Moving

Well today we did it. We found a house to rent about a mile away from where we are living now. Adam woke me up tonight in the middle of the night and now I can't stop thinking and go back to sleep so I'm hoping that writing it out will help.... Getting Adam ready for school tomorrow is going to be hard. Ok. Anyway. Back to the house... We've had our eye out for places for the last little while. We didn't want to commit to anything until after the first trimester. When we've talked about it we decided that keeping Adam in the same school where he can keep in contact with his friends was one of the most important things to us. Our school is pretty small so there isn't really that much to choose from. Plus it's mostly houses... Well we decided that we aren't ready to buy again and make that investment after we lost so much money on our condo... When we buy we want to take it slow, be out of debt, and have a nice savings. So that left renting and there wasn't much selection. The house we found is nice and well taken care of, it's just a little big. We were hoping to save a little more each month since our goal is to be debt free quickly, but we also know that we can't sacrifice so much that we go crazy and hate life on our way to that goal. I guess we also just thought it was important for Adam to have some stability. We have moved a lot in he last 3 years. He has been to 3 different schools. He has always been great at adjusting and he is so outgoing but we want him to have stability... Especially as everything at home will be changing with 2 new babies!  This house will hopefully give him stability. We are hoping to stay there until we are ready to get settled into a house of our own. That would mean that he would only have to change schools one more time....  Well we hope that is the plan but our plans have a way of changing so I'm not counting on that too much. So that was most of our thinking in finding the house. Tonight we even went to Home Depot and bought a washer and dryer.

So now I have all these thoughts running through my head.   We really don't have much stuff but Scott has back issues and I can't lift much pregnant with twins.... So we have to rely on help. We start moving in less than a month so I'm hoping to be able to try and pack a little each day and to keep the boxes light... But we are still going to have to rely on family and friends. Plus we are going into a new ward pregnant with twins.... I have a feeling the Relief Society President of compassionate service leader may feel a bit of stress with us coming in and making sure we get any help we need. Maybe that sounds bad. I know people are wonderful and want to help... But I also know you can only ask so much from people. I don't want to be a burden on anyone... But maybe that is part of our lesson right now... Learning to allow others to serve us. The few days/ almost week I spent on bed rest was amazing with people reaching out... And we didn't really tell many people. We had a friend pick up Adam from school with her child and she helped so much that week. They live down the street right now and the 2 boys are constantly together. I know Adam is sad he won't be able to walk to their house on his own anymore but I'm so glad they are in the same class and we don't live far so they can still play with a little help...  We had an outpouring of love from others too. I felt I was lucky that Adam is able to do so much on his own that he did just fine while I was resting so we didn't need much help but we still recieved so much and I was grateful... And grateful to get back to normal activities!  But that was just a week... Will I have to be on bed rest again later, for longer?  I think that is one reason I'm ready to move now. I realized how fast things can change and how quickly I need to be ready. At first we were hoping to move in November.... But complications are so much more common with two babies!  So blogs I've read say they made sure they had everything ready at 20 weeks just in case!  Well with this move I can be a lot closer to being ready. I don't really plan on doing much. We have to buy car seats and a stroller. But I think that is the only thing I am planning on buying in advance. We have been given a lot of stuff and I will probably try to go through it once we get in the house. I haven't really opened the boxes yet.... There just isn't room where we are now and I would just have to pack it up again.... Plus we don't know the genders yet so we don't know what clothes to plan for....  Anyway. I guess things are really just falling into place. Things worked out for us to get this house. We have a plan on what to use the space for. We will be a little house poor for awhile because we want to save all we can to make sure we can pay for these babies but we can make due. I think just the front room will be empty for awhile. God has blessed us... And I'm grateful for it. We have so many wonderful people who are willing to help. God will continue to watch over us. I just need to get my planning brain to slow down long enough to let me sleep and be able to get work done tomorrow...  Too many thought just racing through... Like what can I pack first.... What do we need for the next little while and what can we do without.   How do I keep boxes from being too heavy so I can do a little of the moving myself. And do we pay guys to come and do the heavy stuff or do we get help and do it ourselves....  So many questions... And no I still don't think I will be able to sleep. I will probably fall asleep about 15 minutes before the alarm goes off.... And then not be able to get up....... Maybe my mind will calm down with a game....

A little scare

We had a nice little scare last night but as of right now everything is fine. It was a normal night around 11 pm. I was in bed and felt something flowing so I went to the bathroom to discover I was bleeding. And this wasn't spotting this was bleeding.... Like a little clot came out. I felt calm and scared at the same time. We called around and talked to a nurse friend and she suggested we go to the ER so off we went. Well first we had to wait for my mom to come and stay with Adam. We got to the ER about 11:30 and were admitted. The doctor talked to us to find out what happened and then we went to get an ultrasound.  We heard the two heartbeats still. They did some more checking and a bit later the doctor came to tell us it was a Subchorionic hemorrhage. We were to call our doctor in the morning and he suggested bed rest. I just got off the phone with our nurse and she said pelvic rest instead until our next doctor appointment next week. That means that I have to take it very easy but not quite as strict as bed rest. We are so glad that everything is ok. We were blessed to be able to stay calm last night and know it is all in God's hands. Today was Adam's first day of kindergarten. We still thought I was on strict bed rest and we didn't get home until about 2 last night so we were a little rushed. Dad took him to school and he did great!  He sure is independent and wanted to walk in by himself, but needed a little help.... We were only a little late, we will work on that....

A New Adventure

Yep there are two babies in there... I guess I'm not surprised and most of the time I'm excited. Glad we have so many people to help out.... And it is still rely early so a lot can still happen.... Well I guess it is time to start thinking of stuff... But we still won't really do anything for a few months.... I guess life is about to change drastically in a few months!

Planning

ok here's the thing... I'm a planner... Once I find something out I want to start planning and doing... I know there isn't that much I can do right now. I have to wait 9, well I guess 8 month for our bundle of joy to come and we are so excited. The thing is... We have about a %50 chance that it's twins.... And we have to wait almost 2 weeks for our ultrasound to find out. If it's twins we will need to find another apartment... Because our landlord told us when we moved in we could only have 4 people here... Which I would like to find within the same school boundaries so that Adam doesn't have to switch schools... Since I'm pretty sure we wouldn't move in the next month before school starts... And we would have to get a bigger car.... We might be able to squeeze Adam and 2 babies in the back of our Elentra, but Adam would be really squashed and it would be hard for him to get in and out to pick him up for school without getting a baby out too...  Plus I'm thinking of strollers and clothes and everything..... When we moved we kept almost no baby stuff. We have friends that are done that are giving us a lot... So I'm my too worried... But the last few days there have been sales at the baby stores and it has taken all my strength not to just buy stuff.... We don't even know how many or what gender..... So I'm trying to be patient... But I'm not doing a very good job and I just want to know how many and what we are having.... Even though it won't even do much because I know that we have so many wonderful friends and family that will give us so much of what we will need..... But that doesn't stop me from looking at strollers, and apartments, and bigger cars.... And all the other stuff we just might need.... And before I know it the time will be here... Now just waiting that two weeks to find out how many baby's we are expecting....

It worked!

We got the call... Well really we called... I needed to leave soon and we wanted to be together when we found out, and it was 12:15 and the clinic was supposed to close at noon.... So Scott called and it is positive!!!!! I'm pregnant!!!!!!!!  We will have an ultrasound in the next few weeks and find out if there is more than one....  We are so happy!  I know there is still so much time and stuff can still go wrong... Maybe we are a little early to be putting the word out but whatever!  We don't do we'll at holding it in!

Waiting for an answer

so I'm sitting here waiting for a call from the clinic with the answer to if this cycle was successful or not.  We went in and did a blood test this morning.... These last few hours are the longest. Our doctor mentioned when we started this process that the 2 week wait felt like forever, and it did.... I tried to keep busy.... But now, knowing that the phone could ring any minute.... And since it is Saturday our clinic is supposed to close in 35 min..... Oh please call just come in already.  I took a home test last night and it was positive....but with all the crazy hormones I've been putting in my body it is hard to trust that even though I want to so bad...... So I'm optimistic.... But I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high.....  We have more chances... It will be ok if it is negative...  But I hope it's positive....  Even then I realize that this is only the beginning and so much can go wrong.....  Yikes.... Phone just ring already!

Transfer

Well we did our embryo transfer on Tuesday. We had 4 good eggs and we had to decide to put in one or two.... After much thought and prayer we decided to put in 2. The transfer isn't too bad. They gave me a Valium.... Once you decide how many they take you into the room. They brought us a picture of our embryos. Once they were ready and I had a full bladder they cranked me open and inserted the eggs. They used ultrasound on the tummy to guide it to the right place... Then we went home and I rested at home the rest of the day. I tried to take it easy on Wednesday and then Thursday we drove down to Vegas to have a mini vacation with Scott's parents. We followed all the instructions we were given, stopping the car every 2 hours and walking around, taking things slowly. Once in Vegas I didn't ride anything because it might be jerky... So Adam went with grandma and grandpa on the monorail and the Ferris wheel.... We had fun but we tried to take it easy. I had some spotting on Saturday, yesterday and my emontions went out of control. It seems to be less today but I still have my defenses up and am assuming it didn't work...  I've cried but I also know that this is why we paid for multiple cycles and we have 2 frozen ones ready for our next try.  I think it is just weird now.... I've been going through his every month for 8 years, minus the time I was pregnant and then we waited 6 months on doctor orders....  In the beginning I was excited and expecting something each time... But it never came so I stopped keeping track and learned that it probably wasn't going to happen... We went to doctors and no one could tell us what was wrong so I stopped having expectations.... Finally after years and many doctors we finally find out what's wrong and that it is an amazing miracle that we have a child... That now our only option is IVF... Well here we are and I finally have some kind of hope each time.... But no matter how good science is they can't to better than about a 30% chance each time.... With 2 embryos I guess we upped it a bit.... But it still Amy take time. I know that. Our answer isn't no yet.... It still could happen but I guess I'm bracing for that disappointment again because that is pretty much all I know how to feel.... Hey even when we took the pregnancy test with Adam it wasn't until I was almost 2 weeks late...  And right now I have a lot of drugs running through me... Plus the usual emontional hormones...  This has been hard and the road ahead will still be hard I'm sure... But I do have faith in Gods plan and somehow I know things will work out.