scandinavia

it's 10.30 in the morning and I'm playing with pony action figures with my little cousins.
I keep wondering about the future,how it's going to be,
will I buy my house?
will I have kids?
lol.

the year is coming to an end,but i wish it lasts longer.
I've had so many firsts this year,so many but I still want to
experience more.

Riding is becoming fearful for me but I want to push myself to the limits.= )

It hurts

everytime I feel upset and long for something to be just because it's not,
it just takes me back to that day I left sydney.

I always put the blame on you when things aren't going well.

I need to go to korea.Need.
I've come a long way businesswise,I can say I am almost succesful.Almost.
Joo young.
There is no alternative to this life.
Alcohol is drank because it's a paradox.It's just like life,it hurts and pleasures at the same time.

I need a cure of this cancer.

Volna

It's happening tonight.
I'm afraid.
I don't know why.
He's got his hand on her hips all the time.

It's been so long,
would her sounds be recognizable?

I haven't walked around in the rain for a while.
Moscow Never Sleeps.

seven plus three equals ten.

alone we stand,united we fall.

i had a dream of making the most beautilful music in the world,
the kind of music anybody can relate to and feel that they are part of my life,
the kind that makes me feel like i am part of their life.

I got ditched by my bandmates but that turned out to be a blessing,
it inspired me to write more words unto paper.
I now stand aged 23 with almost a quarter century's worth of inspiration and experience.
It's time I share with the world what it has shared with me.

I'm travelling,through time and space searching for that one thing that will unite us all.
I believe that that is the only way I can unite the world.
When above all our differences,we can still have and share something in common,
I believe that we will be bonded even closer than we ever have been.

I think I've lost the need and want to be in love or be loved.
I feel that I cannot achieve all that I want to achieve if I have someone else who shares my life with me.
I also feel that at the end of everything,we need money.Loads of it.
I'll be taking the first step really soon.

bapak stim

to have your face in her thoughts,
at the same time have hers in yours,
to know that the gap between your fingers,
are there only so that her fingers can comfortably fit into them,
for her to know what your favourite colour,food.leisure activities and so on,
and for you to know the exact same things about her,that I yearn to know,

I am sad that it's not something that belongs to me,
yet at the same time,I am glad that it actually helps the world go round safe.
I am disappointed,but I've been through this so many times it's almost not surprising anymore.
God change the world soon.I want to enjoy all the time I can without being picked on
just because I am indian.

MY heart is very berry the weak

this world has changed alot since i started taking notice of it.
I remember how I grew up wanting to be a policeman.
Now that I've grown up,it's truly ironical how much I dislike the police today.

It's a world full of paradoxes and irony.
Christians preaching the word yet downloading music.
Boyfriends proclaiming their love for their girlfriends yet fucking someone else overseas.
Children telling their parents how much they love them yet dishonoring them in their social circles.

I love the blues.There is something so soothing about it.Something in it which understands me.
Something in it which I can respond to spontaneously.
I believe that one day The Blues will change the world.

I still want to win my Nobel Prize.I will win it in literature or in peace.This is my goal.
My circle of friends has changed so much in the past ten years.
Each and every one of them play such an important role in my life till today.

Today I really enjoy the company of this friend of mine,LiMik who works as an auditor.
It's awesome the way LiMik brings so much fun I've missed back into my life.
The peace and serenity LiMik brings is also very very appreciated and honored.

This whole post just doesn't give me the feeling I used to get when I used to write.It's as if the passion is gone or maybe it's just that I am tired.I feel that I am merely typing out sentences to fill a quota.
Somebody help me please.
I'm tired of the status quo everything is in.I need thrill,adventure and excitement.

I hope you don't mind.

I've found it again.
That feeling of wanting to belong.
Just waiting for it to change,
waiting for the right words to speak,
waiting for the right things to happen.

It will all be in time for us.
Auditors are full of life in a paradoxical way.

your love means everything to me.

I slipped away last night
Took me away from sight and the place I know.
All crushed upon my skin
This mess I put you in and the punch I thrown.

It was a strange reaction
For someone like you to remain on side
And in a chain reaction
I was down and calling for a place to hide.

I saw a broken arm
Machines will all break down in the way I know.
Mended and all made clean
I saw upon the screen all the stones I thrown.

It was a strange reaction
For someone like you to remain so sure
And in a chain reaction
I dissolve and break and then away I crawl

I wish we could be one

That way we'll all be free in the dreams we own

To try for what we want

I'd give up both my arms for this only chance.

It was a strange reaction
For someone like you to remain so sure
And in a chain reaction
I dissolve and break and then away I crawl

It's raining,raining.

Mungking sesetengahnya hanya sementara,

mungkin ia tak sepatutnya begini,

namun,siapa dapat agak ya?

Nampak ketara ke dilema di wajah aku?

Broken Hill isn't so broken after all

So much time passed by,I've been telling you things that have been happening since we parted.
for you to think that I would spoil it all over again is wrong.I don't think I would let even the way I
truly feel about things take you away from me.

Emotions are controllable.I can control them.I'm serious.
I'm still tempted to come and show you nothing will change the feelings,
but so much has changed with the way things are dealt with,especially feelings.

Look at me,after all these years,I'm still happy at the very sound of your voice,
there is no trace of anger or resentment.No matter how unfair you may think it
is,there will never come a time where I'd not break an arm for you.

There is truly only one thing I don't understand?Am I not worthy of being a friend that
you would go all out for?Why is it I can't share your sorrows with you?I'm am not friends with
you just so you can share only your meager amount of happiness.I truly yearn to know about,
understand and share both your ups and downs in life.

Note:This is a post made around the end of june 2009

It's a new year.There was a huge hype over the ending of the decade but to me,I guess it was just another day.It's surreal how one day can make such a small difference yet at the same time bring about huge changes.

It's irony I tell you,a paradox.

Today I was going through things in my life,I went through my whole 19th year of life.I think that year of my life is the happiest I've been so far.The freedom to do or say anything I want was given to me when that year begun.I touched so many lives in every way I could,and I let many lives touch me as well.I was almost carefree as well.

This past year has been horrible.It was the most worldy,selfish and unproductive year of my life.So after careful consideration,I've decided to make make a resolve,to never be that way again.

Financially,I've been blessed beyond measure by God and all his means,I wish that he could bless other people too.It still saddens me to see people unable to reach their full potential due to financial issues.

The peaceful religion,Islam has shown us what it's capable of doing as far as peace is concerned.

Anyway,I'm tired of this lifestyle with so much people in it.I want seclusion.I think time to myself is what I need.It's what most of us really need right now.