Assalamualaikum

Lama sangat tak menulis.Macam dah dekat setahun lebih.Pun dah tatau macam mana nak start ;)

Alhamdulillah kerja sekarang nampak lebih teratur.lebih ada wawasan.lebih ke arah kemajuan.ok dah macam nak buat speech pulak

In shaa Allah, lepas ni kalau ada masa, akan cuba untuk update sekerap mungkin...

Ini Serius

Serius aku rindu nak menulis.serius!tapi entah bile ade kesempatan macam dulu.

situasi hari ini

assalamualaikum.terasa sangat lama meninggalkan blog.nk menulis pon rasa mcm dh kekok ;) harap2 dapat merajinkan diri macam dulu.

sekaran sibuk.memang sibuk.penat dan kadang2 rasa give up.seriously i wish i was a small little girl.no need to think about anything ;)

hari ni.rushing pergi jkr.discussion mengenai satu project.syukur, engineer yg in charge sgt ok.mcm faham yang aku masih baru.big boss suruh aku buat followup project.salah satu scope kerja aku yang baru.ape yg aku belajar bila aku buat followup project is---communication skills.so dh habis discuss dengan mr siva,engineer jkr..rushing pegi site kat tanjung tokong.then finish,rush pergi site dekat jalan vermont.penat.sangat.kulit pon hitam.kesian.terasa macam masih dalam palapes.kulit hitam.nasib badan.then finish kat site almost 6pm.baru tersedar,tak lunch lg harini.setitik air pon xmasuk dlm perut.dek terlalu nk settlekan kerja.balik office.letak semua drawing.punch out.singgah beli burger kat brader dpn ofis.

brader:dik,nak beger ape

aku:bagi la yg spesel bang.sehari xmkn ni.lapar btol

brader: trok ke keje cni dik?

aku: npe abg tny cmtu plak?

brader: xdela,abg dh 9tahun meniaga dpn ni.abg kenal jgk engineer2 prempuan melayu yg keje cni.semua pn plg kurang 2bulan.pastu dh xde,tu abg tny trok ke keje cni

aku: bole la bang.terok jugak

brader: tp abg tgk kamu plg lama.dh 8bln kn?

aku: aik,abg pn tau sy dh 8bln kt cni?*tersenyum*

brader: abg prasan la dik.sbb kamu yg plg lama

aku: *hanya mampu tersenyum* (dlm hati=tak lama lagi,sy pon nk quit dh bang ;)

sometimes, i just proud being myself.alhamdulillah.now,continue doing work ;)

wassalam

hello

assalamualaikum

i know i have been away for a few months.its not easy for me to write back.there's a bunch of stories i wanna share.yet i dont know where to start.give me time.give me space.sometimes i wonder how to interpret my story as before.going to work.and always working under pressure.working doesn't feel like it is when you're in a team with cool & happening colleagues. lame.
 

hell yes there's a turbulence of changes in my life for the past few month. finding a place to feels comfortable was seriously the hardest thing. i'm that close to giving up. thank you to all of the beautiful souls that helped. praise to ALLAH now that everything fall slowly into places. my words, don't be afraid of making moves in your life cause along the way, god will let you meet with all those amazing, kind hearted people to ease your way.

once confirmed.being a permanent staff does not make me feels easy.there is always something.i would surely be having the time of my life changing professions i could ever imagine. f*** all the degree, certificates or experiences.that's basically what you got behind a big name.else,im an ordinary person.im nobody

goodnight..

1 and a half month

alhamdulillah.still maintain my job ;)

ive never thought that i will stay untill more than one month.but again.alhamdulillah.ALLAH have give me the spirit.give me the strength.to face this very new world.btw.thnks untuk kwan2 yg slalu bace.slalu komen kt blog ak ni.thnksss a lot

semalam dpt cek.alhmdulillah.1st time merasa gaji yg sebenar.last month half je.sbb masuk keje pon half month.alhamdulillah.kerja macamane?dah boleh adapt ke?dah ok ke?still kena marah lg ke?haha.soalan standard yg kwan2 aku slalu tanya.bile dh sebulan.aku rasa dh ok sket.dah boleh adapt.dah boleh faham sket ape keje yg aku kena faham.kena buat.but still in learning process.so still terhegeh2.bagi aku,bila keja dgn org cina.sume keje pon nak siap cepat.mau gagah gak aku nk setelkan.dgn keadaan aku yg byk benda tak tau.penah satu hari,draftman dh pandang2,jeling2 kat aku sebab aku tak bg2 lg design aku kat die.die hangen kot sebab nanti lambat die nak lukis.aku stress betol minggu tu.makan tak lalu.rase nak nanges je.bukan rase.mmg nanges dh.haha.trok btol aku nih.dorg offer durian yg sedap2 pon aku tak lalu.stress punya pasal.haha.then officemate,bos aku perasan kot.bos dtg kt meja aku,die ajar aku step by step design guna software,then die cakap yg design tu bukan nk submit that week pon.perghhh lega tak hengat weh.haha.syukur!!!baru ak boleh trsenyum.bru aku boleh ade selera makan balik.bos siap pesan lg..'Dont think too much Aida!!'hehe

kita baru keje kan?sure nak perform yang terbaek kn.tp bukan senang nak belaja semua benda dalam satu masa.satu yg aku respect bos aku ni.she is very professional..sebab ape?dalam office,die mmg bos aku.marah aku.scold aku.condemn aku n everything la.tp bila kat luar,dia treat ak mcm kawan die.ingt lagi last friday kena attend dinner company contractor.pagi tuh terok kot weh aku kena.tpi bile malam tu,mcm2 die bleh sembang dgn ak.mcm kawan la.boleh tepuk tampar la.haha.ak plak senyum sorg2.dlm hati aku 'memang dia ni professional' hilang tros stress aku kena marah pagi tdi.now,bila kena je.ak tak pkir sgt dh.ak think positive.semua tu adalah pelajaran yg harus aku pelajari.perghh ayat tak leh bla kan?haha

again.sape cakap keje tu senang?aku rase tak de ape pon dlm dunia ni yg senang.semua pon susah.as long as kite berusaha.sure ade hasil kan?yg penting usaha.bila dh keje ni,bru aku terasa yg pentingnya basic yg belajar masa kt university.even now semua dh ade software untuk design everything,but somehow,kena back to basic.back to manual calculation.back to theory balik.dari situ aku sgt appreciate dgn ape yg aku belajar dlu.memang aku tak igt semua.tapi ak try recall balik.sebab bila kita design building.kite kena selalu put in mind.bangunan ni stabil ke?sure tak runtuh ke if design mcm ni?then bila design pon kena pkir contractor jugak.senang ke dorg nak dirikan bangunan ni?kalau tak sure contractor sumpah seranah engineer nanti.n bile design pon,nak kena comply dgn ape yg arkitek nak.so all this things ak kena slalu keep in mind.baru boleh design building yg ok.yg tak runtuh.yg boleh buat aku bangga one day.insyaALLAH ;)

best thing yang keje dgn small company.kadang2 terasa dorg mcm family.even dorg semua cina.dorg care jugak psl aku.sikit sebanyak ak bleh faham dorg mcm mane.dulu aku takut mse dtg intrview sbb company ni sume cina.but now.ak takde prasaan takut tu dh.mse p dinner haritu,duduk semeja dgn engineer from gamuda.ak bajet dorg plek tgk staf cmpny aku semua cina n ak sorg malay?ak bleh sembang gelak besar ngn dak cmpny ak yg cina semua.smpaikan engineer sebelah ak from gamuda tu tnya..'r u d only malay in HST?'haha.aku senyum je.malas nk jawab ape2.tkt lg byk die tny nti.bg aku,tak kisah la mane2.jnji ko boleh sesuaikan diri.ak sndiri pon tak boleh adpt 100% lg.tapi ak still mncube.n aku rase lame2 ak pandai ckp bahasa hokkien kot?hahaha

bila naik satu keta ngn bos,nk p meeting.on d way tu.if nmpk ape2 bgunan or infrastructure yg menarik.yg berkaitan dgn civil engineering.sure die akan explain kt aku.bg ak mmg menarik la.atleast i learn something new.kan?bila die ajak ak p meeting luar,pon ak suke.atleast ak bleh nmpak situasi mcmne time meeting.best kot?but bos slalu pesan,one day ak akan attend meeting sndri.tu yg buat ak cuak byk tu!big boss jrng ade kt ofis.tp bile die ade,die akn cube ajr ak ape2 yg perlu.itu bezanya big boss n boss aku.but both pon ok ;) both pon byk ajar aku ;) aku slalu jdikan dorg 2org sbg idola ak.ak suke tgk cara dorg.ak suke tgk kecekapan dorg design.hndle evrything.n seriously i adore them.

current project?mmg byk.just ak takleh la wat byk2 kn.ak fokus kt satu site kt penang science park.satu design.hehe.sronok pegi site sbb bleh relax sket...now design taman tema air.kat teluk bahang.hehe.tak lama lagi akan ade Ecopark kt Teluk Bahang.nice kan?aku design part senang2 je.pon hegeh2 lg.aku tak tau brape lame akan stay kt company ni.but i wish to stay longer bcoz i can learn many thing.i wish?insyaALLAH.everything depends on ALLAH.we never know what might happen tomorrow.but until now,i feel so grateful ;)

next week i will have housemate.officemate.alhamdulillah.at last no more living alone.and not to forget congratssss to all my good frens yg sambung master.master pon bukan senang kan?do all your best.n salam ramadhan buat semua.

p/s:patut smalam nk blik rumah.tp pg ni kena pegi site.what to do kn?have to go la.hehe.after blik dri site tros blik mnjung kot.pray for my journey.bye...assalamualaikum

bila dah kerja

bila dah kerja..

mesti rasa nak tolong family.nak tolong adik beradik.kalau boleh tu,biar adik2 mintak ape2 kat aku je.tak payah mntak kt parents dh.kalau balik rumah weekend.pegi pasar ke.beli brg dapur ke.brg rumah ke.mesti rasa nak hulur duit je.mak abah tak payah la keluar duit.biar aku je.bile ade duit lebih,mesti nak blanje family makan ke.bila raya mesti nak keluar duit untuk baju raya.mesti sume pon aku rase nak hulur duit sebab taknak mak abah rasa susah dh.korg penah rasa mcmtu?sebolehnya,kita rasa nak tanggung family.tapi kita tak mampu.tapi ape yang mampu,yang boleh.memang aku tolong.bagus jugak dh bekerjaya ni.rasa lebih tanggungjawab esp kat family.even gaji ciput pon,yg penting ada bahagian untuk family.baru hati rasa senang.tak gitu?hehe

semoga pertolongan yang sedikit itu sentiasa membawa keberkatan.insyaALLAH ;)

independent life

serius tak percaya mampu bertahan lebih dari seminggu kerja ni.sebab kawan aku,lelaki masuk kerja sama hari dengan aku,quit on d 2nd day.minggu pertama.hari2 aku rasa nak berhenti.now da minggu kedua.so far.alhamdulillah.getting used with all the harsh word.all the rubbish word.oh.bukan 2minggu.tapi dah almost 3weeks kerja kat sini since aku masuk kerja tengah bulan.alhamdulillah.gaji pertama dah dapat tadi.separuh je sebab tengah bulan.dh tolak semua.bersih pon cukup2.ok la.dpt duit claim minyak.kire alhamdulillah.syukur.pertama kali merasa gaji sebagai seorang engineer?engineer ke?haha.kuli je pon.

kali ni memang betul2 aku rasa hidup berdikari.since aku sewa rumah sorang2.tempat kerja yg semua cina.ada sorg je malay.lelaki.n bukan engineer.nak carik kedai makan melayu pon takde.kirenye,mmg ak btol2 survive.sorg2 kat cni.for the 1st week,serius aku hilang selera makan.lapar.tapi tak lalu.n aku xbiasa dengan makanan mamak.tpi kerja sini,terpaksa jugak makan mamak.sebab itu je yang ada.rehat tgahri tak lama.so aku malas pegi jauh2.nanti tak sempat solat.jammed lg.so aku layan jela mamak.sorg2 ;) kat ofis semua cakap cina,aku tak paham.so ak senyap jela.tapi diorang semua baik.diorang ckp melayu n english kdg2.so aku rse hepy jugak bila pergi kerja. balik kerja part aku paling sedih.sebab balik rumah,kosong je.apepon takde.sape pon takde.memang tacing habes.tapi itu dlu.masa 1st week kerja.now,aku dh ok.ak dh biasa dgn hidup sorg2.kalau dlu,pegi mane pon ade kawan.kat rumah ada family.but now,im independent.im ok ;)

aku pernah terfikir.kalau aku diberi peluang untuk buat pilihan.aku tak kan pilih civil engineering.haha.sampai macam tu sekali aku rase susahnya jadi civil engineer kan?aku rase zero knowledge once aku enter working life nih.macam aku taktau ape2.bayangkan,dulu kt usm design rumah,simple je.design in group.sorang amek part beam,sorg part column,sorg slab,sorg foundation.but now,sume part tu,ak kena design sorg.1st day masuk keje,ak diberi task design rumah banglo.aku igtkan bos mmg saje nak test aku.rupanya memang kena design sbb rumah banglo tu one of d project diorang yang tgh running skrg.cuak?sangat weh.segala jenis buku2 structure aku,aku bukak balik.but still ak tak boleh nk buat sampai habes.sbb dulu yg ak belajar,design simple,sume petak2.tapi sekarang,mcm2 bentuk.susah?rasa nak nanges pon ada.seminggu ak design,pon tak settle,p tunjuk kat bos,rupe2 salah.keyplan tak de.start all over again.projek ni tak siap.bos dah bagi projek lain.taman tema air.die bagi aku pilihan.die suruh ak choose ak nak design part mane.kire die bagi peluang aku nk pilih yang senang.tapi once aku bukak folder building plan.ak klik each folder.ak tak nampak yang mane paling senang.aku nampak semua susah.aku give up.ak masuk bilik bos,then ak suruh bos pilihkan.so aku dapat part yang ak kena design.yang dulu tak siap.dh dapat yang baru.and the latest one?

big boss assign aku pegi site.kena buat inspection before diorang pour concrete.n ini projek lain.ini projek kilang.dekat penang scince park.before this,aku lalu je tepi penang scince park ni.tapi skrg,hari2 aku kena pegi kt situ ;) aku tataw la ini mg stail company cina or mmg stail cmpny ni.sbb ak bru masuk bape hari,dorg dh bg ak buat mcm2.slalu kalo kite baru2 masuk keja,cmpny xbg wat keje pape lg.tp ak,mcm2 dh kena buat.sebak gk.haha T_T

pegi site untuk 1st day,big bos ajar how to inspect.check evrythng.plg best?sebab baru terasa seperti engineer.haha.bos kenalkan ak as engineer diorang.evrytme ak p site,nk check formwork n reinforcemnt,dorg prepare platform or tangga b4 ak turun cek.n if ak komplen ape2,dorg akn ikut.kalau tak ikut,aku tak sign,then diorang tak boleh pour concrete.sape yang rugi?bukan company aku.hehe.so pendek kata,ape yg kite instruct kt site tu,dorang mmg ikut.sbb dorg takut aku tak sign ;) n fyi,dekat site,ak sorang je perempuan.mula2 takut.tapi dh biasa,diorang respect jugak la.everytime toke2 cina dtg a.k.a contractor,diorang akan hulur tgn salam (in professional) aku n tanya 'r u engineer from HST?' n tanya nama aku.terasa feeling sbg seorang engineer.hehe.ilmu aku zero.tapi bos bg pluang pegi site,sedikit sebanyak ak nampak in real apa yang ak try nk design selama ni.mmg lain!thanks boss.yang tak best p site?sebab panas gilos.sumpah dh hitam.haha.n lg satu yg menariknya.if ak pegi site pkul 11,lunch ak tak payah bayar.sume under contractor.sebab dorg kena entertain aku as representative engineer from consultant ;) hehe.

tipu la kalau ckap keje ni best kan?byk jugak part yg tak best.esp kena marah.kena marah kaw2.itu mmg tak leh tipu la.haha.sedih?memang.tambah2 bila ofis tgh senyap.tibe2 aku sorang kena marah.kan?mau tak segan?haha.take it as experience jela.dont take it to heart.sape ckp senang nak jadi engineer?baru 2mggu lebih weh.sebulan pon belom tentu bertahan kan?tapi sebab aku nak carik pengalaman.bukan senang kan.so aku kena hadapi semua benda tu.kena marah tetap kena.tpi serius,jgn fikir sgt.kalau tak,mesti tak boleh bertahan lama kat company tu.kita kena belajar dari semua orang.jgn ingat kita engineer,kita besar kepala.kena hormat orang lain bawah kita.sebab diorang lagi banyak pengalaman even diorang xda degree.bukan senang nk berdiri atas kaki sendiri tanpa bantuan orang lain.aku masih kekal kt sini sebab support dari family aku.mak abah ak tak henti2 bg smngat kat aku.kawan2 aku.esp teh.imah.eyu.and you ;) 

the best thing is?everyday i learn a new things.n im not doing the same thing for everyday.its good.n i feel good.even im getting scolded.

banyak sangat lagi yang nak belajar.aku tak sambung master.sebab mmg aku nak kerja crik pengalaman.plus,aku nak tolong family ;) tak bermakna aku tak nak sambung.tapi biarla ak crik pengalaman,so once aku dh jadi lecturer nanti,aku blh share dgn student aku.semua perancangan je.ALLAH tentukan. doakan aku kawan2.semoga aku terus tabah dan kuat menghadapi hari2 seterusnya.insyaALLAH

maaf.entry sangat panjang.thnks sebab baca ;)

bye

1st day

in the end, we are the engineers.no matter what.we are the engineers.not them.so,dont let people control you!you have to know how to control people before you control them!--my boss, Ir Lim--

so scary start the first job.so many things i forgot already.yet have to design it back.n so many many many things i have to learn.pray that i can bear all this challenge.pray that i will never quit.pray that everything will be ok.insyaALLAH

so many things to story ;)

im unofficially grduated from usm.insyaALLAH..just come back from kl.finish the last stage of interview.i dont know.seems that i dont get the job.but atleast im trying.now still not in the mood for seeking the job..let the wedding finish first..so many things to do.so many things to help.after that, i can concentrate to find job.insyaALLAH ;)

thankss a lot to teh nana and family.for letting me stay at your home..i just miss that little cute girl..fatini ;)hope to c u again.teh nana thanks a lot for ur present.thanks a lot for all your kindness.and mak ak dh byk kali dok sebut2 name ko weh!!!haha

kari corner

two thousand eleven was awesome. it had a great ending here.i never thought it will come faster than i think.seems like i have been register yesterday. but the days come and go and it's now April. few days to finish study and few months to graduation. as the time flies, i never expect it will comes to an end. i must say this but when may 6th approached, i was not ready for leaving this place.i was not ready to leave them.the people who have been so sweet to me. i figured this is basically just a point where people make new definition of life, towards better of course and that's it. when people start to enter working life. that's more independent i believe. when study finish, i'll be out of my comfort zone and that's when reality will start to kick in.

seriously at the moment i'm in no hurry for a job. i don't want to wake up early and go to work, get the job done, go home for some sleep and wake up again for a same circle of life. having to wake up early is not the issue. i've been asking myself where i can actually go and buy a bulk of memories. so they will stay forever as some of them are now slowly fading. .im not ready to leave this place.here. i just not ready to leave them.the peoples that i treasure the most.i hope this bond will never end.till the day we meet again..as the time goes by.i will keep on writing about them.just to ensure.they will always.and always.remain in my memory.remain deep in my heart.insyaALLAH..

those words.i specially dedicate.sincerely from the bottom of my heart.towards people who have been nice to me.for the whole 4 years.as if we never meet again.i want to say sorry.as much as i want to say thank you..to all my 14 siblings.u know who u are..

p/s:thanks so much pak lah for treating us tonight.

mucha gracious

akmal a.k.a adik gigi

1.07 am-30apr2011