Captive

I want to scream sometimes, louder than passing traffic
Yet only I can hear, my silent noise
Everyday consumes me, each step I'm falling in
Imprisoned in my own choice
The phone's ringing every minute
PRE-CHORUS: So I try to take time, just to breathe for a minute
To find a silent breath I can call my own
So I try to give time one more quiet second
To find a silent breath I can call my own
CHORUS: And I know I choose to be, yet I feel I'm a captive of it
I make love to it, but I hate it
And I want to, but I'm scared of running away
To make love or to hate is all in my own hands
I suppose you always feel safe when you feel control
Yet under all I know, I'm never really in control
Time's my most intimate love, peace is the sister I dont have
Silent is pure sanctity, how I crave for you
PRE-CHORUS: So I try to take time, just to breathe for a minute
To find a silent breath I can call my own
So I try to give time one more quiet second
To find a silent breath I can call my own
CHORUS: And I know I choose to be, yet I feel I'm a captive of it
I make love to it, but I hate it
And I know I choose to be, yet I feel I'm a captive of you
And I make love to you, but I hate you
And I want to, but I'm scared of running away
To make love or to hate is all in my own hands
OUTRO: Yet the unknown breeds fear, my mother's breast seems miles away
You can be happy, you can be happy