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30 weeks..

salam…

minggu ni sedikit down…  saya overweight.  like 0.6 kg, lebih kurang la…  Hb level still borderline… below 11…  dah start count baby’s movement…

next check up on 28th june.  tanda merah ‘Hb level n weight to be observed next’.  2nd dose of tetanus jab.  up till now sengal2 lagi… nasib baik saya beritahu pada nurse tu cucuk tgn kanan sbb saya kidal…

baby’s movement, mcm biasa.  dia aktif bila pagi n lewat ptg…  selalu jgk tjaga tgah2 mlm bila baby gerak2…  sgt susah nak dptkan tidur yg nyenyak these days…  letak bantal tinggi2 pun masih belum selesa…  it’s okay baby… umi love you…  bila down mcm ni, sesekali mesti terhibur sbb melayan pergerakan baby…  the only thing that makes me smile today…

semalam, lepas check up, saya gi shopping2 skit…  semua org tgk saya senyum2 je… saya balas la senyuman tu.  agaknya mereka faham kot saya down.  even a stranger hulurkan tisu kat saya masa tunggu bungkus makanan.  tapi saya tak ingat pun saya ada mengeluarkan air mata.  tapi saya geleng2 aje..  agaknya sedih sgt muka saya semalam.

hari ni pun, saya down lagi… biasa bila dah tidur, bangun tu mesti saya lupa dah. tapi kali ni tak pulak…  agaknya sakit kena injection n amik darah kot…  tu fizikal sahaja…  hati ni Allah je yg tahu… saya risau sgt kot…  tadi beli nasi tengahari pun, kakak yang kira tu tegur, sikitnya nasi… cukup ke?  saya senyum tawar aje…  bila cakap kat mak, mak kata saya byk makan junk food…  choc bila teringin saya makan, biskut saya ambil yg hi-iron or naiyu jagung, afternoon snack, buah jambu batu.  kdg2 teringin pisang goreng.  kadang2 kurma.  ntah la… makan ape lagi?  sarapan pun bihun goreng dgn sambal atau telur goreng.  selang seli dgn biskut atau roti.  susu anmum.   sejak preggy, nescafe atau kopi memg jarang2 skali.  jus, seminggu 3-4 kali jgk sbb sembelit.  ape yang terlebihnya ek?  before pregnant, berat badan paling tinggi pun 53kg.  masa 3 bulan preggy 57 kg.  now, 66 kg…  66 minus 53 equal to 13kgs… ummm… overweight la…  patut max weight up to 67 je bila bersalin nanti…  tapi masa scan hari tu doc kata berat baby ok.  setara dgn umur.   alamak… saya rasa saya dah byk fikir la…

betul la… saya ni transparent.  susah nak sorokkan perasaan.  sama ada suka atau tak…  cmane nak senyum kalau hati kita meronta2???  saya pesan kat baby, u have to be the stronger one when mummy is weak…  take everything in me if that makes u stronger… mummy love you…

delayed post: 28 weeks

salam…

i went to KK Seremban for 28th weeks check up on 31st may. my appointment was set at 2 pm so i have to go to work that morning… 😦 urghhh! Luckily, hubby was here to accompany me during the check up.
we arrived at KK Seremban at about 1.45 pm. put my pink book on the counter, take one strip for a urine test which is required to do for every check up. mula2 tu malu okeh bwk strip tu gi toilet.. strip only! up till now me not sure that strip whether the strip is for UTI test or any other test. bila tunjuk dekat nurse, selalu dia akan kata ok. if tak ok, saya pun tak tau la kena wat ape…
so, lepas tu saya tunggu la nama saya dipanggil utk masuk dalam. bila dah masuk dalam, kena timbang berat dulu. naik 1.7 kg. yeay! tak overweight lagi. then amik BP. as usual 100/60. i’ve asked a doctor bout my BP since my parents said that reading is a bit lower than theirs and the doctor said, from my first check up, it’s consider normal. but, as my Hb quite low, i have to eat more meat, spinach to make it higher. to hinder the risk of losing so much blood during delivery. and do not skip my double hematinics… well… i did a few times… err… hope it’s all okay.
but this time, tak perlu amik darah lagi… yey! sbb from my last check up, Hb saya dah naik. so terus jumpa doctor utk scan placenta. hikhikhik… when my turn came, i asked my husband to come along with me. but he refused. aiyoh! hari tu excited sgt nak tgk baby… rupa2 nya dia salah faham or saya salah cakap kot… ntah la… mana2 la… bila tgk scan tu, doc kata baby ok, berat dah 1kg, placenta kat atas. then doc tanya, dah tau baby boy or girl ke? saya kata, lum gikkk… since kedudukan baby seolah2 nak tunjuk doc pun cari n dah tau la serba sedikit as doc cerita nampak la ape organ2 sepatutnya… hikhikhik… keluar je terus ingat nak bagitau hubby, sekali dia tidur la… padahal saya dalam bilik doc tu like 15 minutes kot! saya pun terus jumpa nurse yang check perut (CTG) tapi nurse kata if dah jumpa doc, takpe, tak payah buat CTG. just bagi my supplement set n set the next appointment. on 14th of june, at 30th weeks… wow! after that, saya kejut hubby, n break the news.  then dia kata eh dah scan? naper tak kejut?  saya jawab, kan tadi org ajak abg tanak masuk… takpe la… yang penting we both know yg baby is doing fine.  and papa started to give names to baby… cute papa!  we had lunch kat wadi ar-raudhah.  lauk daging cincang yg superb.. kami dua amik satu mangkuk.  fav lunch place mak n abah tu… if nasib baik, leh jumpa MB NS.. ekekekeke…  
the baby’s movements are becoming frequent now… pagi, tgahri, ptg, n malam. pagi dua kali, pukul 530 sampai 6… then kul 7 sampai la umi sampai tempat keje… and i can now feel when the baby turn and turn and turn… sgt tegang perut… if i ate something that can makes me bloat, lagi parah rasanya… mcm nak pecah je perut… tapi, Allah maha pencipta… Subhanallah..
and baby dah pandai main2 dgn umi. kadang2 bila dia tak gerak pada waktu biasa, saya akan pegang perut. then dia pun gerak. cepat2 saya ubah2 tempat dia ikut je tgn saya… so cute… and kalau saya diaaammmm jek, dia pun diam. tapi bila dengar suara saya, dia pun gerak2… betul la the baby can feel the mother’s emotion… Subhanallah…
love you baby… umi love you so much!

3 more weeks to go…

salam..

3 more weeks to go… not baby delivery but officially jobless. i haven’t set anything yet on my mind on what to do, what is my plan A, B, C or D.  just quit and start a new… i am also do not know whether to start searching any opportunities before delivery or after delivery.  because i do not want to be separated from my husband again.  one year is enough.  i’ve gone thru a lot.  when you are married n away from the spouse is a very, very pain in the a** experience.  

3 more weeks and i have to make sure that everything that will leave behind in this factory is not a ‘headache’ for my replacement.  ummm… how sweet… <angelic>

3 more weeks… what are my expectations on being pregnant and jobless?  <total clueless>