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𓆩♱𓆪 ◣ Chris ⊹ 20s ⊹ No They/Them◥ Current obsession: Just this little obscure thing called "music" 〖 Website 〗
【 Hobbies 】 gaming drawing reading surfing the web listening to music studying languages (right now, japanese, spanish, and sometimes mandarin) translating	【 Interests 】 humans (history, culture, language, etc.) joseimuke fashion stuff that's before my time being gay or whatever
【 Please Interact 】 people who share my interests people who are black like me people not from/in the U.S. #ethical and #tasteful perverts queer/whatever you call it POC the open-minded translators weirdos	【 Back! Back, I Say!】 netflixvania fans bigots (with special emphasis on racists and transphobes) anti-socialists/communists anti-shippers + people who are annoying about being proship meanies :(
【 What else do I like? 】 Backloggd AniList Last.fm	【 Where else am I? 】 Tumblr Microblog Sheezy.Art

About the Blog:
♦ I share and say pretty much whatever I want. Observations, reviews, beautiful things, helpful things, completely useless things, I've got it all. It's both personal and "fannish" because being a fan of things is part of my life and mind, but I do have other interests and happenings going on.

♦ So far, ever since becoming a regular user I haven't gone more than a week without posting. Occasionally I do create more than one entry in a day. That's counting locked posts though. Try checking my archive to see if my posting schedule is right for you.

♦ Mutuals can ask for access. Don't be scared, because there should never be anything too crazy in there. It's only there because the internet is the wild west and some things I don't want just any villain to see every thing, you know? And it's ask-for-access instead of immediate-access because I write some LONG posts that I don't want to sic on people without consent. Anything that's actually deeply personal or whatever actually has even more padlocks on it, and will only be seen by my most trusted advisors.

♦ (This is stated again later in the interaction section, but,) Think of my blog a little bit like my house. It's bad manners to walk into someone's house without saying hi. Now, I do have some things in the yard for anyone to check out (public posts), but unless we appear to have a lot in common I don't usually let strangers in. It doesn't even have to be a full conversation! I just want to do a little vibe check. Basically, what I'm saying is: sometimes I won't follow (and therefore will deny you access) if you've never spoken to me. You can change that via commenting on some entry, messaging me, commenting on a status update on AniList (lol???), leaving a shout in my last.fm shoutbox, whatever. Just let me know you're a guest I'd gladly welcome in somehow.

On Interaction

Commenting: If you have something to say, don't be scared. I don't usually bite. I have it so people who don't have accounts can comment too, by the way. (Be nice so that it stays that way!)
Commenting on old entries: Frankly, this makes me even happier than comments on new posts. Just because a post is old doesn't mean I'm not still thinking about the topic. Hell, I might have new ideas or views to share on it.
Sending private messages: Fine with me 👍🏾
Minors subscribing: Sure, knock yourself out kid. I age-restrict public posts as needed, so it'd be fine. I'm thinking I wouldn't give them access to locked posts though.
Linking my posts elsewhere: Feel free to, but it'd be nice if you told me about it.
Reposting things I created (not a post, but contents like illustrations or writing): Do not. Please link to the source post or (preferably) my website if you know it's there. You CAN, however, use my illusts as icons or banners or whatever if you credit me.
Who do I subscribe to?: Normally, barely anyone first, because I'm so shy with lots of dead interests. If you sub to me first, I might not sub back until you speak to me. Long story there, but basically: don't be scared to comment, seriously.
What makes me unsub?: Either you started posting a LOT about something I don't care about and we're not close enough for me to feel like I should stick around, or you expressed an opinion so bad I had to pack my bags. You can ask about this.

Currently...

As of December 8th, 2025...
Playing: Chrono Trigger, Sakura Taisen, Style Savvy: Styling Star
Watching: Pluribus, Naruto Shippuden, Dragon Ball
Reading: Kamisama Kiss by Suzuki Julietta (in Japanese! And yes, I have watched this before.)
Doing: One last paper, then finals, then I'm straight chilling

Pic/GIF Spam

I WILL be adding more. (Some of these images I made myself!)

Feel free to use this entry as a general mailbox, for questions or comments or anything else. You can also private message me if you have a DW account. It's nice to have you around.

two log cabins with snow on the roofs in a wintery forest the text snowflake challenge january 1 - 31 in white cursive text

Challenge #10: Big Mood (Board)

じゃじゃーん！
Angelique is very much a pink game, but the moodboard is blue (and green. 青い?) because ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it ended up that way somehow. Rosalia representation I guess! I hope it gives a good impression of the games :)

Explanation

I was specifically thinking of the first game. There are pretty space pics because it's about becoming Queen of the Cosmos, hearts because it's a dating sim unless you have other priorities, Cupid because the act of saving your game is represented by an angel baby recording what's happened for you, columns because of the borrowed Greco-Roman aesthetics popular in shoujo manga at the time, a white feather because the people of your continent see you as an angel (guy who can't shut up voice: in fact, the child you first meet and acts as your oracle says that [y/n, the default being Angelique] in their language means "angel," so he calls you Angel/Tenshi-sama ^__^), and the lake and park because those are 2 of the 3 possible date locations in that game. The third is your bedroom (sounds crazier than it is), but I could find no pictures that look like the player's room.

Credits

The middle image was drawn by Yura Kairi (who is the character designer and usual illustrator for the original games) and depicts Angelique herself. The full image is super cute, iirc the bottom third is my header on Discord (but I don't have Nitro right now soooooo I can't be sure). Our beloved rival Rosalia is the girl floating next to Angelique, by the way.

All the other pictures I got from Unsplash: x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, and x.

This whole thing was made using CollaGen. Let me know what you use to make moodboards? I've actually never made one before today.

Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: Risk - Deftones

Snowflake Challenge promotional banner featuring an image of a wrapped giftbox with a snowflake on the gift tag. Text: Snowflake Challenge January 1-31.

Challenge #9: Favorite Tropes

Skipping #7 because both bragging and blatantly seeking compliments are go against moral code, and skipping #8 because if I even have a process, it clearly sucks TT I haven't completed anything in 87 years. So, my favorite tropes! Every time this question comes around I have to look up my favorite canons on TV Tropes and try to figure out why I like them.

This time I'm going with Defrosting Ice King. I like Ice Queens too, but due to what I like to read/watch my examples are mooostly M/F with the F as the main character, although there's platonic examples too. This is a really popular trope and I feel somewhat ashamed to be using it for this challenge, but I suppose I'm not so above it all. Even I feel moe when I see a gap </3 (Translation: Even I feel deep affection when I see someone do something very different from my initial impression of them.) But I like it best when it's an over-time thing! Finding out someone serious has a plushie collection at home has nothing on seeing someone serious cry over another person they swore they'd never give a hoot about later. Also the idea of someone caring about another so much that they stick with them even though they're cold or kind of mean, thus allowing them to open up, makes me :)

I like pictures, so you're getting pictures.

Exhibit A: Kamisama Kiss

- 25 or so episodes later (and do note the apron) -

(^just to be clear, he is removing the mushrooms here)

Rather than just being "cold," Tomoe is very decidedly an Ice King of the Jerkass variety. I'm not looking up how TV Tropes defines Jerkass though. I just know he is mean and rude and arrogant, which makes him seem awful to new people probably but it's in a comedic way I swear. Not a good person. Great househusband! 10/10, would tell him off again.

Exhibit B: The Legend of Hei

The subtitles were soft and the thing I was using to screenshot doesn't catch such subs, so I'm putting them under the images.

Wuxian (blue guy): "Saved me the trouble of finding you."
- ONE HOUR LATER -

Hei: "Can... Can I go with you?"

Wuxian: "Of course."

Wuxian: "You sure you want to wander with me? Don't you want a home?"

Hei: "Nuh-uh. I wanna be with you."

Wuxian: "Alright."

TV Tropes says Wuxian is the Ice Queen, but I don't buy that. Even if one may assume from the beginning he's just an agent/assassin and it's later proven he's pretty chill and deadpan-comedic, it's not that Hei changed him through the power of love. It's just that there's more to him than being good at his job. On the other hand, Hei is cold and tries to escape Wuxian many times but eventually ends up sobbing at the thought of being apart from him, and that's all because of Wuxian's kindness. Hei's like a widdle Ice Prince.

And look! I've got some "Not So Above It All" too!

"We also accept mobile payment."

"This is my jade pendant. Keep the change."

"DINE-AND-DASHERS!!"

Wuxian is kind of the king of that trope. To me.

Exhibit C: From Far Away

In case you don't know, Japanese comics are read from top to bottom (like English comics) and right to left (not like English comics).
My favoritest meetembarassing ever btw:

- You'll never guess what happens 6 volumes later -

Saved my favorite couple for last :33333333 I judge all love confessions by comparing it by the urgency in this one, I really do. And I like that Izark is kind and caring throughout, but still rather distant until the confession. Mean guys are funny, but nice guys are like french fries for the soul. (French fries are chicken soup to me.)

Izark has some Not So Above It All moments, but I imagined trying to find the page where he draws on the face of someone who lost a fight and sighed really deeply. Not, not today.

There's lots more examples I like, like Reika in Aim for the Ace, Michel from The House in Fata Morgana, Edmond from NU: Carnival, Sesshomaru of Inuyasha fame, Clavis (maybe Julious and possibly Lumiale too?) from Angelique, whom I really wish I could have included because he is SO funny but I can't do an entire Angelique run before the next challenge gets posted, Seung-gyu from Bad Boss in a 4D chess kind of way because Young-jo didn't even know she was defrosting an Ice King as he was Nice Guy-faking, probably Felix from Fire Emblem, and Utena has some crazy Defrosting the Ice Witch going on.

This trope has a lot in common with tsunderes, so why not just say I like tsunderes? It's technically true, many characters I like can be described as such, but I associate the word "tsundere" too much with girls who are unnecessarily abusive, not even in a hot way, so I'm not a fan of it. A tsundere done well is fun though. Kuuderes too!

If you have any ACG reccs with non-babyish art styles -- YMMV but compare Yamamori Mika's art with Playing Death Games to Put Food on the Table, which is the first example I could think of LOL -- let me know :] It can be any gender combination or any kind of love.
If the guy doesn't have long hair I don't care

Current Mood: jubilant
Current Location: I rewatched The Legend of Hei for this post. Thank you for giving me a reason to

Snowflake Challenge: A mug of coffee or hot chocolate with a snowflake shaped gingerbread cookie perched on the rim sits nestled amidst a softly bunched blanket. A few dried orange slices sit next to it.

Challenge #6: Top 10 Challenge

I finally finished going through my reading page, which means I can continue this without guilty B) Now presenting, without further ado:

Top 10 Photographed Fashion Game Fits
To qualify:
1. It must be an outfit I put on my player character, not something coordinated for an NPC or another player.
2. It must be from a pre-existing screenshot. I cannot open the game, make new outfits, and take new pictures. Or else I would play all day and never have the time to make this post.

All fits are from Style Savvy: Styling Star (worse graphics), Fashion Dreamer (better graphics), and Animal Crossing: New Horizons (chibi/toy-like graphics). No Splatoon fits because I lost them all during The Purge. So it goes.

( Let's go. )

Current Mood: fashionable

A gold snowflake ornament is nestled amidst pine boughs

Challenge #5: A Wishlist

Finally, a challenge I pre-wrote my answer for last month!
>checks the file
>literally a shopping list of physical items I want like it's Christmas and you all are my parents
........... Okay. Maybe past me was very sleepy when he wrote that. Looks like I'm doing this from scratch.

1. More public activity on Dreamwidth, particularly in communities. I feel like due to the nature of the web now DW attracts those who want to be private + lurkers, which is fine and I'm glad there's a site for them, but we need more people with a poster's heart (as opposed to a diarist's heart). All love to my fellow diarists, no hate, journaling is awesome and good for your health; I'm just noting something.

2. Avatar templates. Like these? Also some here. I like making avatars for my own specific and niche needs, but I don't have the (confidence in my) design skills to make my own borders, so I like using ones others' have made to give mine a nice flourish. You don't have to make anything new; anything you scrounge up would be great.

3. I am once again asking for illustrated pornography of my faves.

4. And more visual content of them in general ( ᵔ ⩊ ᵔ ) illusts and comics and such.

The ones who don't get fanart so often are Clavis (Angelique), Michel (FataMoru), Shannan (Fire Emblem), and Jeritza (Fire Emblem). The situation is dire. Help me. The ones who DO get fanart pretty often but idc I need more are Felix (Fire Emblem), Cirrus (Obscura), Testament (Guilty Gear), aaaaaand Edmond (NU: Carnival, and me asking for porn of him is the type of greed they talked about in the Bible but idcccccccccc)

And I'll include one thing from my drafted wishlist. If anyone knows who I need to shank to get this dress or where to find something like it, let me know ☆

Current Music: Roman Hikou - Kome Kome Club

書こう！質問はここから盗った

1. Did you get an allowance as a kid, and if so, how much was it?
全然もらったから、いつもそれを考えたら怒ってきたｗ

2. How old were you when you had your first job, and what was it?
二十歳…かも。ゲームストップに勤めていた。今にもいつか閉店するのを願う。

3. Which do you do better: save money or spend money?
どっちも下手だけどTT　滅多にお金を使うけど、使うときには大きい量を使う。

4. Are people more likely to borrow money from you, or are you more likely to borrow from them?
私から借りるの方が普段。（－＿－家族がいるのが高いだから、可能性があるなら避けるの方がいいよ（冗談（かも））

5. What's the most expensive thing you've ever bought?
このうるさくてストレージのなくて死んでいくくそパソコン

Current Mood: aight
Current Music: A.I.N.Y. - G.E.M.

Snowflake Challenge: A flatlay of a snowflake shaped shortbread cake, a mug with coffee, and a string of holiday lights on top of a rustic napkin.

Challenge #4: Rec The Contents Of Your Last Page

So, I skipped the last challenge because I couldn't come up with anything to say to any fandom or the concept of fandom in general (possibly because I was very eepy. But anyways), and I didn't have it in me to publicly write a love letter to a fictional character. This challenge made me truly realize that "fandom" for me right now is just me, the voices in my head, and sometimes ghosts from fandom past when I'm looking at abandoned sites and stuff. The few sites I use don't have the feeds tailored to show the fictional things I like, partly because the fandoms are small/dead and partly because I wanted to curb my socmed addiction by not making my feed too fun. So I hope it's okay to go a bit off-script and instead link three sites I like, not ones I've actually been on recently:

http://femicom.org/ is a site dedicated to games aimed at girls (＠＾◡＾) Worldwide joseimuke... It's really cutely designed, and I like looking at all the pictures and games I've never heard of before! I've never submitted a memory before since I played 0 girl games as a child, but if you have any you should try submitting something and see if they'll still put it on the site. I like reading what memories exist too.

https://popnmusicdatabase.neocities.org/ I love Pop'n Music!! What little I've gotten to play, at least. This site has a wonderful design just like the colorful games it's dedicated too, and has lots and lots of info. I still haven't gotten through it all. Please God let me one day live by a place with a Pop'n booth please I don't wanna have to play on emulated console anymore please please please

https://nar-nar.neocities.org/ I have mentioned Navarre Fire Emblem twice (x, x) on my humble blog. I'm rather fond of him and his look, but maybe more than that I appreciate the concept of Navarre. Thank you IntSys for coming up with Navarres. So, I really love this fansite filled with images of him and promises of more to come in the future. I love sites that are filled with pictures. I love pictures. This is why I prefer fanart and doujins and such over fanfic. Yayyy stimulation for my eyes yayyyy ⸜(*^ᗜ^*)⸝ ⸜(*^ᗜ^*)⸝ ⸜(*^ᗜ^*)⸝ わーいわーい

Current Mood: hii
Current Music: Japanese R&B

Typing this while wearing one of those coats that make me look like the Michelin Man. I'm gonna make a different post for all of 2025 and my plans for 2026. As you can see, I'm running out of entry title ideas.

What I Did

( mucho texto )

What I'm Doing

The Snowflake Challenge :P

Nailing A1 Spanish and N5 (pretty much the same as A1) Japanese. Just making sure I have everything down, you know? For the record, going by the practice exams on the JLPT site, I could pass the N3 one with ease and the N2 one with a struggle. (In non-JLPT terms, I'm approaching C1 steadily. In non-overly-concerned-with-language-rubrics terms, I'm approaching an advanced level of Japanese.) My Spanish, however, is stuck in B2/"usually knows what someone is talking about, at least"-level right now.

I'm probably going to spend all month trying to finish Kamisama Kiss. God I wish I read Japanese as fast as I read English.

I'm playing Sakura Taisen, which I am really enjoying so far.

Last month I listened to songs popular in Japan, China, and Mexico. So, I know what people there generally like. This month is dedicated to listening to Japanese, Chinese (any kind), and Spanish music specifically from genres I know I like. If you have Chinese music reccs please let me know -- I'm looking for songs, albums, or an artist who isn't always making slow acoustic songs. China (and other places in the Sinosphere; I can't hear the language differences) has so much slow acoustic music. An artist will look so edgy but the song will still be slow acoustic music. Somebody please save me. (For your reference.)

What I Will Do

The movies for this month are: Swing Girls, Soy Cuba, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, and 2001: A Space Odyssey. I'm going to watch Swing Girls right after I post this entry, actually.

I need to continue my fan translation, but the storage in my laptop is so low that Photoshop has been rendered nonfunctional. So. Uh. I'll at least try to translate more chapters even if I can't edit them onto the pages this month...

Not giving details, but if I don't drop a game this month or the next please PLEASE jump me.

I'm supposed to start dancing and voice training this month, so we'll see how that goes.

If I beat Sakura Taisen this month, next in line is Love Curse: Find Your Soulmate, and then Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow. Usually I play one PC game and one handheld game at the same time, but right now my before-sleep activity is reading Kamisama Kiss, so no bedtime handheld gaming for me. (<- person who brings laptop to bed to play more Sakura Taisen)

Current Mood: okay
Current Music: Latin Alternative Rock

Snowflake Challenge: A warmly light quaint street of shops at night with heavy snow falling.

Challenge #2: Pets of Fandom

There's too many photos I wanted to share, so I made the quickest collages in the west using CollaGen, Background Tiles (first thing my browser gave me when I typed in "tile background"), and a dream.

Content warning for animal/pet death

This is my dog, Dogie. Pronounced DOUGH-gee. My family could never agree on how to spell his name, and no conceivable spelling is perfect in my opinion, but I settled on Dogie.

Dougie is a dance move. Stop spelling his name as Dougie. He is not Dug-ee. @/my sister

No clue what breed he is. Someone came to our door asking if we wanted a dog, and we did want a dog, so we gave the guy (he looked ~17) money and he gave us a dog and we never met again.

Had Dogie for almost 9 years, the longest I've ever had a pet, before he died 2.5 years ago in circumstances I still haven't explained online yet. (That's for another post.) He lowkey had no redeeming qualities besides "would sit in your lap as soon as it forms" and "didn't attack toddlers on sight," but I wuv him anyways! And he's still my dog. When I'm asked if I have pets I include him. Yes, I have a dog 🙄 Yes, he is bones 🙄 God forbid a dog be dead!! Actual menace; pour one out for him tonight.

Kimmy, short for Chimera, was never actually "my" pet. She was my roommate's pet, and she let me watch her when she didn't feel like it -- which was basically all the time. Functionally my pet. Kimmy's not even her "real" name, I think my roommate called her Leo, but I didn't really care 😭

She was so cute!! I took no less than 20 pictures of her a day, I'm sure. She loved to sleep on/near me and knead my tummy, which was awesome, but she also loved to jump on my desk and knock the fandom keychains off my corkboard, which wasn't so awesome. But it's okay, she's cute so we forgive her even if she never asked for forgiveness and definitely feels no remorse.

Long story short, my roommate dumped my clean laundry on the porch and I left that apartment, so no more Kimmy. I hope she kept her, but I have little faith in that woman. So Kimmy kind of isn't currently my pet and shouldn't be included in this post. But I like her. More people should know about her. Look at her.

As for an actual living creature that lives with me as we speak--

This is Luna (despite clearly looking more like a Sol). This is who kept my mom company before I moved in with her. She's a funny-looking Cocker Spaniel, but the sweetest thing around. I've been feeling like a liar for never writing about walking her, like "how will future beings know about the daily life of some random person they found on a hard drive somewhere if I don't include the dog-walking??" so here's me finally saying this -- I walk her every afternoon/evening, unless it's below freezing or I'm sick.

She's not allowed in the bedrooms, so right now as I type this she's laying at the entrance to my room staring at me. Do you think she knows I'm talking about her?

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: あんなに一緒だったのにわたしはひとり - 電脳ヒメカ

You can watch Castlevania: Awakening Under Moonlight for $15.20 with English, Korean, Chinese, Thai, Indonesian, Vietnamese, Spanish, French, Portuguese, or Tagalog subs here, although you need to use Microsoft Edge or Safari. I hope that if this does well they offer more Takarazuka performances on demand, because yes I am aware of other means of watching them, but I do like when things are easier to show others.

Click the banner to join us and make some new friends!
I like seeing useful communities revived, so please participate in this friendzy and join this community if you're interested :3

You've probably already heard of this, but for the sake of not missing any bases: Snowflake Challenge is now on. If you want to meet new people or you want to revive a dead blog, this is a good way of doing it. You just need to be into fandom. The link to the community is the image.

And last but not least, I'm officially opening up my community for posting. Please feel free to share a song or two. I'll be advertising it in various promo comms slowly over the next few weeks. At some point I'll start holding events (which are just me giving a theme and hoping people posting songs that fit it). Please don't flop 🙏🏾 But please don't be successful in an annoying way either 🙏🏾

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Still haven't found a band I like -_-

Disclaimer: I did watch The Last: Naruto the Movie. I did not watch 98% of filler episodes, and I didn't watch the first ~30 episodes of Naruto because I was a manga-reader at first and switched to the anime in hopes that the animation during fights would be epic (which turned out to not always be the case, but when it happened, boy did it happen).

I really want to write about watching all this in a year, but I can't come up with words on my own. Thus, I'm forced to go at it MAL-style and break it this review up by parts.

Note: I started this Dec 31st at 4am, but New Year's happened and yea.
( meow )

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Playlist of Chinese rock desperately trying to find my next favorite band

An old-fashioned ornament of two young girls bundled up in coats and walking side by side is nestled amidst pine boughs.

Challenge #1: The Icebreaker Challenge

Hellooooooo, Chris here. More info in my sticky with my interests in my profile, but tldr; goth-passing shoujo manga and video game enjoyer. I'm doing the challenge to meet new people ^^ And because I like posting about myself with prompts lol. Last year I didn't complete the challenge, so I hope I can this year now that I know what to expect (more or less)!

I've been busy with New Year's stuff so I haven't been able to write my post about Naruto Shippuden, which I finished very early in the morning on the 31st. I was determined to finish it before 2026 started. Look forward to it? And when my visual kei comm is ready You Will Know xD

Current Mood: busy
Current Music: my friend playing Where Winds Meet, which my computer is too raggedy to run

I have "make a public blog post" on my to-do list today, and I have nothing to talk about publicly, so you know what that means.

The World's Deadlist Addiction Is Popping Up on Brain Scans. And It's Not Even a Drug.

(PDF) The Biology of Human Survival: Life and Death in Extreme Environments

The Buddha's daughter: A young Tibetan-Chinese woman has an unprecedented role to play

Who Invented the High Five?

Double empathy problem (Relatedly: Autistic individuals are more prosocial towards strangers and people they barely know)

The disastrous voyage of Satoshi, the world's first cryptocurrency cruise ship

The Worst Magazine in America

The Cat's Maew: Thai Treatise on Auspicious Felines (19th Century)

Anatoly Moskvin (tw for child death)

These all have no common theme except they don't have much in common with the rest of the links I have saved. Which I need to go through and clean out, because I have saved a LOT but have been slacking on linkposting. Oops! Also, follow

longreads . See ya!

Current Mood: normal
Current Music: Sextape - Deftones

I've commented in

vsynthrecs and

vampiremedia, and I'm seriously considering participating in

moodthemeinayear next year, but not the yearly challenge -- probably a monthly one or the bingo -- but uhh. Hey, these are mostly the same comms I participated in last time! I hope next time will be different, LMAO.

This is probably related, so I'm going to talk/ask about my plans for the visual kei community here. If that seems like the kind of thing you'd be interested in, read more and vote in my poll here if you haven't already. I really do hate sounding like an attention-seeker, but, well... I kinda need a little attention right now xD I don't want this community to be dead on arrival, you know?
( Imagine me sitting at a large desk with my hands folded in front of me. )

Current Mood: worried
Current Music: I Still Love You - 702

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

I was just wondering if there's anyone here, followers, mutuals, passers-by alike, who would be interested in a community where we share and comment on vkei* songs + MVs, and nothing else? No general discussion, because I shouldn't be allowed to moderate that. Touching the conversations I imagine could happen would be like touching hot coals, but if we stay laser-focused on discussing the music then it's fine. At the very least, there will likely be a monthly thread where people can ask for personalized reccs!

The more I think about the comm the more ideas I have for it in terms of little events/challenges and such, so yea. I got the idea because a server I'm in has a channel where people post music, but it irks me how fast it goes and how there's no organization, so for this comm I want songs/MVs to be tagged with the subgenre (ex. kurofuku, tanbi, kote, menhera) and sound (ex. rock, metal, punk, electronic). If the poster is unsure which tags to use they won't have to tag anything, because the mod(s) will do it... Ideally! I don't really know how the specifics of tags in communities work, so we'll see.

If the comm really does happen, then while it's small I can only imagine needing a music-obsessed co-mod for adding/editing sound tags. I'm still learning about genres of music, so while I want everything to be tagged properly I don't trust myself to get the sounds right. However, I don't want just anyone to be able to add tags, because the ensuing arguments might be wild.

Anyways, yea ^_^ Let me know if you're interested or have something else to say. I won't say the number out loud (digitally), but there is a certain amount of positive responses I need before I seriously work on this. And of course if this is a bad idea that everyone hates I would prefer not to waste my time trying it, LOL.

Poll #33937

This poll is anonymous.
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 13

Would you participate in a vkei song reccs community?

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Yes, I would love to share songs!
2 (15.4%)

Yes, I'd love to comment on shared songs when interested!
2 (15.4%)

Yes, I'd love to share songs AND comment on ones I like!
2 (15.4%)

I would definitely lurk!
6 (46.2%)

I dunno... We shall see.
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I would participate in this comm if it weren't for the fact that YOU'D be in charge of it (my honest reaction)
1 (7.7%)

NOT interested, buddy!
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*The community won't be 100% visual kei. Some of my ideas for events/challenges, both unique and reoccurring, include sharing related scenes and genres. However, I do plan for events where we can share not-vkei songs to be shorter than the ones that are vkei-only. I've thought so much about this.

Current Mood: curious
Current Music: that one friend who's too deadman

This morning I read a NYT article about Wrappeds, and almost all the comments were so hostile. God forbid a man like numbers and stats and data.

This will probably be my last Spotify Wrapped (that has a useful amount of data, at least), which makes me kind of sad to think about since 2026 would've been 10 years' worth of Wrappeds for me. Not counting the fact that I totally missed 2018's for some reason. But it's okay... I stay strong... And I have Last.FM, which does their Wrapped in January like a normal year round-up thing should, so it's fine.

This is my 2nd year in a row with the same top 4 artists, although the order is a little shuffled. This is probably my 9th year with MCR in my top 5? (Meaning, they've been there ever since I started using Spotify.) And if memory serves me correctly, this is probably year 4 of having BT, MCR, and Michael Jackson in there. Possibly a little more.

I like how "rock" is lowkey in my top genres twice. Probably three times, since most of the "J-pop" is probably J-rock, which Spotify may tag as both J-pop and rock? I wish they consolidated genres a little better for this, or that I had the option to do so.

For the top song quiz I chose It Never Rains, but it was Ice Cream 💀💀💀 I dunno what I was going through to listen to it almost 200 times. Banger though.

Darlin' made a comeback after 5 years... in 2020 I was obsessed with it, although it was the rerecording I was looping. I like both the mature, improved vocals and younger, grittier vocals. They're each for their own kind of mood.

Ever since really listening to BT in 2019 they've been my #1 top artist, and I've been within their top 1% of fans. I think in 2019 I was within the top 0.1% though... something like that. I'm always worried I'm going to fall from the top percentages, but it hasn't happened yet! I worry about overplaying them and falling out of love too, though! How do I balance this!? Help me!!?!?

"Your club favorites"
>Wu-Tang Clan
>Band I have one liked song from
>Pierce the Veil (valid ig)
>Member of the Wu-Tang Clan
>Another member of the Wu-Tang Clan
>MCR (sadly valid)
Don't piss me off..

As for my role in the Grit Collective, I got "Recruiter - You share music far and wide, bringing in frequent new club members," which made me go "huh" until I remembered I like to send links to one specific guy all the time. Not sure that makes me a good recruiter! Said guy ignores my links half the time anyways TT_TT
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Did you know? YouTube, not YouTube Music but regular 'ol Youtube, had a Recap too. This is all that really matters though:

The "sides of you" thing is so funny to me... Too true YouTube. Too true.
Yea, I pretty much only use YT for music and anime OPs and EDs, and sometimes for studying or tutorials. I can't stand video essays. I always think "this could've been a blog post." I can read faster than people can talk, too many people have voices that annoy me or distract me from what they're saying, and I can look for the specific info I need faster with text too. End the reign video essays. Return to WordPress.

Linking my 5 most looped videos in the drop-down.

Boy Do I Love Anime

Put the links into xoutu.be yourself if you hate cookies. <- lazy

#5! I still haven't played this LOL. 2026 for sure!! I watched my friend play a little bit of it, and I think it's cute, but I will always feel :/ towards how Tokimeki Memorial makes it so you Have to get along with Everyone or you DIE. Why tf do I have to date 20 people to date the one I want man. Also the friend characters should be romanceable. But yea, the guy who is obviously the main guy, the blond bad boy, is so cute awwwwww <:3 And this translation is awesome btw, kudos to OP.

Watch on YouTube

#4 is from that time I tried watching the first episode of a bunch of anime I saw girls talking about on older blogs and websites, decided they were all bad and those ladies were just desperate for yaoi, and then never watched episode 2 of any of them. Saiyuuki also has an art style I don't especially like, but the opening is a banger to fun to look at.

#3 is orientalism if it was epic🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 Don't ask me anything about this show btw I don't remember shit but this ending

#2 is holy mother of yaoi
Got called autistic in Washington for watching this constantly for like a week (true and deserved)

#1 is this opening that makes me want to throw rocks at my own head <33333333
It's so misleading LMAO It makes it look like Naruto and Sasuke are besties and like Sakura actually does stuff. But it still makes me feel crazy.
Relevant quote from a locked entry written by myself:

i looked up the first naruto opening on USA cartoon network, and there were quite a few comments saying they really liked it (valid, fair) and that if they had seen the jp opening first they probably wouldnt have watched naruto. this means that the localizers did a good job picking a new opening song and sequence for this new audience, but this also means the average usamerican would rather watch keys jangle then enjoy beauty. SAD! (yes yes, there is beauty to be found even in a set of keys...)

And I'm inlcuding my entire Top Songs list... according to Spotify. If Last.FM does this too, and I think they do? Then it will probably look quite different, because there's lots of songs I listened to that aren't on Spotify, as well as songs I became obsessed with at the end of November and throughout this month.

Don't judge me.

Ice Cream (feat. Ghostface Killah, Method Man & Cappadonna) - Raekwon

Jesus - Laputa

DARLIN' (Album Version) - D'ERLANGER

It Never Rains (In Southern California) - Tony! Toni! Toné!

Broken Youth - NICO Touches the Walls (aka this Shippuden ED) (I tried listening to all this band's discog btw and couldn't find much else, so if you know any other songs that sound like this... like do I just listen to more J-rock from the late 00s or is this a specific subgenre I can look into or)

Scent Of Love - Helena Nogeurra

Te Aviso, Te Anuncio (Tango) - Shakira (English title is "I'm Warning You, I'm

Telling You (Tango)" ... ?)

Fallin' Out - Keyshia Cole

Glass no Sougen - Kikuchi Momoko (English is "Glass Plain")

Call Me - Aretha Franklin

Black - Pearl Jam

He Won't Go - Adele

Through Glass - Stone Sour

Don't Ask My Neighbors - The Emotions

Player's Prayer - Lloyd (💀)

Seishun Kyousoukyoku - Sambomaster (aka this Naruto OP. English title is "Rhapsody of Youth".)

RISKY VENUS - Crazy:B (💀💀💀💀💀)

IN MY DREAM (WITH SHIVER) - LUNA SEA

Love Of My Life (An Ode To Hip Hop) - Erykah Badu ft. Common

I Want You Back - The Jackson 5

I'm Still in Love with You - Al Green

Candy - Cameo

Baby cruising Love - Perfume (you will always be famous!!!!!!!!!!!!)

All I Do Is Think of You - Troop (did you know this is a cover of a Jackson 5 song?)

Tchaikovsky: The Nutcracker, Op. 71, Act 2: No. 14a, Pas de deux. Andante maestoso - Tchaikovsky

Over the Rainbow - Aretha Franklin

Sylvia: Pizzicato - Léo Delibes

Superwoman - Karyn White

What the Hell - Avril Lavigne

Until The End Of Time (with Beyoncé) - Justin Timberlake

You're Not My Kind Of Girl - New Edition

A Long Walk - Jill Scott

Haruka Kanata - ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION (aka... wait for it... this Naruto OP. English title is "Far, Far Away" I guess.)

Halloween - Aqua

Meteor - Croix Allcine

Electric Angel - Yasuo ft. Hatsune Miku

The Best In Me - Marvin Sapp

ROSIER - Single Version - LUNA SEA

The Real Slim Shady - Eminem

You Make Me Feel Brand New - The Stylistics

Fantasy - Earth, Wind & Fire

Do You Think About Me - 50 Cent

La-La Means I Love You - The Delfonics

Virgin cry - Laputa

Creep - Radiohead (first ever time it's not the TLC song)

Enough Of No Love - Keyshia Cole ft. Lil Wayne

Rusty Nail - X JAPAN

1, 2 Fanclub - Mikito P ft. GUMI & Kagamine Rin

Mansae - SEVENTEEN (English title? "YIPPEEE!!!!!!")

Nocturne - Castlevania Sound Team (that song the fairy sings to Alucard to help him go beddybye)

Method Man - Home Grown Version - Wu-Tang Clan (really it's just Method Man)

Heaven Sent - Keyshia Cole

Mr. - KARA

Ooo Baby Baby - Smokey Robinson & The Miracles

Ain't No Woman (Like The One I've Got) - Four Tops

GOOD MORNING SATELLITE - DEAD END (awesome guitar)

Ore no Kanojo wa Risutokatta - KYOKUTOU GIRL FRIEND (in English it's "My Girlfriend is a Wrist-Cutter" ... or maybe "My Girlfriend Cuts/Slits Her Wrists" since the longer I look at it the more I wonder if "wrist-cutter" is an English phrase.)

Astrosexy - m-flo ft. CHEMISTRY

When a Man Loves a Woman - Percy Sledge (this was my #1 song last year iirc)

I Want To Hold Your Hand - Remastered 2009 - The Beatles

Please, Please, Please - James Brown & The Famous Flames

follow the night light - deadman

Seikan Hikou - Ranka Lee (v. Nakajima Megumi) (English title is "Interstellar Flight")

One Night Only - From ‘Dreamgirls’ / Original Broadway Cast Version - Jennifer Holliday, Sheryl Lee Ralph, Loretta Devine, Deborah Burrell

Stop, Look, Listen (To Your Heart) - The Stylistics

Free Yourself (feat. Missy Elliott) - Fantasia

Barairo no Jinsei - Ando (English title is "[A] Rose-Colored Life")

The Sweetest Thing (feat. Lauryn Hill) - From the New Line Cinema film "Love Jones" - Refugee Camp All-Stars

Algo Está Cambiando - Julieta Venegas (Eng - "Something Is Changing")

die - BUCK-TICK (Helloooooooo beautiful; was almost scared this song wouldn't be here for the first time in years. This was my #1 song in 2019)

I'm Leaving You Again - New Edition

Lost Decadence - LIPHLICH

Hustler Musik - Lil Wayne

Chicago - Michael Jackson

No More Drama - Mary J. Blige

Lovin' You - Minnie Riperton

Sounds Like a Love Song - Bobby Glenn

La La La - Naughty Boy ft. Sam Smith

Deity - Louise Patricia Crane

You Are Everything - The Stylistics

Back Stabbers - The O'Jays

I'd Rather Go Blind - Etta James

Niwaka Ame ni mo Makezu - NICO Touches the Walls (Don't get mad at me... It's a Shippuden OP. The one I'm currently on! Eng is "I Won't Even Lose to Sudden Rain" or something ik the youtube link has the official translation and it's right there but i'm lazy asffffff)

Refrain Limit / Drug Habit - Laputa

Dress - BUCK-TICK (helloooooooooo gorgeous 😻)

911 (feat. Mary J. Blige) - Wyclef Jean

Yume no Hajimarinrin - Kyary Pamyu Pamyu (I guess the English title is like "My Dreams are Beginringringing" ... or more straightforwardly "The Start of My Dreams Ring Ring" but I wanted it to sound fun like the original :') )

Leave - Lil Shxwn ft. Yungeen Ace

GLORIA - ZIGGY

Y Siempre - Tierra Canela (Eng - "And Forever")

Untitled (How Does It Feel) - D'Angelo

Karma - 2BYG

You Don't Know My Name - Alicia Keys (this song is basically childhood oomf)

Bizarre Love Triangle - New Order

Love Will Tear Us Apart - 2020 Remaster - Joy Division

Love T.K.O. - Teddy Pendergrass

What Do The Lonely Do At Christmas? - The Emotions

Lonely Rolling Star - Kabata Saki (from Katamari Damacy)

Carnival of the Animals, R. 125: The Swan - Camille Saint-Saëns

Okay byeeeeeeee

Current Mood: okay
Current Location: i'm not a man btw. don't believe my lies.
Current Music: Heaven or Las Vegas - Cocteau Twins

The pain of 2025, that is! I'm so excited for the new pain and hardship 2026 will bring!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!

I didn't make one of these last month because ??? I don't know, to be honest. Let's pretend having a job threw off my usual unemployed schedule. So, this entry will cover both October and November.

I need to add this to my bio, but for now I'm putting this here: I type in my dialect on purpose, and if you try to correct it you lose relationship points with me. Thanks for understanding!

Past
In a classic Cici move, I did fuck all all of October. I don't even know why. I just didn't. And my doing nothing that month resulted in all my plans/projects falling through. 1000000000000 such cases. It seems like the only things I accomplished were completing Rhythm Tengoku and Rhythm Heaven (Gold). I watched Blacula and Sinners too, for class, but that's about it.

The Rhythm Heavens™

Both Rhythm Heavens were awesome, do recommend. These are some of my favorite minigames. (I prefer the Fan Clubs in Megamix though.) I will say that the controls for Gold made me want to hurt myself and the people around me sometimes, but that's okay! ^_^

Blacula was okay. Sinners was great! But I never can come up with much to say about movies...

November was my first month on the job and it's pretty darn okay. It's easy money. Unfortunately as a person who is/was 👌🏾 this close to being a hikikomori sometimes the difference is rooooough.

In November, I...
( the consumer )
I also finished all my normal school work, so besides Finals Week coming up (which I have never stressed over because I'm a great test taker) I'm done with school 👍🏾 One useless degree coming right up! Finally unsubbed from Spotify too, but I'm not gonna lie, this transition is hurting me. At the tail end of November I started working on a capsule wardrobe, so maybe in January or so I'll post pictures of all the outfit combinations I can make or something? *noncommittal shrug*

Present
I'm................... drawing 🤯 And since I finished Suikoden and dropped Haruka 2, I'm going to end the year with Chrono Trigger and Sakura Taisen. I don't really have plans besides that. Since I'll be spending most of the month freshly graduated, I want to relax for a while before making more unrealistic goals for myself and beating myself up when I fail ^v^

Way too late, I finally put the pieces together and realized that the reason I've drawn so little the past few years (with the sole exception of a little Moment during my sophomore year lol) is because I was too busy with or worried about school, so I'm going to make myself draw for a while and see if I can easily get back into the rhythm of it with no school holding me back.

Future
I'll be free as a bird from the 12th and onwards! You know, if you completely ignore that I have a job and all. I don't have the kind of demons that tell me to get a Master's, LMAO. Or, at least... they're not very loud <:3

I need to make some New Year's resolutions, but I'm not sure how many to have, what I should focus on, or if I should publicly share them to pressure myself into doing them or not. (If I say them publicly it'll hurt harder when I fail.) I know for sure in January I'm continuing my fan translation of that one manga, which I hope to finish within the year.

One thing I know for sure? I'm taking a nap right after I post this. Good night!

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Vertigo - Laputa

ぎりぎりだけど, I have completed yet another Community Thursday. :)

I posted in

vsynthrecs and

otome_games, and commented something in

vampiremedia I suppose. I'm thinking about for real making this a thing this time, for completely normal and not desperate reasons. Let's at least try making it biweekly or monthly. And I may want to join more communities for this purpose, but... ┐(￣ヘ￣;)┌ We shall see!

If you're seeing this post, you don't have to wait until next Thursday. Support your local Dreamwidth community whenever you can ☆

please please please please please

Current Mood: chill
Current Location: I gotta do that October summary post still ~_~;
Current Music: Niwaka Ame ni mo Makezu - NICO Touches the Walls

So last Tuesday I went to a place I applied to to woo them with my beautiful face. That's how I got my last job, I assume, so I figured it would be to my advantage if I tried it again. When it comes to jobs I'm comfortable working I'm kind of limited, and out of the jobs I applied to this place was by far my preferred choice, so I was just a little desperate to have them hire me.

On the way there was this guy at a stand selling (faux? p?)leather bracelets with spaces for snap buttons. He told us to check out his stuff when we circle back, and I really wanted to avoid him because I'm your typical antisocial zoomer, but his booth was riiight outside the store I was going to. So I had no choice but to check his wares when I left. In the end I ended up telling him that I'm broke and actually came her to check on an application... and he let me pick out a bracelet and 3 buttons for free. What the flip. So in that moment I actually became indebted to him and swore I'd buy something from him if I get the job. (This man, by the way, who wore a head band with a feather standing tall in the middle, said he loved that I wore my hair natural and told me to pray to the ancestors for help in getting the job, in case you need to vibe check him.)
( This post has pictures!!!! Rare long public post about my life )

Current Mood: fuckkkk im employed
Current Music: La Mentira - Ana Belén

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Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: crushcrushcrush - Paramore

So Voltage (of even if TEMPEST fame) is releasing a new game in December called Neon Clash - Echoes of the Lost -. This is the bilingual site, so be sure to change the language to English if you need that. I really like the MC design, and the love interest with light gray-blue hair is pretty cute, but the others look sooooo whatever. I believe their last game was The Red Bell's Lament, and when I heard about that I thought the concept sounded interesting but all the love interests looked boring, so it was kiiiind of nice that they at least got one for me this time. Come to think of it, I think only one love interest in even if TEMPEST is cute too... (If you can guess who it is you will win $0 :D!)

Anyways, I sent the characters page of Neon Clash to a friend so someone else can hate on the boys too, but I accidentally scrolled down too far and saw the side characters. What the hell. They're much, much more interesting looking than the love interests!? Are they kidding me? And I remember feeling this exact same way about The Red Bell's Lament too. But this time it's tenfold. They can't be serious making the other characters look like that and then seriously expecting me to give a flip about these fools in the forefront (besides the MC, who is lowkey kinda *bites lip*).

I don't think they even make fandiscs that make those characters romanceable. What the hell, Voltage? ?? ???? !!!?!?!?
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Current Mood: disappointed
Current Location: i still have not played even if tempest
Current Music: Second Love - Nakamori Akina

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