You know, how somethings sound like a really cool idea with your talking with friends and you have a beer in your hand.
Then if your actually move forward on that idea, that there is planning and preparation you have to do.
Then you wonder if your making the right decision.
Then your about to take that real first step forward, and the doubts fill your head and you wonder if your just about to make the worst decision of your life.
Then after you've committed yourself to the decision that all new feelings swell up inside of you and you realized that there is more to life than what you have known.
Then you stumble.
Self doubt, indecision, worries, elation, boredom , indifference, etc. All the while maintaining the status quo. Part of me wants to have sex like in the porn movies, but when I have a 20 something muscle kid sucking on my cock, its just not the same.
