The Turquoise: A Novel

One

SANTA FE CAMERON was named for the town of her birth, because her Scottish father and a distressed little New Mexican priest could agree on no other name.

This was on the twenty-third of January, 1850, while a bitter wind blew snow down from the Sangre de Cristo Mountains and darkened by contrast the adobe walls of the New Mexican capital.

In a bare two-room casita on lower San Francisco Street, the Scot, who was doctor as well as husband, stood beside the priest staring down at the woolen pallet where Conchita Valdez Cameron had given birth to the baby three hours ago. Conchita was dying. Her dark eyes were fixed on her husband’s face in unquestioning love while her already cold hand clutched the crucifix on her breast. The beautiful ivory pallor, her Spanish inheritance, had dulled to a bluish-gray as the life of her eighteen-year-old body flowed away in hemorrhages that Andrew Cameron for all his skill was powerless to staunch.

The padre had administered the last rites; his concern was now with the feeble infant, prematurely born. It showed every sign of soon following its mother and must be baptized quickly.

What name shall it be, doctór? whispered Padre Miguel to the grim man by the bed, María de la Concepción like her mother? or Juana—Catalina? He paused seeing the haggard misery in the other man’s face tighten to resistance. Come, my son, he said with gentle urgency, looking at the baby and thinking that the actual name hardly mattered, this is the feast day of San Ildefonso, shall we give her that name?

Except for the hissing of the piñon logs in the high Indian fireplace there was silence in the small room, which was whitewashed to the same glistening purity as the snow which sifted into the still calle outside. Then the baby gave a faint whimper and Andrew turned on the priest. My child shall be named for no whining Spanish saint.

Padre Miguel flushed, his fingers, already wet with the holy water, trembled and an angry rebuke leaped to his tongue. But he checked it. He had encountered the Scottish doctor’s stubborn Calvinism before, and he made allowances for the man’s anguish. In a nature which showed no softness to the world, it had been astonishing to see the tenderness which this harsh stranger had always given to the girl on the pallet. Nor, to do him justice, had he interfered with Conchita’s own faith. During the past months she had been untiring in her prayers to Our Lady of Guadalupe; prayers for forgiveness for the wrong she had done her family, prayers for a safe delivery of the baby within her womb.

The priest dimly understood that part of the doctor’s violence came from realization that the Compassionate Mother had not seen fit to answer these prayers, and that lacking the consolation of the True Faith the man had no recourse but blind wrath.

So the padre’s anger died, but he said inflexibly, The baby must bear a Catholic name, doctór.

The Scot’s jaw squared; he opened his mouth to speak, but the girl on the bed stirred, her straining eyes widened. Please— she whispered.

Andrew’s face dissolved. He knelt on the hard-packed dirt floor beside the pallet. Shall we name her Santa Fe, then? he said softly. It’s papist enough, and— He stopped, went on with difficulty, We have been happy here.

The padre saw the girl relax and a wistful smile curve the gray lips, so he dipped his hand again in the holy water. Santa Fe, he thought, The Holy Faith​—​well, why not? He made the sign of the cross on the baby’s forehead.

In the corner of the room those two completely disparate human beings looked at each other with the great love which had bridged the gulf between them. The smile on Conchita’s mouth lost its sadness. She tried to lift her hand toward the blunt face near her own, to smooth away, as she had often done, the furrows in his forehead. She gave a long gentle sigh and her hand fell to the sheet.

The baby astonished everyone by living. A wet-nurse was found for her, Ramona Torres, wife of a lazy and bad-tempered woodcutter who lived across the Santa Fe River near the Chapel of San Miguel in the poor Analco quarter. La Ramona and her Pedro were dazzled to get three monthly pesos for so easy and insignificant a service. It was the little padre who negotiated this transaction by means of two gold sovereigns flung him by Andrew after Conchita’s burial. For six months Andrew would not look at his child, nor hear mention of her. He shut himself into the room where Conchita had died. He went out to the market in the plaza only when hunger drove him to buy a little food, a handful of frijoles, or some hunks of hard, stringy mutton which he cooked himself in a pot over the fire and washed down with goat’s milk.

He lived in an isolation which nobody tried to penetrate except Padre Miguel, who came back from his visits to the casita thwarted and rebuffed by Andrew’s tight-lipped silences.

In July the padre tried a new plan. He sent Ramona with the baby to Andrew, saying, If he will not let you in, tell him that the little Conchita is watching from paradise and her mother’s heart is very sorrowful.

Ramona nodded, her broad peasant face showing no curiosity. She pulled her dirty pink rebozo over her head, wrapped one end of the scarf around the baby, and padded to the cottonwood footbridge across the river, her brown splayed feet raising little puffs of dust on the path to San Francisco Street.

Andrew opened the door at Ramona’s timid knock. Here— said the woman, frightened by the expression in the bloodshot eyes that glared at her. Your baby. El padre say Conchita very sad in paradise you no see baby. She sidled past the motionless Andrew to lay the swaddled bundle on the only table. Then she darted out the door, murmuring, Later I come back. And she hurried away to the delights of the plaza and a gossip with friends in the shade of the portales.

Andrew shut the door and walked slowly to the table. The baby lay perfectly still, staring at him with unwinking gray eyes.

Gray! said Andrew aloud, startled from the remote prison of his grief. He leaned closer. Gray as the water of Loch Fyne, he thought. The homesickness which he had denied these two years sent a twinge of new pain into his consciousness. His daughter gazed up at him quietly, and after a while he experienced a feeling of solace. The eyes were like his mother’s, the gentle Highland mother who had had the gift of second sight, and wisdom and pity for all things.

Santa Fe— said Andrew bitterly, and at the sound of his voice the baby suddenly smiled.

Aye, ’tis a daft name for ye, small wonder ye smile. He repeated the name, and this time the last syllable echoed in his mind with a peculiar relevance. ‘Fey!’ There’s a true Scottish word will fit you, for ye’re fated—doomed to die as we all are, poor bairnie.

The baby gurgled, tried to kick against the tight-wrapped greasy blanket; thwarted, she protested tentatively, then fell asleep. Andrew continued to stare down at her.

When Ramona came back for the baby, she saw that the wild loco light had left the Señor.

Bring Fey here once a week until she’s weaned, he commanded in his halting Spanish. After that I’ll keep her.

Fé—? questioned the woman blankly.

Andrew pointed at the baby.

Ah— said Ramona, and shrugged her fat shoulders. She picked up the little bundle, tucked it again into the fold of her rebozo, and pattered off down the street.

Andrew shut the pine door and walked to the back room. He looked at the corner where Conchita had died and at the carved blue-and-gold figure of Our Lady of Guadalupe which stood in a small niche in the wall as Conchita had placed it. From this figure he averted his eyes. They rested on the cowhide trunk which had accompanied him from Scotland. Inside the trunk, long untouched, lay his dirk, sporran, and kilt woven in the rose, blue, and green of the Cameron tartan.

He knelt beside the trunk, opened it with a key from his watch chain, and slowly lifted up the kilt. The soft wool fell to shreds as he touched it. It was riddled with moth holes. He let the trunk lid fall.

He walked into the front room, where he pulled his leather instrument case from the floor of the carved pine cupboard.

The contents of the medicine bottles had evaporated or dissolved into gluey masses, but on the instruments there was little rust; the dry New Mexican air had preserved them. He laid them out on the table—knives, probes, scalpels, and forceps—then picked them up one after the other, balancing each in his fingers which had grown clumsy and unresponsive.

Beneath the flap inside the instrument case there lay a piece of parchment. Andrew pulled it out and stared at the lines of Latin script. The parchment said that Andrew Lochiel Cameron had in 1846 graduated cum laude from Edinburgh’s Royal College of Surgeons.

Andrew gathered up the instruments and threw them pell-mell into the case with the parchment. He flung the case back into the cupboard and strode hatless out of the house into the vivid noon sunlight. His jerky steps took him up San Francisco Street, past little adobe houses like his own, past the much larger town houses of the Delgados and the Candelarios whose smooth mud walls gave no hint of the graceful life of the flowering patios inside. He passed through the plaza without seeing any of its color and bustle. Only an hour before, a caravan had rumbled into the plaza at the end of the Santa Fe Trail over eight hundred plodding and dangerous miles from Independence, Missouri, so far back in the States. The bull-whackers and the mule-drivers were celebrating already. The saloons were teeming. A stream of whooping excited men thronged in and out of La Fonda, the hotel on the southeast corner of the plaza, and clinging to most of the brawny, sweating arms were Mexican girls in best chemises and rebozos, their black eyes limpid with excited anticipation. Despite the fresh white picket fence and prim rows of alfalfa newly planted by the Americans in the center of the plaza, the little square had given itself once again to pagan riot. There was a cockfight in front of the military chapel, two games of monte beneath the portale of the Governor’s Palace, and the constant explosion of whip-crackers and pistol shots. The latter from three drunken American soldiers who had willingly caught the infection, as did almost all the Americans who wrote sanctimonious letters home about Santa Fe’s vicious lack of morals while they drank and lecherized and gambled to an extent never dreamed of by the more temperate Mexicans.

Andrew had neither eyes nor ears for this scene, which was repeated at the arrival of each caravan, and of which he had himself been a part two years ago. He picked his way around a dying ox which had collapsed in the middle of the street, avoided two braying burros loaded with vegetables, and a Tesuque Pueblo Indian who stood motionless on the corner of Palace Avenue surveying the bedlam with calm contempt. He skirted the east side of the Governor’s so-called Palace, a long one-story mud building behind a colonnade, and continued his way north near Fort Marcy Hill until he reached the beginning of the road which led to Taos—and beyond—to Arroyo Hondo in the high mountains—the road he had traveled in April a year ago and which had taken him to the Valdez hacienda and Conchita. This road, too, had finally ended in bitterness, as had every other road down which he had briefly glimpsed happiness during his twenty-six years of living.

Andrew’s pace slowed. He climbed the first juniper-covered hill and sat down on a piñon stump near the dusty trail. The summer sun poured warmly stimulating from a turquoise sky, a peon trotted by on his burro, his serape a vivid patch of orange against the distant Jemez Mountains. The peon hailed Andrew, Holá! Buenos dias, amigo! But Andrew was not warmed by the sun, nor did he hear the friendly greeting. He stared down at the dry sagebrush near his foot and saw it dissolve into the purple heather of the moors at home. He smelled the salt tang of the mist swirling in from Loch Fyne and the fragrance of peat smoke. He saw once more the piled gray stone of the house where he had been born and the face of his father, twisted with anger, etched clear against the great doorway. He could no longer remember the words his father had hurled at him because of a sharper memory—the stepmother’s triumphant face peering over Sir James’s shoulder, her thin lips curled, her eyes like a gloating ferret’s.

There had been another witness to that scene on the steps of Cameron Hall. The Duke of Argyll, his father’s powerful friend, as the Argylls since the days of Lochiel and Culloden had been staunch patrons to all the Camerons. The Duke had stood to one side, his grizzled head held stiffly turned from Andrew in whom he had hitherto taken so much interest.

The Glasgow stepmother had done her work well. She had contrived through guile and clever lies not only to expel Andrew from his home, but to banish him from Scotland. Andrew had hated her from the moment old Sir James had brought her to the Hall scarcely a year after his wife’s death. The sly, sneck-drawing face of the quean! thought Andrew, clenching his hands, the rawness of the hurt she had dealt him as fresh as it had been that day in Scotland. The lustful little eyes of her! She had cocked those eyes at Andrew himself until he made plain his disgust. And then one night he had caught her naked behind a haycock with the stable boy, and she had acted after that with incredible speed.

Andrew, fresh from medical college, had been called to the Castle to attend the Duke’s own cousin. The Lady Margaret had a cancer and she died, but no sooner was she laid in the ducal vault than the stepmother raised somehow a miasma of suspicion. How queer that the Lady Margaret had seemed perfectly well the week before; how strange that as soon as Andrew appeared, she grew worse and that she should die so quickly. How queer—how strange—until the whole of Inveraray, the whole of Argyllshire, had heard and inflated the whispers to a roar. There must have been, they said, a dreadful mistake made in the medicines—there had been malpractice—it was as good as murder. The Duke was frantic, they said, only his long friendship for poor disgraced Sir James kept him from clapping the wicked young doctor into jail.

It was then that Andrew tried to tell his father some of the reason for the stepmother’s persecution. And Sir James had disowned him, shouting and stamping, Get ye out o’ my sight for aye! I dinna care gin ye go straight to the de’il that must’a’ spawned ye!

So Andrew had left Cameron Hall, his instrument case in his hand, his cowhide trunk under his arm. He was the younger son, and Sir James had had no troublesome matter of inheritance to worry him. The stepmother was left alone in triumph at the Hall with her infatuated old husband.

Andrew went to Glasgow and there he bought passage to the States with three of the hundred gold sovereigns left him by his mother. He had tried to settle in New York, but not two months after he had hung out his shingle, the Bonnie Clyde put in from Glasgow. Andrew was down at the pier. He despised himself for it, but whenever a ship from home docked, he found himself on the wharf, his nostrils sniffing for a breath of heather and smoky kipper, his ears straining for the cadenced burr of the Highlands.

An Inveraray man, Jem MacGregor, had come down the gangplank that day and Andrew, recognizing him with a great leap in his heart, had rushed forward, unthinking, his hands outstretched. But Jem, whose own child Andrew had doctored through pneumonia, turned as purple as the tartan muffler around his neck. ‘So, young Cameron,’ sneered Jem, putting his hands in his pockets, ’tis the puir bodies o’ New York ye’re murr-r-dering the noo? And, turning his back, he had shuffled rapidly down the pier.

After that, the bitterness and the restlessness had had full dominion over Andrew. He took down the shingle, which had brought him no patients anyway, and turned his face like many another toward the West. He locked his remaining gold into the cowhide trunk and worked his way on foot and on barges, taking morose satisfaction in physical labor that left over no strength for thought. It was easy enough to find work. He was big and powerful, with the rawboned ruggedness of the Highlands, and his taciturnity increased his value. The farther West he got, the more people there were who neither asked nor welcomed questions. Many times he passed through communities where the settlers would have been fervently grateful for a physician amongst them, but he concealed his knowledge. There had grown in him a carking doubt of his own skill, and the restlessness drove him on. He had reached Independence, Missouri, in the spring of 1848, when the frontier was beginning to seethe over the rumors of Sutter’s gold strike back in January. Andrew was unaffected by the gold fever. It seemed to him that he shared few emotions with the rest of mankind and that his brain and body had no urge but a ceaseless yearning for change.

On August the tenth, Alexander Majors’s first organized freight outfit set out over the Santa Fe Trail from Independence, and Andrew went with them as driver of one of the ox-teams for a dollar a day and keep. He was not popular with the other men, for he would not join in their songs or bawdy reminiscences around the campfire at night, nor would he use the rich profanity with which the bull-whackers belabored their stupid animals. He was, however, an expert shot, and his trained surgeon’s fingers could splice a rope or mend a broken spoke far faster than theirs could. By the time they reached Council Grove, a hundred and forty-five miles along the way, they had accepted him. And a month later, when the exhausted teams plodded into Pecos Village, only a day and a half from Santa Fe, he had earned a grudging admiration. Mosquitoes, mud, thirst, and Indian scares had not feazed the silent Scot. The other bull-whackers thought him a queer stick, and promptly forgot him after they reached Santa Fe, but they respected him.

Andrew, like many another, was disappointed by his first view of the ancient royal city. The huddle of adobe houses in a treeless valley reminded him only of a large brickyard with scattered kilns ready for the firing. Nor after he had goaded his team across the little Santa Fe River and entered the town was he attracted by a closer view. There was too much dust and dryness, too much monotony of smooth mud walls, and at the joyous cries, La Entrada de la Caravana! Los Americanos! Los carros! too much hysterical excitement. The Mexican populace mobbed the new arrivals; children begged for pennies; the old market women, shrilly quoting prices, brandished ristras of chile or sizzling hot tortillas. And the dark-eyed girls clustered a dozen strong around each Americano, cooing, "Fandango tonight! You come wiz me, Señor, I Frasquita, or Dolores, or Josefa. I your sweetheart, I fine sweetheart, por Dios!"

Andrew escaped from the barrage of languishing eyes into La Fonda’s barroom, where to his surprise he found whiskey excellent even to his Scottish palate. After three drinks he was able to view Santa Fe with greater tolerance. He strolled quickly through the hotel’s sala, a huge room filled with faro and monte players. He wandered out into the great patio and seeing that food was being served sat down at a small table. He intensely disliked this food when it came; unknown messes of beans and chopped meat and corn meal all raised to the same blistering level of red chile heat; still, as he sat on in the flower-filled patio, there came to him a certain relaxation and pleasure. Mockingbirds, in cages hung from the beams of the portale, trilled melodious imitation of lazy strumming from a guitar in the hotel corral. The air was exquisitely perfumed with the fragrance of burning cedar from a log fire in the sala, and this rare, clear air, seven thousand feet above sea level, exhilarated the blood.

Here, at last in this foreign place, thought Andrew, there was nothing to remind him of home, not even the language. The few Americans might easily be avoided. Here, he thought with a rare spurt of optimism and confidence, he might be able to establish himself and start life again. He sent back to the bar, ordered another whiskey, and decided to winter in Santa Fe.

But the winter passed by and he had made no niche for himself in the town. He had not the gift for making friends, and the unreasonable buried fear that the Argyllshire scandal would track him down constantly inhibited him. He was exceedingly lonely without quite knowing it, and by April the restlessness had come on him again. He bought a horse and set out through snowdrifts and spring mud on the road to the north. By the fifth of April, he had ridden through Taos and pushed on fifteen miles farther to the little Spanish village of Arroyo Hondo. Andrew hitched his exhausted horse to a post in the village’s tiny plaza, and was heading for the only posada and a drink when he saw Conchita.

She was sitting on the back seat of a covered spring wagon waiting for her mother, who was shopping, and the girl was alone except for the coachman, who snored lustily from beneath a forward-tilted sombrero.

Andrew stopped short with an unconscious exclamation. Conchita was beautiful, and her huge dark eyes were staring at him in naive astonishment, beneath the black lace of her mantilla which romantically shadowed her little face and glossy hair. But it was not her beauty, it was a mystical feeling of completion, as though he had been an empty vessel into which pure water had at last been allowed to flow. Between one second and the next, as he looked at Conchita, the vessel filled and the aching emptiness was gone.

She gave a faint, embarrassed smile and gently pulled her mantilla across her face. She had never seen a man anything like this one before, so big and ruddy, with his sunburned skin and hair the color of the red earth cliff behind the hacienda. Estranjero, she thought, Americano, perhaps, and this dismayed her, for her family and all the other Spaniards who lived up here in the Colorado country hated the Americans, who had conquered them three years ago after the shameful, inexplicable defeats in Old Mexico.

Then Conchita grew frightened, for the stranger kept on staring as though she were a miraculous vision, and if la madre came back and caught them like this, she would be very angry. But Conchita, too, found it impossible to look away, and her heart began to beat in slow, shaking thuds. For there at high noon in the sun-drenched plaza they began to say deep things to each other without sound, while the Gaelic and Spanish temperaments mingled in one trait, the capacity for swift, passionate love.

Suddenly he walked to the wagon and put his hand on the seat beside her with an imploring gesture. Tell me your name and where you live.

He spoke in such queer rough Spanish that it was her heart and not her brain that understood him. She glanced nervously at the driver, who still snored, then at the house across the plaza where her mother was buying silk just arrived from Chihuahua.

She leaned toward him, and as her mantilla brushed across his hand, he trembled. María de la Concepción Valdez y Peña, she whispered, Hacienda Alamosa, two miles down the arroyo.

She saw that he had not followed her quick Spanish and a look of straining disappointment came to his eyes so that she smiled and simplified it. I am Conchita Valdez, she said, touching her breast with a white ringless hand. I live at Hacienda Alamosa.

He nodded and started to tell her some of the crowding, impulsive things he must say to her, but she gave a little gasp, Mi madre! and turning her back on him shrank to the farthest part of the seat.

Andrew respected her fear because he loved her, though he had no interest in or respect for Spanish conventions, and he drew back into the shadow of the portale. Doña Eloisa Valdez had not noticed him. She was flushed with the heat of battle over the purchase of the silk, and pleased because she had bullied the shopkeeper into adding a length of gerga which would do very well on the floor of the small sala. She climbed heavily into the wagon beside her daughter, poked the coachman into wakefulness, and the mules trotted off, not, however, before Conchita, blushing, but unable to stop herself, had managed to look back once.

That look settled things for both of them.

Andrew, with a subtlety he had not known he possessed, checked his blunt, impatient nature and descended to subterfuge. That night he knocked at the great door of the Hacienda Alamosa, representing himself as an exhausted traveler from the wild Ute country up north, and in need of shelter. The Valdez, courteous and hospitable as were all the Spaniards, took him in and treated him with great kindness, especially after Don Diego had by tactful questions discovered that his guest was not one of the detested Americanos, but instead some peculiar variety of Anglo from across the sea with which the Spaniards had no special quarrel. Moreover, their mild interest in his medical knowledge turned to gratitude when he treated three of the Valdez peons for minor ailments. Don Diego urged him to stay with them as long as he could. My house and all I have is yours, amigo, said the fiery Don enthusiastically, and Andrew, unaccustomed to polite extravagances, was misled. He chafed because he was never alone with Conchita. Always her mother or a wizened old aunt materialized beside the girl when he tried to speak to her, but their love blazed in spite of the handicaps. After a week, Andrew could stand it no longer. He and Conchita had stolen one unchaperoned meeting in the shadow of a huge cottonwood beside the arroyo; he had held her at last in his arms and kissed her, and he saw no reason for waiting to ask her father for her. Conchita knew what the outcome would be, but she could not dissuade him.

Andrew was dumbfounded by the fury with which Don Diego received the proposal. "You have insulted my hospitality, gringo! Were you not in my house I would shoot you like a jacál!" shouted the Don, his face glistening.

Why should it be insulting to have me love your daughter? said Andrew, cursing his slow Spanish, and still too much bewildered by the courteous host’s transformation to be angry.

Jesús! cried the Don, casting his eyes to heaven, "he asks me why! Because, gringo, we Valdez are of the Spanish sangre azul, and you are nothing but an Anglo adventurer, without money or land, and a heretic as well."

My Scottish blood is as blue as yours, said Andrew sharply, and I can earn money by my profession to support Conchita.

Bah— said Don Diego, what is ‘Scottish’! what is a ‘profession’! I don’t know and I don’t wish to know. You will leave my house in an hour, Señor, and Conchita will marry Don Enriquez Mora from Rio Colorado next month as I have arranged.

It never occurred to the old don that his daughter was involved or indeed knew anything of the big red gringo’s monstrous proposal. It never occurred to him that she or any aristocratic Spanish girl might defy a father, so after Andrew had ridden off toward the village of Arroyo Hondo, no special watch was kept over her now that there was no longer a strange man in the house.

The lovers had made their plan in a desperate second of whispers, and two nights later, Conchita slipped from her home with only a shawl and the little figure of Our Lady of Guadalupe for luggage. She ran along the dark road to the village, the tears flowing down her face for the wrong she was doing her parents and conscience, but she had no doubts of her destiny. Andrew met her behind the ruined chapel on the hill, pulled her up before him on the horse, and they started on the long, hard road back to Santa Fe, pausing only at dawn the next day to be married by a sleepy priest at Ranchos de Taos.

There was no pursuit. Doña Eloisa filled the days with tears and lamentations, but Don Diego announced that his daughter was henceforth dead to him, and that no one might ever again mention her name in the hacienda.

The servants placed the black strips of mourning cloth above all the doors and windows, the pictures and mirrors were turned to the wall, and the Valdez held a solemn velorio as for a funeral.

The news of this reached Santa Fe a month later.

And so, my bonnie lassie, said Andrew in his broadest Scots and the gentle rueful humor he had never shown to another human being, the twain of us’re cut off from our pasts for aye, and we maunna greet about it, but gae staunchly forward into the future taegether-r.

She kissed him and smiled, understanding the sense, as she always understood him. They were living in the little house on San Francisco Street, and for eight months they were happy, an ecstatic unreasoning happiness granted to few lovers. Then, on that January night of Fey’s birth, the vessel which Conchita had filled for him emptied and shattered. Nor would it ever again be whole.

Padre Miguel had been making a parish call at a house on the Marcy Road and had seen the young doctor pass on his headlong rush to the Taos trail. The priest watched with troubled eyes. Now, he thought, comes a new stage, maybe good, maybe bad, but the sight of the baby has had some effect, and the man at least looks alive again. The padre was a simple man from the peon class; the type of priest common to New Mexico before the coming of Bishop Lamy and the reform; he had had no education beyond two years at the Seminary in Durango, but he was wise in the management of souls. While he chatted with his parishioners he watched through the open door to see Andrew come back; when after an hour he had not, the little padre got up sighing. He was hungry and thirsty; he thought of his own cool room where there awaited him a pot of chile con carne and a tall bottle of El Paso wine. Outside, the afternoon sun was pitiless. But he sighed again, put on his cape, and going to the street mounted his plump gray burro, Pancha, and turned her to the north.

A mile out of town he found Andrew sitting on the piñon stump and staring at a clump of sagebrush.

Well, my friend, called the padre cheerfully, pulling up his donkey, it’s good to see you out in the open. You’ve been shut up too long. Come home with me and we’ll have a little talk over a bottle of good wine.

Andrew looked up slowly, his gaze unfocused.

The padre frowned, but he went on patiently, Come, come, Señor—one must not go on forever biting the edge of a grief; this is the behavior of​—​he deliberately raised his voice—of a coward.

Andrew flushed; he got up from the piñon stump. No Cameron was ever called a coward!

Well, answered the padre, smiling, I have not called you one, my son. I but point out a possible basis for misunderstanding. Come home with me out of this dust and heat, and let’s have a talk.

So ye can have another whack at trying to conver-rt me, nae doot, said Andrew sourly in his own language, but the priest understood him.

He shrugged his shoulders under the black cape. I cannot see that you’ve had much comfort from your own creed, but we’ll not speak of that just now. Padre Miguel paused and dexterously flicked a fly from Pancha’s ear. He was considering the best method of dealing with this big truculent Scot. It was true, of course, that he hoped eventually to usher Andrew into the welcoming arms of the Faith, but his concern with this embittered soul had always sprung from pity as much as duty. As Conchita’s confessor, he alone, in the whole of Santa Fe, had known the tragic romance, and his sympathies had been moved by its outcome and the fate of the baby. The padre had a sentimental streak through his practical Latin soul, and he was human enough to enjoy the game of solving a psychological problem. Too, he knew that Andrew had been some kind of don in his own country, just as Conchita came from one of the best rico Spanish families in New Mexico, and to the son of illiterate peons this aristocratic tinge added luster.

You must get back into life, Señor, said the priest at last. You have a good trade, you are a médico.

Andrew laughed. A doctor nobody wants. A doctor whose patients die.

The priest’s eyes widened at the tone of the laugh and answer. Aha—he thought, now I begin to see.

Look, amigo, he said softly. Not the best midwife in the whole of Mexico could have saved Doña Conchita. I know. I have seen those hemorrhages happen before. It was the Will of God, and you must not torture yourself.

Andrew said nothing. He picked up his hat and, turning his back, began to walk down the road. The priest dug his heels into Pancha and trotted along beside his quarry. After a while he cleared his dry throat.

You know, he said to the side of Andrew’s head, over by the Rosario Chapel, there lives an old woman, María Ruiz, who has the strangest lump on her neck that I have ever seen. This lump is big as your fist and red as a chile—a most remarkable malady.

Andrew’s pace slackened a trifle, but he gave no sign of hearing.

Like all priests I have had to learn something of medicine, continued the padre; still, I have never seen anything at all like this lump. The poor María suffers much pain.

Get the army surgeon to look at it, then, said Andrew, without turning.

An American soldier! snorted the priest in real astonishment. Maybe he’s a good hombre, but María would rather keep her pain and her remarkable lump.

In silence Andrew continued to stride, and the padre continued to bounce along on Pancha until they passed the first adobe house on the outskirts of town.

Then Andrew spoke. Does the lump move beneath the skin when you touch it, or is it rigid?

Padre Miguel permitted himself a small secret smile. I don’t remember, amigo; my fingers are not trained. But there is an easy way to find out, after we sit in the cool for a while and drink our wine, he added hastily.

So it was through the kind heart of a little New Mexican priest that Andrew was persuaded back into a semblance of normal living. Some weeks later he successfully cut the tumor out of María Ruiz’s neck, and this feat gradually brought him a few patients. Not many, for Andrew’s brusque manner repelled the courteous Mexicans. Anyway, they saw little need for doctors. When one is sick, one lights a candle to Our Lady, one brews perhaps a few herbs, one goes to bed, and after a while one gets well. Or if not—then it is the Will of God.

As for the Americans, what few families there were outside the garrison were all of military connection and they had Doctor Simpson, their army surgeon. They knew nothing of Andrew.

Still, in time, with the padre’s help Andrew made his limping adjustment to reality, and a more complete adjustment to his baby—Fey. Not long after he had taken over the care of her, he yielded one night to an impulse. He wrote a brief, unemotional letter to his father, telling of his whereabouts, his marriage to Conchita, her death, and the birth of the baby. He did not refer to the circumstances of his exile; he made no mention of the stepmother; he kept to a dry recital of fact. But he hoped—and all through the following summer, while the wagon trains brought in regular mail, he haunted the little post-office on the plaza. There was never any answer.

Two

FEY WAS SEVEN when her father first discovered the child’s strange gift. They were still living in the little house on San Francisco Street, all alone together, except that Fey’s former nurse Ramona came in sometimes to help clean and cook.

On this May afternoon, Andrew came back from seeing a patient, one of the Saldivars who had a large house near the plaza and were of the rico class which he was never invited to visit. He had been called as a last resort at the suggestion of