My Mental Health
Anxiety. Depression. Scrupulosity. Orthorexia nervosa. The words get longer and more Latin. They each represent struggles in my life. Constant anxiety since I was young, but I had no idea until I was 29. Depression here and there- at its height when I came home from my mission, and my former boyfriend was engaged to my best friend. I felt betrayed by her, him, even God. Scrupulosity- religious OCD. I craved hearing from my Bishops that I was forgiven, over and over. It felt good for the day, and then I needed to meet with them to hear it again. It’s becoming more understood and talked about. I’ve been healing from it the last five years. The best thing I’ve heard and repeat to myself often is “this is not a spiritual problem-it is a mental one.” Orthorexia- so common in our society. It manifested itself in how I punished myself with running twice a day if I ate sweets. Or even as a missionary- I wouldn’t write my boyfriend until I lost ten pounds. This quote has been s...
