The New Me ( After two years in hiatus)

Wow its been ages since i last blog about something...thank God I still remember my password to open the blog.

I don't know why I suddenly feel like blogging again..and I took quite sometime to read all my old entries. It feels great that I do wrote something about my life 2 years back..it was like a memories that I can recalled even though in real life, I almost forgot everything that I had done in the past.


Reading the old entries reminds me of those days when I was grieving over my long lost love. He had been there in my heart..for quite a long time until I believe that i should stop crying and grieving. For God's sake, he would never come back..we are not meant to be together. It took me quite some time to understand and accepted the fact. But I'm glad i did and I've moved on with my life. But still, it's funny to read all those stuff, of how emotional and stupid I've become at that time.


I'm going to be 25 next month..time really flies. I envy those friends who now becomes somebody's wife or mother..while I'm still me, still catching up with my boring life. It's not that they had great accomplishment in life, it's just that they have moved on to the next phase in life. Still, I don't measure happiness with all those things..for me, happiness is about doing the things you like/love, being with someone that will make you feel happy..be it your friends or family.



I am older and wiser now..and although my life was quite boring, I am grateful that I have a stable job..with little money of course but that doesn't keep me away from being happy. I'm saving some of the money for the future..because I don't really know what's going to happen in the near future.



I feel great to blog again...because it is about the story of my life. It's ok if no one wants to read whatever i wrote here in the page, but it was like my own journal that I wish to treasure. Because I don't have any time machine to go back to the past..so this is a way I cherished all the great memories I had in the past. Be it a small, trivial things...I'm glad I had those memories.


Ok, till we meet again in the next entry. I really wish that I could update the blog regularly, like I used to do. Praying hard for that.


XOXO.

Friendster - hamizah's Photos - volunteer for paralimpiad games

Friendster - hamizah's Photos - volunteer for paralimpiad games: "me n frens"

Nota buat sahabat

Lama rasanye x post new entry. aku busy sangat sebenarnya..tengah mark tutorials + report marketing yang banyak sebab aku aja 2 class utk semester 4. Pastu ak nak tanda re-do assignment budak sem 2 pulak. ak janji ngan budak2 ni nak kuarkan carry marks minggu dpn. hopefully mampula ak kuarkan. jgn janji tinggal janji je. heh.

Tapi post kali ni bukan pasal keje, hehe i had enough talking bout my endless job. This time around nak cakap pasal benda lain plak. dulu aku de sorang kawan..sgt2la close, sume benda aku cite kat die..well almost everything, aku trust die sangat. but in the end, skrg nie kitorang bukan je da x bercakap, malah langsung x berhubungan. aku try contact die, tapi x berbalas. kadang2 aku terfikir kenapa la boleh jadi sampai macam ni??

Tapi yang hati aku rasa ralat sangat, sebab sampai skrg walau apepun dia cakap kat aku, walau aku rasa sangat sedih dengar kata2 tu, tapi aku x pernah benci die. Aku masih anggap dia kawan aku dunia akhirat. Tapi die yang nak menjauhkan diri. Mungkin kehadiran aku cume mengganggu kebahagiaan dia skrg. Well, kalo itu yang die rasa, aku mmg nak mintak maaf sangat2 kat dia..sebab aku da sedar sekarang, dan aku xkan ulang lagi benda2 yang die x suka aku buat.

Sebenarnya, aku x suka sangat nak tulis hal2 ni dalam blog, but maybe this is the last medium yang boleh aku gunakan untuk sampaikan mesej kat kawan aku ni. Aku harap sangat die baca.
Mungkin persahabatan kita sampai sini je, tapi awak tetap salah sorang kawan baik saya. Yang ada di saat suka dan duka. Yang saya harapkan persahabatan kita sampai mati sebenarnya. Tapi kadang2 apa yang kita nak x semestinya kita kan dapat. Jadi saya bersyukur kerana ALLAH menemukan kita satu ketika dulu. Kalo ditakdirkan memang awak membenci saya, saya minta maaf banyak2 kat awak. Saya pun maafkan segala kesilapan awak. Kalo lepas ni saya da x cari awak lagi, saya nak awak tau yang bukan sebab saya benci awak. Tapi saya rasa biarlah keadaan reda dahulu. Satu hari kita pasti jumpa lagi. Tapi dalam suasana yang gembira..insyaAllah. Saya harap suatu hari awak akan maafkan saya. amin.

Manusia..

Rasa sgtla menyampah mendengar statement dari sorang makhluk tuhan nie.
Aku pon xtau apela masalah minah sorang nie..asal nampak je muka aku mesti nak ngadu benda yang sama. Kalau sedap dengar tu tak ape la jugak. Ni sikit2 aku jugak yang rasa tempiasnya.

Bikin ati aku panas je..tah la aku tak tau la pe masalah dia ngan aku, apa yang die tak puas hati tah. Kau tu dah lengkap serba serbi, rupa ada..cantik bergaya, kahwin ngan orang kaya..aku ni apa pon tak ada tapi aku bersyukur la apa aku ada sekarang.

Huhu lantak kau la..setiap kali kau ckp benda yang sama tu, aku kdg2 nak tergelak sendiri pun ada. Tapi dalam hati la..hahaha
Kau memang sama ngan mamat lagi sorang tu...patutla boleh jadi kawan baik.

Anyway, kau bagi pengajaran terbaik untuk aku hari ni..
Betul la orang kata, lebih baik diam dari kecoh tak bertempat..
Sebab apa yang keluar dari mulut kita akan reflect diri kita sendiri..and of course kebodohan kita sendiri..
I've learned a good lesson today..huhu

PADAN MUKA AKU..=(

Baru balik maen futsal kat Bandar Tech ngan officemates. Maen x seberapa pon..jd penonton je lebih. plg tak tahan on the way balik tu, boleh plak bantai langgar divider..adussss sakitnye ati ku. nasib baek x nampak obvious la kesan pelanggaran sempurna tu.heh.

Tapi kan, still ada scratch cket kat bawah tu..
Huuuuu..pejam mata jela hamizah oiiii...
Naseb ko la.
Tula gatal sangat nak kuar malam maen futsal..
Kesian kereta ku...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Huhu tp yg sebenarnya padan muka aku...tula,degil lagi..
=((((

Jiwa kacau + Berlagak Cool = Mereng

Huuu sangatla nak update blog..tapi xde masa dan xde cite best..sob..sob
What I can say now is, I'm moving forward..no turning back...

Keje, keje dan keje..sangatla bosan hidup ini..
Naseb baek dapat lepak dgn Huda kat McD berjam2 tadi. Walaupun keje tak siap...tapi aku happy!!!
Sebab aku tau keje tu memang xkan penah siap pon.
So take your time and relax..pastu buat muke cool..walaupun tak cool..hahaha.

Hamizah, hamizah...owh apela nak jadi ngan kau?? Makin menjadi2 plak malas kau nie..
Eh2..sebenarnye aku bkn malas, cume tak cukup masa nak buat semua..
Wished i had more than 24/7...
Huhu jiwa aku kacau skrg..kejap2 org tepon x pon sms aku tanye mcm2..tapi aku berlagak cool jugak layan sume orang..
Oh cepatla budak2 nie hantar report LI..aku mahu berehat..=(
Bukan aku x suka nak entertain korang..aku cuma penat n banyak sangat benda nak kena pikir..
Boleh mereng lama2 macam nie..

Owh sekarang aku wajib tido..esok masuk keje pukul 8 daaa...
Tomorrow will be a long day for me...walaupun keje menimbun x siap, tp muke mesti maintain cool esok..=D

p/s: Shah, kan bagus kalau aku betol2 cool mcm kau?? Mesti aman dunia kan...

In Love with Edward Cullen

Yes i know i kinda late posting this..the Twilight series was already out for quite sometime. The first movie of Twilight series is out on the cinema in 2008. The second series was released in the cinema on November/December 2009 or something like that..which i hardly remembers. But I do heard a lot about Edward Cullen back in 2008, but i dunno why..i haven't had any chance to watch the movie during that time.

Starting 2009 i was busy with my work, i almost forget about the movie...and in the end i heard that my friend Zahir has the Twilight vcd..and he also has the book as well. *Awesome*
I was like asking him to lend me the vcd for like a millionth times last year, but whenever i asked, he would say something like these..." I think i left it at Ramdan's house..i'll try to find it for you later ok. " Huhu okie dokie..and then i also forget about this and we keep having this same sort of conversation whenever we met. Pathetic. Haha. The thing is, his vcd is like no longer his..i heard that because he left it at Ramdan's, a lot of people borrowing the vcd and now I don't know where it is. same goes to Mr. Zahir i guess...haha zahir2...

So few days ago i was browsing on my brother's pc and found out that he has the movies..Twilight plus New Moon. OMG i 've been searching anywhere and he actually has it! haha. talk about being lame.

The first movie of the series, Twilight is awesome...i was in love with Edward Cullen and his entire family..haha i really like their weird expressions...and am still laughing bout how Bella's friend potrayed Dr. Cullen as a matchmaker just because of the weird family situation. haha everyone has a partner except for Edward..and thats all because he's actually waiting for Isabella Swan to appeared in his life. Owh..how i wished to be Bella and get to have a date with Mr. Vampire..*eyes drooled*

I dunno how to express the feeling..but i really like Edward..i guess Robbert Pattinson played the role very well..he has that charming nice smile that can melted everyone's heart..makes me wanna smile everytime i watch his cute face..=)

Weeeeee..i know i'm being corny and cheesy here, but trust me, who wouldn't fall in love with him??..he's a heartthrob ok!;p

But, i aso don't know why i don't really like New Moon..haha i think it's because Edward's appearance in the movie is so little compared to Bella and the Jacob guy. And I don't really like Jacob.. i think he's just interrupting in the whole scene. haha too bad i said this. And maybe because i don't really like men who loves to show off their body..with beared skin. OMG i hate it especially when it is Jacob. Things might be different if it was Edward..hehe ;p

Ok, finally i want to share with you people one of my favourite quote from the Twilight. I seriously don't know why..but the feeling that i had when watching this movie is fascinating..i'm loving it=)


Edward: And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…
Bella : What a stupid lamb
Edward: What a sick, masochistic lion.

(I really love this one, above all means..sangatla comey...its like the love of human and vampire..totally ridiculous..but existed in Twilight. haha)


p/s: Wish i can find my own version of Edward Cullen..anyone?? Cant't wait to watch another two movies from the series..Eclipse and Breaking Dawn..hope it was as good as the first movie *wink2*