Hawa Ghasia

Morbid Reality

Paranoia rips through my head
Wonder what it’s like to be dead
Intense hatred all about
Left alone to figure it out
Truth and justice just a joke
Entire system just a hoax
Weakening with insecurity
No such thing as racial purity
Life and death become a game
Live or die it’s all the same
Lost my sense of morality
Got no place in reality
Got no point of reference
Got no religious preference
Must have really lost my mind
Time to leave this world behind
Heard too many lies
Afraid to close my eyes
Just don’t know what’s real
What’s the fucking deal?
Total darkness without a clue
Not much choice what can I do
Used to believe now I don’t
Make a difference you know I won’t
Product of my environment
Won’t live to see retirement
Fight while I’m still young and bold
Probably die before I’m old
With my back against the wall
What to do can’t take a fall
The heaviness is pressing down
Trying to force me to the ground
Can’t give up must somehow win
Can’t go through this hell again
Have to give it one more try
One more time before I die
Heard too many lies
Afraid to close my eyes
Just don’t know what’s real
What’s the fucking deal?
I can’t believe what I see
Only my thoughts are free