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Reluctant sleuth and Miami developer John Deal is the last of his kind - a builder who appreciates his craft. His friend Arch Dolan was the last of his kind, too, a Miami bookseller who sold books because he loved them. Now someone has killed him for it. And he's only the first body to fall. In quick succession the CEO of a huge bookstore chain and a local lawyer meet violent ends...and Deal starts finding connections. Still, it's not easy for Deal: his estranged wife Janice, is still emotionally and physically scarred from mishaps the last time Deal stepped into the path of the wrong people. But Janice was close to Arch and she's as eager to find the killer as her husband. Working together, they discover that Arch's sister, lately employed by a charismatic revivalist, has disappeared. With the clues pointing north, Deal and Janice set out on a journey to a distant and frigid climate, one that threatens to chill them out for good.
Les Standiford
Les Standiford is the bestselling author of twenty books and novels, including the John Deal mystery series, and the works of narrative history The Man Who Invented Christmas (a New York Times Editors’ Choice) and Last Train to Paradise. He is the director of the creative writing program at Florida International University in Miami, where he lives with his wife, Kimberly, a psychotherapist and artist. Visit his website at www.les-standiford.com.
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Book Deal - Les Standiford
Book Deal
Book Deal
Les Standiford
www.les-standiford.com
Poisoned Pen Press
Copyright © 1997 by Les Standiford
Previously published as Deal on Ice by Harper 1997
First Trade Paperback Edition 2002
Library of Congress Catalog Card Number: 2001098485
ISBN-10 Print: 1-59058-012-5 Trade Paperback
ISBN-13 eBook: 978-1-61595-303-5
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in, or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form, or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise) without the prior written permission of both the copyright owner and the publisher of this book.
Poisoned Pen Press
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Scottsdale, AZ 85251
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Dedication
This is for Mitchell and Rachelle
and for good book people everywhere.
And, as always,
for Kimberly and the Three Muskatoots.
Deal and I would like to extend grateful thanks to
all those who have aided in the shaping of this
book, among them:
our close reader, Bill Beesting,
our editor, Eamon Dolan,
our agent, Nat Sobel,
our partner in crime, James W. Hall,
and our eagle-eyed booster of boosters,
Rhoda Zelda Kurzweil.
Contents
Dedication
Epigraph
Author’s Note to the Poisoned Pen Press Edition
Foreword
Note
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
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Epigraph
For books are not absolutely dead things…they are as lively, and as vigorously productive as those fabulous dragon’s teeth; and being sown up and down, may chance to spring up armed men.
—John Milton, Areopagitica
Author’s Note to the Poisoned Pen Press Edition
Though the mists of time grow thick, I can still remember clearly the day that Jim Hall called to tell me he’d finished reading the draft of the fourth in the Deal series. And I’ve got your title,
he added. I could tell he was as proud of himself as all the others who had tried proposing titles for the series along the way ("No Deal; Shut Up and Deal; Have I Got a Deal For You," etc.)
So?
I asked. "Book Deal," he told me. And—surprise—I was as tickled as he was. I banged the phrase onto the title page and shipped the beast off to my editor, sure that he would be just as pleased.
Alas, it did not turn out to be the case. Not threatening enough, came word. Okay, I said, how about "Killer Book Deal." That brought the explanation that mystery readers would not be interested in a crime novel having to do with books. I countered that John Dunning was having fair success long about then with a title called Booked to Die, and suggested some other possibilities: "Hardback Deal" is one that sticks with me, though the list numbered in the twenties, at least.
Finally, I was taken aside, where it was patiently and carefully explained to me that there were no conceivable circumstances under which my book was going to be published bearing a title that had anything whatsoever to do with books or publishing. The reasons for this were laid out to me in a scene that—in my memory at least—was not unlike that wonderful moment in Network, where corporation mogul Ned Beaty explains the facts of media life to his wretched anchorman Peter Finch. Though I would love to pass along the various unvarnished truths that were conveyed to me during my own heart to heart, it was the agreement between my mentor and myself that in return for his forthrightness, such would remain confidential.
So I will have to leave it to the reader to have a look at the story that follows and venture a guess as to what considerations might have superceded such paltry issues as what I wanted to call my book.
In any case, Deal on Ice, is what was settled upon way back when, and only after considerable more whining on my part was this compromise reached: the silhouette of a pistol, overlaid upon the cover art as printed on the advance readers copies, would be replaced, upon publication, with a rendering of a book. Those who saw the finished product must still be wondering what a book was doing floating through a snowstorm.
Suffice it to say, then, that I am greatly pleased, not only to see this book back in print, but with its original title restored, and a dead-on cover design by Tom Corcoran. For this, and for all their many kindnesses, I would like to thank Barbara Peters and Robert Rosenwald most sincerely. As I would like to thank Mitchell Kaplan once more for giving me the idea to write it in the first place.
Les Standiford
Miami, February 20, 2002
Foreword
This isn’t just a business, it’s a way of life.
—Arch Dolan, proprietor of Arch’s House of Books
It was the mid 1990’s. The go-go years of the big box bookstore expansion. A Barnes & Noble or a Borders envisioned for every corner. Independent booksellers, once enjoying over 50% of marketshare, were finding themselves in some serious trouble. Closings were common, and by this time, the ramifications of a book retail market dominated by two or three large, centralized players were being debated, not only at bookseller conventions, but on the pages of The New York Times, Harper’s and The Wall Street Journal. Publishers who knew, felt it dangerous to have a distribution channel that lacked diversity, and civil libertarians were worried about what would happen if the large chains had so much influence that they could actually control what did get published. Closer to home, a large chain bookseller had decided to open one of their boxes, 25,000 square feet worth, about a block away from my store, Books & Books, which had been in business for over ten years in Coral Gables, Florida, and I was nervous.
My good friend Les Standiford had the answer to my nervousness. He put John Deal on the case. John Deal, the contractor with a heart of gold, had already taken on corrupt developers, greedy sugar farmers, and seedy Hollywood producers. And like Travis McGee before him, he did so with much critical acclaim. Done Deal, Raw Deal, and Deal To Die For all received boisterously rave reviews. And The Miami Herald likened Les to a poet in a trench coat.
The bookstore wars would be a piece of cake; John Deal would prevail. I told Les everything I knew about the business: my hopes, my fears. He was and is a quick-study, and Book Deal was born.
And Les got it right. The feel, smell and nuance of bookselling infuses Book Deal with uncanny authenticity. Les’ love for books and bookstores makes this a celebration of all the great, good places which are home to independent bookstores. As we cross into the new millennium, there are still challenges. Market share has been further eroded, and a new threat to the independent bookstore has emerged with the growth of on-line retailing, yet there remains a vibrancy to the great independent bookstores. They are still the heart and soul of so many communities across this country. Don’t count them out. John Deal didn’t. Neither did Les Standiford. And on behalf of all the Arch Dolan’s who are keeping all the House of Books afloat, I thank them both. I also thank Poisoned Pen Press for making Book Deal available once again.
If you, the reader, have found your way to Book Deal for the first time, you’re in for a treat.
—Mitchell Kaplan,
Books & Books
Note
While I love South Florida just as it really and truly is, this is a work of fiction, and I have taken occasional liberties with the landscape and place-names involved. May they please the innocent and guilty alike.
Chapter 1
She paused outside her office door, carefully checked the long, dimly lit hallway in both directions, then hurriedly slid her key into the lock—so quiet now, she could hear the tumblers click—and entered. Not that she didn’t belong here, not that she wouldn’t have a reasonable explanation for returning, even at this hour, and if it came to that, she might be ready for a confrontation, some opportunity to explode into righteous indignation that would provide the perfect excuse to quit. But if she met someone, if she encountered Security, there would have to be that explanation, and she was already late: her pulse had begun to race, and her throat was thick with anticipation.
She moved inside, shrugged out of her coat, tossed it aside, traced her way to her desk by feel, nudging her way past the conversation area and the vague nimbus of the sofa, skirting the stone-slab coffee table and the huge puff of the down-stuffed chair, gliding the notch of her hip along the edge of her desk, quite aware of the sleekness, the teasing heat of that motion through what she wore. She kicked her heels off, dug her toes into the thick carpeting, felt a tingle rise from the flesh of her insteps to the back of her throat. She paused, closed her eyes. She could see the room in the ghostly light of her mind, every last detail of it. She ran her tongue over her dry lips, reached out to press her palm to the cool marble of the credenza behind her desk. She found the switch she wanted, pressed it down. She opened her eyes and waited.
The screen came alive first, with a tiny pop and crackle, and then a soft blue glow of light that spilled out into the room like mist, and she heard the grinding of the processor soon after. She realized that these sounds, so familiar to her by day, had taken on a new, almost human tenor, as if the machine itself knew what she was about. Illogical to think so. But it was night and even the muscles of her jaw were like tiny coils, quivering with a current of their own, and she felt as though she could be forgiven for thinking of this collection of microchips and circuitry as something approaching flesh and blood.
She waited impatiently as the machine cycled through its initial sign-on procedure, entered the password that gave her access to the master computer, an unfathomable bank of cards and boards and micro-circuitry lodged somewhere beneath her in the bombproof bowels of the building. When the machine had finally settled, she reached into her pocket, withdrew what anyone else might have assumed was a calculator, or some strange sort of television remote. She aimed it at the screen and pressed a series of numbers—her numbers—which the device would encrypt.
Prompted by this transitory code, the bland graphic painted by her organization’s master computer vanished, and a series of vague images flittered across the screen, each one colorful, but too quickly gone to be discerned. She listened to the hiss and cries of the machine’s electronic dialing, closed her eyes again as she waited, felt the flashes of color washing out over her, cleansing her in electronic light.
When the pulses had stopped again, she opened her eyes to find that the machine had squirreled its way along, as it had been taught, through the many points of choice offered in cyberspace, dropping her out precisely where she had left off her normal work only hours before. I don’t work in this room, she thought. I work out there, somewhere. Out there, in the vast infinity of machine space.
Her machine sat quietly now, its screen bathing her in a film of deeper blue, and she imagined that she could feel the light’s cool touch as she pulled the ties of her robe loose and sat down before the machine to take a different path.
You feel more comfortable here?
he asked her, and she found herself nodding in response.
But it was a question pulsing before her on the computer screen, after all. She glanced across the dimly lit room to the door of her office. Locked. Yes, she had locked the door. Of course she had. She smiled at herself as she hurried to tap out her response.
Is ‘here’ in Norway?
She watched her own message unfurl below his question, tiny electronic characters laid out against the dark blue of computer space.
Yes, I think Norway,
came his answer.
Well, it seems very warm in Norway,
she typed. It was true. She felt a thin trickle of sweat inching its way down the flesh just in front of her ear. Another time she might have brushed it away in annoyance. Now it felt like a tiny finger tracing its way down toward her throat, toward the plane of her chest. She willed it on its way, and her breasts tightened in response.
…and how is the situation of your work?
she read.
A tick of sound from somewhere, she thought. But it was just nerves, her imagination.
I am still deciding,
she replied. Such disillusionment. Maybe the best thing is to leave. But time will tell.
Then she added, I don’t want to talk about work tonight, please. I am feeling too comfortable now.
Ah, good,
was his response.
She murmured a prayer of thanks. In fact, she was greatly distressed about the situation of her work,
but she was determined to bury her feelings, for tonight at least. As their scheduled day and time had neared, she’d found herself burning with anticipation, and she did not want anything to spoil it. The suspicion that her passions might possibly have risen in direct response to the greater urgencies in her life had occurred to her, but she did not care. Comfort was where you could find it, she had decided, and nothing was going to deter her from that tonight.
Besides, the fact was that she did feel more comfortable here, in this new meeting place. They had met in a much different arena: on line,
as it was referred to, in one of the chat groups on the Internet, nothing like alt.sex.bondage, of course, but one of the more innocuous ones, where she had been lurking quietly in the background, keeping an eye out, not for cybermates, but for lost souls who might profit by what her organization might provide. She had read about all these groups. What better source of converts? How patronizing she had been, she thought now.
Torsten, his name, and though it bespoke of Scandinavian open-mindedness, even sexual brazenness and amorality, she’d been touched by the innocence of the messages he had sent when he’d first appeared on-line: I am new to this,
he’d said. I am alone…but not lonely,
these messages popping onto her screen interspersed into the chat of three women complaining about the rudeness of men they’d met on-line.
…I am being amazed at how the world has changed to allow such a thing as this…,
she’d read that and more and finally felt somehow so taken by this Torsten, whom the other three steadfastly ignored, that she’d found herself tapping out her first truly personal
message in response, surprised by how her fingers trembled as she pressed the keys.
Things had progressed rapidly with Torsten, and beyond her wildest imaginings. She knew it was partly to be accounted for by her own loneliness. She hadn’t had what might be termed a date
for more than a year, having come to prefer the predictable, low-grade boredom of her own company to the inevitable disappointment she’d become accustomed to in her relationships, the last, of course, worst of all.
There were men around, other men in the organization, of course, and she hadn’t sworn off them, but the organization was growing so rapidly, and the responsibilities of her position had increased, and she felt that she’d needed no distractions, not for a while at least. And somehow the weeks had become months and those had strung together into a year or more…and then, suddenly, there had come Torsten, from nowhere, or from out of cyberspace, to be more exact.
They had discovered common interests in reading (biographies and histories, primarily), in cooking (the medium-fat diet and a little wine never hurt anyone), in thinking (how vast the world had become with these machines leading the way, how difficult it seemed to feel an important part of things). She could have him on her terms, or on equal terms at least, no more at the mercy of his whims as to when to be together than he was at hers.
Though they had shared vague physical descriptions (she had subtracted a few pounds from her true weight and five years had somehow vanished from her age; he, on the other hand, had called himself a better-looking Sigmund Freud), she was free to imagine him physically as she preferred (these imaginings becoming steadily more intense), and she was free to speak with him without fear, for she was ultimately just a few letters and symbols, as ultimately untraceable by him as he was by her. And though it had been Torsten to guide them gently out of the common group where they had met and into a private room
where they could talk more intimately, she’d soon discovered a latent desire to speak openly of things she’d barely allowed herself to think about, much less express.
At first, he’d questioned her about her work (he was an accountant, in a large city, and though he’d never said, something in his odd syntax suggested it was in some European country), her upbringing (his a pastiche of anonymous boarding schools, exact locales unnamed; hers inconsequential, in a city of the American South, she’d told him, and never said how far south, nor how misleading that expression was, in her case). In the beginning, she’d been extraordinarily cautious, as if any chance detail she might let slip would lead to this unknown man tracking her down, across continents, perhaps…she’d come home late from work one night to find a sex fiend, a killer slavering in the bushes by her doorstep.
But little by little she’d lost her reserve. He had become her friend, after all. And she had begun to confide in him. At first she’d shared the vaguest hints of her unease about her job, and then, at his gentle prodding—We all have passed through these periods of doubt about what we do
—she’d confessed graver concerns. She’d told him nothing specific, of course, but spoke of matters she had discovered that, if not outright criminal, at the least seemed at odds with the very mission of their organization.
In this new world order,
he’d tried to reassure her, perhaps what seems untoward is just the way of business.
No, she’d told him. She knew the difference between matters of simple exigency and what was downright wrong.
Was there no one she could talk to about these matters? Torsten had asked. No, she told him. There was no one. Of course that was not exactly true. There was one person, and she had taken certain steps, but she had not seen fit to tell even Torsten that.
Besides, by then they had begun to speak of other intimate matters, discussions of things that had swept her into utter dizziness as she tapped and read, tapped and read. It had started with his admission that he had found himself thinking of her lips as he read the words she typed, how her mouth would move as she formed the words, and she’d quailed at first, but then thought, well, yes, they had the words between them but not the sounds, not the lips…
…and then discovered as she typed her timid response that her thighs were bathed in warmth. They’d somehow passed on from lips to skin to hands and what those might do…
…and had anyone suggested to her a month ago that she would find herself admitting to a total stranger that yes, she had in fact touched herself in those ways, and found it intensely pleasurable, she would have called it unthinkable. But now, what would have been a flush of embarrassment or shame had become a heady, heart-pounding rush of exhilaration as she responded to his inquiries: Tell me how…tell me how it feels…tell me that you can feel me there with you, in your office, my hand with yours…
Even now, her hand had moved to her breast, was squeezing the knotted flesh of her nipple to the very edge where pain took over pleasure. She swallowed thickly, saw that her robe had fallen entirely open, that she was fully bared before the glowing machine. She closed her eyes and arched her neck up to the blue light, and thought that some soft sound had escaped her throat.
I am in Norway, she thought…in Tibet…in Oz…I am floating in clean, clear space where nothing can hurt me, nothing can trouble me, where I can be just as I wish to be…
Glorious freedom here, then. And thanks be to Torsten, who had told her of the need to move their meeting place again. He read the magazines, the specialists’ reports, kept up with such things, it seemed. When he’d discovered that others had invaded their room,
to lurk
invisibly while they spoke of such intimate matters, he’d been not so much incensed or embarrassed as saddened. While she had felt a sudden pang of fear—imagine if the others with whom she worked were to ever learn or overhear—he had reassured her. The two of them were just as anonymous to those electronic voyeurs who watched
as they had ever been.
Still, the dynamics of their meeting had been altered dramatically. Certainly, there had been no more discussions of her work. And even their sexual conversations became awkward, truncated, interrupted by signals that others had slipped into the room,
or by Torsten’s manipulations to check for such intrusions.
Then he had discovered the safeguards. First, the device she’d used when she logged on, a tiny computer itself, actually, which converted her password into a different, encrypted code each time she used it.
And now, as a double safeguard, this new place, this Comnet. A remailing
service. In reality, a computer somewhere in Scandinavia, where their messages would arrive, after leapfrogging along the Internet, to be stripped of their original identifying codes, and receive new, randomly assigned names. Here, in some room within a room within a room of an indifferent Nordic machine, they could converge, safe from any prying eyes.
Insulated now. Insulated and insulated again, disembodied spirits trysting in some mythic ice cave of the future. In real-world space, she might find herself confused, doubting, uncertain, but here in the place the machines had created, she could come to be with Torsten, and for now at least, be free.
…something different…something you have never done…,
she read on the screen before her now. Her hand had moved to her thigh, then slowly up to a fold of flesh that seemed almost agony to touch. She felt her ankles lock against the spokes of her chair, felt her pulse thudding in her ears.
…my hand is your hand…
Her lower lip was caught in her teeth, her fingers truly were another’s as they probed and stroked…and yet something was nagging at her, fighting for attention: in your office, he had said. Had she slipped, had she told him where she was? She’d been so careful all these weeks, no clues, no hints…but perhaps he’d just assumed. It was natural, wasn’t it. He was in his office, so she’d be in hers…
She threw off the thoughts, silly, silly, found herself urging upward now, lifting herself out of her chair toward an avalanche of release as great as any she had ever known. She knew that she was speaking aloud now, any thought of typing a distant memory, but it did not matter, for Torsten would have joined her in his own turn, and they were connected over the vast, impossible stretches of ether…her very being had disintegrated, spread across this unknowable space, her consciousness filling with one explosion of light after the next.
Oh, dear God,
she said, and might have spoken the words again, had she not heard from somewhere the sounds of the door lock clacking, the rush of feet upon carpet, the spoken reply.
Harlot,
came the voice. Blasphemer. Jezebel!
The words hissed in her ear.
At first the words meant nothing. They might have been elements of her fantasy, imagined sounds that barreled out of the tunnels of the ethernet along with the images of light and color that rocketed about her brain…
…and then she felt the arm about her throat, and realized that she was being pulled backward, brutally lifted from her seat, her ankles raking the spokes of her chair.
She would have screamed, but the arm was pressed too tightly against her throat, her chest burning, her strength so suddenly sapped that her kicks and thrashings seemed pitiful, even to her.
Such a disappointment,
she heard, a voice, familiar now, ripe with bitterness. Did you think I wouldn’t learn what you’d done? Did you think I’d let you threaten everything?
She felt her heels fly over the back of the chair, felt them bounce against the soft carpet. He was holding her upright, pressed close to him now, and the pressure at her throat seemed even tighter. She fought to get a look at him, but the grip that held her was unyielding. She saw a shoulder, the shadow of a face, the glint of a poster on her wall, a train rolling through the heartland with a message that assured her that life was a journey and not a destination, and then her eyes had come unfocused, were rolling back in her head. The little ticks of sound, the untoward phrase, "there, in your office," how had she let herself ignore the warnings?
I trusted you,
he said, and his voice was nearly a sob. I trusted you!
He squeezed more tightly, and as she began to lose consciousness, she thought his voice had become mocking, echoing the words she had read moments before on her computer screen: …what is the situation of your work,
he hissed. …my hand is your hand!
He was beyond outrage. …godless…ungrateful… abomination…
The words cascaded in an unintelligible litany, and the words no longer mattered.
How had he known, she wondered? How could he have possibly known? And then, in the next terrible instant, though her mind thundered with agony, she knew the very worst.
That this very man, the man who held her, who squeezed the life from her body, who would kill her now…
…he was the one…he was the only one who could have known…
…he had sent those words…
The outrage of it burned through her, galvanized her into one final act of resistance. She drew up her foot, slammed it down hard on his instep. She heard him gasp with pain, felt his grip loosen. She brought her head forward, found the soft flesh of his hand, bit down as hard as she could. She shook her head violently, her teeth still fastened, until she heard him howl, and his hands flew away. She felt blessed air rush into her lungs, swung her elbow back, felt a satisfying crack as it struck his face.
She