The Soul Killer: A gritty, heart-pounding crime thriller
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Perfect for fans of Mark Billingham and Stuart MacBride.
A murder made to look like suicide. Another that appears an accident.
DI Barton investigates the tragedies that have shattered a family’s lives, but without obvious leads the case goes nowhere. Then, when the remains of a body are found, everything points to one suspect.
Barton and his team move quickly, and once the killer is behind bars, they can all breathe a sigh of relief. But death still lurks in the shadows, and no one's soul is safe. Not even those of the detectives…
How do you stop a killer that believes life is a rehearsal for eternity, and their future is worth more than your own…?
Praise for Ross Greenwood:
‘Ross Greenwood is at the top of his game.' O J Mullen
'Move over Rebus and Morse; a new entry has joined the list of great crime investigators in the form of Detective Inspector John Barton. A rich cast of characters and an explosive plot kept me turning the pages until the final dramatic twist.' Richard Burke
‘Master of the psychological thriller genre Ross Greenwood once again proves his talent for creating engrossing and gritty novels that draw you right in and won’t let go until you’ve reached the shocking ending.’ Caroline Vincent at Bitsaboutbooks blog
'Ross Greenwood doesn’t write clichés. What he has written here is a fast-paced, action-filled puzzle with believable characters that's spiced with a lot of humour.' Kath Middleton
Ross Greenwood
Ross Greenwood is the author of crime thrillers. Before becoming a full-time writer he was most recently a prison officer and so worked everyday with murderers, rapists and thieves for four years. He lives in Peterborough.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I didn't think this was as good as the first in this series. There was some nice misdirection, but the story was spread over months and months with the bodies piling up and the police completely failing to join the dots. The plot was a little shapeless and out of control.
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The Soul Killer - Ross Greenwood
1
The Soul Killer
My earliest memory is from my reception year at school when I was five. That was twenty-five years ago. It was the day we broke up for Easter. Many people’s first recollections are dramatic or bad. Perhaps that’s why they stick in the mind. But it’s not the pain that remains vivid all these years later. It’s the shock and confusion. I simply didn’t understand. However, I believe that was the moment I realised I might be capable of murder.
My mother picked me up from school, and we marched back together. We never held hands, but we talked. Well, she talked. The air of tension around her was already present. It matched the stark streets where we lived. She asked what I’d done that day. My eyes watered with the cold wind as I struggled to remember. When we reached home and entered the narrow kitchen, I opened my satchel and stared at the small Easter basket that I’d made. I stroked the shiny surface of the foil egg, knowing on some level I should keep it hidden.
‘What’s that in there?’ she said.
Guile is beyond most young children, and I was no different so I closed my bag.
‘Give it to me.’ She grabbed the handles, removed the little cardboard box, and held it as though it might detonate.
‘I made that,’ I said.
‘I warned the school about this sort of thing. They’ll regret not listening to me.’
I didn’t see her point and I was desperate to have the basket. ‘Can you give it back to me, please?’
‘It’s confiscated.’
I remember thinking that I owned it. I’d built it using cardboard and foil with the other boys and girls in the classroom. The sense of excitement in the air as we’d queued to leave that afternoon had prickled my skin. The teacher had helped me with my coat and wished me happy Easter but although I’d heard the phrase many times in lessons, the idea of Easter being happy confused me. Easter, when mentioned at home, was said with solemn awe, and triggered fear in me. There was no talk of chocolate and Cadbury’s creme eggs.
I knew not to upset my mother. She never shouted, but I would receive a look – one that warned me of impending discipline, which would stay on her face, sometimes for days, before I received my penance. My brain hunted for something to say.
‘It’s for a joyful Easter.’
She stopped in the doorway. I’d heard the word joy many times at church, but her reply was a growl. ‘We do not celebrate it in that way. Don’t let me hear you mention it again.’
‘Why not? I want to be happy. I want to be like other children.’
Back then, I hadn’t learned the value of silence. I also hadn’t learned that I wasn’t like other children. Only my father was relatively normal in our house.
She returned to stand in front of me. Her ageless brown shirt and jacket combined with severely pulled back greying hair made her seem featureless, despite the large glasses she wore. Perhaps these enabled her to see sin more clearly. Through these her piercing light blue eyes stared down and, with total certainty, she made things abundantly clear.
‘God does not approve of that. It’s for pagans. We are pure.’
At that moment, I decided I’d be a pagan. And I still wanted what I made. A flash of pure rage swept through me, I believe for the first time. My foot lashed out, and I kicked her in the shin. Quiet seconds followed. It’s hard to remember if she smiled or grimaced. Whatever, I cowered to my knees and wrapped my hands around her thick tights. She kicked my arms away.
‘Wait there,’ she said.
The anticipation is worse than actual physical pain, which only really hurts for a while. I’d experienced the impact of rolled-up newspapers and cooking spoons on many occasions, and so my mind had stopped imagining the worst because I thought I’d seen and felt it all. I didn’t know about the cellar.
As she seized my jumper at the back collar and dragged me past my father in the dining room, I noticed someone had moved the dinner table. A trapdoor yawned open. Wide eyed, I implored him to save me as he rose from his seat.
‘You go too far, Marjory.’
After a final glance at me, he left the room and strode out of the house. He might have returned to get his things at some point, but I never saw him again. When I look back, I remember hints of happiness and positivity, but he had retreated from us, like an ever so gradual cloud drawing over the sun. The eclipse came that day.
I stared down into the abyss. There were no steps, only blackness. She shoved me hard and firm in the back, and in I dropped, landing on a thin mattress. I gasped in agony as my knees compressed the material and jarred on the floor. Inside, I could just make out the contours. The space was about two metres high and wide. I slumped onto my side and, with an outstretched grasping hand, pleaded for her to pull me up. She loomed above me, so large and powerful. Her voice boomed down.
‘Repent in this life, rejoice in the next.’
Her words meant nothing. She was always boring me about one thing or another. I glanced around with blurred eyes as she dropped the trapdoor in place. The only other items I could see before complete darkness enveloped me were a pair of my father’s shoes and a blanket. Had he been down here too?
I knelt in the chilled space and imagined the walls pressing in. I believe any other child, whatever their age, would have screamed, but I did not. It makes me think I’ve always been different. I reached for the blanket and kept silent while listening to the sounds of the table scraping back into place. Sitting in the dark, I focussed on how I could recover my basket.
I wasn’t fully aware of my intentions at that moment. The only sound in my prison was the rhythmic ticking above of my mother’s pendulum clock. It was a noise to go mad to. Recalling my thoughts is difficult. My whole body tensed. I stifled the scream that yearned to erupt, knowing my mother would recognise its fury, when she craved to hear fear. After a while, I unclenched my jaw and rolled my shoulders. A surprising emptiness washed over me, leaving only a cold, controlled motivation. That focus made me understand, for the first time, that I was capable of anything.
2
The Soul Killer
I’ve no idea how long I waited down there that first time; no more than a few hours, probably. Using spaced hands in the pitch black, I checked the floor for other objects but found myself in an empty square except for my father’s things. I sat and thought about my actions and accepted the truth. Mother made the rules, and I had disobeyed them. Kicking her was just plain dumb. Five year olds might be inexperienced, but they aren’t necessarily stupid. I knew from then on that if I wanted special things, I’d need to keep secrets. She would have to be obeyed, or at the very least think she was.
The table scraped the floor, and the trapdoor creaked open. The light above stung my eyes. Judging eyes scrutinised me, but she remained silent.
‘Sorry. I won’t do that again,’ I said.
She nodded. She knelt and held out her hand. I was always strong. Jumping up, I pulled myself out and found dinner set for two. Already the place appeared drabber without my father. He’d been working away much more of late, staying in hotels or leaving early. I could tell my mother missed him too because her eyes strayed to his seat, so we ate in silence, except for that clock. Eventually, I had to ask the most important question a child will ever need to know; words they should never need to speak.
‘Do you love me, Mother?’
She opened her mouth and closed it without saying anything. Finally, she spoke as though reading from the good book, but she looked unconvincing.
‘God’s love is all you require.’
There was no television in our house, but I had jobs to keep me busy. Later, if I’d worked hard, she treated me to biscuits and milk. Then she’d follow me up the stairs and tuck me into bed. Each night we read a story about years gone by. My favourite was always the tale of David and Goliath.
Afterwards, we’d stare at each other and I’d smile as though I understood the message she was trying to impart. The Bible stories she read seemed contradictory to me. Some taught to turn the other cheek, whereas others seemed to condone slaughtering at will. Few suffered damnation for their sins. God forgave most, but He could be the cruellest of all.
Sometimes, I’d see a half smile as though she wanted to connect. I believe she loved me at that point, and I can’t blame her for everything. This world sickens and corrupts, and it drove her madder. Loss can make you ruthless.
I don’t think I responded to her in the way she hoped. My problem – to others – is that I’m unfeeling. I have a narrow range of emotional responses. Little bothers me, or excites me. It’s why I’m good at my job. The strange antics in my house might have unsettled another child, but I just got on with it. Perhaps she wanted me begging for warmth.
As time marched on, my mother changed. She’d stare at my father’s picture, occasionally running a finger down the frame. I knew to escape the room or I would be blamed for his absence. Sometimes she’d holler that I’d cost her a soul mate.
When I was ten, a solicitor came to our home but my mother refused to let him in. I was sitting on the lounge floor doing a jigsaw and heard him report that my father had died after a heart attack. His new partner had instructed him to inform us. My mother said he was dead to her the day he left and she closed the door. After he’d gone, I studied her. That was a lie. She had looked high and low for him. Many a time I’d put myself to bed and woke up to a cold breakfast in an empty house. She caught my appraising glance. I rose to leave, expecting harsh words and blame. Instead, tears streamed down her cheeks. I’d never seen so many before, not even in my own mirror.
I stood next to her, only the steam from our hot breath meeting in the cold air of our lounge. I raised my hands but didn’t know where to place them. Her fingers flexed, too, but also remained at her sides.
‘Don’t do what I’ve done,’ she said.
I shook my head in confusion.
‘I lost everything. He was my better half and the joy in my heart. It would have been better if he’d died with me rather than have him escape.’
She blinked a couple of times at my shocked face and frozen-open mouth.
‘But what about me?’ I said.
‘Don’t make the mistakes I did. I will teach you the way of this world. God has given me a burden to carry, I must bear it.
With that, she took care not to touch me as she left the room.
Five hundred kids attended my senior school. There were naughtier ones than me, and others who had it worse. I perfected hiding from attention there and at home. I told neither place about the other. My mother’s threats of home-schooling were enough to make me conform.
I’d recovered my Easter basket from the outside bin after the first basement incident. I kept it in a cardboard box hidden on the top shelf at the back of my wardrobe. Over the following years, I gently placed inside it the other things that my mother disapproved of. But I was to discover that I had chosen a poor hiding place and it would alter the course of my life.
A boy at school had been bothering me; a short lad called Jimmy. He wasn’t usually violent, only quick and smart. Every opportunity he had, he belittled me, and I couldn’t cope with his intelligent humour. The other kids laughed at his put-downs, not realising how much they hurt me. I learned to keep quiet and stay away from him. Jokes ranged from my voice cracking in class to the musty smell I carried. Even the teacher chuckled.
It was hard to live in such a powerless vacuum. I coped by showing no emotion, but there are those who notice such insignificance. Once, three much older boys grabbed me as I left the school library. Two held my hands out as the third pretended to punch me in the face; only stopping when his fist was an inch from my nose. Jimmy happened to wander by and they told him to thump me. He looked more scared than me. My nose bled afterwards but he could have hit me much harder.
I dawdled home, but my mother took the shirt off me and soaked it in water. She knelt to my level and her harsh breath drove home a lesson.
‘He is watching. Their punishment will be just.’
Jimmy once slipped down some stairs while running at school. While others jeered, I rushed to help him up. The Bible usually taught you to forgive. We had a moment where he softened and he even gave me a smile. The others noticed the moment and stayed quiet. I beamed for the rest of the afternoon, but my reprieve lasted for just one day before the taunts continued. Life taught me different lessons.
Luckily, he moved school after the first year, but it was as though he had infected me with a virus. No one came too close. My confidence plummeted further. It made me long to be invisible, in case the others like him noticed me.
My mother and I visited many places of worship over the years. A few at the start were happy-clappy, but they became more sombre. One even made me consider that the world was doomed, and that I was partly responsible. Most expected you to attend in your smartest clothes, yet a couple had all manner of beggars inside. We attended huge churches and had candle mass in people’s lounges. I sat wide eyed and scratching my head at almost every denomination people worshipped. We even dabbled in religions where the congregation prayed to humans with animal heads. Strangely, those beliefs made most sense to me.
I realised that there were two consistent things about all of them. They all believed that life carried on after we died. Some talked about being reborn as something else, while most dangled the lure of everlasting life in heaven. Ascending there to be judged as worthy by Him should be your aim.
The second thing was that my mother didn’t fit in. Her views often didn’t align with any of the people who attended these churches, even the nice ones. It took a while for me to conclude that her opinions wavered to suit her mood. Whatever she searched for in these places remained elusive. After my father left, she rarely sang. Instead she’d stare at the altar with grim conviction.
She used to attend confession. Afterwards, as she drove home, she would whisper to herself the same lines over and over.
‘I know that I am saved. I am born again. I am a child of God.’
Confession stopped when she decided she knew better than those giving out the advice. Not everyone agreed with her views on eternal damnation. She believed that only a special few would be spared the wrath of God. The criteria to qualify were a shifting sand that I struggled to get my head around. More than once I found myself considering the kitchen table and what lay beneath. She’d shake me and explain that good people sometimes had to do bad things that would save their souls and banish others into permanent darkness.
Occasionally, she’d shoot out of her seat and bellow at the pulpit and we’d have to leave mid-service, or I’d be hauled from Sunday school. She’d tell me on the way home about the brutality of life, and how everyone had their own interests at heart. She’d stop in the street and lean down to look in my eyes.
‘We don’t need them in our lives. Only those who are saved are worth anything.’
‘I was having a good time.’
‘We don’t worship to have a good time. Our goal is heaven and life everlasting.’
‘Are we going there?’
‘Yes.’
‘With father?’
Her grip tightened and I was dragged along.
‘Of course.’
I wondered what his last girlfriend would think about that. Whatever, it was serious stuff when I’d rather have been reading comics.
She always said not to worry about this life because happiness existed a final heartbeat away. When someone maddens over years, it’s hard to see the exact point when they become crazy, as opposed to just different from the rest of us. Mother was lucid then, but, with my father gone, little outside influence crept within our walls. The gospel according to Marjory held sway and I was destined to be her disciple.
At age twelve, I was plunged through the trapdoor for the final time. She’d burst into my room and found me enthusiastically exploring my puberty. My cheeks still burn when I recall that frozen second. For a long while, I thought of her whenever I became aroused. I wonder if I ever truly got over it.
At that embarrassing moment, she screamed at me. ‘What do you think you’re doing in my pure house?’
I assumed, correctly, that she didn’t want the actual answer.
I fumbled for my clothes. Even though our heights matched by then, her determination overpowered me. She grabbed my ear and pulled me down our dangerously steep stairs. I almost tripped and plummeted down while trying to cover myself up. I stood with my hands between my legs as she dragged the table back and lifted the rug. Again, she thrust me in from behind. I didn’t reach for help, nor feel the cold. I only scowled into the darkness.
3
The Soul Killer
My relationship with my mother changed after that incident. She left me down there until darkness fell; at least ten hours. When the trapdoor lifted, I returned her glare until she stepped away. I climbed out to an empty room. She never mentioned what had happened: her part in it or mine. I don’t recall her touching me again, in punishment or in love.
I continued my education but tried to remain unseen and was mostly successful, although Jimmy’s acquaintances still bullied me. Their nicknames stuck throughout the years. Even now, if I hear the words mentioned, my body tenses. That said, some people started to include me, and I slowly made some friends. I even joined the cross-country team and excelled. It suited my nature to run ahead where no one could bother me.
My mother didn’t insist I earn money to contribute to the household finances, but there were no free rides. Conversation and story time ended. Instead, washing and ironing the family’s clothes became my job. It took a year until I got the hang of it and stopped burning my hands and ruining things. I never minded the pain.
I impressed the teachers with my exam results and told my mother I wanted to go to university. She left me gobsmacked by telling me God expects us to seek knowledge. Perhaps she wanted to see the back of me. I think she’d become confused as to the point of life. Cleanliness used to be next to Godliness, but mould crept into the corners of the rooms and surfaces gathered dust.
By that time, Barney Trimble – her new partner – had been with us for a while. He was a dopey sort with a beaten expression, and the type of guy who you could see every day for years but never recall any details about him.
He spent most of his time in my father’s chair. The similarities in looks were so strong, even down to the side parting that showed a glistening head, that I imagined he’d been grown in a test-tube for the role but errors had crept in. He had very few opinions of his own and was not dissimilar to a quiet dog, but their relationship was different. Muffled groans of violence escaped from their room at night. I contemplated investigating, but many of the howls were his. He stayed though, so perhaps he had nowhere else to go.
Barney owned a white and black campervan: a real plus point. Of course, my mother believed it ungodly. She considered it some kind of sex wagon. But Barney and I took numerous weekend trips to a peaceful place called West Runton in Norfolk. We didn’t speak much to each other the whole time, but instead we relaxed in the peace and quiet away from Mother’s sermons. He worked an allotment, too, where he spent many hours. I don’t know what he grew there because he rarely brought anything home.
I once pulled his leg about his name almost being Barney Rubble. A playful smile lit up his face for a second; an expression I only saw on a few occasions. He told me that his friends called him Flintstone at school. It seemed weird to think of him in that way: a person with a life and a future, when he ended up such a non-entity. But I liked that he’d told me that.
Cambridge University disorientated me at first. I could barely cope with the people and noise. The halls of residence sometimes reminded me of the first day of the January sales, and I kept to my room away from the noise and purpose. However, I slowly realised that, despite the throng, there was an anonymity to the place. Busy people missed the silent soul among the thousands. I accepted a job at a bakery to pay my way. An old guy and I arrived at 5:00 and baked for when the store opened. We left when the other staff turned up, then I attended my lectures.
I kept up with my running. Another jogger from the athletics club took a shine to me. Charlie wasn’t a particularly nice person and became a nightmare when drunk but we became some sort of couple. I think she enjoyed bossing around the club’s fastest runner. The coach encouraged me to attend national try-outs, but I sought no glory.
Then a strange thing happened. Christmas came. You could sense the change in mood over everyone and everything. Trees and tinsel appeared. A palpable buzz grew as the big day approached. I’d avoided the fresher parties – people were more in your face under the influence of alcohol – but I succumbed to the end-of-year Christmas bash.
Charlie’s family were rich. She bought me a tuxedo and I felt like James Bond. It was heady. She suggested I cut my hair short and called me Action Man, and I liked it. The figure of him she bought as a joke even had the same expression I wore when I ran. Her beauty reflected well against my cool distance. It brought us status. Nice clothes brought me compliments.
To my amazement, the party flew by. Everyone seemed to want to talk with me and listened when I spoke. They interpreted my standoffishness and distance as drive. Many stopped and explained that they respected my commitment. They admired my focus on running at the crack of dawn. They were unaware I was running to work.
Sometimes, I’d put my trainers on and disappear late at night. Exercise silenced the voices; the ones telling me I didn’t belong. But with Charlie by my side, I fitted in, and she resembled a movie star that night. I basked in the reflective glow.
Later, she dragged me back to her room.
‘Fuck me. Hard!’ Rank brandy breath wrinkled my nose. I gulped, not having had sex at that point.
Buttons popped as she tore the shirt from my back. Sharp nails scraped down my chest. It hurt, but the intensity was intoxicating. Perhaps that was the appeal for Barney with my mother. I’d never felt so alive. She pushed me onto the bed and straddled me.
‘God, God, yes, yes.’
My thoughts strayed to my mother.
‘Screw me,’ Charlie demanded, frantic eyes boring into mine.
Her language shocked me more than the naked proximity of our bodies. That was what dragged my mind into the present and made me respond to her requests. As a person Charlie was shallow, but as a teacher she was very effective. I wasn’t completely naïve, I’d seen porn before, but I followed her instructions.
I enjoyed the workout. The power I possessed over her during certain moments pleased me more than the climax itself. I owned her. Those occasions with Charlie showed me that, by training my body and focussing on a woman’s needs, I could become something else. For the first time in my life, I felt I belonged in a way that I previously hadn’t. I had become a participant as opposed to an observer.
For the last few weeks up to Christmas, the world and I were synchronised. I relaxed and looked others in the eye. I enjoyed the simple pleasures of hot chocolate in front of a pub fire and buying gifts to place next to a tree.
Until, one day towards the end of term, early in the morning when I left for work, I froze as I caught one of our senior lecturers sneaking out of Charlie’s room.
4
The Soul Killer
I followed him out to the exit and scowled as he cycled away on his rickety bicycle. I followed at a distance, which wasn’t hard. He didn’t go far, only back to one of the buildings that was near to the university. Perhaps his home came with the job.
Afterwards, I sprinted through the streets, but I was unable to still my mind. Anger bubbled at the periphery of my thoughts but, initially, it wasn’t aimed specifically at her, or him even. After all, we hadn’t made a commitment to each other. She had been more like a training buddy. But I knew I’d miss the recent feeling of involvement, of being part of something.
As I finally tired, I saw that they’d disrespected me. How dared they? Was I nothing? Would my university life mirror my school life? All these years, I’d turned the other cheek. To my mother, to bullies, to all. It had gained me nothing. Finally, I headed to work, happy in the knowledge that, if necessary, I knew where he lived.
That night, I returned to the lecturer’s house and stood waiting under a tree in the distance as it rained. When he returned home, he kissed a middle-aged woman at the door and retreated into a cosy glow.
The truth of the matter became even clearer to me in the run-up to Christmas Day. Having a beautiful partner had grounded me and made others look at me in a new light. Charlie wouldn’t figure in my future. However, I was sure such a girl did exist. I would train, get my degree, and find a good job until we met. Then I’d hang on to her and live the perfect life. Nobody and nothing would come between us. It would be us against the world, to the end of the world.
Luckily, I hadn’t given Charlie the necklace I’d bought for her. I decided to give it to my mother instead. It would be a secret acknowledgement that I wouldn’t lose my soul mate when I found her as my mother did when she let my father slip through her fingers.
I returned to Wisbech late on Christmas Eve to a silent home, regretfully with no place else to go. Obviously, there was no wreath on the door. Inside it was so dark, cold and still that it oppressed all life. Even the clock seemed to struggle to tick. I knew I’d have no presents again. My room remained the same and I crept up the stairs so as not to wake anyone and slipped under the duvet. I imagined the black mould on the walls rapidly expanding, covering them completely, and then engulfing me. Stealing from the bed, I turned on the light and took some deep breaths. Gentle snoring came from the landing.
I walked towards their room and stood next to the bed. My mother looked frailer than I recalled. My eyes scanned the room for personal items, but there was nothing. I realised she had chosen this non-life. It was up to me to choose something different.
The following morning, I came downstairs in a mischievous mood. My mother and Barney ate cereal in silence and the overriding impression I had was of grey lives. Their days were featureless landscapes where breathing was automatic, but actually living was not.
What was the point to it all? Even if you were focussed on the next life, couldn’t you do something in this one while you waited? I was determined to. I planned for a life full of drama and excitement. I’d laughed the first time someone called an old people’s home God’s waiting room, but that was where my mother spent her days.
Imagine wasting your entire existence with one foot in the grave. Why not live before you die? You can take risks, do what you like. In fact, if you believe in the safety net of heaven, then eternal happiness is yours even if you make the ultimate mistake. What a perfect truth. If life is a game, play it with purpose and enthusiasm. At least try to enjoy it.
‘Merry Christmas,’ I said.
I received a grin from Barney. My mother stopped chewing. I gazed around the spartan room. I knew I shouldn’t give her the necklace, but I thought of everything I’d missed out on in my life. The people I’d left at college were elated, laughing and boisterous in anticipation of Christmas, ensuring the drabness of my childhood became blisteringly evident. I’d