blahtungguingyky

Tooku Tooku Omoi hatenaku
Futari ga Mujaki ni waratteta
Ano koro ni modoreru nara

Konagona ni kudaketa
GLASS-zaiku no you na
Omoide no kakera wo atsumeteru
Daiji na mono wa itsudatte
Nakushite kara kizuku yo

Kimi ga inai sekai wa
Maru de JIGSAW PUZZLE
Eien ni kaketa mama mikansei
Dare ni mo kimi no kawari nante
Nareru hazu wa nai kara

Dou ka Dou ka Jikan wo tomete
Kimi no omokage wo kono mune ni kizandekure
Moshi mo Moshi mo Yurusareru nara
Subete wo gisei ni shite mo ii
Ano egao wo mou ichido

Genjitsu to iu kusari ni
Bokutachi wa tsunagarete
Yumemiru koto sae mo kanawazu ni
Soredemo sagashi-tsuzuketeru
Yami wo terasu hikari wo

Tooku Tooku Omoi hatenaku
Futari ga Mujaki ni waratteta ano koro e
Dou ka Dou ka Jikan wo tomete
Kimi no omokage wo kono mune ni kizandekure
Moshi mo Moshi mo Yurusareru nara
Subete wo gisei ni shite mo ii
Ano egao wo mou ichido


If you could decipher this?how are you doing?yes, you.no, not just you,all of you I mean.
I've got an exam in 5 hours time.I also have a splitting head ache.I think this is the second time in my life I am having a headache.

There's also the matter of me coughing up more and more blood(that thing in the pic up there is blood la,not what you usually see in a toilet bowl.).Ish,so everything-est la me.

Too much to cope with la here,sometimes I wish I didn't come back home.But,what we wish for isn't always what is best for us no?Tomorrow I am playing football for my course.Playing as goalkeeper.

Currently listening to continuum by john mayer while studying for my exam.can't sleep tonight though I really want to.Talking about sleep,anybody want to buy me a bed for christmas?Now I'm Japanese.When I tidur(sleep),I pull out my sleeping bag and sleep on it.=)

God's almost greatest invention,The Sleeping Bag.

This in chinese means "In all Cases".I assume it really means that lah.so,in all cases,I love all of you.Every single one of you,if you are reading this post by acident or whatsoeverreason,though I may never know you,may never lepak with you,may never yum cha with you,

I am sure I love you.

much,much love to all of you.=) much love.

are you still going to wait for me to return to eat spicy chicken?lol.tell me la in an anonymous comment or anyway possible.try and use the force la.=)

sorry la people,a tad bit emo.no,not emo.just realising how much love i've experienced.was going through chat histories and emails,that's why la. =) Internet is good.

Dreaming with a broken heart,when it's all gone,gone,gone.=)

Set Me Free

TO

almu my first friend.
Emerson my best enemy and brother.
Esther goh my brother sister
chong my nigga yap my childhood friend
mrs. ramani my educator
mrs.yap my stepmom
uncle william my king
wei-li my m1
wei-i my guitarist
jonathan and james my set of brothers
jason my alien
jolly my grandaughter
ziling my daughter
tse kai my son
prusso my captain
boon my bruce lee
suan my rosie
peay my kampung girl
fye my driver
deswyn my boss besar
gerrard my boss sederhana
wen lin my sister
wai yip my vice captain
jc my emerson
eraj my gurdian
winDatt my love
esther my kah yee
vallen,liya,tiqa,cyndi,mayvin my kakaks.
wee sim my doctor
sid my drummer
akmal my homo
mayz my big small sister
galvin my gorilla
bobek my hero
kwee jin my shitface
marvin my debtor
mustapha my habib
ali,boudy,khalifi,fachikh,julian,paul,rami my lebos.
bib my dhai
serena my dhi dhi
ryohei my yellow monkey
kuah my JEN<-----> HAN


i'm not sorry.=)
see you guys soon.

rod stewart

i came across this song and i think i can relate easily to it.
about somebody i could love too much too easily.
i do miss you,you know?

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And she's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lovely she's best
When it come to loving me she's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lovely she's best
When it come to loving me she's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
'cause if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
When it come to being lovely she's best
When it come to loving me she's the worst

blahtungguingyky

i was looking at somebody's pictures.
i thought to myself,why am I here in K.L...
what am I doing here instead of sydney.

I teared.That picture kept making me tear.
By giving her what she wanted,I lost in a noble way.
that's my "noble" prize? the way you spelt it.

i miss you everyday,
I ask myself how can i miss someone who's not there.
ask yourself how can you not miss someone who used to be there.

i'm still waiting.Still.

_________________________________________________

on the other hand,i had a bad case of food poisoning.almost died because of the pain.
thanks for all your prayers.

blahtungguingyky

hey..you should listen harder.can't you hear it calling out to you?

your last email hurt so much,too much that i never got to reading it till the end.I chose to assume you spoke the kindest words in the world at the end of that email.I hope you did.

today was the first time i spoke of everything that happened.I poured out everything to someone dear to me and that person posed a question to me.

"What is it you did that was wrong?"

i couldn't answer her properly.I assumed it was showing you love.Can YOU give me the answer to that?Just the answer in one sentence would do.

On your part,it it easy?To live like this?your well being is one of the few things i think about everyday.I met henry and someone else from ro4ck at chambers music today.When i got home someone sent me a song from some korean show called "full house".

everything that happens nowdays is somehow connected to something i seem to remember.
Remembering is the hard part.I cannot forget.I force myself to remember everything that was taken away from me when those emails were deleted.I have no choice but to remember everything.So much for wanting me to forget things.

I don't want you to show me love.i don't think I am capable of handling it.I never asked you to show me any love at all.

The things in your last email?they contradicted alot of things you have ever said to me.i have no choice but to believe the latest statements of yours.Like i told you,everything i did was to make you happy and you seemed happy.But your emails state they never affected you.I am sorry then for trespassing on you and your individualistic lifestyle.I did look to you for a sense of belonging and I got it.but you said that it was all fake?i left you so that you'd be happy,and you do seem happy now don't you? Powerhouse is more fun,hillsong is more open,you meet a hundred new people a week.It seems that every second i spent with you was against your will wasn't it?

I wish there is more i can do for you,but given the circumstances,I can't help myself and i could do with a neighbour now.

It's hard to face the fact that you are gone,just like that.before the end,one more question.Did you really care or was everything included in the "pity" you mentioned in your email?

again,my humanity is as frail as yours and please ,please forgive me for i really knew not what i did.

God bless you kah yee.

Is this what you call true love? a love that expects response?...It's false.

There was a girl whom i liked in my hometown,i thought i could do anything for her.This girl wanted a musical instrument so i worked hard and bought her one.But it was too late because by the time i did,she got a boyfriend,I was sad and i was angry but anyway,i gave her that instrument anyway.Because i thought the sound it made would express my deepest feelings.


The sound of silence is what it made.