Oh My Feels! . .

Every time after watching,  reading or even making up a kinda teary story or movie I always have an after-effect feels of sadness that seems to last a few days. With the feels also makes me yearns for love also. . . How can like this. . .
Maybe cause I've never ever ever been in a relationship that got me falling in love with someone. . . Previous ones are only just friends with benefits,  if you know what I mean la. . .
I'm so pathethic ow . ..  haish. . . Komplen ja. . . 

Realization

I'm such a dick to my self sometimes. . . I tend to be ignorant to the things that are important in the future cause I'm such a scardy cat and couldn't even get out from comfort zone. . . I'm so used to the way it is now that I don't want it to change or being obstructed. . . Haish. . .  

New Foundings. . ..

So early this morning (5 a.m kinda), I found some interesting video while scrolling through a tumblr page that I was following. It was a snipped PC gameplay, which was a gay sex scene (minus the fucking lah. . .). The game is called Mass Effect 3 and I thought it was just some kind of 3D editing that some geek do, but its not. When I search through google it was actually real as a player have some special gameplay in deciding the main protagonist path. You can search the net for more info and check out some of the gameplay on youtube. I found the game interesting but no way i could be playing it as my laptop is having some problems and you have to get the first two previous game to understand the game. . .

Moving on to my laptop issues, I'm not sure what cause the problem, maybe the windows program has a few corrupted files or the HDD is causing the problem. But I think its the windows files that is the problem cause the computer still can e accessed if I start it in safe mode. So I try to back-up all of my file before hand sending it to be formatted. If the problem is caused by the HDD then it means gotta replace it for a second time. 

So my laptop's kinda giving me some 'attitude' of it by not being able to be responsive when i turned it on. It's have the on switch light up but the screen is just pitch black, which makes me frustrated with the fact that I would be taking it to the shop for a repair and I would loose all my files and movie collection. What makes it more frustrating and angers me is that I haven't backed up all the files. T^T. . .
I hope that all of my files can be save and backed up when i send it to the shop tomorrow. . . the good thing though is that my recent work I've saved it in my usb drive so it lessen the bad feeling.. . *sigh*. . .

Oh So Full...

Well tonite is just the start of the CNY dinner that  few close relative that will be going on for this week, and this nite in particular is beccause there's this one guy who is my aunt's sister's friend's son which i can't help but a few looksy at him. From my observation that he is a few years younger. he has a quite built body for someone who is a few years younger than me. I also noticed that he keeps on running his hands through his hair and changing his side part. left to right to left. Then there was a moment where our eyes came to contact for a few seconds. After that I tried to not make it too obvious by just listening to my uncle's rant on his sort of 'lecture' to few of my cousins and my brother where the MAN corner. I like going to reunion dinners like this where close relatives gather and share stories and such. Its fun to listen to their rant and their sharing experience to those who listen.
Back to the guy, I notice he position himself a little bit away from my line of sight as maybe he noticed my wandering eyes been checking him out and creep him out a bit. Later I have a last look at his cute face and built body before I followed my sister and her husband back home cause I was sleepy already and need to feed the pups and kitts

Oh So Dusty. . .

So starting today and onward (hopefully. . .) I'll be working around the house for this coming CNY Dinner next month. I'm not gonna be the only one that will do the cleaning of course. I also gonna divide the task to the others. . .

Now Day 1 Cleaning the ground floor before proceeding to my room and the first floor. . .

Happy Cleaning. . .

Oh SO Long It Has Been. . .

Well it's has been long while since my last post here, been busy and all. It's a new year and a new page of life  will be written for me in this new chapter, 2013. I've just recently finished my studies but haven't graduated yet cause the college needs to do some meetings and such and will be graduating in the month of October. And I'm hoping that the main campus will decide the graduation for us here in Sabah, will be held here so there will be less hassle to travel then to spend a lot on transportation to the Peninsular and place to stay there. 

Then there's the issue of the hostel audit. There are four of us staying in one unit, but only two of us is really willing to hasten up the process so there would be less of a hassle. The other two unfortunately are so absorbed in their ego that they want to delay it just for their $%@#@%!@!@$ sake. One of the person  just know how to talk nonsense with empty words that has the sound of an empty tin can that is been kicked around. He always blabber nonsense and exaggerating things, and always  do things half-way or too lazy to do anything other than playing humping game with his girlfriend. 

Moving on. . . in August one of my favorite book, the one that I've been blabbering about in my previous post, will be in live action as it has been made into a movie, and if the first one got a good reception they will proceed to make a trilogy or so, and hopefully it will be as good as the story in the book. 

Now I'm spending a lot time at home helping mom with the chores, sorting my stuff from hostel (still not finished yet after a week already XD), playing sims 3, and onlining. . .

that is all for now TTFN...