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Aug. 24th, 2016 12:02 ami was on vacation a while (two of them!) and that was mostly great (the first better than the second but still i was lucky to do any of it) but now i'm back trying to focus on the real world.
i have long term... maybe not plans yet, but goals as a result of one of those trips, and i'm floundering on how to get going some. i've been poking at my resume, and will also be poking at linkedin, but there's always the question of "how good is good enough?" because perfect isn't happening. i'm hoping linkedin will at least give me ideas for holes in my resume itself, and the rest of the extra details i can keep there, but who knows.
it's past midnight, a relative died monday, and i have to get out working in the sun later this morning even though i've been emotionally done with summer since june. i think any coherency is gone right now.
i have long term... maybe not plans yet, but goals as a result of one of those trips, and i'm floundering on how to get going some. i've been poking at my resume, and will also be poking at linkedin, but there's always the question of "how good is good enough?" because perfect isn't happening. i'm hoping linkedin will at least give me ideas for holes in my resume itself, and the rest of the extra details i can keep there, but who knows.
it's past midnight, a relative died monday, and i have to get out working in the sun later this morning even though i've been emotionally done with summer since june. i think any coherency is gone right now.
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Mar. 13th, 2016 11:03 pmhi i had a birthday <3
i'm 28, and after weeks of forgetting my birthday didn't happen yet, now i keep forgetting it did happen
oops ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
i'm 28, and after weeks of forgetting my birthday didn't happen yet, now i keep forgetting it did happen
oops ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Mar. 5th, 2016 01:18 amThis weekend is extended family birthday celebrations, and I have this looming fear I'm going to get Questions about why I'm single, don't I want kids, where do I think my life is going, and I'm not sure how to answer that shit.
There are the true answers, but I don't know how much of a risk it would be to give them.
There are the answers I know would please them, but are wrong.
And then there are the answers that aren't really answers I fall back on when I don't want to talk about it.
Chances are high I'll go with the third, and the secrets I hold will burn away a little more of me.
eta.i need to fix that icon, but not tonight.
There are the true answers, but I don't know how much of a risk it would be to give them.
There are the answers I know would please them, but are wrong.
And then there are the answers that aren't really answers I fall back on when I don't want to talk about it.
Chances are high I'll go with the third, and the secrets I hold will burn away a little more of me.
eta.i need to fix that icon, but not tonight.
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Nov. 25th, 2015 04:30 pmI doubt I'm going to win Nano this year, and.
It feels weird, being okay with that, and realizing I made a bad choice of story, but still wanting to take whatever I do end up with and do the idea justice later.
I mean, yeah, I still have a few days and I'm going to try to get what I can, but it's not enough time, and I feel like I should have issued with that, and I don't.
brain, y so weird?
It feels weird, being okay with that, and realizing I made a bad choice of story, but still wanting to take whatever I do end up with and do the idea justice later.
I mean, yeah, I still have a few days and I'm going to try to get what I can, but it's not enough time, and I feel like I should have issued with that, and I don't.
brain, y so weird?
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Nov. 9th, 2015 11:07 pmThe story is going so. slow. this year. I guess that's what I get for trying to write something outside of my comfort zone with zero planning. One of these years I'm going to actually Have A Plan for Nano, but that year is not this year. I just keep inching along waiting for it to catch fire. The fact I want to take a nap probably isn't helping either. I want to go get coffee, but it's after 11 PM so no coffee for me. The fact I lost a decent chunk of writing time shopping didn't help, but I needed to replace a pair of shoes I killed so I wasn't jut out for fun.
I love how I'm trying to justify that to myself.
...I also love how I mentioned taking a nap at a time that counts as just going to bed. Though to be fair I didn't know what time it was.
Okay no more DW words.
I love how I'm trying to justify that to myself.
...I also love how I mentioned taking a nap at a time that counts as just going to bed. Though to be fair I didn't know what time it was.
Okay no more DW words.
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Nov. 5th, 2015 08:01 pmIf Nano does one thing, it's remind me that I should post to Dreamwidth. I don't quite know why.
I also don't quite know why I have a tendency to get sick at the beginning of November, but lo it is a thing that happens. it also means I'm a good few days behind--my words to write per day got to about 1812 at one point. So far I've wrestled that back down under 1800, but just barely.
I'm not entirely sure my story is a good Nano project because hi, fight scenes are not something I am quick or skilled at, and this story will have a lot of them. It's also the idea that won't leave my head, so w/e.
I need to go job hunting too, which I'm not particularly looking forward to.
sigh i have nothing interesting to write but i'll take being boring over stealing words from my novel
I also don't quite know why I have a tendency to get sick at the beginning of November, but lo it is a thing that happens. it also means I'm a good few days behind--my words to write per day got to about 1812 at one point. So far I've wrestled that back down under 1800, but just barely.
I'm not entirely sure my story is a good Nano project because hi, fight scenes are not something I am quick or skilled at, and this story will have a lot of them. It's also the idea that won't leave my head, so w/e.
I need to go job hunting too, which I'm not particularly looking forward to.
sigh i have nothing interesting to write but i'll take being boring over stealing words from my novel
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Nov. 24th, 2014 01:38 amStrange thing I didn't expect: being ambivalent about NaNo ending.
The facts are I'm at 43k and November is almost over, right. My words per day to finish on time is less than 900, and this is after things resetting at midnight. Theoretically, I can hit 50k on Wednesday if I push it, or possibly even Tuesday--I've had 3k days before, and two days of a little more than that will get me there.
On one hand, I'm just Over This. I need a break from spending so much of the day writing, because I'm not that fast of a typist. I want to do other things already: I want to play lots and lots of Minecraft, I want to watch videos on YouTube, I just want to get back to doing what I was doing before November started.
On the other hand, I don't want to end the story. (It's probably more a padded short story than a novel but w/e, it's fiction with a beginning and a middle, and it will have an end.) I get to the part where I need to wrap things up in the next, say, 7k to 10k words and I just. Freeze. I think it's that I don't want to leave the characters, but I'm still going to have them around, hell I'm going to flesh them out more than I have them in the story--because this is 100% seat-of-my-pants-I-literally-remembered-NaNo-on-November-1st writing.
I don't know. This is confusing and I mostly have to ignore it if I want to get that 50k+ and the discount on Scrivener. (I totally have to buy it but I really would prefer to do it at half price. Sigh.)
The facts are I'm at 43k and November is almost over, right. My words per day to finish on time is less than 900, and this is after things resetting at midnight. Theoretically, I can hit 50k on Wednesday if I push it, or possibly even Tuesday--I've had 3k days before, and two days of a little more than that will get me there.
On one hand, I'm just Over This. I need a break from spending so much of the day writing, because I'm not that fast of a typist. I want to do other things already: I want to play lots and lots of Minecraft, I want to watch videos on YouTube, I just want to get back to doing what I was doing before November started.
On the other hand, I don't want to end the story. (It's probably more a padded short story than a novel but w/e, it's fiction with a beginning and a middle, and it will have an end.) I get to the part where I need to wrap things up in the next, say, 7k to 10k words and I just. Freeze. I think it's that I don't want to leave the characters, but I'm still going to have them around, hell I'm going to flesh them out more than I have them in the story--because this is 100% seat-of-my-pants-I-literally-remembered-NaNo-on-November-1st writing.
I don't know. This is confusing and I mostly have to ignore it if I want to get that 50k+ and the discount on Scrivener. (I totally have to buy it but I really would prefer to do it at half price. Sigh.)
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Nov. 13th, 2014 11:10 pmYeah, my last post? Went horribly wrong. I did nothing on there when I was planning to do it.
I still hit 20k, but I did it like, yesterday. So on one hand I'm basically on track. On the other I blew what buffer I had in the last few days, and I sort of need one of at least two days, if my calculations are right. Part of my is like "you did it once you can do it again", but part of me is just *keyboard smash*, which is not helpful.
Plus, now there's the whole shopping issue, as follows: How am I going to go buy comic books? How am I going to go buy things downtown? How am I not going to freeze while doing so? How am I going to get it done while there's light? How am I not going to blow a whole writing day on this?
I dunno, plans tend to go wrong.
And I might have to talk to someone about buying an Expensive Thing this weekend anyway~~
Sob I'm just going to leave all that for next week.
I still hit 20k, but I did it like, yesterday. So on one hand I'm basically on track. On the other I blew what buffer I had in the last few days, and I sort of need one of at least two days, if my calculations are right. Part of my is like "you did it once you can do it again", but part of me is just *keyboard smash*, which is not helpful.
Plus, now there's the whole shopping issue, as follows: How am I going to go buy comic books? How am I going to go buy things downtown? How am I not going to freeze while doing so? How am I going to get it done while there's light? How am I not going to blow a whole writing day on this?
I dunno, plans tend to go wrong.
And I might have to talk to someone about buying an Expensive Thing this weekend anyway~~
Sob I'm just going to leave all that for next week.
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Nov. 10th, 2014 06:55 pmI'm pretty sure I hit the week two slump yesterday. And I spent a lot of today napping because I was in a bad mood. Oops.
Maybe I'll just stay up until I hit 20k, to feel like I'm accomplishing things.
That's like 3k away I can totally pull it off, it just might split be over two days because midnight comes too soon sometimes.
AND tomorrow's supposed to be warm so maybe I can go downtown for some retail therapy. Maybe I can even do it wearing shorts.
Maybe I can bootstrap myself into not thinking about anything beyond badass lady mages for a while.
(my nano novel is so self-indulgent it's hilarious and i mean that in the best, most literal sense.)
Maybe I'll just stay up until I hit 20k, to feel like I'm accomplishing things.
That's like 3k away I can totally pull it off, it just might split be over two days because midnight comes too soon sometimes.
AND tomorrow's supposed to be warm so maybe I can go downtown for some retail therapy. Maybe I can even do it wearing shorts.
Maybe I can bootstrap myself into not thinking about anything beyond badass lady mages for a while.
(my nano novel is so self-indulgent it's hilarious and i mean that in the best, most literal sense.)
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Nov. 3rd, 2014 05:45 pmI'm trying NaNoWriMo again.
For the... fourth? time I think. I'm not quite sure where I stashed all of my previous attempts, so this is based off of what files I can find and shaky memory of the rest. This is the first time I'm using Scrivener to do it, though, and it's definitely Very Shiny. At this point, I will probably buy it but I'm waiting for the off chance that I win Nano to get the better deal.
And I say off chance, because. Well, I was on track for the whole of a day. That's what starting the month with a cold will do. I'm hoping I'll be able to catchup in the next few days but who knows.
I'm also scheming the best possible time to invade my local comic book shop based on title release dates, but that's also a work in progress.
...I should probably eat something and go back to writing.
For the... fourth? time I think. I'm not quite sure where I stashed all of my previous attempts, so this is based off of what files I can find and shaky memory of the rest. This is the first time I'm using Scrivener to do it, though, and it's definitely Very Shiny. At this point, I will probably buy it but I'm waiting for the off chance that I win Nano to get the better deal.
And I say off chance, because. Well, I was on track for the whole of a day. That's what starting the month with a cold will do. I'm hoping I'll be able to catchup in the next few days but who knows.
I'm also scheming the best possible time to invade my local comic book shop based on title release dates, but that's also a work in progress.
...I should probably eat something and go back to writing.
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Mar. 10th, 2014 07:41 pmIf New Year's resolutions are valid, so are Birthday resolutions. Thus, I'm resolving to get more involved back here on Dreamwidth. I keep meaning to, here's the push to do it.
(I'm 26 today! It feels weird, more so than my past few birthdays have been.)
(I'm 26 today! It feels weird, more so than my past few birthdays have been.)
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