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    Adrian's Perception: Viewing the World Through His Eyes
    Adrian's Perception: Viewing the World Through His Eyes
    Adrian's Perception: Viewing the World Through His Eyes
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    Adrian's Perception: Viewing the World Through His Eyes

    By Terrence Antoine

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    Today I awoke Like any other day Today was the
    fi rst and my last day Today is the day that I take my life
    Today is the day that I take this one last walk I have all the
    stuff And I will even carry the pain But this isnt no ordinary
    walk You see this walk defi nes me It will let you see all of
    my You will know my naked truth Today in this last walk
    You will see all I was once a happy child with smiles and
    cheer I had the mother the father and the sisters to share
    With family and friends that followed near I had an aunt
    the loved me o so dear But later that year the tears began to
    fall And my tears begun to follow so close in the air Right
    foot left foot Just as easy I lost my dad to the streets that he
    loved so dear Later she said I love you so dear And she died
    the aunt that loved me o so dear. With less that 15 steps I
    would take near I would almost loose my mother 3 times
    that year With father no where in sight my sister step in so
    dear Th e walk isnt over with more to come 20 more steps
    and she molested me 5 more and I never trusted no more since then 10 more steps I take
    And I see me with 10 more suicide attempts Failure came with no success So my heart
    became depressed With comfort in food and my world Where I found little boy blue As
    the steps continue my life fl ashes by All that haunts me and where I said goodbye With
    6 more steps I take I found friends but I also found hate Hate from others and yes that
    includes family and friends With one step that adds seven now I hate myself once more
    now 18 steps more I take and I end up a t a street light Red means stop but with me it
    means rage With not much more to go now With a fl ame that use to burn bright with a
    fellow And yes he was my knight But thought from my head with unexplained truth And
    the taste for the world Took me 9 step further away When it ended with 25 steps of one
    night stands And a gift to carry with my souls that is now save But at a cost of family
    friends and a love life that is no more 5 more steps now and the rode is almost there.
    With the last few tears follow the steps One more step and I stand here With all my
    secrets exposed And a body that bares it all with the marks and there no end Today I took
    my last walk And step by step I told my life And I wonder why I am still alive And why
    he hasnt taken my life or why he wont let me take my own Oddly, he speaks to me and
    says youre not done With every step you took was an obstacle and when I pushed You
    pushed back Dont give up now when youre almost done I know your story now the
    world does to Now show them what you can do You beaten the odds over and over again
    Now this year its is the end you fi ght once more And my blessed child you shall win
    Today I awoke with and end insight and now I see I must begin again But this time with
    happiness insight at the end

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherAuthorHouse
    Release dateJul 11, 2014
    ISBN9781496923905
    Adrian's Perception: Viewing the World Through His Eyes
    Author

    Terrence Antoine

    I'm 25 working full time working on finishing my business degree, but in the mean time I decided to honor my best friends wishes and publish his journal along with some of my poems. To give his life meaning. To give his now silenced voice meaning, showing the world that he mattered.

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      Adrian's Perception - Terrence Antoine

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      © 2014 Terrence Antoine. . All rights reserved.

      No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author.

      Published by AuthorHouse 07/08/2014

      ISBN: 978-1-4969-2391-2 (sc)

      ISBN: 978-1-4969-2390-5 (e)

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      Contents

      Runners

      Boy Blue

      The Truth Behind Little Boy Blue.

      Chapter 1 My Thoughts

      Chapter 2: Its Called Dating At Home

      Chapter 3 The Bitch Has Checked Out And Adrian Is Back In The Hisouse!

      Chapter 4 Changing Tires On My Car(S)

      Chapter 5: Digging For Me = A New Beginning

      Chapter 6: Train Carts Of A Dream

      Motherless Child:

      Exist:

      One Wish:

      Warning:

      Before you take the time out to read this book in its entirely please be advised that minimum to no changes hasn’t been made because, I wanted to keep my best friend memory alive. Please enjoy…

      To a love that wont exist

      Runners

      In a state of mind

      Some people run

      Run to get away

      And others run to find there way

      They keep running until they see the light or if it’s no more light to see

      Or if they are like me

      They us we run non-stop with no end insight

      We run non-stop because

      We don’t have fear no more

      Not even of fear death

      But just how will I or we go

      What’s your fear

      How about you tell some one your fear

      Before the fear itself keeps you running.

      Boy Blue

      Who’s going to cry?

      Cry for me, him or her, or maybe you

      Little boy blue cried.

      For along time

      Wishing and hoping that

      His all star will come back

      Will you cry for little Jr. Blue?

      He needs and wants to know.

      Would you cry for little Jr. Blue?

      While trying to commit suicide.

      Would you cry for blue?

      While having a nervous breakdown

      Little Jr. Blue wants to know.

      Would you laugh while he crying

      For being taunted for being gay.

      Would you cry for blue?

      Blue wants to know out of all of you.

      Would you cry for little boy blue?

      Blue knows that you wouldn’t cry for him,

      But Blue will cry for you.

      Because you couldn’t walk a mile in little blue shoes.

      I’ve been there and I’ve cried for boy blue, but I am not crying anymore.

      The truth behind little boy Blue.

      Who cried for me?

      Yeah me

      I cried for myself when

      My all star dad preferred drugs over me.

      I cried when he left on Christmas eve.

      Crying out while turning blue.

      I cried for me while

      Trying to commit suicide more than 10 times

      Within a 3 year span

      I cried for when it was unsuccessful

      I cried because I couldn’t take it anymore.

      I cried while having a nervous breakdown

      Because I had nothing but the Blues in me

      I cried 4 years ago for being taunted because I was sexual challenged.

      Now you know the truth behind me being little boy blue.

      I ask the same question again now you know the truth which one of you cried for me?

      Don’t be scared!

      I am just telling the truth, About living in the life of me

      Chapter 1

      My thoughts

      I do think that I did all my homework the road to redemption is hard because you have to change things and make a mends to the one that I have hurt over the course of my short filled house and that’s funny to me because I am only 20 and yes I’ve done a lot of damage but I’m trying to do it right in 2009. I know a lot of people in the world would make these new years’ resolution and never keep them, but I am going to keep mine.

      The year 2008 wasn’t what I would call a good year for me because my mother was still dealing with the fact that her only living and breathing son is gay. My friends was walking in and out of my life and also I realized that its time that I get back in my schedule my yellow brick road but its weird I didn’t think that I would accomplish all my goals except for one I don’t knock myself for it nor am I displeased but at peace cause I was able to prove to a lot of people particularly my family that I was going to leave and never come back well the never come back part may have not been true but at that time that’s how I was feeling. Well I got down there and I didn’t get cold turkey but set back will say. I didn’t know it then but god said O hold up what’s Mr. Davis up to, I see that he accomplished just about all those goals he/we set out for him; its time more than any to throw him that curve ball. All I knew that it was like I get tripped up and sent back home with no job no money and not in school and I knew then what was going to happen depression was going to set in and I will be completely at ground zero, but my best friend Lorenzo had let an angel from god take over his body to may sure that I will not get that far on the ground but just a little before you hit the pavement with a SPLAT!! Lorenzo called and said Get dress and get up, its no time to lay around the house but to make things happen and it did I got all my stuff to start school and that was Georgia perimeter college, it wasn’t my dream college or one of my choices but hey it’s a school and a whole lot cheaper that Gordon so Why not go. Lorenzo I can honestly is amazing he came threw when others felt the need to bash me and that’s never good but we aren’t going to go in to detail until later. I made it to the school and I missed late registration by 12 hours I wasn’t mad yet again because I know he put that road block in place to get some rest of the baggage that was lingering around from 2008. Wow you guys I skipped a whole part well it was when the year flew by with drama and disappointments and a lonely night soaking in

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