Mercy 请高台贵手.

Deja vu

又是一样的场景, 一样的尴尬. 还是一样 2 x 27.5kg . 只是我这次意志力坚定的多, 三回十举. 完成后, 我慢慢坐起来, 慢慢抬头看看镜子里的自己, 我小心翼翼地摸摸胸口.

心在滴血...

果然被杀个措手不及...

长痛不如拔牙痛

不知道是不是都做了决定， 还是不知所措， 那闪躲的眼神令人尴尬。2 x 27.5kg 哑铃 bench press， 是目前的极限，急需专注力来完成， 可是我脑海里还是刚才的画面。 我看着镜子里的自己， 不断向自己喊话，一定办得到， 深吸了一口气，身体向后躺，双手紧握着哑铃，一举而上， 倒是一气呵成。 然而第二举时，那复杂的情绪又来袭，手已经开始抖，双眼紧闭，牙一咬， 第二举总算完成了。 乘胜追击， 第三举，第四， 第五， >碰< 哑铃掉了下来。 今天是没办法再举重了。

在蒸汽间里，思绪开始混乱

。。。

一边蒸汽, 我一边整理, 慢慢地, 情绪平复了, 思绪也比较没之前乱. 刚才像是中毒, 而理智像解药. 很快, 可以感觉到毒素慢慢散去. 可是我觉得那毒散得太快了, 我应该让自己被毒得久一点再服解药. 散得那么快, 我开始担心, 会不会像病毒一样变种了, 之前的毒不见了, 但是它切还是隐伏在我体内, 伺机杀我一个措手不及.

或许真的散了, 没事了.
让它更彻底的消失, 我决定去拔牙, 还有什么痛比拔牙更恐怖. 一想到那张拔牙椅和那盏手术等, 全身就发麻, 不可能再去想别的.

你这是何苦呢...

理智已经帮你整理出真相, 只要再踏前一步, 放下, 走出去, 就会没事了. 你是出了名冷静不是吗?
乖, 别再闹了好吗? 抱抱.

Why You Still Single?

I have a little fight in meeting with my boss. He kept saying that our report was always not 100% accurate and we need to improve on that. I was frustrated and told him straight, our report is dependent on the source given by design team. They fail to come out with a complete design then how could I complete my report in 100% accuracy? The core of the problem is them, and you know that, why still calling this meeting asking us the eat this dead cat on behalf? bla bla bla...

I said I don wanna out for lunch with them cos sister already make me food in the lunch box. He insisted I join. In the car,on our way to restaurant, he suddenly ask me, why are you still single? I thought "not again..."
"what's wrong being single"
"don't you want to get a companion, at your age you should"
"Nah, I am happy being what I am now, single is cool, marriage is trouble"
"dont you feel lonely staying alone in your big new condo..."
"no, not so much, I got my own circle of frens with similar philosophy of being single. By the way, m condo is a small space."
" Listen to me, man should get married, get a wife. Are yo afraid of responsibility or you just like one night stand which you don't bear any responsibility?
" Haha... it is not about responsibility, I simply choose to be single, just another way of life apart from married. I know I lose the opportunity to experience happiness being a husband, being a father, but on the contrary, I do live a life much more my own way and less hassle than a married man. Are you married man really happy about your life?"
" Yes, you feel secured, settled down, you will have children, and when you are old, your children take care of you, you dead, at least you know someone will serve you a chicken every year, haha"
" Oh ic, children. well, this sound good, but I hate kids, wahahah "
In fact I like children, But I cant go on and on with him, explaining too much, so I just cut it short. Nevertheless, the topic keep on and on and on until we finish our meal...

生命没有如果

知道李永业是因为不经意读了他写的两折报章上的散文后. 喜欢他对生命的热诚,困惑和见解. 今天乘午饭时间小看了看这一本他写的新书 [生命没有如果]. 原他是医生, 序页是这么介绍他的, 一个爱哭的医生. 他曾经在医院和一位企图自杀的妇女抱头痛哭. 知道病人穷所以不收费,连护士都看不过眼... 只是序幕, 只是简介,我就很感动. 我曾经在妈妈住院时跟主治医生杠上, 气得冲上楼 到 PR 投诉他. 毕竟是私人医院, 我跟弟弟在食堂气呼呼的吃着午饭时, 两位 PR 层很客气的道歉后, 正式地向我录取口供. 可是后来我还是决定 Off Record , 因为毕竟他是主治医生, 妈妈还得靠他. 像李永业那么用心用情的医生, 真的很感动.
他虽然回国三年了, 可是驾车时,还会时常在 KL 迷路, 这不是跟我一样吗? 我回国也快三年了, 星期天因为GPS坏了所以又在KL迷路了, 迟了大半小时才到我去了N次的酒吧, 哈哈哈...
才看了几页, 我就喜欢上了他的文字, 虽然没看完, 但是可以肯定是好书一本 :)

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