Later my friend told his older
sister and she asked if I also wore brassieres, but I didn't know
that a bra was short for brassiere, and I said what is that? I had
tried on my step mother's bras but with no busts, found that they
were useless to me.
I told my stepmother that I was wearing the girdles I had
found and she was interested, but not alarmed. She thought it was
kind of cute as I paraded around playing dress up, wearing just
girdles and stockings. I was curious as to why she wore these types
of girdles and not the new ones advertised on TV. I thought that
the Playtex rubber girdles would do the best job. She said that she
had tried them, but got a rash from them. She said that she hated
to wear bras and girdles, but had to, because fashion dictated that
as a woman she had to wear certain clothes. This stuck with me, I
liked to wear a girdle, and couldn't see why women wore things
that they said they hated to wear. I guessed that wearing one
every day and being uncomfortable for prolonged period could
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knew I wore them, even though I was doing nothing wrong. The
wearing of anything different would cause people to make fun of
me, no matter what it was. The fashion police - (peer pressure)
works when all other logic fails. Thus it should be a secret to the
outside world.
This off and on wearing of girdles continued throughout
seventh grade, but now it was something to be guilty about. It was
a big secret, I was afraid to get caught and this excited me, but I
wore them much less and only on non-gym days. Now the opposite
sex started to become more interesting. Also the weight problem
became less of an issue as I grew taller I slimmed down. I didn't
know what the opposite sex looked like naked and I thought that
kissing could make babies, but didn't know how. As we grew up
some girls started to get more shapely, they began to wear bras,
nylons, heels, and girdles. I could tell by looking, bumping ,or
brushing against them as they walked between classes. A hard
feeling meant that she was wearing a girdle. This kind of excited
me, knowing that I also wore one. I didn't care about bras, or
whether it was stuffed, but there were many rumors as to who was
wearing "falsies".
As the summer started the same boredom started. And again I
spent a lot of time alone in front of the TV on the couch in the
basement. Also I played with wearing girdles in many ways, but
now it was not in front of my step mother, since it seemed to really
upset her.
One morning I awoke with a strange feeling which I later
learned was sexual arousal. It felt very good, and I couldn't wait
to repeat this feeling. I tried to do the same thing as caused the
feeling, and it repeated. It was great. I told my step mother, but
she said don't do it, it wasn't nice. But I did it anyway, over and
over. Then I tried it wearing a girdle, it helped me and I continued
to do it.
I was taught that having sex before marriage was immoral and
will cause many unpleasant side effects, including getting beat up
by my step parents. But I could fantasize and arouse myself
anytime I wanted, with or without wearing a girdle. This was a
compromise that solved the problems. But was this wrong? Many
people in the church would not even admit that this even
happened to them, and I was not going to volunteer that I did
something strange. But I suspected that, since it was pleasurable,
people thought it was wrong.
Now instead of wearing a girdle all day and to look slimmer,
the girdle was also worn for sexual arousal and then taken off.
Also they were worn at night in bed where no one would see. As
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the sex with ones self continued and the wearing of girdles during
the arousal continued, the link and fantasies about girdles and
other underwear items grew. The fact that this was now forbidden
fruit, made the fantasy sexier.
To wear grown up woman's clothes without someone ruining
my reputation, started my fantasy about being a grown woman. If
I was already a woman I could, without fear, wear not only the
grown up underwear but dresses and heels. I tried on my step
mother's clothes and shoes, the complete ensemble. They actually
fit, though I had to stick socks in the bra. I tried on one of my step
mother's wigs, but my head was too large. The shoes were also
very uncomfortable. Everything was placed back in its place and
no one suspected.
On Halloween night I dressed up as a sexy woman, using my
mother's clothes and no one gave me any problem.
Then a disaster, the storm struck while I was in school. The
basement was flooded, and my step parents threw away the couch
and all the underwear that was stored in the basement. They
thought that this would end this underwear problem as well as get
rid of the soaked junk. But it was only the beginning. For a while
the problem was trying to not do it and not wear girdles. But the
urge kept growing and soon I was sneaking into my step mother's
underwear drawer and carefully removing the garments, arousing
myself, and then returning them to the drawer. The opportunities
for this were regularly scheduled, my step parents went to
Wednesday prayer meeting, and Sunday night church services. I
had to do my homework, so could not go. While they were away, I
could do what I wanted.
When I started to work on a paper route, I had some money, so
I could buy my own girdles. But this presented a problem, how to
go into a store and get the right size and how to ask for one from
the clerk and not look suspicious. I decided on the one I wanted
and used a tape measure and the instructions from a Sears catalog
to guess the size. I went to the store and asked for one, the clerk
assumed that it was for my mother and if asked, I would say, sure.
It was too easy. I couldn't wait to try it on. It was too big. Nothing
is more useless than a too large girdle, it just falls off. But it could
be taken in by folding and stitching up one of the panels, it
worked, but looked gross and felt as bad. Next time I would get
the smallest size available. Now the problem was storage. Where
to hide it so that my step mother would not throw it away and get
me punished. Behind the books in the bookcase, behind the sink,
under chairs and inside the padding, under the mattress, inside
the crawl spaces, etc. As time went on, my step mother would
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search my room and find my girdles, burn them, and punish me. I
would buy or steal new ones, hide them and continue to wear
them. This would be repeated over and over until that fateful
summer.
I still would try on my step mother's underwear while she was
away, but now I could wear what I wanted when I wanted. I
bought and tried wearing panty girdles, rubber girdles, briefs,
and all in ones. All were sexy and aroused me. I also accompanied
my step mother to the "Corset shop" when she bought her
underwear. This was the ultimate turn on, without actually doing
anything. Just to look at and imagine trying on each of these
items, like my step mother, was very thrilling and kept my
fantasies going for days. But soon she caught on and I spent this
time in the car, whenever she made a purchase. My fantasy was to
try the ultimate risk, go into a corset shop and actually try the
corsets and other corsetry on and buy the real high class girdles.
But I was too scared. The sales lady could tell my mother, laugh,
or throw me out.
The critical time came when my step sister was about to be
married, my step mother bought a couple of girdles and kept them
without wearing them. I could not resist, a new tight girdle was
there to try on, and I did. But in doing so it got dirty, and washing
it only made it worse. Now my step mother knew I was still
wearing her underwear. She decided to call in the shrink.
The shrink was a "Christian psychiatrist" but used the classic
Freudian logic. With my past rejection by my adopted parents,
rejection by another family that wanted to adopt me, and the
being sent away to various parochial and private schools there
was many hours of exploring useless memories, and blaming
everybody else in my life. The result of months of therapy was no
help and a large set of bills. This kid enjoyed wearing girdles and
no shrink could convince me that it was worth giving up. If I had
someone to have sex with, I would not need substitutes, but this
was not possible at my age, or in the morals of the day.
The doctor finally came up with an alternative cure that was to
use pain and suffering to make girdles something that reminded
me of pain instead of sexual pleasure. The solution was to make me
wear girdles all the time. This reverse psychology seemed to work
for most women, they were forced to wear them and were glad to
get them off. This would happen in the summer, when no one
would see me naked, and my underwear could be controlled..
But the next part was like my fantasies were coming true. My
step mother took me to buy the girdles I would wear, at the
"corset shop". I accompanied her into the room in the back of the
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from sports activities. At times I would play with the friends that
were not at camp, but they never seemed to guess I was wearing
this stuff.
Meanwhile the girdles continued to get on my nerves. When I,
in the past, chose to wear them they were a temporary pain. Now
after a few days, they really were getting to be a growing bother, a
slow torture. They were never really comfortable, and though I
was actually getting used to wearing them, I thought that I never
would make it all summer. As the days slowly went on I tried to
renegotiate the deal, stop this now and I will never wear a girdle
again. But the deal was for the whole summer and that was that.
She reminded me that I could wear a dress, skirt, and any other
clothes any time, while in the house, but that didn't really interest
me at this time. In a mirror, I looked like a girl that hadn't
developed busts yet. And now I thought I knew what it was like to
be a woman. I really didn't want to stay a girl too long. At one
time I thought it would be great to be a woman and get to wear all
these neat clothes. Now, I wasn't so sure.
model.
The other side of the treatment was lots
of unconditional love, communication, and
being held by my step mother. I would not
have to do something good, or be
somebody else to be loved, also I didn't
have to be thin, very obedient, or be
anything but myself. And I didn't have to
prove my worth by doing anything special.
This was the real deliverance and an
alternative to all the self doubt and self image problems.
The summer dragged on and on. The fact that I was wearing
this stuff became less and less of an issue, and was almost ignored.
Only when a pinch of pain from the uncomfortable positioning of
the garments caused me to realize that I was wearing them. And as
the days kept going on, this became less of a problem. The fact
that I lost some weight, also helped lessen the pressure on me and
stopped the headaches and constipation problems. But the looser
girdles did move around more on my body.
The treatment seemed to be working by the third month. A
girdle was now, just another piece of underwear, and there was
nothing special about them. You can wear them whenever you
want, if you want to. Real love is better that lust, even if it is for a
step mother, and is not sexually oriented.
As the summer ended the I didn't have to wear girdles any
more. I could now wear girdles whenever I wanted. But I had
enough wisdom not to take any chances with exposure to others
outside the family. The fact that my wearing girdles was
permitted, at least by my family, also discouraged thinking
anything sexy about wearing girdles. Girdles still were more
uncomfortable than regular underwear, but I was used to them
and felt naked without one on. Only now there was no guilt and
there were no secrets, no high drama, no sneaking around, no
hiding, and lots of real love. I did wear a girdle, but the longing,
the fear, and most of the sexual the excitement was gone. The
summer of bondage had worked.
I knew I was okay, but also that some others would never
understand. I would confide in a few about my past, and then risk
their using this knowledge against me if our relationship changed.
Since I had no shame about my underwear and it was no one else's
business what I wore inside, except someone who would see me
undressed, I could care less what strangers thought.
The deliverance from my past hurts came later, when I, in
prayer, relived those painful memories. With the help of Jesus
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Christ I walked through the events mentioned and refelt the hurts,
but this time they were permanently healed and I can talk about
it. I am no longer sensitive about them, and this document helps
prove it. You too can be healed by the power of Jesus Christ's love
for you.
There are two items that this story doesn't cover.
1. There is real guilt caused by hurting yourself and others. This
story does not say that this can be rationalized away.
2. You have a responsibility to not hurt other christians with your
liberty from false guilt. If they are not ready for this, do not flaunt
your knowledge and hurt them. If they think a thing is wrong and
you don't, do not do it in front of them. They will either condemn
you, or also do it (even though they think it is wrong) and feel
guilty.
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