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Sunday, June 20, 2010 still stuck
how long has it been?
i'm still stuck in this rut. why?
just why is it so hard for me to let go? all the pics i posted, supposed to show that i'm moving on or at least i'm trying. but no, i'm still stuck.
i already told myself that the next wordy post i'm writing, will be a happy one. well seems like that's not gonna happen, here i am, writing again, to make myself feel better.
i know you're gonna read this one day, and you'll probably point your fingers at me and laugh your ass off at my stupidity to still keep holding on, and my lack of will and courage to let you go.
well, the only thing i've managed to do is to totally not go to your blog and twitter at all. don't wanna risk another round of heartache if i see the letters you write for other people. and of course since i've already deleted you from facebook i won't see your post either, and i haven't been to your profile to look you up.
so i've only managed these thus far.
still got a long way ahead of me. tremendous pain.
oh man.
the things i'm willing to give up right now... just to hold you tightly in my arms once more.
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