Sohahahahahaaha

Christmas has come and gone.

Ryohei left.It was such a sad experience.I guess i finaly know what it's like to see someone you love leave your life.I miss him.From the moment i went down the escalator i missed him.I cried on the train trip back.I will make it a priority to go see him again.

Yuki spent her christmas god knows where.I was at a BBQ...on the sixth floor of an apartment.I don't know which idiot came up with the idea,but the sure did forget about winds being strong at that height.Paper cups and Paper plates were flying around.But the girls were pretty man.=)
bouhahahahahahahaahhaahhaha.Okay..i am not shallow.

I was a super gentleman at the bbq and before it.Seriously i was. Hahaha. most of the people there were church friends and we surely did have a good time.

Stupid monkey ryohei.The yellowest monkey available anywhere.
Tse Kai...there is a foos bar here in sydney.When i come back,the foos will be strong in me.


Aoi and I have a huge project going.We hope it works when it's done.


Mouhahahahahaha.
Bouhahahaahahaha.





On the other hand,I once again realise I am lonely.

owata

Merry Christmas people.

Only atsumi wished me,and yet still i have not recieved my life's first christmas present.

i went visiting my uncle's patients houses.A few people i knew from the surgery have died and the saddes thing would be is that Jack Blisset is dying.Can somebody pray for the old man?I like him alot and it would be sad to see someone as sane as him die.

I got people some presents already and as a result of that i am totally broke so you people better appreciate my presents.I will have to live on instant noodles for two weeks.My aunty bought the noodles.Lucky i have her here.

When i went to buy two bottles of wine as presents,the shopkeeper didn't want to believe i was above 18.I had to get some random guy on the street to buy it for me.He said merry christmas to me after buying the stuff for me.

I stuck a sticker on my guitar.It looks good.It looks really good.

i've given up on ultraman and pokemon and all that.I won't behave childishly anymore.

Think things over.Please.

How good is this pic?

She left for UK without telling me.

Idiot Marvin diverted my call to her phone.I hate filipinos now.

Potang Ina mo.

I am broke but not in debt.So it is okay.

I have a year's supply of Christmas Presents for me.

Rohan has a blog.Hahahaha.Yes,Rohan the Prick.

I miss her alot.I haven't seen her in some time.

I went through emails I have recieved in the past one year.

One BIG FCUK You to people who don't keep their promises.

Another BIGGER FCUK to you people who don't value my friendship because I value yours highly.


Note:FCUK=French Connection U.K.

a hard days night?

i want to be emo.just live alone,not caring for anybody.

now i understand where there are cold people,
where there are grumpy old men,
where there are emo people like sid,
why there are homosexual people like richard,
why there is suicide,
why there is no trust,
why the beatles broke up,
why friends fight,
why there are lonely people like me,
why there are heartbreaks...

i wish i could create a world where i could live in selfishly with the people i love.

sonna koto ii na

I've had to choose between doing so many [right and hard things] and [wrong and easy things].
Obviously,a self centered clown like me would choose to do the wrong and easy things.
Last night after walking them home,i took the train home and i was thinking to myself.thinking about why i do things for people.i don't know.it's because i love people.i love seeing people happy i guess.even if i don't know them.

ryohei is leaving a 3 days time.i already miss him.he's become the brother i never had.
Onichan.Hahaha.He hates it when i call him that.we went to a bar.(Ryohei,Mari,Yuki,Marvin and I).I think they had fun.I was troubled.They were talking stuff concerning themselves.Honestly,I felt out of place most of the time and after that we walked like idiots to Ramen Kan.It supposedly opens till late and when we reached there at 10.It was closing.Stupid idiots.

It's annoying when people treat me like a kid.I know i am 19 and i watch alot of cartoons.Seriously,when i act matured,you people won't like me.

I've not gone to church for some time.I've drank,I've smoked.When I told my cg people about it,they seemed abit unhappy about it.So i haven't gone to church since.Don't feel like going anyway.let them do what they want and i will do what i want.a few weeks ago i was at the church bus stop and someone tried to sell me marijuana.Hahah.First time i saw what it looked like.

Yuki's housemate is growing the stuff that guy tried to sell me at the church bus stop.
I haven't had proper conversations with many people.Suddenly feel like i've lost my friends.just have to make new friends.

i got an email after we went to the bar.I don't know.When i read that email,I feel happy.When I think about that email,I am troubled.It makes me feel like i am not good enough for anyone.
I know i cannot please everybody but i guess it's human nature to feel liked?

i think i'll just take some time out.Throw my phone away and live by myself for soem time.Don't bother about anybody.Just judge them by the bad things they do.That way i would be more informed about the way the world works.I met this random guy at the station last night and said something which made me think.

"you hear everyone telling you to do good and all that shit,but when you do good you still get screwed.So you might as well go with the world.treat other people like how they treat you."

that's what he said.He was drunk,but what he said made sense and he gave me a lift back home from the station.funny.i gave someone a lift from the station before.some random chinese guy.


there shall be no intevention on Nobi Nobita because he saves the world in the future.

Eleanor Rigby.

Eleanor rigby, picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been,
Lives in a dream.
Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door,
Who is it for.

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people where do they all belong?


Father mckenzie, writing the words to a sermon that no-one will hear,
No one comes near.
Look at him working, darning his socks in the night when nobodys there,
What does he care.

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people where do they all belong?

Ah,look at all the lonely people
Ah,look at all the lonely people

Eleanor rigby, died in the church and was buried along with her name,
Nobody came.
Father mckenzie, wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave,
No one was saved.

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people where do they all belong?

mozzy biting.

babi..tetek aku gatal....kena gigit nyamuk la. [danny punany] 13/12/2006 2.00 am.

random la.

i am moving into a studio apartment.
went for a christmas party last night.I got a cool present.So good.
As of now I have quarreled with a lot of people and those quarrels are mostly due to the
decisions I have made in my life here in sydney.

Decisions such as my way to pursue my religion,falling in love,choice of words and so on.

well I have two words for the world

Mou Diu.
tahu takpe.


danush:mou diu.
sid:pamtat betul la.
danush:why pamtat?
sid:because without pamtat cannot diu.
danush:Can la.I cannot show you but akmal can.=))
sid:pamtat don't give me funny ideas.

Mou Diu World.

I can believe what i want.
I can say what i want.
I can eat what i want.
I can go wherever i want.
I can drink what i want.
I can smoke what i want.
I can fall in love with whoever i want.

Mou Diu again.

she makes me feel like it's raining outside. : Blink 182

I walked her home and most of her make up had gone off.She looked pretty without stupid powder on her face.



Note* Mou:NO
Diu:Fuck

Mou Diu: don't give a fuck.(somewhat like that.)

pantat

Boyfriend and Girlfriend.

It's stupid that people here think that being somebody's girlfriend or boyfriend means that you have to have sex with that person.What happened to reserving yourself for marriage?

Stupid misconceptions and WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG with falling in love with someone whom is already in love?

eat shit world.
Jimmy eat world eat shit.


boku ha jibun no kimoti ga wakaranai

boku ha imamade ni nai kurai kimi no kotowo omotte iru

boku ha kimiga shiteiruyorimo zutto kimiga sukidesu


Those words are from pupus translated into japanese.Sidek asked me to translate so that we can conquer the japanese market.

screw you(plural)

hey... for all of you who think you've been by me..my ass la..


sid is the guy who has been by me the longest..
from making noise to making music..
misconceptions of apryl..

































sid didn't push me aside when he got a friend from national service...
sid didn't leave me because i went to assunta...
sid didn't leave me because he liked a girl....
sid didn't ignore me because i liked him..
sid didn't leave me because he found photography and some new friend...
sid didn't delete me of friendster because i told miss moey about people cheating in exams..
sid didn't leave my band because his mom thought we were satan worshiping...
sid didn't taunt me because i wasn't the same race as him..
sid didn't forget about me in his joy..
sid didn't forget about me existing to be his friend..
sid didn't stop talking to me because his boyfriend in New Zealand told him to...
sid didn't forget to drop me at the airport...
sid didn't not let my play football with him because i wasn't malay..
sid didn't not forget to sms me when i was lost in sungai chongkak because he was driving..
sid didn't stop talkign to me because his mom said i was a bad influence..
sid didn't stop talking to me because of STPM?
sid did not treat me differently because i wasn't christian
sid's brother didn't scream at me because i called him at dinner time
sid didn't choose some girl over me..
sid trusted me to teach him music..
sid didn't say i tried too hard to be a gentleman..
sid didn't say i need to come to church on sunday to be better..
sid came to my house to visit me..
sid sms' me...
sid was there...and sid says he'll continue to be there..


the rest of you..
just shut up and stop making false promises..



dedicated to sid softy..founding member



















Let There Be Love...Oasis of MBSSKL.
Lennon Mc Cartney of MBSSKL.
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you...yes you...i always thought you were busy with your studies...but your six month break has started..have you even messaged me even once?..

sid told me..when someone gets bored of you and don't want to have anything to do with you anymore,they drop you signs...guess it's true huh?
but I don't understand..how dare you do this after everything la?you have no right to be on the same level as those assuntarians..search yourself..

obliviate.

My Life in Aussie.

The public transportation where i live is annoying.Firstly,it's slow and unreliable,secondly,there are many unexpected finds in it which either make me want to not use the service,or not leave the service.

Like this one,my bus timetable.Tak boleh harap la.dah la the busses are infrequent,most of the time,not sometimes but most of the time they are late.

Sometimes when you wait for the bus...the babi punya driver berkutu dua juta doesn't stop...issh...so kesian the handsome,charming and intelligent malaysian young man who waits for the bus...

when you tie you ROTTWEILLER somewhere in the middle of the city,are you smart,stupid or just plain bodoh?
man some people really got no brains la....issh...



This is one of the good things in the train.A punk trying to do sudoku.Geng man...HEY BOSS TK...LENG MOU?

Also when the train tickets cost like 8 dollars for a return and nasi lemak is 6 dollars, who in their right mind would spend that much money?Especially someone with this kind of bank account.



But luckily for that price you can see some cute girls on the train la.Really cute ones.


Cute girls are girls who don't do this on the train.


Excellent example of Masculinity in the train.Sadly,the subject is a woman.
Potong Stim man.

Ayri Fiq

Episode 1.

Tse Kai is Lukewarm Skywalker.There are many reasons.let me state some.
He is neither smart nor stupid.He is neither hardworking nor lazy.He neither studies or wastess time.He has neither long hair or short hair.He is neither a man or woman.
The fact that he is not stupid or smart is greatly justified in the existence of his nickname "TK" which HE came up with for stupid people to call him.

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I called dhanniya to wish her for her birthday.The call was like so official.

Me:Hello,is this dhanniya?

She:Yes,who is this?

Me:Danush lah,Happy Birthday.

She:Thanks.Where are you now?

Me:Sydney.Studying.

She:Oh ok.Thanks.

Me:Bye. Hang up.

Geng man.I seriously have no communication skills whatsoever.I mean on the phone.Yet my phone bill can melambung.

Happy Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my muslim friends.Shopping Malls have already started decorating for christmas here.So nice.

My Christmas Wish List.

1.Ipod.(Not a fan la,but it looks nice)

2.To be windows vista tester(RC2)

3.Digital Camera.

4.Money

5.Gwen. =P

deprived

Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri and Happy Diwali.

Danush thinks malaysia has th ebest advertistments in the world.Especially the ones from petronas which are aired during Merdeka.

The saddest one i have watched was the letchumy and rokiah one.It's available on youtube.

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North Korea has nuclear weapons man!!!..Finaly!!!!!!
Next command and conquer north korea won't have black eagles...maybe black eagles with Nuke Missiles..Nyahahahah..*some ah beng came up with this..

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It's being able to pay attention to the small things.

It's a simple sms asking how you are.

It's a simple phone call.

It's at least picking up my call.

How i yearn for all these things.


Happy birthday amma,peay,ziling,rosie,wei-i,wei-li,duncan adam loke sooie hoe and dhanniya.
soooo many birthdays...so glad i am not in malaysia..if not pokai la..

Carmina Burana

the lady posted something on dreams.I have dreams.Just like everyone else.I think only becky(the liverpudlian) knows the full extent of my dreams.

I totaly agree with having sufficient proof of skills to show a talent instead of having a glossy certificate.It's nonsensical when peopel look down on others who do not have glossy certs la.

carmina burana is crazy man.it's like a whole concert.I've been listening to it for a few days and i've got a short video in mind to make out of the poem.the slow progress of the song is incredible and the using of the poem itself is a stroke of genius.the only thign more genius than the song and poem is the using of it for the carlton draught ad. =)

everyone seems to have a dslr suddenly.I will have to take out teh old nikon.Haha.people wait la..i will show you guys the skill of grainfull old proper photographs.

In canada all you eat is beef till you become fatter than me.

I really dislike sydney.It's such a hypocritical place.I miss Kuala Lumpur.

I really don't have anythign else to say for now.

Yesus Pokok

Paul andrew preached today.and i think the essence of his message today was closely related to the song "heart of worship".He also played this song by Tim Hughes man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NYahahhaahha i didn't know there were other people whom were tim hughes' fans.

this past few weeks i've been troubled la...and i don't know what's wrong..i'm just tired of all the fun that is emphasized at church..i don't want church to be a place where we gather to have fun.

sick and tired of all that hands raised...all that jumping and moving in the house of God...all that hanging out....what's wrong with a little bit of quite worship la? A small prayer meeeting?..who cares if we go all out to bring people to church? who cares if we sacrifice our time to do things for church...who cares la?nobody.


revelations chapter 2
1-To the angel of the church in Ephesus write: These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands:
2-I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false.
3-You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.
4-Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love.

do all the good things in the world la..forsake all your belongings la..spend all your time in church la..
WHO cares la...what is the point of doing all that if we forsake our first love?..HE still holds it against us..


imagine channelign our energy and efforst into all thigns church but forsakign our loved one...when we reach the end of days...God is just going to put us outside heaven....we won't get to spend eternity with Him...and liek Paul said...God will say :depart from me,I have never known you..

scarry la..
i miss ypf...i miss fga....all those little little prayer meetings we use to have...they meant so much...such small amounts of time...yet such a huge relation built between God..and us..the unworthies...

i don't want to depart from His presence..not ever...

i keep listening to this song that Alvin used to play in prayer meetings...Be magnified..
I love God.

I regret not being able to be part of YPF overnight meeting...

Alvin...you better pray for me okay...don't be a useless youth advisor and not pray for me..

running after you...yeah...=)

prayer meetings rock...

(flashback)

I was walkign from train station to church..seriously burdened with a lot of problems...and i felt so heavy....and when i walked in..meeting was on...i joined la..then aunty ai ling just came and put her hands on my shoulder and aunty mei lign joined her and they prayed for me...an di was in tears la...right after that...no more heaviness...Fuiyo man. =)

yosh

0-SU!!!

what happens when you get three weeks break from school and all you do is work and watch emo japanese movies.

sad man..........so saaad..........
sorry for the long absense.

take care guys.

the force is strong in this one

wooooo...long time la.=)

well my malaysia trip is cancelled.what a shame la.i guess i will use the money and go see esther in adelaide.pokai la.tpday i watched slam dunk.yes all 101 episodes and i watched initial d the movie as well.hahaha.semangat lerr?.

i also taught this singaporean girl how to say "syoking-menoking"
another aunt and cousin sister moved in with us now.The place is sucking even more.i don't speak to them and they don't speak to mem.

i am at church or somehow doing something related to church almost everyday.except monday la.playing guitar now.in church i mean. now that is syoking-menoking.

elysse is already two years old.my goodness.i remember when she was just cherry tomato girl.=) so fast la my little darling grow up.
i need new shoes.my shoes now are a disgrace la.=)like crocodile already.

norika fujiwara is so.....dunno what to say....somewhere like assunta girls...hahah.talk about assunta girls.



don't read if you are a girl and you get offended easily.


i called akmal..talk..then i told him i was talking to an assunta girl before i called him and he said "buat apa ini kacau anak dara orang malam malam..."thne i replied eh brader...ini assunta la...dara kepala bapak kau....and akmal said"oh oh oh oh..sorry dah lupa la.."

cold la here.my body hurts alot.guess what wei? gu aplaying basketball now.....six years never play.now play body sakit like crap la..

okay okay...sekarang gua mahu tido ya...bye bye.

yosh

Another ten weeks till "noise" enters Tanahairku.

MERDEKA!!!

as much as i love my country i hate it.

"racial discrimination as an official government policy"
Malaysia falls under that category in wikipedia.What a superb grouping.

Screw you clowns la.(whoever came up with the idea for racial segregation.)
Kepala BAPAK KORANG LA...

Esther

I am sure you guys know how much an Anti Ivy Pow-er I used to be.Prussy and I were talking about this and ironically look at gwen.Deng.Prussy said God is punishing my because of my Anti Ivy Pow-ism.

hahaha.I miss home,miss you guys and i miss football.I haven't played one match since i came here.

LIVERPOOL WON!.CHELSKI PERGI MATI!

my leg hurts alot.haihs.Pn.Gan BONGOK!! TOYOL!!! BAHLUL!! BOHYAN!!!
STPM is near la.Study.

I will be back home in 11 weeks.It's going to pass really fast.I can't wait.For the next 11 weeks i cannot spend too much.I need to keep the money for Malaysia wei.Hahaha.We will have a trip from north to south.Hahaha.Conquer Malaysia.Cuti-Cuti Malaysia.


To the Politicians of Malaysia.
Please learn how to lead by example.Who goes around having Rukun Negara,Constitutions and many more multi cultural aspects in governing but ironicaly do not practise them?
Funny people la you guys.

Kembar Jepun

The Twins.



The older twin,the older sister and Mom.

these pictures were uploaded for wei-i's sake.

habibi

I know my God saved the day,I know His word never fails and I know My God made a way for me.

loneliness is nothing.It doesn't exist.I managed to grasp the meaning of that statement this week.I sat down and prayed and God showed His power.I have friends.
This place is indeed my home now.I feel at home.


On the other hand i need you emerson to read galatians 1:10. I can't be by your side forever.There will come a time when you'd go too wrong.Read the verse.I'll have to keep to the word bro.don't let things go that far.

I am truly a living testimony of the power and glory of God.

I really really love Him alot.

Esther!!!!!!!!! let barking dogs bark.There are better people in the world.

Michelle is truly malaysian...she FFK-ed me...only juhee came to church..jason appeared as well..
Juhee is coming next week again.

God is great lerr...

miskin

God is superb la.=)

I am volunteer on the bus for church.I finally get to use my gift of the Gab for a good reason.Everyone who comes in the bus is always surprised.I speak to the indonesians and malaysians in our language,to the hong kees in theirs,to the japanese in theirs,to the koreans in theirs and to the aussies,in theirs as well.Power.

Tomorrow is sunday Service.I managed to get two people to follow me.Juhee and Michelle.I met Michelle today at church.On the bus,when it broke down(i know,it's an old bus).Michelle is from Miri!!!!
hahaha. Pretty wei,but got one turn off la..She speaks with that Ah lian accent.WAIT people..I am not lusting.
We had dinner after church la.Went to Ichi Ban Boshi and had Karaage Don while she ate some ramen with pork.She shared with Tomoe(My Japanese Service Friend).Mustapha died trying to eat his Vegetable Ramen.It was good....but a bit too much in quantity for him.

On the other hand,Juhee is korean and she goes to the same uni as me.She speaks korean and japanese and she is learning english in Uni.

I want to sell my Motorazr v3x.
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Sad la...Hikaru is going back to japan this coming tuesday.Sad...yerrr...unfair la.
Hikaru got baptised two weeks ago.Power la She.


I am well fed and happy here now.
I hate the taxation office.The deep pockets people haven't given me my tax return yet.

pooooor.

owarimasu

i've been posting alot of rubbish here lately...about time i post something honest la..


I miss all of you...really alot...and it's really hard la..to not be able to see you guys as often as i used too..just take the bike and ride to your houses..haihs...i cannot wait for the holidays to come...when it comes..i'll be out of australia faster than sadam went into hiding..then we'll have all teh time in the world to us..at least for 3 months..and to be able to see her..wahlau...can hide outisde her house..then Skodeng(it means spy in street malay)...
hahahah..like some pervert la...but at least almu and sid will be with me...the rest of you can study for yoru STPM la..Hahhahah

i can't wait to play football again...show my crossing skills to athes...beat devan..and score against wai keat...hahahha

BMA forever...haihs..one day we must start BMA FC la...here in aussie i think can la..hahaha
don't allow white people to join it..
Emerson still hasn't come here..

Athes is having a bbq....Tse Kai and I are not going..haihs..that clown has a new wgheow la..didn't tell me also..what happened to lai man?
deng..pruss...you still get those phone calls from that girl aR?
hahahah
if you all stay over tonight...you all know what to do with chin heng ar..Hahahah
haihs..all those memories are wonderful la..i have a video of me kicking meng kheng in his balls in mid air..

Priceless la..=)...talk about priceless....i have a project regarding that...hahah will show you guys soon...

and ypf...my saturday getaway from the material world...i miss that too..all the music and all the making fun of alvin not being married yet..if alvin gets married...i will buy a christiano ronaldo jersey and wear it for a week by the way...and i will also buy a chelski scarf...hahhaah

I miss all our jamming sessions...my band..al the driving around...haihs...it means so much la..being able to live our lives without takign note of pressure...that's what i am goign to do after studying...study..get my degree...and start a business....and i won't work there...just travel the world...write a book maybe....hahahah..nice la..

Mahathir and Badawi needs two good kicks up their malay arses....stupid...Orang melayu that don't set a good example for the rest....Sami vellu no need to say la..keling nombor satu...babi..send him back to india la..

i am sick la..the few days...got flu...cos wlak in the rain in winter...try to act macho in front of girls..then kena flu...haihs..make me feel like boon and galvin la..act macho in front of girls...

i am being paid to design websites and make newsletters...a whole load of money la..I hate Mc donalds..i wish ic ould quit that job la..babi...if i quit..i can't buy ice cream at dirt cheap prices anymore..

ahahah...decisions..decisions...decisions....

yoshie left for japan edi...another sad thing...babi la..the twins mom also left....martin is leaving for germany this tuesday...shoko is leaving for japan on the same day...babi la...i guess i won't be seeing them for a long long time la..haihs...

somebody give me hug please...a bit lonely la here..no calls..no chicken rice....
i can't feel the chicken...i can't feel the nasi goreng USA...i can't feel my George...
GEORGE!!! where are you?

haihs.....

Stupid Israeli people la..they call themselves the chosen people of God..and look at what they are doing...ass clowns...mak bapak tak ajar orang yahudi ini la...bodoh...

Masak Masak: The Game

For one day,I was Chef!!!

hahah...i managed to show my culinary skills on sunday.Power or not?

well after church we decided to go to the market and buy somethings to cook for later la..
so we went..then ended up buying potatoes,curry mix,chicken,and veges.....

* i had nothing to do with teh veges.

after that we went to the twin's house and cook.WAHAHAHAHAH,

Cooking Master Boy!!!!

My chicken curry with potatos was a super hit la..they said it tastes even better than the Japanese Curry they served once at church.

Power lerr?

so now who wants me to cook for them when i come back?

sorry la..no pics..my phone punya software hilang la..cannot connect to computer la..haihs..

Paintball Service Provider.

Promises are made with the intention making a verbal deal which will not be broken no matter what the circumstances.

It's amazing,I got FOUR broken in ONE day.

Goodness,what more could a person want?

I have all the right to sound sarcastic,arrogant,boastful,angry and anything else.
If you break the promise by accident,understandable lah but not any other way.

I doubt he will come lah.I hope it's not another one of those promises.
you people don't know how much you mean to me.

by the way,yeah,this post is about every one of you.


another thing wei people...

IT'S NOT FATALLY HARD TO SEND ME AN SMS FROM MALAYSIA.
Communication doesn't work one way you know?

all we need is love.

Hey Jude. =) hahaha

I found my peace here.It's my church.The BEST thing here ever.I am training the japanese people here to be maalysian.You guys won't believe the amount of malaysian(MBSSKL) culture they can absorb.

So my gang now is made up of Mustapha,Marvin,Shoko,Yayoi,Chiaki and Chihiro.Quite a large number of people.The Japanese people come from Okinawa except for Shoko who comes from Akita.So the Okinawa people are quite Malaysian...LAH!

Shoko San has the Cutest Umbrella i have ever seen.It's sort of penguin shaped.

It's extremely annoying when you get your earnings taxed by 49.56%.It happened to me until this week.Luckily i get back the money in July,but still,I am pennyless at the moment.At least until Tuesday.

Church is awesome.It will be better this week because the Twins' Mother is coming from okinawa. =)I think their mom should be a Beatle Fan.For all I know,she could have been part of Beatlemania.
*Note to self ,Ask Tokuzato San about Beatlemania in Japan.

It is freezing here.I want to dive in the pool.Make my self look like a Jackass.
I am rarely at home.I spend most of my time in work or the city hanging out with my friends or by myself in Kinokuniya reading books.I go around anime and hobby shops as well and a trip to darling harbour with any one of them is necessary everyday.Psycho.

Going off to watch my Dead Poets Society.Watched it a long tiem ago but i was too young to undrestand it.So yeah...also going to airport tomorrow morning to pick up their mother.
Bye Bye.All Hail England. and God. =)

misconceptions of apryl.

ah sou blogged about cream roses...

yerr...aku emo...hahah

she said

12 cream roses
1 bottle of champagne
1 diamond ring
1 box of ferrero rocher

yerr...bodohnya aku..

esther blogged about her leaving that place.well i guess she understands how i felt kua.

i am working around 30 hours this week.Working more next week kua.sakit badan la...yerr...

i had fun at church.=))

Harga Tak Terhingga

I've been making enemies with a lot of people...not making enemies really..shit..i am contradictive...
well kind of ruining friendships la...because of the things i say i guess...

the only thing that is redeeming me of this friendless state is t he fact that emerson is coming and my fellow cyclist.=)

Today after work i packed the extra food..then walk around the city and gave the homeless food.
nice la.

HEY YOU!
yeah..you..call me or sms me or something la.
She's writting poems.i don't believe a single word in anythign she writes la.It's freaking annoying you know...she tells them the same stuff she told me.Guess they will start feeling like me after some time...

I learnt that in china and hong kong, Ho-lok is not the term they use to refer to coca cola.

I still find it annoying la..the poems and all that..or maybe she will treat them differently than how she treated me...deng..that would be more annoying kua...

Random Statement:

the person whom i like the most in the bible is John the Baptist la.Power la he. =)

bleach la..

heys

Emerson is coming here in a few weeks time.Finally,lonely no more...yucks...that sounds like rob thomas' song...i hate rob thomas..poser..POP artist..

I've been cycling alot in the city lately and the whole of sydney are against cyclist at the moment.It's something to do about them using the roads.Well,because of that,wherever i go,I get saluted by fellow cyclists.Hahaha. =) Power la.

she came here the other day.The both of them were different.I don't know why.

Emerson has a new pet,It's a praying mantis.It's name is sembahyang. =)
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

boku no tomodachi ga itsumademo mamorinuku da .

Aussie won against Japan.Stupid Suckeroos.The whole of aussie will brag today la...haihs..
Will apply for scholarship to go to San Francisco.Wahaha.Whether i get or not..who knows...Hope they find my SAT results appealing.Nyahahaha.

Elysse has long hair. Unfair.Even i don't have long hair.

now we're here but whe don't know why.

these past few weeks have been really horrible and there were times when i just sit and cry but who cares la? hahahah..

yesterday two people shared something really really nice with me. =) I feel so happy la.=))))
Emerson.WAhahahahaha.Power la.Brothers by birth till afterlife.

I am happy like nobody's business.Seriously.
I can't wait till November.I get to go home and see emerson.=) AND Dik as well. =))

SO SO happy..I think if i had a little bit of fairy dust,I'd be able to fly to Neverland...NO,not Micheal Jackson's place..Peter Pan's place la..deng..

Birds of a feather-Danush.
Flock Together,Hopefully till the end of time-Sourchillies punya Author.

shy away from affection

Sometimes certain persons aren't meant to stay,just to linger.It's abit hard to except but everything that happens,definitely happens for the better even if directly not visible.It's like the parable of the seeds which were sown.The situation is the seeds and our hearts are teh land on which it fell unto.The ones who manage to accept the changes made by God to our lifes and make good use of it are those which hearts are like the good ground on which the seeds fell.But not everyone is capable of that.I certainly am not.

I guess that's why i feel lonely and depressed and what not la..deng...and now,she's gone...a bit the heart aching la..deng..
I feel lonely..i've changed my course..and planning to move out in a few months..looking for another job..working at one place is just not enough..i miss ypf..

I am contended la..i cannot ask for more..i dare not actually..=))

it's just that i cannot cope when some people are just meant to linger..it's a bit the menyakitkan hati..(heart ache:for my international readers)
My best friend in the city is old vicky..it's a statue of Queen Victoria in front of Town Hall..just sit below her and lament la..

My sister said i can borrow her car to go brign esther to sydney for Christmas.=)
It's the best thing so far.=)

everybody has a theory for this world and it's activities..
mine is that everythign here is of no importance..so i don't need a theory about it kua..

Tahi..

I went to church yesterday,with shoko and marvin..I went to the hillsongs city church...the service there was superb la..really superb...i am going to go there every week...A pizza man came in to deliver a pizze to the preacher and ahah..eh got a tip...2 dollars from the speaker..and everyoen else tipped him...even me..ahha..he had to carry all his tips out in the tithe bucket...power la..=))

this friday i am going to powerhouse..will ask kwan shian to come with me.. haihs..i miss home..i might not move out of my aunty's house la..go live in the city near my college..

Esther is at camp,shenis studying,Emerson is somewhere,Mayz is short. =) and not to mention lovely.=)

I still remember..i had her tiramisu cake for her "Farewell" ( of which she came back home inn 4 weeks)....wah..her tiramisu made me go toilet ....and i could smell the cake even after it came out of my anus...wah....power lerr?

I am becoming a different person la now..i hate this change..I cannot change and I should not change..I dreamt about little elysse today..

maki maki

no sms at all for these past few days..I feel lonely..
exams la..this la..that la..
I was going through some conversations i've saved...conversations i've had with people whom i love dearly..It hurs la..to see where we stand now,after the things we've said,It's ironic that we seldom appear before each other as means of comfort..

I am sure it's not my fault,I try my best,I put you people,My Friends as my priority but i don't know la..things just don't work out..I just wish i find just one friend who would treat me the way he or she would treat his or herself..I miss that phrase..yi hei...

Esther's at camp..Emerson has just disappeared la..who else is left la?

somebody call me,please...my fingers have been bleeding on my guitar...it gets really sad and scarry when i become lonely...the weather is too cold as well..

panjat lif...

The last weekend,I went to the blue mountains.Syokign Menoking wei. =))
Went rock climbing and all..hahahha.....ironically,I am afraid of heights..
Last night I called peay pei and my 100% genetically certified daughter.(Ziling)I missed them and I needed company.I called Shen too...hahah..

I was imagining myself going on a date with this guy from wangsa Maju..hahaha....too bored edi la...and someone got jealous kua..

Anyway it was really cold in the mountains,we burnt three whole trees for firewood.hahah..i magien going and getting the trees in the middle of darkness..

Rock Climbing was super syoking Menoking la =) I climbed wei..really climbed.hahahha.
Imagine,We were 1200 metres above sea level.

here are some pics..

newg

I've got my priorities sorted out.

Stupid la..I who try to help others sort their matter,failed to sort my own.Irony at it's peak.
Where do I begin?I have been entertaining myself with Jazz.
I still hate this place,almost everyone I know is a fake or something about them is wrong.Real sad case la.My birthday,they didn't even know how old I was.It's really annoying la.


I miss you fellows.I've got nobody here to give me hug when I am sad,nobody to come up to me and tell me that they've got my back when i fall,nobody to brush their hands through my hair and complain about my hair being horrible,nobody to call me brother by birth,or brother brother, or just brother,No Henry and Beatie to play football with.NOTHING material here la.

Somebody Hug me please.Siang Ling,hug please?

ome...

remember that song that kept ringing in my head?...
it still is.
Only One...and now it's the acoustic version.
I want to come home.My home.My people.Thanks to all the people who wished me.Esther the most.I hate this place.I truly loath it.I cannot trust most of the people here.
I am EMO again.after a very long time.

WHAT IS IT THAT I CAN'T DO IF YOU ASK ME? TELL ME LA.HOW DIFFERENT AM I FROM HIM?

hehe..that was something kept inside me for a long time.i hope YOU read it.yeah,YOU.
I am sad.I hate it.I am sad on this day.all because i trusted someone too much.It's unfair.I mean,to get my trust repaid in such a way.crap,i'm crying.I can'tc all anyone to cry to.Except my God.I'm sorry Esther,I promised yoou remember? hahah..but i think you gave me the leniancy to cry once in a while..I think it's the wee hours...

hahaha..i blame all this on sabah's sister,saadia.She spoke to me about emo songs.i opened my VAST library of emo songs after that.Hahaha.

i'm crying....
i'm crying......
i'm crying.......

it's raining outside and it awfully cold.i am all alone.Really alone.this room i'm in,it suddenly seems so dark.I'm almost joyless la...just except or that small bit of me..which involves God and my family.

i am emo again...i'm sad...i'm every peice of nonsensethe world contains..

bleach

I'm gettinga KON from bleach cake.My cousin sister is baking it for me.

I am sad.I am away from the people whom i truly love.Elysse is grown up now.
i miss that girl who weighs 40 kilos (which is extremely light).She makes up for her weight advantage by beign SHORT. heheh.

I miss my family and The family.Listening to U2...

I don't trust her...not one bit...actaully i do....but i don't trust myself whenever i trust her..she mislead me...it's not her fault i don't trust her..it's mine ebcause i believed her..babi la...it still hurts sometimes...when I just sit and think about things i can't understand..she's one of them..Emerson is one of those things too..Myself,peay pei..my mom..my uncle..my body..all those things are some of the stuff i don't understand..and those things bother me alot..i frustrate my mind trying to figure all those things out..

gwen said that i'm LCLY....it means lan si lan yong...it literally means dick shit dick face..
deng...she was joking i hope...told her i'll complain to esther about it so yeah..esther,If you're reading,I am complaining..So please ar..do what you have to..

I am torn up abit...i went to see niki's mom today...they're back from san francisco..I love her mom alot..I seriously missed latha ma this past three weeks..

Chinese Instructor

sorry for teh long absence...Especially to Shen. =)

Sarcasm Earned Me a Really Good and not to forget mentioning Sarcastic Friend.YOU!!!

The Sydney Royal Easter Show was real fun.I bought a patrick for Gwen's Spongebob.The show had everything except for one thing.Jesus...

Stupid place...namesake is easter show but nothing on Jesus.

I just finished being on the phone with

1.Gwen
2.Amma
3.Esther
4.Shen.

Wonderful people la.Especially the Sarcastic One!!!

This whole blog is dedicated to Shen whom with all teh Glory and Mercy of God and His Son will perform in the test tomorrow as per to God's will.

Freedom comes at a price.Gwen now understands why i can't go to church freely.haihs..
problems...problems...

haihs..


I want to meet Andrew.Yeah the Andrew.Not andrew chan. =)

NYahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahhaha.I feel Evil.
In a good way.
Esther indulges herself in lame jokes.That's really nice of her.

A few days ago i watched this aaron Kwok movie.SOOOO chun la.
It was called 2000 A.D. HAhah..really nice show.The girl also pretty...

I think the prettiest Hong Kong actress is Sammi Cheng la.Hahahah.
Anita Mui was the funniest. =)


Good Friday and EAster my dear almu are respectively the day Jesus was crucified and the day He rose from the dead.The eggs and all the other nonsense are irelevant.Well...The lent period..which is a fastign of fourty days before easter...It starts on Ash Wednesday all the way to easter.We can't eat meat and eggs were considered a form of meat in the old times...so that explaisn the abundance of eggs on easter.The rabbit was something made up by the german protestants when they moved to north america.It also has roots tracing back to paganism la almu...so yeah...hope you understand..

Easter

I read John Chapter 14 for Easter.I think it is wonderful.Shalom.

Have a blessed and grateful Easter. =)

Shen,Eunice,Emerson,Gwen,Apryl,Esther,My twin,My Siamese Twin,My brother in arms,my bandmates,my driver...all of you...Happy Easter..yeah to Elysse TOO!!!!

p.s.:I bought a patrick Starfish yesterday at the easter show..

Everybody sing

Yoshie has moved to Bondi Junction!!!!
She is staying with a japanese girl,A czech girl and one more guy i don't know from where...
Chun wei.BOndi Junction..Hahah...going there this weekend..to watch animes..AHahah and cook.=)
YEAH..I can cook la...come come,how many of you never knew that?

ONE love..HAhah..semangat..

The download speed at the library is 2.4 megabytes per second....SOOOOOO fast la..
Now i know where to download my animes.=))

Mayz wants bleach all the episodes..
I am getting some animes shipped here from malaysia...of course la..PIRATED...

Hahah..I love sungai Wang. =)

Hahahha..I got another job edi. =) mafan la...must go to the city to work..liek this i think i will buy weekly pass la..for the train rides. =)

Ohana means Family.Family means no one get's left behind.

I place my trust

GOD is wit usMessage:

A minister passing through his church inthemiddle of the day,decided to pause by the altar and see who hadcome to pray.Just then the back door opened, a man camedown the aisle.The minister frowned as he saw the man hadn'tshaved in a while.His shirt was kind a shabby and his coat was wornand frayed,the man knelt, he bowed his head, then rose andwalked away.In the days that followed, each noon time camethis chap,each time he knelt just for a moment, a lunch pailin his lap.Well, the minister's suspicions grew, with robberya main fear,He decided to stop the man and ask him, "Whatare you doing here?"The old man said, he worked down the road. Lunchwas half an hour.Lunchtime was his prayer time, for finding strengthand power,"I stay only moments, because the factory is sofar away;as I kneel here talking to the Lord,

This is kinda what I say:"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU LORD,HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIPAND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY, BUT ITHINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.SO JESUS, THIS IS JIM CHECKING IN TODAY."

The minister feeling foolish, told Jim that was fine.He told the man he was welcome to come andpray just anytime.It was time to go, Jim smiled and, said "Thanks."He hurried to the door.The minister knelt at the altar, he'd never done itbefore.His cold heart melted, warmed with love, and metwith Jesus there.

As the tears flowed, in his heart, he repeated old Jim's prayer:"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU LORD,HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIPAND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY, BUT ITHINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.SO JESUS, THIS IS ME CHECKING IN TODAY."

Past noon one day, the minister noticed that oldJim hadn't come.As more days passed without Jim, he began toworry some.At the factory, he asked about him, learning hewas ill.The hospital staff was worried, But he'd given thema thrill.The week that Jim was with them, broughtchanges in the ward.His smiles, a joy contagious. Changed people,were his reward.
The head nurse couldn't understand why Jim wasso glad,When no flowers, calls or cards came, Not a visitorhe had.The minister stayed by his bed, He voiced thenurse's concern:No friends came to show they cared. He hadnowhere to turn.

Looking surprised, old Jim spoke up and with an awesome smile;"The nurse is wrong, she couldn't know,that in here all the while everyday at noon.He's here, a dear friend of mine,You see, He sits right down, takes my hand,Leans over and says to me:"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU JIM, HOWHAPPY I HAVE BEEN,SINCE WE FOUND THIS FRIENDSHIP, AND ITOOK AWAY YOUR SIN.ALWAYS LOVE TO HEAR YOU PRAY, I THINKABOUT YOU EACH DAY,AND SO JIM, THIS IS JESUS CHECKING INTODAY."

If this blesses you, pass it on!Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.May God hold you in the palm of His hand andAngels watch over you.But for those of us who are already His, He notonly holds us in the palm of His hand, but has engraved our names there, and we are continually in His sight (Isaiah 49:16)Please pass this page on to your friends & loved ones.

If you aren't ashamed.Jesus said, " If you are ashamed of me,"I will be ashamed of you before my Father."If you are not ashamed, pass this on . But only ifyou mean it.

Yes, I do love God. He is my source of existenceand Savior.He keeps me functioning each and everyday.Without Him, I will be nothing. Without him, I amnothing but with Him"I can do all things through Christ that strengthensme." (Phil 4:13)

I got this in friendster.Makes me feel good la.After finish reading it,I started to sing In Christ Alone. =)

disgusting.

so much for watching animes.Stupid internet.Nobody want to share fi les in the morning.So hard to download la.Yerr...

Bleach rocks la.Kon is so so so so cute.i can't believe i am agreeing with Gwen.yerr...Kon is too cute la.

My phone is at the shop.Change software.now using some NEC phone.It is dubbed the PlayStation in my college.Because it is so big.I carry a freaking playstation to school everyday.

Reese's peanut butter with milk chocolate.I don't know what it tastes like.Bought before,but never taste before.

I realised soemthign about myself today.At mc donalds.I am not adventureous when it comes to food.I am disgusting when it comes to food.Imagien this, chocolate chip cookies,with potato gravy and sauce with coke and yogurt. Yums. =)

Yoshie knows how to have fun wei.Beer tastes bitter and apparently, according to my friends at college,beer tastes like beer.goodness.

Mustapha,Allahuakhbar. It means God Almighty in Arabic. =)

osarate

today we had a barbeque at cogee beach.=) played football,ate and learnt to speak loads of languages.=)

after everything lepak with yoshie till evening in the city.Mustapha couldn't because he was tired.Hahahah.pity him la.I am so lonely.Yoshie and I were walking when we saw a box of reese milk chocolate peanut butter.Hahaha.Straight away bought some and went to the post office to post it to gwen.Yoshie drew something in the letter i wrote to gwen.hahah.She can draw la.I guess all japanese people can draw.

I spent my whole evening watching animes.BLEACH and going through old episodes of Samurai X. =))..sounds like a spin off for X-Men.Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.Angry la.People not treating each other nicely.They are being more selfish nowdays.

Heiko was very kind and he cooked through the whole bbq.I met two new lebanese people.Mohammed and Yasser.Idiots.They are joining college next semester.Hahahha.My class has 9 lebanese clowns.8 of them are born in Lebanon and one was born in Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia. =D

Yoshie will be leaving for japan in four months time.Hahaha.Lepak with her till then.=))
well,back to my animes now.=)

fei kei cheung.

Hi joanne =))

Gwen messaged me.She told me to be careful of tsunamis.....lame la.
Hahaha...Goodness...you people better study hard for stpm and stop hanging on the phone with danush late at night..Australian Time i mean. =)
Ziling's daddy is fine. HAHAHA..I pulled the biggest prank ever and everyone in school fell for it.Even the office staff.

I told ziling that i know boon better.I told her i have seen parts of him she has never seen.Haha.
She said that the day she starts seeing those parts,she will be able to see it more often than me.
Horny la she. Perseph-HORNY.



Paul Chua said she is too flat.hahaha.Idiot.He said nevermind,he thinks it will grow.Yerr.Reminds me of Ivy Pow.Ivy POW....a bit ironic dont' you people think..I mean her surname.

hahaha.I am so happy la. =)

By the Way...I am IN LOVE with BLEACH.
yerr...so chun la the show..no wonder Michelle was promoting it to me..

Anyway...got to go la.I just got a whole Box of Fererro Roche. =) Nyam Nyam Nyam =)))
The security guard at Help UC is in love with Wei-I..I am pretty sure Wei-I loves him too.

Psalms 23 is so chun la.

haihs...

Can a single word hurt this much?
You are teaching me loneliness but i hope you come back after the lesson is done.
i've got a picture of you in my mind.the one where you are supposed to be sitting on the school terrace with us.

what's wrong with all this? you are one of the best things to ever happen to me.You're up there with emerson and esther and ziling as well.I just want to come home and stand in front of your house and wait for you to notice me.I don't care what you do.You can watch animes for as long as I am there or pretend I am not there or just scream at me to get lost.It wont matter.

I hate my position.I hate Australia.It takes me away from all my loved ones.Before any one of you want to say words of comfort to me,think and see,you are not in my position.You guys don't consider friends the same way I do.I would gladly lay my life down for you people knowing you won't do the same.I don't have good friends here.I thought I did,but No.trust me.

Mustapha is an exception.He was with me that night.My only friend.What's wrong with you people la?What's so hard to sms me?Am I considered dead after I leave?

Shen made me really happy the other day.I don't try too hard to be a gentleman.

She is supposed to be my perempuan Kristian Agung.this can't happen.I can't let it.I don't know.she didn't reply my sms or pick up my calls.

i'm going off now.

For my Esther ---> "and Jesus looketh upon them and saith,with me it is impossible ,but not with God,for with God all things are possible."(Mark 10:27)

hilang nyawa

i have a vision.i always had one.i always wanted to study biology,then marry a pianist whom is Christian.Then travel the world.I want to host a tv show on biology.Film it as I travel and preach the Word of God as we travel.Evangelisme.I'll be and always wanted to be an evangelist.
She just never asked me.Deng.


now back to the fake real world. In class now.Supposed to be studying bu watching twisted transistor.Heiko,saad and ryan are laughing with me.

Gwen just messaged me.How to help with sandfly bites..kesian her la.Stupid mosy and sand fly.

I have to mend my relations ship with God.He is the best.The church building is the only place i can do that.I'll return.

I sit and think about home.things are not like they used to be before.I got another job.Cleaner.deng.What to do.Have to work.Must pay fees.You people won't even recognise me anymore when i come home.Al of us change for the better.I don't think i want to c ome back this year.I've got different priorities.

SPM results was shocking for everyone.I guess most people have got over it.Praise God for all of it la.


TWISTED TRANSISTOR!

lahme has the greatest smell.

today kind had it's bad and good things.

My class was filled with people.I met a korean girl.Hahah.Nice chat with her.She didn't want to believe i was eighteen years old.

some girl on the train gave me the "eeew,what's your problem ?" and "you're disgusting,don't come near me!" stare.I felt hurt but within a few minutes I got hold of my mind and took control la.I didn't want to care.the sad thing is that nobody was there to support me.among that whole pile of dung,there was no pony shining radiantly enough to show me light.crap,there was no pony at all.

well,most people's spm results were bad.I still don't know what my granddaughter got.Wish her all the best.I never experienced the anxiety of spm results.I met with the accident.hahaha.

going to change my whole blog layout.I've got holidays coming in two weeks.But before that i've got my finals this week.Nonsense la.I need to study before i can enjoy holidays.

this name Jang Nara is so familiar la.Anyone has info on it?too lazy to google.Mustapha came over.I had fun la.A friend after so long.=))
She doesn't treat me or herself like a friend.yeah,she la.Who else.

Gwen carved she and I on some jambu.HAhahaha.goodness.I can't even freaking carve a ball.HAHAHAHAHAH.today i showed my artistic skills at the library.Hahah.will put a pic up soon.

anyway,I am fine,doing good with God's grace,with more of His grace,i'll be doing great.=)

take care la...and prus and boon...you people should give galvin a break.Put yourself in his shoes.Athes seems to have brains.I expected better off you prussy.Galvin's hurt la.
peay pei made a statement today.She would not spare me twenty minutes.So much for childhood friends la huh?Go play with yor tong hua chai la...ask him to call you everyday.you had headache for two days with time to play water..go trekking,nightwalk and all..but no time to sms?
Stupid reasons la people give nowdays.the worst of them being "no time!"

bye bye =)

edit*

still thinking about what peay said...babi la..it hurts la.I don't want to care.crap la.After the train incident i thought about the nice things I have in life like peay ,ziling,tsick,pruss all..haihs.

Prussy,for oyur information,I would not have acted differently from the way you did.Galvin's done things to me too.so yeah,i take my words back. =) AGM.HAhaha..but still i admire you man,for proving that point to Galvin.Ask athest o come sell shoes here,can get more money because of the transfer rate.hahaha...relax ar all of you..

about that train thing,still feeling abit too offended.it wasn't racism because she was the same race as me.Haihs,i guess that makes it worse?....bodoh la..i want to come back home la.i miss MALAYSIA.

tamil eelam

I hate medical procedures. just came back from the radiologist's. crap la.......malufying la.. had to strip for a man...stupid radiologist...but he looked cool la for a doctor.too cool.=) at least better than my first medical check up...had to strip for some indian lady.malu wei.... shen's mom is leaving for uk today.yes,shen's mom,the one whom i think is really pretty.=) hahaha. we're going for dinner to somebody's house today.I don't know who.Last night i cooked dinner. potato masal,rice,gandhi salad and yogurt.Hahah.my uncle was so pleased.=) esther's house phone is nonsense.Gwen is at camp la.Called her and peay pei yesterday.they're at the same camp.bodoh la peay pei.Gwen woke me up at four o clock in the morning twice in a row already.deng.i don't mind.I just hate the time difference. Godspeed. My time here will end soon la.(australia).Very soon.I hope it flies really, really fast. now i am alone in the train in the morning.Latha ma's driving to work now.deng. I am going for physiotherapy later in the afternoon.my spine.deng. wait wait...got another embarrasing thing to talk about..after the radiology session,I was at the train station.this guy who was from Sri lanka asked me if i was tamil,then i proudly said i was la.WAh..i tell you..babi...he sppoke tamil to me..i don't know what to answer or reply la..my tamil sucks.haihs..malu la. I want to post pictures here but i don't have any medium to connect my phone to the computer with la. two less lonely people in the world today. =)

david and goliath

siang ling said she sayangs me alot. =)) i am beaming la. Last night i was feeling so down.I called people,and they asked me to sleep out of concern. =))

Just when i feel nobody loves me,a whole tub load of love comes pouring in.

aaaaahhhh...melting in so much love la. when she mistreats me,when he misunderstands me,when they don't seem to care,there's always someone else who does the opposite. =)

i am drowning ,in all this love la...ahahah...i am so happy. so so happy.

the prefects are going for camp.stupid flying fox.it scares me after mr. fauzi died on the flying fox.It scares me.I can't speculate.

yesterday when i was on the way home from class at nine in the night,i started to tear.i was afraid i was going to die.i got really scared because i really didn't want to die.but then this verse about fearing Him who can not only kill but has the power to cast into hell.

He took my fears away la.I don't mind dying. I mind being cast into hell. So yeah,i make my stand.To fear the One who can cast into hell instead of the ones who can only kill.

AND....the story of David and Goliath is such an inspiration.I can do anything at all.

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sorry la..I (the normal danush whom is always filled with yi hei) have been away for some time.I am back now.=) hahahah..i feel so euphoric la.=)

to esther and emerson:I am going to make the both of you so proud of me.

I want to see you.

people misunderstand me.

especially the people who matter the most to me.esther,I don't know how you pulled it though all this while la.I respect you alot.

yesterday i was cranky because i got disappointed.I had to beg fo my forgiveness for being disappointed.
Today she was cranky because she was disappointed. Irony la. it doesn't matter.I had mustapha with me.He kept me company.poor fellow didn't understand why we went to parramatta.


My Family Tree

Grandpa Danush -------- FSTB Grandma Gwen
[_______________________________]
___[]_____[]______[]_____[]_______[]
Daddy Aunty Uncle Peay Pei Rosie
Tse Kai Ziling Prussy
(begot) wed-ed
Jolly Uncle Boon


** there are special members of my family like esther and emerson.They are the special indgredients la.If it wasn't for them,i would have learnt to love these other people.

I am contended and happy with all I have now.Latha Ma is superb.The best la.
Sabah seems to be a very understanding person.I'm surprisd.

=)

Isaiah 40:31

On my knees.

This phrase
"Like Icarus,I collide"

It hits me hard.We are foolish people.We tend to go our own way instead of the way which has been set.We know that His way is the safest way round.It guarantees us our destination but yet we still tend to stray.We choose to go our own ways,thinking that we'd be better off doing what we want.Foolish truely.

Why is it we realise all this,that John 14:6* is the only passage our journey can be completed ,and still tend to walk away.make our own paths.Why is it He realises this and still offers us that path,that love,that caring,our salvation?

It's utterly disappointing to me and Him when i refuse to do what is right but choose to do what is easy.

I've been paranaoid lately.I keep thinking about the end of times.I am afraid i won't be able to pull it through alone.i've been askign promises for my friends.The best of us to join me wherever i am.i am pretty sure i'd be able to make my way to heaven and resist everythign else with them.

But still,it's idiotic that we stray away like icarus.

The legend of Icarus is that he and his father were held captive on a tower in an island.Thye managed to make wings for themselves from wax and feathers of the sea gulls.Icarus was told by his father to not fly to close to the sun and too low towards the sea.Icarus foolishly flew up high wanting to go his own way.The sun melted the wax off his wings and he fell and drowned in the sea.

i don't want to be icarus anymore.

*John 14:6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

something else i need to talk about.The Holy spirit.It's amazing.for he dwelleth in me.=)

I love God loads la.

lonely..

deng la..i am at nikita's house now..

babi la..kepala sakit...dia tak layan aku....aku siu hei...tak tahu apa nak buat la..

deng la..

esther......sms me la..i miss your momsemse la.. =))

hahaha...wei..you should have got your phone here la...


sad la...dia tak layan aku.

Aku sedih sebab dia tak ada yi hei.

someone please call me tonight....daughter..

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drooling*.....I bought something magnificent today.

The Millenium Falcon.
Yes,the one from the trilogy series.

May the force be with you.

serious...it's sooo cool.

forget about the post above about nikita,she was busy with her friend.don't care la.=)

The Flux Capacitor.

I just woke up from an afternoon nap which laster four hours.I started thinking about things the moment i woke up.

deng la. She didn't mention me in her blog.
Esther and emerson are not on good terms.
Gwen hasn't covered half her syllabus for the exams.
Peay pei has trouble with yee leng.
Emerson hasn't gone to church in some time.
Elizabeth Hurley is old.
Nikita doesn't use the word at all anymore.
Patti is going back.
I feel unsecure and sad.

I am fine.=))
No problem.
God is always Good.

Another nine months till I come home.
Gwen wants me back early...

Guitar. HAHA.

i feel so unwanted la...roar...

Who am I and The Voic eof Truth by Casting Crowns.

Superb.

Shen said i am funny because i do nonsense such as the following picture.

The world needs a little laughter from nonsense la.=)

done.

last night after class,which was around 9:30 in the night,mustapha and I walked to darling Harbour. I called Gwen,hahaha...had a superb chat with her la.=))))

"quote unquote"
mummy said don't call everyday.Three times a week.okay?

hahahaha...

it cost me crazy 43 dollars la.Grrrrr.43 DOLLARS la....grrrrrrr.Can buy don't know how many plates of chicken rice la.

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Edit.

Just reached home from school.Tired.Need food but there isn't food at home yet.Listening to Jars of Clay:from the studio/from the stage,just bought it yesterday.

Yesterday i told gwen that I call peay pei from here just to listen to her complain to me about all the things happening in her life.Haha.How true.=))
peay pei agreed.

i am so tired and i think i am going to sleep now.Have to take an afternoon nap.haven't taken one in such a long time.

Something is wrong with me,I still get that feeling that i am unappreciatted.

To the Tertiary people:thanks alot for the prayers.

To emerson:thanks for not changing too much.

To the family:I love you guys alot.

To gwen:lame-o-supreme-o

To nikita:lei hou chongyi kong fai wah.

To Latha Ma:thanks.

To The Father,The Son and The Holy Spirit: =) Mere words are not enough eh?

Turn Around

I am in college now.I didn't see the people i thought i would see today.Something about Australia just annoys me.The way things aren't what they seem.Athes has gone back to Malaysia from Indonesia.I just finished my chocolate milk and it's just a quarter to ten in the morning.I haven't slept properly in three days.Every night i wake up in the middle of the night and brood about why i can't please people the way they want me to and why they can accept me for what or at least who i am.I wish i never got this attitude of trying to please people la.STupid Yi Hei.Today i will remain in the city until half past nine in the night.I wish I had at least one of you people here.I don't have a proper Youth fellowship,not that I have an improper one.I am gratteful still,for all I have.God is Good indeed.Very Good.

soliditary

The lame sign and the counter bozo.Too bad,she does not understand me.At least not in the way I want her to.Special she still is.

Currency

She is Magnificent.I dreamt of her today.I was with esther and elysse.I was carrying her and she used the word currency.She's my darling la.

Joseph of Arithmathea

she said hurtful things.I guess i did too.But i just can't get over it.Haihs. big big SIGH.unfair la.she doesn't care i guess.

ESTHER...read down...got something for you local influence agent...actually not local la..overseas.Hahah

haihs....becoming emo again..hahaha...deng..I won't succumb to depression la.=))

someone said something to me two days ago,and it's been ringing in my head.

haihs..Esther was wearing a cheong sam..She looked "elegant"..i am so tempted to wear one too...


haihs,My head hurts.stupid head.God is good la.Too good.Emerson,call me.It won't cost too much for you.

Gwen,call me as well.

Ziling,I miss you.Alot.As well as jolly and peay and prussy and tse kai and boon.
Haihs,family forever.

I can't wai until i come back.Another nine months more.I don't like the people here.They're hypocrites.The pretend.ALOT.

was talking to joanne,yeah.Joanne Chan,the oen i could never get along with.
She said that it hurts alot when someone you care for pretends to you.Pretends they understand you.I agree la.My uncle doesn't like the fact that i am living in his house.
An agreement on me going to stay with my cousin here is being contemplated on.
It doesn't matter to me la.I am just disappointed with people la.Not just my uncle.
but yeah,who am I to complain eh?

arrrgh..

wait wait,not done yet...

was reading Mark 15:33-39

He understand our loneliness la..He was lonely as well..
He screamed "Eloi,Eloi lama sabachthani?"
He was so lonely He thought God had forsaken Him.
Imagine such loneliness la,After that,I believe he understands every bit of loneliness us Humans go through.

Haihs.He rocks la.=)))


Just nine more months.I'll be home.with you people.My loved ones la.all of you.

shen...hahah..peay pei...haihs..cartoon la..=)

crap la..I still don't know her much.Babi.

incesticide

i feel like cursing and swearing,but esther told me that the good people talk about their problems instead of curse and swear.

haihs..
she said that i don't know her much.Period.
I agree,I don't.

finite.

it hurts la,someone asked how i am.
things aren't that great,but God is good.

i wish i read his blog more often la,that way i would have seen all these things coming way earlier.bunty....deng...

Gwen told me about her going to do tambourine dance,Hahah..i told her about the time at youth camp when eunice and wei-li taught sean and I to do tambourine dance at 2 a.m.

I hate this la,i mean this place.I love latha ma.Superb lady.
Grandmother is going back to india in two weeks.I just realised today that i would miss her.


I agree again.I thought I knew you alot.It turns out i don't eh?
I still feel this way,yeah.After the phone call.Still.

Be euphoric while you people still can.
Esther,I am tired of caring for people la.It hurts me,somewhere inside,I don't know exactly where,but it does la esther.

period.

i am taken for granted alot.


shaun told me that something everyone appreciates is being appreciated.
Everytime i feel like i am being taken for granted,someone comes along and shows appreciation.
superb la.=)

this is not a deppressing post because i cannot be bothered less about those who take me for granted.

these few day have had me thinking alot la.i thought alot about esther,emerson and i.We're being stupid la.humiliating ourselves to each other.I want to tell a story.


one day at camp,when this boy got out of this bus,a girl got out of the other bus too.then she knocked the boy on the head as a form of greeting.=)everything else that followed was history.
another story about how one boy and a girl,after vowing internal friendship,failed to be there for each other in times of need,this brought to the swearing of eternal friendship which would never deter.this was done through sms though both parties lost the sms because they lost their phones.

don't know la.

one more story about a boy who swore to never disappoint his friends is caught up between honoring a promise and doing what is right...

it's embarassing la.

haihs...i miss you both la..all the time we spent in church,megamall,mc donalds...haihs...deng...

my cousin sister bought me a phone card.going to call malaysia tonight.

last week,nikita came to my house.she was horrid la.she didn't layan me properly.she was acting snobbish.almost like swathi.actualy,,,just like swathi.

haihs...

i miss the family.

bunty?

hahahhaa..

gwen didn't lose in interhouse sports...don't know if she won though..
I am tired,been outside of the house too long.
was in college for twelve hours yesterday.Spent loads of time with mustafa and took pictures.
MMS-ed gwen photos i took.
today was in college...exam...and i hate most of the girls there la..Especially the asian ones.They forget who they really are..

anyway...I'm in love....with my NOKIA 6280.Haha.

nikita said the name mathew is gay..babi girl...deng la..i felt so insulted by that statement...

seeing her tomorrow.Yeay.=))

yesterday i did something mad.Mustafa and i were sitting on the street near town hall.People were looking at us like beggars.Hahah..then i called gwen using handphone.Expensive like nobody's business..

i wish i was back home or that you people were here.nothing here seems to be worth leaving you guys la....


people..you should read mathew,chapter5 verse 14...EMERSON...especially you.


p.s.:esther...something wrong with me again...give advice...i get jealous too easily...anybody..give advice la..

subaru technica international

I've been talking to gwen. Lame la....every word that is exchanged between us is lame.Except when we're talking about god la..Ever other word is lame... Adventure is an experience which takes us out of our comfort zone.This perempuan want to study in aussie first,then hong kong then aussie,then new zealand....grrrrr...this is proof of how FICKLE MINDED girls can be. ESTHER.....chun la esther...talked to her as well...her perodua my-vi seriously appear in only her dreams. GWEN!!!....deng...hahahha...I have sooo much chocolate here...remember the chocolate fudge it old you about?...wah..i tell you...my mouth was watering la...so much saliva...mmmmm...i wish you were here...hahahahh.....i know that you are so going to kill me the next time i call. Gwen said she doesn't fancy my mom's cooking..hahahah...when i told my mom that gwen said that,she just was quiet...hahahah....women....mad people la women...MAD... another story about mad women....the cutest thing happened la...two days ago i taught nikita how to use bluetooth...ahhahaha...then yesterday she was calling me and complaining that her bluetooth wasn't working......when she told me what she was trying to do,i laughed like some mad man...hahahahahahhaha...HAHAHAHAHAHHA...she was trying to send a picture to her friend through bluetooth......her friend was God knows how many miles away...HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

this post is dedicated to all the extremely mad women i know.no matter how crazy you girls behave,i still love you all alot la..cos all of you are my friends...

list of mad women whom i know.

1.PeayPei 2.Gwen 3.Nikita 4.Esther(a bit the refined) 5.Serene. 6.Amelia.HAHA 7.Eunice Goh. 8.Teh Joo Ling. 9.My Mom tops the list. 10.My Grandmother. 11.Gwen again because her madness is interestingly lame. 12.My feminine side.now you guys know why i go mad sometimes.It's because my feminine side takes over.

Gwen came up with these calculations.

Marriage Cost Electricity-$800 Water-$800 Home Loan-$2000 Car loan-$2000(i think because both parties buy a car.) Groceries-$1000

wah..she really scarred me la...i don't feel like getting married.If i save all that money,can buy a whole fleet of Subaru Impreza wrx sti la.