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    Who is 5am for?: Insomnia
    Who is 5am for?: Insomnia
    Who is 5am for?: Insomnia
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    Who is 5am for?: Insomnia

    By M. Tabara

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    "How many times u seen me crying? Did u count the tears falling down my cheeks? Did u see how broken i was? Did u judge me for that? Do u still love me? Do u accept me the way i am?" The sky responded with silence, and i felt peace.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherM. Tabara
    Release dateApr 2, 2024
    ISBN9781805415442
    Who is 5am for?: Insomnia

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      Book preview

      Who is 5am for? - M. Tabara

      I’ve wasted so many years of my life trying to find myself,

      Trying to find out who the hell I am. I looked everywhere,

      Chasing every corner wishing to find me. I thought that I could

      Find me in a stranger that walked past me. In a stranger that

      Is holding my hand, the stranger that is flirting with me with a pretty

      Smile on his face. I thought that I could find myself in a

      Stranger that I loved the most. But I forgot to look in the

      Mirror, I ignored it with coldness. There I was all this time.

      And in the end, I’ve never been lost,

      I’ve just been ignored, by me.

      I always chase the impossible,

      All because possible is boring.

      Do what the fuck you want if that

      Will bring you money and success.

      Only you are responsible for your

      Happiness, so fuck ‘em all.

      I always find the most romantic way

      To destroy myself.

      Thanks ME

      "I was screaming

      your name last night"

      I am addicted to your voice, your arms,

      Your smile, your lips and hands wrapped

      Around my body. And I replaced you with

      Cocaine. To escape I’ve made the worst

      Decision ever. I got tired of sniffing

      Your perfume from my clothes that I have

      Not washed since, so I start to sniff

      The snow. I used to think that this was

      Love, but now I know that I was only

      On cocaine.

      I just wonder if you ever just sit down

      And think about me. Do you ever just

      Lay in bed and wish me to be there

      Next to you? I hope you do, especially

      When you smell the hot coffee and remember

      How we used to get dressed early in the

      Morning or late at night to go get

      A hot or iced coffee. I hope you do.

      I hope that the memory of me is drowning

      You deep in the ocean of my love.

      I hope that the memory of me is killing

      You as it’s killing me every time I

      Look at your photo waiting for your

      Name to light my phone screen

      Saying Hey!

      It does not hurt you to ignore me for days.

      You’re just a kid that wantsta have fun.

      Do not make your negative thoughts your first priority.

      Don’t let the sadness to eat you from the inside-out. Let it be

      Your guest, but keep the door open. When sadness had

      Its dinner, let it go. Don’t let the thoughts of someone

      Put you down, pick yourself up.

      When it’s dark, light your own path.

      No time wasted

      I don’t want to lose

      Myself again, so I stick to sipping.

      I still remember you saying I’m a demon.

      Oh dear, I’ll make sure you won’t forget

      Me so easily. I’ll keep you awake all night long.

      I’ll be the reason you’ll be in pain after.

      I’ll be your late night and early morning thoughts.

      You’ll look for me in every girl you will see.

      Babe I’m not the best looking but you’ll

      Remember me forever. I’ll be your nightmare,

      Your air, your freedom, your

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