The Beckoning Silence

Contents

Copyright Notice

List of Illustrations

1 Games on a dangerous stage

2 Intimations of mortality

3 High anxiety

4 Given wings to fly

5 The coldest dance

6 Rite of passage

7 Because it’s there

8 The stretched dream

9 The Eigerwand

10 Against the dying of the light

11 Heroes and fools

12 Touching history

13 Do nothing in haste

14 Look well to each step

15 The fatal storm

16 The happiness of a lifetime

17 Half silences

Acknowledgements

Selected Reading

List of Illustrations

Section 1

Joe cutting loose on Quietus Stanage Edge, Derbyshire

Ian Tattersall on the summit of Alpamayo

A ghostly face in the ridge watches over climbers following our tracks on Alpamayo

Joe on the top pitch of Bridalveil Falls.

Given wings to fly: Joe launches on a 56-kilometre cross-country flight in Brazil

Ray on Bridalveil Falls, Telluride, Colorado

Joe ice climbing in Vail, Colorado.

Rigid Designator, Vail, Colorado.

Joe climbing in Ouray Canyon, Colorado.

Section 2

'...the beckoning silence of great height.' Eiger North Face, September 2000.

Trudle and Anderl Heckmair with Joe and Ray. Kleine Scheidegg. September 2000.

Sedlmayr and Mehringer's names in the Hotel des Alpes Register, Grindelwald.

Joe, Anna Jossi and Alice Steuri, with the register, Grindelwald.

Joe beneath a sunset-washed Eigerwand.

(left) A sombre Ray packs for the climb. (right) A sobering reminder of previous attempts.

Joe climbing the Difficult Crack.

The face turns into a deadly trap after a violent storm.

Ray belaying as the storm sweeps in.

Joe crossing the Hinterstoisser Traverse during the storm.

Ray at the Swallow's Nest.

Ray dodging stone-fall while retreating across the Hinterstoisser Traverse

Alpenglow over the Scheidegg Wetterhorn.

Joe at the Swallows Nest

Joe retreating on the Hinterstoisser Traverse.

The North Face of the Eiger from the Kleine Scheidegg Hotel.

The Eiger looms above Kleine Scheidegg.

Section 3

The wildest dream: George and Ruth Mallory.

Moon rises over the Walker Spur. Grandes Jorasses, Chamonix. Photo by Bradford Washburn.

Chris Bonington cutting steps into the Spider on the first British ascent, 1962.

Don Whillans climbing the First Ice Field using an ice dagger.

Brian Nally retreating across the Second Ice Field after the death of his partner, Barry Brewster.

Carruthers and Moderegger on the Second Ice Field before they fell to their deaths.

Karl Mehringer and Max Sedlmayr waiting for good weather at the Hotel des Aples, Alpiglen, August 1935.

'We are deeply indebted to Frau Jossi for her hospitality. She was always there with a helping hand. From two poor climbers, with our warmest thanks.' Entry in the visitors' book of the Hotel des Alpes, Alpiglen.

'Bivouac on 21/8/35. Max Sedelmajr, Karl Mehringer, Munich. Munich H.T.G. Section Oberland.' In June 1976 a Czech rope found a cigarette tin with this yellow note on the Second Ice Field, 41 years after it was written. It was probably Mehringer who wrote the note, since he misspelled the name of his climbing companion.

A youthful Toni Kurz smiles back at us from the past. Alpiglen, 1936.

'If only the weather holds,' said Andreas Hinterstoisser to the photographer, Hans Jegerlehner. Unluckily for Hinterstoisser and Kurz, the weather did not hold. But that was only one reason for the disaster.

Austrians Heinrich Harrer and Fritz Kasparek and Germans Anderl Heckmair and Ludwig Vorg (left to right) on 24 July 1938 after the first ascent of the North Face of the Eiger.

Stefano Longhi, trapped above the Traverse of the Gods, waves to a passing plane. 'Fame! Freddo!' were his last desperate words.

Using a 370-metre steel cable, Corti is recovered from the face. This was the first time a climber had been rescued from the Eigerwand.

Section 4 - The Filming of the Beckoning Silence

Joe and Cubby Cuthbertson preparing to be filmed below the Stollenloch window.

Cubby about to be winched down to the Swallows Nest.

Joe on the 1st Icefield.

Tough filming conditions.

Roger Schaeli in costume as Toni Kurz.

Hinterstoiseer checks his digital camera while Kurtz calls home.

Toni Kurz gets 'frostbite' sprayed onto his left hand.

Kurz death scene.

Keith Partridge descending gingerly towards the Hinterstoisser Traverse.

Keith Partridge, mountain cameraman extraordinaire with the 1,000 foot high Rote Fluh looming behind him.

The team preparing to film rockfall sequences on the summit slopes of north flank of the Monch.

Joe waiting for the rockfall scene.

Joe filming at the Swallows Nest.

Joe descending for a piece to camera on the Hinterstoisser Traverse.

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The Beckoning Silence

by

Joe Simpson

Dedications

To Ian ‘Tat’ Tattersall

‘We miss you, kid.’

Climb if you will, but remember that courage and strength are naught without prudence, and that a momentary negligence may destroy the happiness of a lifetime. Do nothing in haste; look well to each step; and from the beginning think what may be the end.

Edward Whymper, Scrambles amongst the Alps

In memory of Matthew Hayes and Phillip O’Sullivan whose dream stretched to the very end.

1 Games on a dangerous stage

The ice was thin and loosely attached to the rock. I could see water streaming beneath the opaque layer undermining its strength. I glanced down to the left and saw Ian ‘Tat’ Tattersall hunched over, stamping his feet at the foot of the ice wall. He was cold and I was taking far too long. I could sense his impatience. This first pitch of Alea Jacta Est, a 500-foot grade V ice climb looming above the valley of La Grave in the Hautes Alpes, France, should have been relatively straightforward. It had felt desperately difficult and precarious.

I looked down at where I had placed my last ice screw in a boss of water ice protruding from a fractured and melting ice wall 35 feet below me. If I fell now I would drop 80 feet and I knew the ice screw would not hold me. The ice boss would shatter and it would be instantly ripped out. It had quickly become apparent that the route was in poor condition. Lower down I had found myself moving from solid ice onto a strange skim of water ice overlaying soft, sugary snow. It was just strong enough to hold my axe picks and crampon points but it would never hold an ice screw. Hoping for an improvement I had climbed higher and moved diagonally towards the right side of the wall. Then the ice began to resemble something more commonly found furring up the icebox in my fridge. I moved tentatively over rotten honeycombed water ice and onto frightening near-vertical slabs of rime ice – a feathery concoction of hoarfrost and loosely bonded powder snow. It was now impossible to down-climb safely and I tried to quell a rising tide of panic as I had headed gingerly towards the ice boss that was gleaming with a wet blue sheen near where a rock buttress bordered a rising curtain of ice.

As I twisted the ice screw into the boss, I watched in dismay as a filigree pattern of cracks spread through water ice. I saw water seeping out from beneath the fractures and stopped winding the screw. Clipping the rope to the screw I tried to ignore the fact that it was my first point of protection and that it wouldn’t hold my weight let alone a fall. If I fell, I knew that I would hit the ground from over 100 feet. I glanced back at Tat but he wasn’t looking at me. It was surprising how very lonely you can suddenly feel.

I moved up slowly, gently hooking my axe picks in melt holes in the ice, careful to pull down and not out. My right foot slipped away as wet ice sheared from the rock and I shuddered down, then stopped. I breathed deeply and stepped up again, forcing the single front-point of my crampons into a shallow crack in the rock and balancing on it as I reached higher and planted my axe into a marginally thicker layer of ice. There was a cracking noise as the ice flexed free of the underlying rock, then silence as it held my weight. I held my breath and pulled steadily on the axe shaft.

The route description mentioned a near-vertical wall of ice trending rightwards. I remembered the old adage about ice climbing which stated that 75-degree ice feels vertical and vertical ice seems overhanging. I felt physically strong but mentally my resolve had begun to crumble. It had been a slow, insidious leeching away of my confidence directly proportional to the height I gained. Above me a rock wall reared up and the ice curved into a short corner. I spotted a small piece of red tape poking out from beneath a fringe of wet snow. The belay, I thought with relief, protection, safety at last.

My spirits rose at the welcome sight and I made delicate moves up the ice wall until I was perched cautiously on the tips of my crampon points digging into a moustache of frozen moss and turf. I was alarmed to notice that the turf was not part of a rocky ledge but simply a tuft of vegetation glued to the rock wall. I reached up with my axe and carefully pushed the pick through the small loop of red tape. An experimental tug indicated that it was a solid anchor and I relaxed as the tension ebbed away.

‘I’ve found the belay,’ I shouted over my shoulder. There was no answer from below. I swept the dusting of snow from around the tape, hoping to reveal a couple of strong bolts. My heart sank as I saw two knife-blade pitons that had been driven half their length into a hairline crack in the rock. The tape had been tied off around the blades to reduce the outward leverage that would have been exerted if the eyes of the pitons had been clipped. I looked quickly around for some other protection to back up this worryingly feeble belay. There was nothing. No cracks for wires or pitons and the nearest ice was too thin and weak to take an ice screw.

I looked down past my boots. A rocky buttress plunged away beneath my crampon points. There was now a fall of over 150 feet if the two blade pegs ripped out. I began to feel nervous. A shout from below was muffled by the sound of a passing truck on the nearby road.

‘What?’ I yelled.

‘Are you safe?’ Tat yelled.

I glanced at the two pegs and my stomach tightened. This isn’t good, I told myself sternly. We’re on holiday. This is supposed to be fun!

‘I’m not sure,’ I muttered to myself, then leaned out and shouted. ‘OK, Tat. Be careful. The ice is crap and the belay isn’t much better.’

‘What?’

Great. He can’t hear me.

‘Climb!’ I yelled, trusting that Tat was too good a climber to fall off the pitch. When he reached the last ice screw and was in earshot I told him about the belay.

‘Is it in the right place?’ he asked.

‘Well, I think so, but having said that I was expecting bolts, so maybe not.’

‘Why didn’t you carry on?’ Tat asked. His tone was critical.

  ‘I was a long way above a bad runner, the ice was bad and I saw what I thought was the belay,’ I said, sharply angered that my efforts on the first pitch hadn’t been appreciated. I knew that to follow it with the security of a rope from above would have presented few problems to a climber of Tat’s skill but surely he must have noticed the poor ice and lack of protection?

‘I thought it was pretty hairy down there,’ I added, with a note of petulance in my voice. It had unnerved me and I felt embarrassed to have displayed such weakness. Tat remained unconvinced. ‘And I didn’t like the look of that,’ I added nodding at the vertical 20-foot rock corner draped on its left side with mushy, crumbling ice. In truth, I was scared. The pitch below had seemed insecure and although I had climbed it competently I had constantly been aware that it was much harder than it should have been. The conditions were deteriorating and the short corner looked horribly risky.

‘I don’t think this is in good nick,’ I said, as Tat climbed up to stand level with my feet.

‘No,’ Tat said as he examined the corner.

‘You’ll have to get a runner in before you try that,’ I cautioned. ‘Otherwise you will be falling directly onto the belay.’ I leaned to the side so Tat could see the knife blades.

‘Two pegs. What’s wrong with that?’

‘They’re tied off. I don’t even like putting my weight on them.’ I glanced at the drop to the foot of the climb. ‘They won’t hold a fall.’

Tat shrugged. He didn’t seem as concerned as I was. Maybe I’m being a wimp? Perhaps it’s not so bad? I reasoned to myself but the bluff didn’t work. I knew it was bad. I was climbing well, feeling strong, but doubts were crowding in on me. Trust your judgement. It’s your life.

I passed a bandolier with ice screws down to Tat. He swung it around his neck and moved to the left, making a long stride out with his boot to get his crampons onto the ice. A large plate of ice cracked off and tumbled down and over the buttress. I watched it, mesmerised, as it wheeled out into the sucking, empty space beneath my feet.

I tensed and grabbed Tat’s shoulder to steady him. He tried the stride again and I watched intently as he made precise, soft placements with his axes, weighted them, and shifted to the left until he could stand directly over his left foot. He made a perfunctory examination of the ice then reached up with his axe. Clearly there was no chance of placing an ice screw.

I shifted uneasily. Tat was tall and probably weighed 175 pounds. There was no way I could hold him without putting heavy force on the belay.

‘Gear, Tat,’ I said tensely.

‘I’ll look under that roof,’ he said and nodded towards where a small overhang of rock jutted from the rock corner. ‘There may be a crack underneath it.’

He lifted himself smoothly up on his right axe and braced the front-points of his right boot against the back of the rock corner. There was a cracking sound and Tat dropped down as the ice disintegrated and his left foot detached again. I gasped with shock and instantly braced for the fall. He stopped moving and calmly replaced the boot slightly higher.

‘Jesus, Tat, get some gear in.’

He said nothing.

I felt sick with anxiety. Tat was absorbed in the technical difficulty of climbing while I could only watch and worry and try not to think about the pitons. Any fall would kill us. An edgy hysteria was beginning to flood through me. This is bad. This is really bad. Yet I did nothing. I stared, transfixed by Tat’s movements, scarcely daring to breathe, trying to will his axes and crampon points to hold firm.

After what seemed an age I found myself looking directly upwards at the red plastic soles of Tat’s Footfang crampons. If he fell he might hit me. The impact would knock me off my frail stance. If he slid past me he would fall 20 feet straight onto my harness and then the belay. It would rip out. The frozen turf would not take the strain and the moment it collapsed I would lunge down onto the tied-off knife blades. Then we would be airborne.

I had immense respect for Tat’s ability as an ice climber. Indeed I deferred to him, happy to acknowledge his superior experience, although I would never admit this to him. I felt that I was more powerful and probably fitter than Tat but he had the cunning of vast experience and that was worth a great deal. We were climbing at the same standard and I was confident that I could accurately assess what we could and could not do. This now put me in an awkward position. I urgently wanted to tell him that he should back off, that the climb was in a very dangerous state, that it was too hard for him. But he was the leader. This was his pitch, his choice, and I would have to hope he would come to the same conclusion. I didn’t want to force the issue.

Another part of me wanted to scream at him to stop. What is this crap? This isn’t just about losing face. This is a bad call he’s making and you care more about your precious ego than you do about your life. We’re friends, for God’s sake. This isn’t some hero trip. Tell him. He won’t hold it against you. I kept silent. I was unsure whether the suggestion might antagonise him into continuing; the last thing I wanted.

‘Can you get anything in?’ I suggested anxiously. Tat was now level with the roof. His left arm was stretched above it, gripping his hammer. I could see that the pick was gripping a few millimetres of filmy ice glued to the left wall. He craned his head to the right and tried to peer under the roof. He let his ice axe dangle from his wrist leash and unclipping a bunch of wires from his harness he tried to fiddle a small metal chock into a crack that he had spotted beneath the roof. The strain on his left arm was making him breathe hard. I stared fixedly at crampon points, trying to anticipate them shooting into space. I doubted his pick placement was doing anything other that keeping him balanced. It would not hold his weight if his feet sheared off. The wired chock jammed and Tat tugged down hard to seat it into the thin crack. On his second pull it flew out and the sudden jerk nearly toppled him from his perch. I swore and jerked my left arm out as if somehow I thought I might be able to catch him.

‘It’s no good,’ Tat gasped. ‘The crack’s shallow.’

‘Will it take a peg?’

‘Doubt it,’ Tat muttered and I heard a hint of irritation in his voice. I knew that he wanted to go for the corner and make the four or five moves needed to reach where the ice was thicker. One good axe placement in that thick ice would be enough for him to haul himself to safety. I knew what he was thinking but I thought it too risky. I watched as he turned to face the wall rising left of the corner. He flipped his axe shaft into his right hand and lodged the pick on a tiny rock edge on the wall. He hauled gently at first and tried weighting the tool. The pick shot off and Tat jerked backwards. I flinched.

Anger began to flush away my fear. I wasn’t being given a choice. This is stupid. We could die on this. Just one slip and we’re gone.

‘Tat.’ He paid no attention. ‘Tat,’ I repeated sharply. ‘That’s it. I’m not giving you any more rope until you get a good piece in.’

He said nothing but I could sense from his head movement that he didn’t like the ultimatum. He turned again to the roof and again attempted to place the wire. It ripped free when he jerked on it. As I watched him struggle to stay in balance a shower of ice crystals pattered onto his shoulder. I looked up to see the air above us filled with a fine rain of ice particles. I knew that it meant that the sun had reached the top of the climb and that there would now be a steady fall of this granular ice. It posed no threat but it meant that conditions would only get worse as the sun heated the already melting ice.

‘I can do it,’ Tat said. ‘It’s only two moves …’

‘The ice is terrible, Tat. It’s pouring with water for God’s sake!’ He glanced over his shoulder at me. ‘Fuck it,’ I snapped, angry now. ‘If you fall we’re dead. Simple as that.’

‘I won’t fall, kid.’

‘I don’t want to die.’

‘I won’t fall.’

‘Maybe … maybe not,’ I shrugged. ‘I’m sorry. I’m not taking that risk. OK? I don’t want to do this. I don’t need this.’

Tat turned and looked speculatively up the corner and I felt even angrier that he might still be risking my life. What can you do if he insists? I mean, you can’t pull him off. That would kill us. If he insists, then you’ll have to un-rope. Jesus! Tell him that.

‘Tat?’ I said quietly, hearing the fear in my voice.

‘OK, OK …’ He carefully made a move down, lowering himself gently from his left axe. I breathed a sigh of release as he edged towards me. Within a few minutes he was back at the stance beneath where I stood.

‘Look, I’m sorry Tat,’ I said.

‘I thought it would go.’

‘Yeah, and I thought we would go.’ I glanced at the wash of ice particles showering my arms. ‘It’s way too late for this route anyway. It’s too hot. The top gully line would be falling apart.’

‘Can we abseil off those pegs?’ Tat ignored my explanation. I could see that he was disappointed but I could also detect an underlying anger. I was surprised, even though I knew how competitive Tat could be as a climber. I looked at the pegs and bent my legs until most of my body weight came onto them. They flexed.

‘Pretty flaky,’ I said. ‘But if we move slowly and smoothly they might hold.’

‘Can you back them up?’

‘No.’ I looked directly at him. ‘And unless you want to stand there untied you’ll come with me if they pull out.’

‘Right,’ Tat glanced at the small edge of crusty ice that he was standing on. ‘Well, I don’t trust this stuff. Here,’ he passed me a karabiner on a sling, ‘clip me in.’

‘Anyway,’ I said as I clipped the sling into the two knife-blade pegs, ‘I’ve never had an abseil fail yet.’ I grinned encouragingly at Tat who stared bleakly back at me.

‘I have,’ he said. ‘Twice.’

We sorted the ropes out in silence, knotting them together after threading them through the loop of red tape, untying from our harnesses, checking which colour rope to pull down, double-checking the pitons. It was a routine we had gone through countless times. We were methodical, efficiently calm. I was nervous about the pitons but said nothing. We had climbed ourselves into this position, now we had to get out of it.

‘Pull on green,’ I said as I lowered myself slowly onto the abseil rope, keeping it locked off on my belay plate. I stared intently at the pitons as they flexed and then stilled. I exhaled slowly. Tat grinned at my expression.

‘OK, pull on green,’ Tat echoed. ‘Careful, kid,’ he added in a gentle voice and I looked at him anxiously.

‘You too,’ I said as I slid down past him, concentrating on releasing the ropes smoothly. No jerks, no sudden stops to stress the weak anchors. I watched as the distance to the ground gradually lessened. When I was 80 feet above the snow slopes at the foot of the rocks I began to relax. It was survivable. A few minutes later my feet touched down and I unclipped from the ropes. A short tug on the green rope proved that it would pull down smoothly.

‘OK,’ I yelled, and watched Tat reach out for the ropes and clip his belay plate in place. I hurriedly moved away from the base of the rocks, feeling guilty as if I were betraying Tat by getting out of the way of his fall line. He’d kill you from that height, I reminded myself.

We trudged down the avalanche slopes, following our tracks to the road. As we packed the hardware, ropes and harnesses into the boot of the car and flung in our axes and crampons I was painfully aware of the silence between us.

I had let Tat down. I had ruined the climb for him by insisting that we retreat. Now that we were safely on the ground I began to question my decision. Maybe those pegs were OK? I mean they held the abseil. No. They would never have held a fall. I glanced at Tat as he drove up towards the village of La Grave.

‘Do you think the pegs would have held a fall?’ I asked.

‘No,’ Tat said bluntly.

Yet you were still prepared to carry on, to push it to the limit? I thought. Why not me?  The simple answer was because I was too scared. I didn’t have such blind faith in Tat’s ability.

‘I wouldn’t have fallen,’ Tat added, as if reading my thoughts. I said nothing.

A game of chess and several large beers on the sunny terrace of a café relaxed us sufficiently to begin talking about what had happened. Tat still seemed strangely reluctant to admit that it had been such a perilous enterprise – so much so that I began to have my own doubts. I wondered whether the frightening ice conditions on the first pitch had so unnerved me that by the time I found myself hanging on the knife blades I was psychologically defeated. Ice climbing is very much a head game and there is a fine balance between confident boldness and being in a blue funk.

Yet when I thought of my reasoning at the time it seemed irrefutable. I felt that I had made a sound mountaineering decision. I knew that one of the hardest things to learn is when to back off, when to retreat ready to fight another day. It was not a matter of injured pride, or cowardice.

I tried to explain this to Tat but he dismissed me with a smile.

‘I know all that,’ he said. ‘I was just disappointed … oh, and Check Mate!’

He happily knocked my King over with the base of his Queen. ‘Three – one in the La Grave Open,’ he added with a triumphantly raised forefinger.

‘Bugger,’ I muttered disconsolately.

‘And by the way, I’ve been thinking.’

‘Oh?’ I replied, apprehensive of whatever climbing adventure he was about to suggest. I knew our failure on the climb that morning would only have spurred him on to try better things. Tat couldn’t be put off that easily. ‘Let me guess.’ I said. ‘The Valley of the Devils?’

‘Oh no,’ Tat looked genuinely surprised. ‘I was thinking about this morning, about Alea Jacta Est.’

‘Really?’ I said warily.

‘Well, you were right about the conditions. We started too late and it was obviously deteriorating. Once the sun hit the top we were in trouble. Now if we get up really early, say five o’clock … five-thirty …’

‘Five-thirty?’ I was aghast. ‘This is a holiday, Tat …’

‘Well, OK, six then. We’ll grab a quick coffee for breakfast and we should be on the first pitch by seven …’

‘You want to try it again?’ I asked, taken aback.

‘It’ll be freezing hard at that time.’

‘That’s as may be but the ice conditions on the first pitch won’t change. It will still be cruddy sugar ice and the screws will be non-existent.’

‘One,’ Tat said. ‘You had one on the first pitch.’

‘That wouldn’t have held a falling fruit fly and you damn well know it.’

He grinned and nodded agreement. ‘Well, yes, that’s true, but you could lead that pitch again. You climbed it well, I thought. A bit slow, mind …’

‘A bit slow?’ I protested. ‘Of course I was bloody slow. It was falling apart.’

‘Yeah, but you never looked like falling did you? You were solid.’

‘Maybe not,’ I conceded, flattered by his praise.

‘You could do it again, no problem.’

‘But it’s a virtual solo without those screws,’ I complained. ‘And there’s no way it’s grade V. We’ve done stacks of climbs that hard, even harder, and that thing today was desperate. Grade VI more like and bloody serious, crap gear, crap ice …’

‘Yeah, but what a line,’ Tat enthused and pointed at the open guide-book. ‘Look at that couloir cutting through the top rock wall. It looks brilliant, doesn’t it?’

‘Yeah, it does actually,’ I agreed. ‘Rather like a Scottish line, isn’t it? And I’ll bet we can get good protection in those rock walls.’

‘Exactly, so it’s only that short bit that’s stopping us. We can do it.’ His enthusiasm was infectious and I could feel myself becoming intrigued and excited. Tat was an excellent persuader and he was right. It had been a disappointment to have retreated. We had a score to settle.

‘You’ve been on it now,’ Tat continued, sensing that I was weakening. ‘You know the score. You’ll be ready for it.’

‘Yeah, and I’ve been on those bloody tied-off knife blades.’

‘That’s what I’ve been thinking about,’ Tat leaned forward conspiratorially. ‘You see, I was above the roof and trying to put gear in underneath it. I was off balance and I couldn’t really see what I was doing. Tomorrow I’ll put the gear in before I